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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 1 February :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: so fuckin pissed off

STEPHANIE THE BITCH
sarah just gave me bad news. sean has a girlfriend. some abercrombie named mary. yup mary like a saint but shes not. her sn starts out with "sexkitten" and i think there is some numbers. sickass. she makes me so mad. he could like louise or jessica or me cause we are good and we dont have sns like 'sexkitten" and other nasty shit to do with sex. i hate her so much. i feel like crying right now. i guess i'm a stupidass for wanting to cry over a person i've only met once and talked to on the internet. NEVER FUCKIN MIND!!!! THE PERSON IS STEPHANIE!!!!!!!!!!! STEPHANIE! THAT STUPID BITCH! I HATE HER! I HATE HER SO MUCH! dude she only started liking him after he told her she was "hella hot". that stupidass motherfucker. i hate both of them. i dont like sean anymore. hes probly some superficial little asshole who only likes her cause she is "hella hot" and has boobs and shit like that. dude that fuckin makes me so mad. god damn her. dude shes gonna end up pregnant like tomorrow or soemthing and end up living her life inside of a nastyass trailor in a nasty ass trailor park and her like will be so fucked up she wont know how to fix any of it. i will laugh when that happens. why the hell does she do this? she will go out with any guy that likes her if he is even minimally (sp) hot. stupid bitch. you cant trust her to be around a guy you like cause she will take him and without any regrets. why did she do this?i hate them. i have never fuckin wanted to kill someone so fuckin badly like i do right now. OH AND FUCKIN THE PATRIOTS ARE FUCKIN LOSING!AND THEY SUCK! I'M SO MAD! THEY LIED TO ME. I ASKED SARAH IF STEPHANIE WAS AT HER HOUSE AND THEY SAID SHE WASNT SO I SAID SOME STUFF TO HER ABOUT STEPHANIE. FUCK THEM! I HATE THEM BOTH MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE! JASON IS TALKING TO THE PRECIOUS ASS HOLE NAMED STEPHANIE BITCHY ASS FUCKER SHIT SUCKER! I DONT HAVE ANY MORE FUCKIN PATIENCE TO SAY WHAT ELSE HAS FUCKIN HAPPENED!

Go fuck yourself


dukespartnerincrime

:: 2004 1 February :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: 3 doors down (i hate those bitches though)

seanster!!!!!!!
i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean. i love sean.

jason is an ass. and he is so mean. i hate jason. hes keeps fucking telling me: "sean is here...this is sean speaking" and its not him. how do i know? copy and paste from his and sarah's conversation!

but more about sean. well i love him. ooooohoooohoo! HES IS SO FUCKING HOT. I LOVE HIM LIKE A CAT LOVES CAT NIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HES MADE ME SING IN CHURCH (TO THE CHURCH SONGS). AND I DONT SING IN CHURCH (VERY OFTEN)! GOD I LOVE HIM. THANK U SEAN'S PARENTS FOR HAVING AND RAISING SUCH A WONDERFUL BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL I WOULD RIGHT MORE ABOUT Seanster BUT I HAVE IM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING MY SAINT REPORT AND MY MOM DOESNT WANT ME TO BE DOING ANYTHING ELSE ONLINE.

Go fuck yourself


chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 31 January :: 9.24pm

sean
so i'll begin by talking about last night. what a wonderfull night. jessica and louise came over to get ready to go to the dance and then we didnt start early enough so i looked really bad. (that becomes important later) then stephanie came over at 6:20 so that we could take her. while we were getting into the car for some reason louise yelled "vagina" cause we were talking about bobby, kid in my class, and his desire to be a gynecologist (sp) cause they get to see women naked. so my mom got really pissed and today she yelled at as both and said even though louise and i have been friends for 9 years she would not let me be friends with her. stupid bitch. i hate my momsometimes. so we went to the dance and were bored for the first 2 and 1/2 hours. stephanie tried to teach me how to dance and i was really really bad. for some reason i kept thinking that something was wrong with jessica cause she looked like she was sick so i would ask her but she said she was ok. so then we went to go sit down on some chairs and louise looked under her chair. under it was a red sweatshirt that belonged to jason, a guy from another school that we all know. louise picked it up and smelled it then she handed it to me to smell. at first i didnt want to smell it cause i thought it would smell like sweat or something but i did and it smelled so good. so after that we were trying to get his attention and he wanted come over. finally, one of his friends, sean, came over and asked us what we wanted him for. ah sean, so hot and nice. (did i use the comma right?) so he asked jessica and louise what there sns were so he would know who they were (but not me). they told him and then he went to jason to get him over to talk. eventually he came and then only said a few words then left with his sweatshirt. dumbass. i wanted that sweatshirt. so then sean came over and started talking with us and gave us all high 5's. see how nice he is? after he did that and everyone talked to him for a bit a slow song came on and he pointed to louise with his right arm and said "do you want to dance?" then she jumped up and said "oh cool i get to dance with sean!". poo face. she got to dance with him and have her hands on him and his on her. i still get mad when i think about that. i was talking to sarah on the phone while they were dancing then sean said "is that sarah? let me talk to her" so i did. i gave the phone to him. then he talked to her and gave the phone back to me. when the song ended he walked off and he was putting his hand out for a high 5 (which i think hes obsessed with) from louise but she didnt so i put my hand out for her cause i felt bad for him. his hand was soft. he went off with jason somewhere but then jason fuckin ditched him so he came back over to us. i feel bad for him cause he has to be friends with jason. anyway though he was acting distressed or sick or sad so me louise and jessica were concerned so we asked him if he was okay. then he started laughing and ran over to the wall and put his on his arms which were against the wall. when he came back over to us he pointed to this fat girl and this short guy dancing together and said something like "i cant believe that guy asked her to dance". jessica suggested that it might have been the girl asking the guy to dance and he agreed that that was a possibility. at one point he was restin each of his arms on louise and jessica. then i gave jessica a high five that was hard cause i like to see peoples reactions to it. (i think i'm getting a lot of the details wrong) so somewhere in that conversation jessica said that i should do that to sean and he accepted. the first time we ended up hitting wrists and that didnt hurt. so then we tried again and i guess he didnt kinda just put his hand out there cause it didnt hurt very bad. then everyone was talking except for a few awkward silences. i kept seeing him look at everyone out of the corner of his eye like he was trying not to be obvious about it but he was. when he did it to me i felt very insecure cause like i said earlier i looked really bad and i hate being judged. so the dance ended and we got into stephanies car then sean was walking to his car with his dad and jessica stuck her head out the moon/sun roof and yelled "bye sean" ( i think thats what she said. i know had to do with bye) so he turned around and waved at her. hes so nice. the rest of the night we couldnt stop talking about him.
louise and i spent the night jessicas. it was fun cause we talked about him a lot and went to sleep at 2 am. then we woke up and watched fruits basket. i was surprised that it was good. it remined me of a soap opera just in a cartoon. i think that i might like to watch more. so louise came over to my house when we got dropped off and we went on the internet for a while to see if sean was on. we went on several more times and had several conversations with jason about sean and what he could say about how much we like sean. we told him that he could not say we are obsessed even though we are but he could say that like sean a lot. he hasnt yet. sean did tell jason that he likes louise and thinks stephanie is hot. yup no love for me or jessica. louise says that he thinks i'm cool. i doubt it but its nice to pretend. sean told jessica that she is weird but louise and i were trying to make her feel better by telling her that he thought she was weird in a good way. i dont think jessica is that weird. is being yourself considered weird now?
jason is going to get us a picture of him and i am going to get jason a picture of sarah...somehow. stupid scanner, it wont work.
today i got yelled at several times because i dont do enough chores. i do a lot more than some people my age and my parents arn't thankfull.
i love sean even though he loves louise. he 100% english and that is nice cause i love english people so much.
bye

2 did | Go fuck yourself


chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 28 January :: 9.59pm

hashem
today...such a lovely day. when i got to school lynn came over carrying the picture of hashem. hashem is the really really funny and cute 6th grader that we met when we were in yosemite. he is wearing the yellow shirt he wore almost everyday we were there and holding a glass of pepsi or coke. i really miss him and his accent (he is jewish so he has a hebrew accent) and how he called louise a bitch. that was funny cause louise accidently grabbed his soda instead of hers and he said "are you trying to steal my coke you little bitch?" it was so funny. then he said "we going on the mountain hike." as he was hitting his hip in this weird way. oh and there is this asshole in our class named shawn (i believe i've mentioned him before) and he was trying to hump all the 6th graders and i felt really bad for them cause hashem was nearly crying and he said "he was humping me" it was so sad. if shawn is going to do that i think he should have done it to his stupidass friends.
so i did my performance of a poem in front of the first grade today. the first poem i did was very bad and it was embarrassing. the second one i did was with mikaela and i did my "granny voice" so i didnt have to do much movement to make people laugh. it was fun. i like being up in front of people when there is someone else with me and being in front of 6 year olds is not so bad.
after school i went home and sarah came with me....it wasnt such a fun afternoon. she likes that "milkshake" song. its so fuckin annoying.
we went to ccd after that for school hours even though i dont need anymore. so i was stuck in the faculty room with my mom and i saw our 8th grade quilt. its pretty nice but i think its a bad idea to have us color the squares for it with cloth marker. then sarah and lynn came by and i went with them down the hall and when we passed mrs borges's room and they had a ccd class in there and some kid when we passed said "hey ladies". so i told lynn to go back and wave and she did. it was funny. then i went into the classroom and asked for their attendance book and the lady gave it to me then the kid smiled at us and waved to us. it was funny. then when ccd ended we were leaving through the hallway and he was there so he said talking to all of us "hi what do wanna do this weekend. how bout go to mcdonalds or baskin robbins, coldstone...whatever you want." he's a very interesting person.
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA! HEY JUDE!!!!!!! i think that song is really good. its fun to sing really loud.
i dont know what else to say. bye

2 did | Go fuck yourself


LoupGarou

:: 2004 28 January :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: Feeeeeelings! WO WO WOOO!
:: Music: This is New Shit - (I'm not telling you who it's by because I'm ashamed of it T_T)

An excerpt from my current story
The coffee shop wasn’t as crowded as it often was. Then again that was probably because it was rather late at night to be out for coffee - 8:30 in fact. Only the last lingering customers were sitting comfortably in their seats, reading a book or simply staring into space as they sipped on their warm drinks. I myself held a steaming cup of hot chocolate. I had never been one for coffee. Even when I did drink coffee, I put so much sugar and cream in it that it was almost a whole different type of drink rather than coffee.
I was one of those in the coffee shop that happened to be blankly staring out the window, watching the headlightsof carsas they drove by, the yellow-white light reflecting off the wet streets.
My family owned this coffee shop. Well, not necessarily my family - more like my pack. However, if anyone knew that the local pack of werewolves was running their best coffee shop, we’d be out of business. People knew that shape-shifters really existed - it had been known for decades - but humans still feared us. That’s why we tried to hide what we really were. If we didn’t, we wouldn’t be accepted because we were different. That’s the strange thing with people. If they meet someone different than them, they have a hard time accepting that person, no matter how hard they try.
Brushing a strand of black hair out of my eyes, I downed my hot chocolate and stood up. “Hey, Jack, I’m heading home. See you later?”
Jack looked up from his task of sweeping the floor, brown bangs hanging down in his face. His past-shoulder-length hair was tied back loosely, and his black work apron bore remnants of spilled milk and the dust of ground up coffee beans. He was twenty-one, but I always thought he looked more like nineteen. Come to think of it, he acted younger too. A kid at heart with a smile that was contageous.
“Okay. See you later, Kerry,” he said, flashing me one of his famous grins, his hazel eyes sparkling boyishly.
“Bye,” I replied, giving a wave and slipping on my long black coat. A woman with graying hair looked up from her book and frowned at me. It was probably because of the way I dressed. I had on large clonky black boots, baggy black pants with an immitation silver chain hanging at my side, a black T-shirt with a loud white “Metallica” over the front of it, and of course my trench-yet-not-trench-type coat. My straight black hair, which was at the time pulled back in a messy bun, pale skin, and stoney gray eyes added to the effect. I didn’t give her so much as a glance and moved on, shoving my hands into my pockets as I stepped outside.
It had been raining earlier that night, and I could clearly see the reflection of the neon blue lights that read “Luna Zev” in a puddle by the door. What most people didn’t know was that “Zev” was a name that meant wolf. It was an odd title for a coffee shop - or any other shop, for that matter - but once you got used to it it wasn’t so bad. After awhile it grew on you quite nicely in fact.
I stood there for a moment and breathed in the sweet smell of night. Satson was a small town rarely ever found on a map surrounded mostly by country and hills, so the scent of the air wasn’t as polluted and full of smog as it was in the city, despite the highway being only a few miles to the east.
Slowly I walked across the slick asphault of the parking lot. The dull clunking of my boots was loud enough for me, but probably would have been barely audible for a normal human. The half moon shone brightly in the blanket of dark that was the night sky and a gentle breeze swayed the loose strands of my hair as I stepped inbetween trees and onto the sidewalk. The street to my left was dark and glistening with water. All was silent except for the rustling of wind in the trees and the gentle metallic clang of drops of water as they fell from a roof onto a drain pipe.
A gust of wind came from behind suddenly. On the air came the suddle, hollow smell of the dead. It wasn’t a rotting, repulsive smell. In fact, it was more like the smell when you walk into an old dusty house. It was empty and damp.
I wasn’t surprised when a rich, melodic voice called to me from behind. Slowly I turned and gave a hollow smile as my eyes rested on a woman. Dark brown hair cascaded down her back until it reached the backs of her knees, and her eyes stared without emotion or feeling at my face. She was around five-seven - the same height as me - and her skin was a rich brown that had paled because of five hundred years without sun. “Hello Keket,” I mused. “What brings you here on this fine night?”
She stepped towards me with a shadow-like grace that was partially from being a vampire and partially something she had always carried with her as an Egyptian. “Have you heard of the vampire called Chandresh?” she asked.
I frowed at the strange question. “No I haven’t. Why do you ask?”
She sighed. “He has told me that he wishes to see the alpha male of the werewolf pack, as well as a representative for the werepanthers and a representative from any other wereanimals in the area.”
She had my full attention. “Why does he want this, and why should we go? We can’t just have our highest in authority go over to some random vampire’s place every time one asks.”
“I know that, but Chandresh is not one that should be refused.”
“So, you work for this dude?”
She didn’t seem to appreciate him being referred to as “dude”, nor did she seem to like the idea of working for someone. Something dangerous flashed in her eyes and I felt the first brush of power slide over my skin. “No, not exactly. I am an independant, you know that well, but he has requested that I ask, and I did not refuse him.”
I leaned casually against a tree. I was curious about this so-called all-powerful Chandresh, but I was getting frusterated as well. I wanted to get home and be lazy. “With all do respect, Keket, you still haven’t answered my question.” No sense in getting a vampire angry for no reason.
She swept a long strand of dark hair behind her shoulder with a casual flick of the wrist. “The only reason I have not answered your question, dear wolf, is because I do not know the answer. Chandresh never told me why he wanted to see the werecreatures, he only told me that he wanted to see them.”
I rested my head against the trunk of the tree and closed my eyes. “So, tell me, why are you doing this vampire’s bidding all of a sudden? I know how much you despise being ordered around.” I opened my eyes only to nearly be blinded by the sharp yellow light of the street lamp in front of me. Quickly I turned my head away from the bright light, lowering my eyes and trying to focus more on Keket. She wouldn’t hurt me. We had known each other long enough to decide that we were friendly rivals and didn’t try to harm one another unless there was a formal challenge or we really got on each other’s nerves. But I had to admit, tonight she was a bit testier than usual.
Keket was staring at the ground blankly, as if she had suddenly spaced out. This was odd for her. She wasn’t spacing out; I don’t think she’d be caught dead doing that. Or is it, she wouldn’t be caught alive doing that? Either way, she had too much pride to let people see her let her gaurd down. In fact, I wondered if she let her gaurd down even when no one was around. “Chandresh,” she said, her voice smaller than usual, “is not one most vampires care to challenge, nevertheless disobey.” She raised her chocolate eyes to my own gray ones, and I gasped at what I saw in them. Fear.
I opened my mouth to say something, but before I could, that shadow of fear I had seen only a second ago fled from her eyes and was quickly replaced with her usual cold stubbornness.
“So will you tell your alpha what I told you? He may bring others if he wishes, but only a few. That goes for any of the other wereanimals as well.”
I just nodded silently. I didn’t feel like talking much anymore. I was thinking too hard. What had this guy possibly done that could cast so much fear into even Keket?
“Then I bid you farewell for now.”
“Yeah. Bye.”
Keket lifted her eyes to the sky, and with a sound much like the sharp hiss of a snake, was consumed in a thin wisp of black mist. Keket was one of the vamps that had the ability to teleport.
I stood there for a moment longer, still wondering to myself how terrible this Chandresh was supposed to be. I had felt vampire powers before, and I had to admit sometimes it was unnerving, but not seriously frightening. At least not from any of the vamps I knew. This guy’s powers must be pretty phenomenal to scare someone as confident as Keket.
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There's the first two pages. It's just the typical vamp and shapeshifter story, but oh well. Please tell me what you think ^_^. Thanks! Bai!

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 27 January :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: happy

today....what a lovely day. i went to school and jessica and louise very nicely waited for me as sarah, lynn and stephanie walked ( wagging their hips) off to the lockers. so we had class and stuff and it was boring. at lunch the crazy 3rd grader (only one today cause her friend was absent) attacked us and she decide to chase me around in a circle as i was yelling "stop it" and was hitting her but not very hard. louise got her to leave us alone by getting her some candy.
i've come to the conclusion that sarah is using me for rides home from school. the first words she said to me today were "what do we do in math?" next time i'll just say "i dont know. you have it next find out for yourself" dumbasses. so she only talks to me after school when we are giving her a ride home. i'm so tired of her. only 3 months and 5 days left that i'm stuck being around her. HAPPINESS.
during science it was fun. some girls dad came in to show us experiments dealing with chemistry. it was cool. he did the thing where you freeze a plant and drop it and it breaks. of course during the best science period of the year we had to have 1 1/2 fire drills. first we had a big one then the fire alarm went off again and we were told to go out then when we were half way out there they told us to go in. makes me mad.
i got an 85% on my science test. i thought i was gonna get an f so its good.
i also got all my averages for this thing i do into the 20's and thats really good so i'm proud of myself.
bye

Go fuck yourself


Dukespartnerincrime

:: 2004 27 January :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: "school of rock"

howdy doody
howdy doody. im bored. my sister sent me an email and i dont feel like emailing her back. im hungry. and i have nothing to talk about. o yeah i got D+ on my science test and i have to get it signed and im tired. i want my fucking acne to go away. The ass wont go away and it pisses me off. At least i dont have it like Sarah. Bahahaha! I got to go to daddums and get the legolas thing. I need to get into the kevin clark group but im embarrassed to ask my mom b/c she will just tell my sisters. i hate it when she does that.

Go fuck yourself


Loupgarou

:: 2004 26 January :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: silly

I'm smarter than dumb people
I got a 95 on that science test that was dumb. Yay!

In language arts, as I explained before, I sit inbetween matt d and nick D, who are always talking about something weird that doesn't seem to make any sense. Today Nick was staring at his hands and saying "Into the third demension...". He just wouldn't shuttup about the third demension. He thought his hands led to the third demension. I turned around and stared at him for a moment and when he finally realized what I was doing he looked at me and laughed.
"Look at your hands though - it's AMAZING," then he laughed again. It was funny, actually. Then Matt said, "no, no, Dazzi (that's wht he calls Nick) you need to look at the third dimension of the finger print." Then he started staring at the swirls on his fingers, as if examining his finger print. Sometimes it can be quite interesting listening to them.

Then came time to share our writing activities for The book Daniel's Story. We were supposed to write a diary entry in the point of view of this girl name Rosa about Daniel. Nick volunteered and read his.
"Daniel is hot. And the first time I met him when I saw him in his underwear picking lice out of his clothes, Mmmm I could just EAT HIM UP!" twas funny I say!

At lunch Louise, Marilyn, and I were all talking and discovering how we could make the shape of a triangle when we stood in a certain way when these two little third graders passed us. I waved and said "hi!" to them, and they started laughing. Then they came over and talked to us for a while. We started talking about how they should avoid the really preppy people and never shop at abercrombie. Then they started pushing eachother saying that the other wanted to hug one of us. At first we thought it was funny, but after a while it began to get a tad bit obnoxious. We tried pursuading them not to, saying "you know, you guys shouldn't push eachother." But they kept doing it. Louise and marilyn had walked a bit farther away from them by this time, but I felt bad for the little third graders and stayed to talk with them for a while. But they kept doing the hugging thing. I did not want physical contact. I'm not much for that.
I eventually drifted off over to Marilyn and Louise, but after a few seconds they came back over and started talkign again. Cute kids, just a little strange (aren't all little kids?).
"Some people don't like physical contact," Louise said to them.
"What does that mean?" One of them asked.
"They don't like to be touiched by other people"
"Oh."

Bad Idea. It then became a game to hug us, and we ended up running away, screaming like little sissies while the third grade girls chased us. It must have been a site to our fellow eighth graders. Luckily, when we go past the planters the 3rd graders aren't allowed to come. So we just stood there; I sang the Momiji song and waved, because I still felt a bit bad for them. Every once in a while they'd try to venture out past the planters, but we moved away farther towards the basketball courts.
I wonder if they're going to come up to us tomorrow. WE SHALL NOT BE AFRAID NEXT TIME!

Okay, maybe that's a lie.....


Did you know there's a song called "If I were Xena" and another song called "Mozart's hair" I think. Well I just found out tonight.

Remember those icons I talked about? They don't work *sob*. They're the right size (100x100 pixels), but they are over 40K. ARGHIE WARGHIE! And I was so proud of them too.


You know, I'm very easily entertained. Today while I was doing the dishes I started saying "quack" every few seconds in a high-pitched, obnoxious voice. I didn't even really realize how stupid I sounded until later, but I didn't care. I sound stupid when I say a lot of random things.

I'm chewing gum. It is fun. I am entertained.

See what I mean?

I need to say bye bye for now. Soo bai bai bye bye!

(PS I didn't look over this to edit it, so there may be some mistakes)

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 26 January :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: linkin park

hello. so today was very boring. i hate school a lot. during religion class i was drawing on my book and when we were reading out of it i decided to ask jennifer if i could add a "decoration" to a picture in her book. At first she didnt want to give it to me because she doesn't trust me to be nice to her stuff but eventually she did and i drew what i think is a very nice set of wood chuck teeth on this woman who is smiling. i am very proud of my artistic abilities. so during 6th and 7th periods i have to listen to luc and a.j talk about pretty much anything and they never stop. so then luc decided to talk to jessie who sits in the row next to mine and i thought i he was talking to me. he was saying some mean things i dont remember so i said "shut up luc" and then aj turned around and said 'did you think he was talking to you?" and i said "yes" while my face turned red. it wouldnt have been so bad if i hadnt changed colors. stupid pale skin.
during recess i found out something really gross. there is a girl named elizabeth and she has this creepy stalkerish crush on this guy, seth. she has pictures of him without his shirt on and pictures from behind a fence. she also writes "elizabeth loves seth" a lot of places. its really really weird. so on one of the tables in the science lab somebody wrote "elizabeth wants to fuck seth" and she was crying and he was pissed. i have a bit of sympathy for her but i dont think she should of taken her crush to the point that seth is afraid of her. so in a way i think she kind of desearves the humiliation. i am very mean.
jessica, i am sorry but i'm gonna do it again. so this is a very nice "knock knock" joke from a movie.
knock knock.
(you) who's there?
go fuck yaself
i dont really know why but i think that it is really funny.
during p.e today we had to do this really gay thing to practice our lay ups. i hate basketball and i am really bad it. so we spent about half the period practicing them then we got to go and play basketball on our own. i've discovered throwing a basketball at a target is very difficult. i think a war between me and jessica (toni ann on my side) began after i gave a really hard high five to her for fun cause i know it hurts. (once again i'm mean) so we were trying to hit eachother with the ball. i threw it at her and missed. she threw it at me and she hit my stomache. i threw it at her and i missed. she kept it for a while and make a basket then i tried to get the ball. a little while later she threw it again and it hit my stomache. then i got the ball and waited for her to get near then threw it at her and i missed again. then i gave toni ann the ball and she threw it and she missed. so jessica won the little battle.
dude there is this bitch named jessica (l) from my school and she is a prep. with a big ass attitude. i just went on my other sn to see if someone blocked me and then she imed me and asked me who i was and stuff. then she said "whats up" and i said "nothing" then she said "bye" stupid ass bitch. its not like i really care if she likes me because i know all the popular people hate me but at least be nice. nothing bothers me more than people who are mean and rude. i cant wait to graduate and get away from them. i'm gonna had her to my list of people i want to inflict severe pain upon.
i really hate that feeling when you are so mad you want to cry but you are not that sad. i feel like that a lot. i'm sure if i think about my aunt or mr.vane though it will only be a few seconds before i cry. i think its amazing how just one rude thing can completely chang my mood. i'm too sensitive. i need to work on that a lot. last night as i lay in bed i realized that i hadnt cried since wednesday and i was trying to make it a week without crying but then someone says something and i cant. i made it 5 days though...pretty good. in the beginning of last year i felt like i was strong and doing good. i listened to my sister's problems and didnt get upset by anything. the only emotion i knew was stress and happiness, not sadness. now it seams like i know a form of happiness and stress and sadness. (if you are tired of hearing about me "evaluate" myself i'd stop reading if i was you.) i think that i'm slowly coming out of this "depression" which is good. i'm tired of it and having people say "i know these deaths have affected you a lot but everyone dies". yes, the deaths have affected me a lot but i dont want sympathy. i want to do it myself. my mom likes to play the hero too and try to solve all my problems with a doctor or something. i feel like this entry isnt really complete but i'm tired and hungry. bye.

4 did | Go fuck yourself


chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 25 January :: 10.44pm
:: Music: tim mcgraw (sp)

today was a long day. it started out with me waking up to the smell of bacon my mom was cooking. i hate the smell of bacon in the morning cause it gets eveywhere so you go some place and you smell like bacon. then i had to put away my laundry and i asked my sister to put hers away. she just sat there and didnt move so i asked her again and she started to yell at me. shes a stupid ass. she always makes sure i am aware of the fact that i'm the youngest and i can't tell her what to do. having all my sisters is like 5 moms and only one real mom who can tell me what to do and stuff. i kinda wish i had 1 one brother and only 3 sisters. that would have been nice.
so i went to church for the confirmation thing i mentioned yesterday and it was boring. i really embarrassed myself cause i was wearing these gayass black pants that i hate and this stupid shirt but it was better than wearing a skirt. skirts are dumb and must only be worn on occasions when they tell you you must.
jessica just remined me of our science experiement:mold. we were supposed to keep a daily log of it and how it's changed but i've failed to do that. i feel bad cause she and toni ann have been responsible and doing it but i have not.
today was very cold. i'm not complaining though cause i know that the east coast has been much cooler but i was outside for 2 1/2 hours without a sweat shirt. if it weren't for the wind it would have been warmer and the sun would have been nice but of course the wind has to ruin everything. the only time the wind is nice is when it is very rainy and the wind is pounding the rain into a window. i like that noise...its very good to listen to as you're trying to go to sleep at least i think so.
i think i'm developing a strange obsession with glue. its very fun to play with. i think i could sit in an empty room with nothing in it except for me and a bottle glue and i would not be bored all day. i made up some dumb little rhyme thing for glue. dont laugh at me for writing it but laugh it cause its so dumb its funny or just dont laugh.
I love you my dear precious glue.
yup there it is. pretty stupid so go ahead and make fun of it but dont tell me what you think if its bad.
i probably should have written this on saturday but i'll write it now. I didnt get any c's on my progress report. that makes me really happy. i think if i hadnt slacked off in 6th grade i would have gotten b's and an occasional A in all subjects but since i did it put me behind so i had to make up that ground. I'VE DONE IT! yay. i've caught up so now i'm not dumb. i like having all b's. i want to get it so my lowest grade is a b not a b- for my report card. that will be hard though cause i think i just got a low grade on a dumbass science test.
golden globes are on right now and i'm not watching them for the first time in 3 years. breaking tradition is tough. bye

Go fuck yourself


LoupGarou

:: 2004 25 January :: 5.55pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: A little less conversation - Elvis Presley

*pokes*
Hallo! As you might have noticed, i fixed my journal. The thing was, I thought it had looked like this the whole time, but when I went to Marilyn's house I found it looked quite different (really ugly in my opinion actually). Louise said that that was how it looked on her computer too O_o. So I changed it and I hope it looks better.

I really hope things speed up so we can get to winter vacation or whatever it's called. I don't want to go to school.

Ooo but you know what? Next weekend me, Mom, Dad, Denise (my sister), my aunt Sue, uncle John, Anna (little cousin), David (littlest cousin), Aunt Ceal (maybe), Uncle larry, and My Grandma (I call her Mema) are all going to a hotel to stay in San Francisco for the weekend. YAY! San Francisco is fun; especially when it rains (isn't that right, Marilyn?).

Yesterday I went on the other computer in my Dad's office and played around on the graphics program. It was Adobe Photoshop Elements. I was able to make some of my own Live Journal icons, and I was so proud of myself ^_^. As you can see, I haven't used any of my custom made icons yet because I want to keep the one I have right now for a tad bit longer. *sniffle* I've grown a bit attached to it.

I might go to the bookstore today. Not a big good one, mind you. It's a little bookstore in my town; actually, it's the only bookstore we have in town T_T. However in the city about 15 minutes away from us I hear they're building a Barnes and Noble. HAZAAH!

Saying Hazaah made me think of the Renaissance Faire. They aren't having it here anymore *cries*. In fact I don't think they're going to have it anywhere in Northern California. *sniffle sob sob choke cough sob cry tear weep weep mourn sob cry sniffle choke sob cough cough sputter tear cry cry snort*
It was so much fun too. I hear it was because they weren't getting enough money. HELLO! I went there last year and it was 105 degrees outside. It was freaking packed just the same. There is no way they were losing money.

Oh well, what can you do?

I'm off! Tootle pip, fare thee well, and blessed be!

Where's your pet moose, eh?

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 24 January :: 9.38pm

Nicole, the sickass
ok so I'm on aim right now and there is a girl named nicole who is also on. So I looked in her profile and this is what I found:
JASON -
her: ill lite da candels
jason: hell wit the candles
her: lol
jason: letz just get to the good stuf
jason: lol
her: ok
her: let get goin den
jason: k
jason: do we hafta use condoms?
her: up 2 u
jason: ok then
jason: no condoms
her: lets go

DUDE shes so nasty. Only nasty sickass perverts talk about that and then put in their profiles.
so i went to go practice softball with my dad and sarah and her dad. bad idea. first she sucks. thats an understatement. she was dreadfull. dreadfull is a good word to describe her. shes has a really good arm and minimal catching abilities. she doesnt know how to hit but when she does manage to touch the ball it goes far. so her dad was completely favoring her perhaps cause she was so bad. now i'm not trying to be conceded but i know how to bat and bunt and throw and catch and run the bases. so her dad was trying to teach how to do all these things. its like DUDE YOU DONT HAVE TO SHOW ME IF I ALREADY KNOW! i'm not saying i'm really good but i do have all the fundemental skills down which is important to becoming better. its not my fault if sarah is worse and she needs more practice at doing things right. Dude when she was batting she kept sticking her butt out. You cant put power behind the ball when ur butt is practically sticking out of the batting box. It pisses me off. The thing that pissed me off the most was when she was batting and her dad kept telling her "ok now 2 more" over and over. when i was up though he said "ok 5" then i hit 5 and he said "5 more". you may say "marilyn, why are you complaining, you got ten?" but the thing was he started sarah out with ten too but kept adding 2 more. So i was stuck shagging the balls she hit for like 10 minutes straight. I did like the running though, it was fun. so tomorrow we have tryouts and i'm nervous i'm gonna be on a team without anyone i know. thats always bad cause then i get stuck hanging out with the annoying girls because i'm shy.
tomorrow is also the day called "presentation of the candidates" for confirmation. in case you havent figured it out, i'm catholic. such a boring religion really. i dont particularly like it all that much but my mom is forcing me to get confirmed. i chose my sponsor to be this lady named beverly. she's known me since i was a baby and says that she used to watch me while my mom worked at ccd. i dont remember her but when i saw her this year again we were talking for a long time while cutting red ribbons (very boring) and she was telling me all about my "babyhood". then she started talking about her family situation and i was very surprised by how open she was. most people dont like to talk about their personal lives with 13 year olds but since she did i tried to be as polite as i could and ask questions that were not rude or past the limit. i found out that her husband died when he was fairly young and now she helps her daughter raise her sons. i was surprised also that she swore in front of me. most people feel the need to watch their tounges in front of people my age as to not set a bad example. i suppose they dont realize that everyone my age except for straight A perfect mommas boy/girls dont. yes so anyway the situation of her family of very complex and it would probably take me a large amount of time to figure it out.
this is just a random thought: Why are there ridges on the top orange part of bottles of glue? maybe i'm just and idiot for not being able to figure it out but i really dont get it. lol. ok so if you think you know or have just a guess please put it in a comment.
well i have to go eat dinner right now. bye bye

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 24 January :: 4.44pm

hello. i'm gonna start with yesterday today. in the morning i went to school and we went to mass at 8:30. Everything was fine with mass up until about 5 minutes before it started. In our church there is a door at the back and a little off to the left of the altar. So a priest with gray hair, apparently quite old, came hobbling out of it with a cane and took about 3 minutes to get to the chair on the altar where he was going to sit. Well this is the bad part: when I as well as many others saw him come out of the door we all thought it was Father Don. Father Don is my favorite priest because he's really friendly and his homilys don't put you to sleep like every other priest. Whenever I see him he says hello to me and when I'm helping in the parish office for school hours he gives me a hug. To me he is more like a grandpa than a priest. That really worried me until I looked closer and saw that it wasnt him.
The day went smoothly until science when something bad happened but i dont really feel like writing about it cause its long and I its not that big of a deal. then after school jessica and louise came over to study which we did....for about 5 minutes.
Today I woke up at 7:00 cause I had to get ready to go take the highschool placement test. I think I did well except for the patterns section. Personally I think that the only section our teachers didnt over prepare us for was the patterns. So the test went by really fast and it wasnt TOO hard or boring. i will admit that about half way through I though I would fall asleep.
When I got home a very nice surprise was sitting on the table. Apparently my sister had come by earlier in the morning because all her wedding pictures were in albums on the table. I really think that her husband (*squirms*i hate calling him that) is really ugly. A few years ago when she first met him he didnt have a double chin at all. In fact he was handsome...a whole lot better than now. So in every picture he is in his chin is the only thing I see. Also I think the photagrapher was dumb because he tried to take these "casual" looking pictures where he had everyone opening their mouth or smiling like they were all having a great time. the only problem with doing that is its very obvious. So all the pictures that i'm in look like I have black teeth because i'm such a stupid ass I picked dark blue for my braces. The photagrapher also took one of me and my sister crying because I was being very emotional. Now I will tell you why exactly these pictures are so special. I told you about Richard I think. Well he is in quite a few of these pictures due to the fact he was the flowergirl escort who was his sister. I told a few people that he is hot but I may have exaggerated a bit. He's more very nice looking than hot cause he's still young. When he gets older though.....
i'm hungry and i havent eaten lunch. bye

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 23 January :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: full because I ate too much good food
:: Music: Taking Over Me - Evanescence

rootintootinbootinscootinBOBOskideetendoot!
Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I went to daycare again today and luckily Maria, Erin and Sarah N. came instead of just Sarah n. I did my history homework there. Lucky me. Then I obssessed over anime to Erin, and I think she began to get slightly annoyed. Hee hahah I don't care. If she says to me that she likes the anime people (she isn't really allowed to watch it, so she does what she can) then she must be prepared to feel my anime wrath! YAAAHAHAHAHAAA!
LittleDamion, I keep missing you whenever you get online (arghie warghie!). Anyvvvvay, when I left daycare I went out to the place next to the drop-off where I talked with Sarah A and Lynn for a while. I was really waiting more for Marilyn and Louise, but Stephanie came before either of them, walking in that swing-hips-and-flip-hair-at-the-same-time way that she does. And the first thing Sarah said to her was "Chicken!...."
Eventually Marilyn came which was a relief because I didn't have to sit there and listen to those three (sarah, stephanie, and lynn) talk about all the hot guys they saw in the past 24 hours.

The science test today was dumb. I didn't mention that our science teacher was too frickin lazy to write up a new test for chapter 18 so she's using the one from three years ago. The test from three years ago has questions from not only the chapter we were supposed to study but chapter 19, 20, and even one or two questions from chapter 21. So she's testing us on stuff that we haven't even read about. She gave us the terms so we could write it on our "notecards", but we still haven't learned anything about it. Luckilly I don't think I did too bad on the test. The thing was, Erin H was freaking out in the morning before school started because she couldn't find her notecard for science. I had printed an extra just in case I lost mine and offered it to Erin.

Then Marilyn was in a dillemma because she didn't have enough information on her notecard. Since our class has science before Erin's class, Marilyn asked if she could borrow the notecard I had given Erin for the period and she'd give it back when they switched classes.

We went and took the science test, and all was good enough except when Mrs. Gurries said: "And make sure you turn in your notecards so I know you won't hand it to someone in the other class on your way out."

Marilyn and I looked at eachother and we couldn't decide whether to panic or laugh. It was one of those "what are the odds?" situations. Since my card was the same as the one Marilyn was using, I tried to see if I could place my test on the folder without turning in my notecard, but Mrs. Gurries was sitting right there, so I was forced to take the notecard out of my pocket and put it in the basket. The same thing happened to Marilyn except when she was about to get up out of her seat Mrs. Gurries just came by and took the notecard before she could even walk over and put her test on the folder thing. Then we tried writing notes down on pieces of binder paper that were similar in size to the notecards, but we couldn't remember much, as we had mostly just looked at the card and copied things down rather than actually registered the facts in our minds.

Science ended, and Maria even offered to sneak a notecard out of the basket when Gurries' back was turned, but we weren't that desperate.

We walked out of the classroom and met the other class outside, where they were just coming out of spanish. We told Erin what had happened and, naturally, expected her to freak out. She didn't.
"Oh, don't worry. I found my notecard in Spanish class." We were relieved, to say the least. We even laughed about it.

We got our progress reports. My lowest grade was a B+. *shrugs* Decent enough. Actually, I'm pretty happy about it. At least I didn't get any Cs.

After school Louise and I went over to Marilyn's house to study for the HSPT. I had already taken it, but they hadn't, so we decided to help eachother study. Of course, we didn't study all that much, eh heh heh. We played with the ouija board in the dark with lit candles. It didn't go very well, especially for me in the beginning because they had once been on a website that said "Ouija board tips". What's bad about that? Oh nothing, except for the fact that they had to do "self-meditation" beforehand. And they were serious about it. I laughed most of the time and just watched. Then we had to "warm up the board" by moving the planchette thing around. I laughed hysterically there too and kept muttering things like "c'mon now, leg lifts!", "time to lift weights and flex your muscles", and "c'mon girls, MOVE THAT MONEY-MAKER!"

I kept telling them that I had had a ouija board for years and it always worked without doing any of this stuff, but they liked their way better, so I just went along with it. We finally started; slowly, mind you, because we started laughing yet again. It started working very, very slowly. It almost reached "Yes", when Marilyn's older sister Mary came up behind her and yelled "BOO!", which made Marilyn and Louise scream. I was surprised I didn't scream. I jumped a few inches, that's for sure, but I guess it was because a millisecond before I had seen Mary out of the corner of my eye. We tried again with the ouija board for a little while but stopped when we thought Marilyn's mom was home. Then we started studying and I gave them a few tips. We just laughed and talked for most of the time though.

Louise left a little while after that and then Marilyn and I went online to check our journals and other people's journals. I left some comments and replies to comments while I was over there, and both Marilyn and I started getting a tad bit mad at the random people who commented on LittleDamion's journal because as far as we could tell they didn't know much about him and just added him to their friends' list for the heck of it. *cough*okaywe'reabitjealous*cough cough hack cough sputter cough cough choke*. *nervous laughter* Ahem, hmm... yes... well..... where was I?

Oh yes. Then Marilyn's mom and dad took us all out to eat dinner. It was really good. Twas at Flames *nods*. Yummy shtuff.

That's about all important current stuff for now, but I want to try an italics thing and see if it works. HEE HEE HAAAA! -_-

Don't turn away
I pray you've heard the words I've spoken.
Dare to believe
For one last time
Then I'll let the darkness cover me;
Deny everything.
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own.
That was an excerpt from the lyrics of "Darkness" by Disturbed. I think it is the only slow song they've ever done. I could hardly believe it was them when I heard it. Tis pretty.

Sayonara!

((PS I know I don't really have a reason to have been jealous, but for some reason I was..... T_T. I'M SORRY! *bows*))

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Dukespartnerincrime

:: 2004 22 January :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: harry potter song in azkaban preview

"ChIcKeN!!"
something wicked this way comes! do do doo doo doo do doooo do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do dooo dooooo.. dooo.. dooo! when you sing to that it is the first part of the harry potter theme song. its the right amount of "do's". i just watched the azkaban preview and i love it.oooo. Anypoop today was funny me and jessica and marilyn laughed really hard at lunch and then our stupid so called friends came over and just talked to themselves and stared and then walked away. and the whole time we were just laughing. it didnt stop our fun! no no! i swear they wouldnt know a good joke if it hit them in the fucking face. They just dont know how to have a good time. And they dont laugh enough. Its good to laugh! Its healthy. And u can develop abs as Jessica would say. lol. hhee heee funny. richard simmons. o no heeeere we go. mrs. gurries is evil! shes a really bad teacher and she doesnt know how to give our class test. shes so flaky and unorganized. I hate when it the week when progress reports or report cards come out and she tells you "oh, i need section review pg. 567 by the end of the day" and its like...HELLOOOOO WHEN THE HELL AM I GONNA DO!? AT LUNCH. NO NO NO! asshole. anyway i wrote in my real journal (like a paper one u know) about sarah and i wrote about all the fucking stuff she does. and i dont know but i might have said "SARAH IS THE MOST FUCKING STUPID PERSON. I HATE HER. FUCK FUCK FUCK!" atleast 15 times. well she was pissing me off for being so stupid. And today! oh my goodness!! Her and stephanie were doing this stupid thing in history. They were saying things like "harry grapes" or what not. If they really think they are having a fun, good, quality time with their friend then they are fucking idiotic. And they also were copying off my history notes. I have to do everything. But today i had a strange feeling to do all the work and be the smart one. But tomorrow I'll slack off and make them do the work and copy off their fucking notes (unless they are really bad notes) and see how they fucking like it. Bitches. O well. I'm not going to let them get in the way of the fun stuff in life. NO sirey! (sp on sirey) Im hungry and Joe is sleeping on the couch and its really cute and my uncle has really good internet connection. I want this eMac so bad. I had a dream about nathan. I hugged him and i guess he liked me too b/c we wouldnt let go of each other and we were just standing by the cabins in Yosemite and he was wearing his red sweater (the one that he was wearing in my picture of him). Ahh good times. I want a dream about kevin clark. I wonder if you can make yourself have dreams about stuff. that would be cool if sometime in the future somebody made some thing that would allow you to program your dreams. It would be so nice. Since dreams are so real. It sucks when you wake up at the best part. But that always happens to me so i am used it. But it still is pretty shitty. yeah okie dokie. im done and im sick of typing. O yeah and i also hate when sarah says "chicken!!!!!" and when people spell with upper and loser case letters in the same word LiKe tHiS. its hideous and gay. and that fucking nicole girl from q of a. i also was writing about her in my real journal. Bitch. shes so stupid. and sarah said she didnt like jason b/c jason liked nicole and now she wants to go to the movies with her and stephanie and lynn on friday. and they were gonna invite jason but not me! or marilyn or jessica! they were talking about that in jewelry class yesterday right in front of me and THEY KNEW i was listening and could hear them. yet they didnt take the fucking time to say "Oh we are gonna go to the movies on friday, louise, you wanna come too?" Not that i would say yes. Whenever they invite places (on the rare ocassion) i usually say no even if my mom says i can go. And i never feel bad after i tell them. Unless marilyn or jessica were going. then i would go b/c i wouldnt want to hang around them that much. I really don't like when they come up to us at lunch. I really really dont like that!!! fucking poos. If they just ditched us what is the fucking point of coming back to us 10 minutes later to say hi and then walk away like the fucking, slutty idiots they are? Fuckers. Little whores. I hate them i hope they get pregnant with some ugly guy then he leaves her when she gives birth to the baby and then she has to live in the ghetto some where and sleep with ugly, fat, beer bellie, skanky guys for money to pay for their kid's meals. And then burn in hell for their wastefull lives.

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