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2004 10 April :: 11.34pm
lol tonight was fun even tho i wish it lasted longer....
lol it was another one of Briana's bursts of spontinaity to go bowling tonight. lol yes we are losers but o well. We danced to the music and played a very shitty game and JB brought sum uhh...fun?? lol it was danielle, briana, jb, me and sum people from their neighborhood who were all pretty cool. Bri brought the digicam, she's really taking her new perspective on life seriously kudos for that.
tlkin to amanda...i miss her i should call her more often...
oh omg rite in the lane nxt to us was allen...idk if u know who he is but hes sooooo fucking hot he has to be lyk the hottest guy in the damn school...lol i told heather about it...
MisScarlet219 (11:54:53 PM): he was in the lane nxt to us when we went bowling 2nite
iluvBITP (11:55:00 PM): what kinda car?
MisScarlet219 (11:55:06 PM): no the bowling lane
...lol its ok heather
Evan says he still doesn't know what the other night meant...idk what to think of that I'm going to let him figure it out since I was the one who fucked up the trust before I really have no right to be offended if he doesn't want to be with me i guess...
ok gettin bitched at must sign off
again...happy fuckin easter lol
~Jess~
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2004 10 April :: 7.14pm
:: Music: Darkness-Love is Only a Feeling
I lyk this song...
The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand
'Cos you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all
Love is only a feeling
(Drifting away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway
The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I...
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Yeah so today was...blah we cleaned all morning, before my grandparents came over my mom woke me up early. I was so tired from spending yet another night up late talking with ppl while on a major sugar high. This made me quite irritable.
I hate my mom and I being on the same pms schedule...my grandparents got a lil caught in our crossfire throughout the day I tried to spend most of it hibernating in my room away from the people...catching up on sleep.
umm went out to dinner...chinese food why is it that in nail salons and chinese food resturants the asian people always seem to be gossiping about you. Makes me uncomfortable...maybe i'll take korean and chinese in college just for this purpose.
we went to publix after....i hate it there.....the bag boy broke the mayonase jar...sum creepy guy in the checkout line (had to be lyk 28-30) was leering at me I wanted to get out.
rented cheaper by the dozen...guess were watching it later. My mom got offended that I wouldnt go to the mall with her when we got home. I think we have had enough of each other for the day I needed some more alone time...sorry mom.
I love mom language around my grandparents...when I was came out dressed for dinner this is what she said "What are you all dressed up for?" translated that really means "why are your tits so exposed in that shirt?"...it amuses me to upset her sometimes.
lol conversations with danielle go to odd places let me just say that...we are the wicker ninjas...just take me to mexico to see my jose and it'll all be alright.
talkin to my little sister Jenn (eagle ette lil sis that is) lol idk why i'm so mean to her. I also should probably listen to her lol
Playbb13 (7:49:15 PM): jess!
Playbb13 (7:49:22 PM): didnt we have a talk about those ex-ROTC boys!
ehh...what can I say they are my vice
I'm going now happy fuckin easter everyone.
~Jess~
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2004 10 April :: 6.48pm
200 cents are on their way to cedar springs
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2004 10 April :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: ben folds - annie waits
yeah i definitely believe that a dream is a wish your heart makes.
weekend is turning out to be not so crappy. thank goodness i got better. Went to Palm Beach yesterday and beached a little and then hung out at this house with my 2nd cousins. Then went to the movies last night with Tina and saw "The Girl Next Door." I like that movie. Today I might go to the beach again and then doing something with Briana tonight. Grandma's house tomorrow.
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2004 9 April :: 11.13pm
I'm bored...
today had eagle ette practice from 8-10 am then had to learn my duet with Brittney from 10-12 ...yeah I have to have it down by next week's tech rehersal on wednesday...lovely last minute choreography as if I don't have enough stress....ugh this was all on 3 hr sleep too did I mention? oh yeah and did I also mention the fact that we had NO AIR CONDITIONING!!
lol it was worth it though I was up late talking to some of my favorite people in the world Jimmy Danielle and Evan what more does a girl need from midnight to 2am?
THENNN...I took a much needed shower cleaned the goddamn house for all the goddamn people comming over on sunday.
Didn't go to the beach with jimmy...sounds like they never even made it there so no big loss.
didn't go to briana neil and jb's lil "get together" where ever that ended up taking place...wasn't in the partying mood really. And I woulda felt too weird goin to Alex's house.
ummmm got my eagle ette schedual for teh next 2 months its insane!! I'm going to die btw that and school AP exams finals.....arghghhgsdlgkjs
I'll prbly have to do captain auditions we find out who got nominated nxt week. If so I have to choreograph a dance which is hard to do under pressure.
I dont want a house full of jews on easter...I like Easter I like my chocolate bunnies and my peeps and my jelly beans i just want some fucking jelly beans and a big ham fuck passover and jewish traditions. Messin up my easter...psh Jimmy is going to come dressed as Hitler on a skate board and park every1's cars and danielle is going to come dressed as the easter bunny and serve my ham and other non kosher things...
Amanda is Big Mama and I am Roxy...don't fuck with my Pimpess...she's gunna bring me a chocolate bunny so I shut up : )
I like making heather laugh...
Jessica can slice dice and knit your sweaters all in one easy motion....don't ask buy the Jessica today
oh yes for those of u who have friends taking dance and wanna see them the dance show is friday and saturday next week I think 7:00?? not sure tickets are $10 you can just ask NE1 in teh dance dept. to get em for u but I think they sell @ the door too. w/e just fyi
lalalalala boreddd john thinks i'm high...midnight really is a high...I love midnight mmm danielle heather and john...more of my favoritist people must go converse...
~c'mon get happyyy!~
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2004 9 April :: 8.55pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: the world at large: modest mouseee
good news for people who love bad news
why the need to be so mean to each other?
grow up please
they didnt do anything to you, so leave them alone.
this is obviously a feat to gain attention. if not, whatever. its still mean.
yes that is all.
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2004 9 April :: 7.31pm
:: Music: modest mouse <333
just a thought..
im sure you all have heard about the clockmaker debate.. ya know.. whether god just made us and watches what happens, or if he intervenes in our lives.
i most definitely believe that he intervenes.
cause for some reason.. he's having a grand old time teasing me. with things that i will never obtain.
-me
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2004 9 April :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: hot hot heat
sorry.. i have been neglecting my woohu a lot lately. i guess no one should care but me.. but whatever.
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2004 9 April :: 12.22pm
:: Mood: up
:: Music: confessions-usher
do i really wanna keep woohu??..
hmm..still thinkin bout it...lol..so wussup guys???..three day weekend!!! HOLLA!! hopefully i can do sumthin..it sucks bcuz im grounded..i hafta get un-grounded fast!!! i hate sittin at home wid nutten to do..well tha rest of tha year is gonna be madd busy for me..these last couple of weeks are packed wid a whole bunch of cheer stuff..itz koo tho..im excited bout it..we're doin alotta fundraisers..so help out ur ATL cheerleaders!!!!!!!! lol..sameen cracks me up: "why tha hell aren't tha cookies already baked??"..haha.."their versatile!"..dat wuz funny..so how wuz yesterday??..lets see..first hour: amara went delirious on me and kept pokin tha back of my head until mr. morone wuz like "STOP PICKIN ON HER!!"..lol..he def. scared me there..oh and wid dat weird ass poem he read to us..crystal had us crackin up wid tha faces she wuz makin..second hour: sameen tried teachin us wha we're learnin..yea im still confused..lol..and mary ellen beat me to all tha cookie dough customers..lol..fourth hour: BORING..i didnt finsih my test...lunch: talked to my bryan pretty much tha whole time..:D..and carlos butt bounced me half way across tha cafeteria..but me and amy got him back..lmao..sixth hour: me sam n carlos talked bout all tha old school nick shows and tha cartoons we used to like back in tha day..(ninja turtles, x-men, captain planet, all that, pete and pete, hey dude, are u afraid of the dark, clarissa explains it all, adventures of alex mack, and our all time favorite: KENAN AND KEL)..lmao..wow dat wuz a great convo.."who lovvvesss orrange sodaa?? kel lovvvesss orrange sodaa!!! i do i do i do o0o0o0o0o.."
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2004 9 April :: 9.12am
:: Mood: weak-hearted
:: Music: kelly clarkson - "i surrender"
help me not to surrender
=*( i can't... i'm just so....
i can't find the little mermaid to cheer me up. is it a sign?
when i decide that it's done, when i decide i'm finally done with all this unnecessary nonsense and feelings, i go to bed and my heart decides to dream that it's not over. i just had the most movie-like dream. and it almost hurt feeling in love again. it felt so real. and in this dream, i was so passionately willing to fall back. and it's just not right. i don't understand. if a dream is a wish your heart makes, does that mean my heart still loves? does it mean its just trying to suppress it all? i don't know. i am so confused. and i don't understand what i'm saying or why i'm saying it. i just wish things were simple. and i wish i wasn't so confused with myself and with other people.
this is exactly how i acted in the dream:
*there's so much life i've left to live,
and this fire's burning still.
what would happen if they ever knew
i'm in love with you?
cuz i'd surrender everything,
to feel the chance to live again.
i reach to you. i know you can feel it too.
i surrender. every night getting longer
and this fire's getting stronger
i'll swallow my pride and i'll be alive.
did you hear my call? i surrender all.
i reach to you, i know you can feel it too
i surrender.*
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2004 8 April :: 11.27pm
:: Music: 3 doors down-Away from the sun
candy bars and fast food are no way to be on a diet...I have the self control of a dog in heat
speaking of dogs in heat lol...
Can I just say that I love so many things...I love movies, I even love shitty movies, I love boys omg do I love boys, and I love how their arms feel around your waist and I love kissing...they should make it an official hobby
Nothing feels more right and safe than being held and kissed and happy you have no idea.
right so...went to see Starsky and Hutch with Evan the movie was ok I guess I wasn't really paying attention. ; )
We chilled outside until my dad came...which is retarded cuz he coulda just taken me home but w/e Jimmy called while we were sitting there I shouldnt have answered I forgot that Jimmy is a sore subject with Evan.
Got McDonalds on the way home after trying pollo tropical and the mcdonalds drive thru we had to go inside cuz ppl are very slow at 10:30 @ nite...lol sat eating a quarter pounder and a bigass cafinated coke @ 11 when I have to get up @ 7 2morrow...called Jimmy back all wired had a nice long conversation with him until he got too tired to take it....why can't anybody stay up when I need them? lol
I have practice at 8 2morrow morning and i'm so awake and my bed has clothes all over it so thers no sleeping until I get motivated to clean it. I still havn't taken my makeup off im so AWAKE!!! aresjkdfnaenfjk
tomorrow's gunna be a happy day just cause I have tonights memories to get me thru the shittiness...idk evan will most likely do something to confuse me as to where we stand lyk...2morrow or sometime soon just cuz that's what we do...but I can be happy for now.
*sigh* @ least danielle is up I need human contact right now...I COULD wake up John but he'd probably cry in the morning.
trips down memory lane are fun...
midnight can be a high in itself...
I love everyone
~Jess~
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2004 9 April :: 12.16am
:: Mood: awake
i love conversations with jessica.
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2004 8 April :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: aaliyah - "the one i gave my heart to?"
how could the one who said "i love you" say the things you say?
how could you not love me anymore?
how could the love that brought such pleasure, bring such misery?
i am done. after that fit of depression, i had never been so close to swallowing water. but instead i just had to swallow the tears. and hopefully i stick to this. and hopefully i'll become immune to it all.
concert.needed.talk.hugs.needed.
warmth.
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2004 8 April :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: watching mr.deeds
So today I stayed home again but this time I was actually sick. This long weekend is starting to look sucky. Well have a nice weekend all.
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2004 7 April :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: regretful
:: Music: deathcab - "transatlanticism"
i told myself not to cry today. got that tingling feeling so many times, not even funny but not a single tear came out.
here is my first .
all i can do is inundate myself back into work. and maybe i wont feel it as much.
and the second .
and the third .
i need you so much closer.
so cold. now i cant stop sneezing, sniffling.
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