Until The Day I Die

Until The Day I Die

:: 2005 16 March :: 7.33pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: HIM - The Sacrament

I feel you breathe so far from me.. I feel your touch so close and real.
I hear you weep so far from me
I taste your tears like you're next to me
And I know
My weak prayers are not enough to heal
Oh the ancient wounds so deep and so dear
The revelation is of hatred and fear..

Oh, that song is.. indescribably brilliant.

I just finished watching the best movie of all time, yeah you should know. And if you don't I'll kick you in the shin. I'm serious.

Hopefully I'm hanging out with Carl and Toby tomorrow. Just.. we haven't talked about where we want to go yet. :/ so uh, yeah.
Anyway, I am off to call Carl and Toby to get things sorted out.

..You know our sacred dream won't fail
The sanctuary tender and so frail
The sacrament of love
The sacrament of warmth is true
The sacrament is you.

chromegoblin

:: 2005 14 March :: 10.47pm

I'm not really dead but my computer was which is why I haven't been heard of for almost exactly a month. So I unintentionally ended up going back on my word that I'd be around more frequently. It took me this long to fix the machine because I haven't any money to send it to a repair shop and had to wait for someone to do it for free and that kinda happened this weekend when my Chinese friend decided he wanted to try and fix it.

I hate my school... They blocked all the web journal sites from all the school computers so you can't access anything and god forbid they catch you in your e-mail account... Its like a recipe for instant death.

Emerson is suspending and kicking people out for the shittiest reasons but that's only because our new student relations 'dean' thinks he's god. In fact I think I'm on his hit list because I cut class in order to eat (I went about a week and a half without eating in my household because I refused anything my mom gave me) and I'm late frequently.

I FINALLY got a new keyboard! But I can't see what I'm typing too well 'cause my contact came off.

Now that my computer is all better (I don't know how the hell Tao did it but he fixed it) I WILL be online at least a couple of times a week starting tomorrow (not today because I feel like shit due to an infection spreading from my left cheek down to my throat) and hopefully *crosses fingers* an absense like this won't happen again.

Fade Into Memory

chromegoblin

:: 2005 14 March :: 10.47pm

Fade Into Memory

fearthainn

:: 2005 11 March :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Godsmack - Awake

'Guess it's time to update.

Well, today.. was just one of those days. You know, where you've got a headache and everyone says the wrong things and it just pisses you off.. The only good thing about today is the fact that it is a friday, and I don't have to wake early in the morning. *sigh of relief* I haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately so it'll be nice.
Carl was gone today.. I missed you, Carl! And I am sorry that things aren't going to work out this weekend.. I thought we were going to be getting together today, and I have a concert that I am going to on saturday so that won't work either. :(
I will most likely not be updating this weekend, for I will be at Alicia's house on saturday.
That is all.

fearthainn

:: 2005 7 March :: 6.01pm
:: Music: HIM - Borellus

So, I am trying to decide which art course I should take at Kendall, and I need some opinions from whoever is willing. The three I have narrowed it down to are..
1) Digital Drawing & Painting
2) Introduction to Photography
or
3) Painting with Oils

Comment with your input.

fearthainn

:: 2005 5 March :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: Rammstein - Spieluhr

Well, Carl, Toby, and my plans did not work out.. although we're planning on next weekend, so I can't complain.
Today I didn't do much, just finished up a painting.. and went out for coffee. And I think I may be going to Best Buy later.. I like that store. Buuut that is pretty much all that is going today.. but, if anyone would like to give me a call it sure would bring a smile to my face. :)

Bis Später!

fearthainn

:: 2005 3 March :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Nemesis - Cradle of Filth

Just updating out of boredom.

Went to conferences today, I guess I can say I'm doing alright.
I hope this weekend works out.. uh, I think either tomarrow or saturday I'm hanging out with Carl and Toby. :) we still haven't decided whether bowling or a movie sounds better.. both of them said that it was up to me now.. gah, I am so indecisive.

I'm off.

fearthainn

:: 2005 1 March :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Finnegans Wake - Dropkick Murphys

Snowdays are always good.

I'm in an alright mood, I suppose. *shrug*
Nothing to do.. Nobody wants to do anything and/or they've got plans.
Oh well.
Carl, I say we hang out this weekend or something.. it's been awhile. You, Toby and I.. and I've still to meet this Ryan guy you're fond of. If you would like to, leave a comment and such. :)

fearthainn

:: 2005 27 February :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: Right side of the bed - Atreyu

I had an enjoyable weekend.
I don't feel like explaining every little detail, so I will give you a brief summary.

- Friday night Alicia arrived.
- Saturday, we went over to DJ's.. went out for pizza, and watched a movie.
- Today, dropped Alicia off, went to the store and now I am sitting here.

But for now I am off to lay around, I have a headache again.

fearthainn

:: 2005 23 February :: 7.31pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: In Flames - The quiet place

Well, I am going to tell to you a conversation that Carl and I had after school today.
-So, we are talking about how she has to take her driving permit test. So, we get to her locker and she pulls out her book for 'Driving Right' (I think that is what it was called) and she got the brilliant idea of making a book called 'How to drive bad' and well, I am going to be in all of the pictures. For example, one of them is going to be of me driving and holding my hands in the air with one of those huge smiles, hah. Another would be of me.. on my knees crying, with my car on fire in the background, and not noticing that my back is also in flames.. And that's when Firefighter Toby comes in.. yes she will rescue me, I have no doubt in Firefighter Toby. Ohh I can so see that book on the shelves, can't you?

Well, I have to go finish up a drawing, and if you disturb me.. I'll eat you.

fearthainn

:: 2005 21 February :: 7.59pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: System of a Down - Suggestions

I am not feeling well right now.
I don't know what has come over me, but I am sure wishing that someone was here and making me some soup. please.. anyone?.. anyone? *sigh*

fearthainn

:: 2005 19 February :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Rammstein - Ich will

Well, I just got back from an enjoyable night of bowling! *sigh* Not.. really, but I got some money out of it... 'cause some guy told me he would pay me a dollar for every pin I knocked down, and then somehow I ended up with $13... *shrugs* I would have much rather stayed at Carl's with Toby, Jayk, and Pop-Tart.. But our plans got ruined, ah, maybe next weekend? Oh, and I am the best at Mario Kart! even ask Carl, Pop-tart, Toby, or Jayk.. I beat 'em every time. Yeah.. one day I'll get a trophy for playing Mario Kart, even the little plaque with my name engraved onto it. I lied, I actually am extremely terrible at playing it, but hey, I can imagine can't I?
Well, that's all for tonight.
Oh and Carl, the picture you colored for me is now hanging on my wall. :)

fearthainn

:: 2005 16 February :: 5.46pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Ghost love score - Nightwish

Yesterday I had a very enjoyable time at Carl's with Toby. :)
We had a conversation about Carl's 3 foot clock on her wall, and decided that Carl is going to sell clocks, and call them 'Clocks by Carl' and as for Toby, she is going to sell toilets.. and call them 'Toilets by Toby' and me? well, Carl came up with the idea that I will become a black market thief and steal clocks and toilets, so that they can just put their company names on them. heh. I thought it was brilliant! Oh, and Carl colored Toby and I pictures.. they are awesome, but.. I forgot it at her house.. so I'll have to get it on saturday when I go over there to watch movies and such.

~

There isn't much I can say to make the pain go away, although I wish there was something I could do. I'll try my best to help in any way that I can. If there is anything that you need Carl, I am always here for you.
I didn't know him very well yet I could tell how true of friend he was, and I wish I could have expirienced the happiness that he brought to the people who knew and love him. I've heard so much, and from what I can see anybody who had the chance to just speak with him was, and will be infinitely fortunate. You shall forever rest in peace, Adam.

Chromegoblin

:: 2005 13 February :: 8.03pm

Went to the Pizza Hut by Cliffton, NJ today... Ate alot and got hit on by the waiter boy there. It wasn't so bad since I got bread sticks, a salad, and a pizza with everything on it for free. Yup. Free.

Rilly (the waiter who's name and number I found out from a piece of paper he slipped me while I was coming out of the restroom) asked my dad if he would let me go out with him. It was excellent that my dad said something akin to no because that meant I didn't have to. It was the weirdest thing that has ever happened to me and because of that I guess I will give him a call not that I'm at all interested but he was the only guy who's ever been that straight forward to my dad and for that alone he deserves props but I'd never go on a date with him or anyone else 'cept Sye (I love you Sye *hugs*).

Winter break started on Friday but I still had to go to school yesterday from 9 til 12 pm for H.S.P.A. math review. The H.S.P.A. is New Jersey's high school profficiency assesment that basically tests to see if we actually know anything and are ready for college and from what I hear its going to be cake. What sucks though is that I have to go to school from Tuesday to Thrusday from 9 to noon to review what may be on the stupid math portion and if I don't go I may face automatic suspension (Not to mention they're starting operation 'clean sweep' whatever the fuck that may be but from the sounds of it it won't be pretty).

Blah. Oh well I guess I can take that oppurtuity to stop by the Argentinian bakery and ask Stefan (my friend who's mom owns the place) for free pasteries. mmmmmm pasteries! ^__^

I got to hang out with my baby cousin Loren today which was awesome because I love kids (all except my little cousin Nicole >=0!) so I was just there running around and parading her all over the place and taking pictures of her. Oh yeah! I recently bought a digital camera so now I have pictures! Yay! Now the only problem which isn't much of a problem at all is getting them in the computer which may I add has been threatening to crash on me for the past week. Grrr!

Since of a couple of days ago I'll be able to sign on a bit more frequently 'cause I'm a good girl. You do realize this means I have to go to church and do all these other icky things but its well worth it.

Fade Into Memory

Chromegoblin

:: 2005 13 February :: 8.03pm

Fade Into Memory