love me or hate me its all the same

3 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 27 March :: 6.33pm
:: Music: arthur nix - jupiter sunrise

i'm so exhausted. I dont even know why. i slept for a while too. i dont know. i didnt even get to watch all of grey's anatomy cause i fell asleep early. eh...oh well. i'll sleep the whole way to detriot tomorrow i guess.

inside, i'm really excited about tomorrow but outside you probably couldnt even tell because i'm so tired.

up so find the pistons game tomorrow night and at pre-game you'll see me dancing on the tv screen. i'm so excited. i cant wait. we're staying in the hilton hotel afterwards too. i've never stayed in anything better than the holiday inn, i'm pretty excited about that too. my parents arent staying the night though because my daddy has to work in the morn. so yeah. that sucks a little but atleast they're coming.

yeah...spring break should be fun though. going to hang out with some awesome people. except for mindy cause shes going to get hit by a hurricane in florida. lol...kidding mindy! have fun and get me a unicorn!

yeah...welp...i think i'm going to go. so watch me on tv tomorrow night and then if you wanna hang out just call me! yay!

bye...

:: 2006 26 March :: 8.26pm
:: Music: I Wish I Was Queer So I Could Get Chicks- The Bloodhound Gang

*turn off the lights, and turn off the shyness. because all the moves make up for the silence...*
so this weekend was fun. just like the last two. just hung out at home friday, had to work saturday, then hung out with kelly, mindy, and kevin. went to steak and shake! YES! i fucking love steak and shake. you wouldnt even begin to imagine how much i love steak and shake. but probably not nearly as much as i love krispy kreeme! lol! that's my absolute favorite! but yeah...anyways, then i had to work this morning from 8 to 4 then me, mindy, jessica, sonia, and kelly (wtf?) went prom dress shopping lol. well i went looking and jessica went searching for ideas. lol. and we got lost and we saw little girls dressed like whores! it was crazy! and one little 8 year old girl looked like she was pregnant! it was insane! then uhh..we went to this fancy shamcy mcdonalds and me and jessica got free food because and retard can work at mcdonalds and me and kelly played ddr! that place was awesome! they had like ddr and video games and everything was free! it absolutely amazed me...like whoa. yeah. then we were all going to go to the movies, but then sonia desided she didnt want to go and i remembered i have 3 papers due tomorrow (which i have yet to start on...) and i didnt have money anyways and then jessica was like well i dont want to go to the movies with kelly and mindy alone cause that's weird so i brought jessica home and we talked about stuff that i'm glad we talked about cause i was kinda afraid of what she'd say but it went well...yeah...and now i'm home. now i must go give my doggy a bath which really fucking sucks but it must be done...bye!

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 26 March :: 5.13pm

Charter can suck my ass.
Consumers energy can suck my ass.

Both representatives I spoke with on the phone spelled my last name wrong.

Charters spelling of Van Zoest is "Banzoest"
Consumers spelling of Van Zoest is "Van Coest"

I don't have a lisp. I don't have a speech impediment.
I'm not retarded. I don't studder. I speak rather clearly when spelling my name on the telephone.
I think the representative I spoke with from Consumers was black. That however is still not an excuse.
The representative I spoke with from Charter was maile. That again however, is still not an excuse.

Charter is all straigtened out. Now on to Consumers. Bitches.

eddy	:: 2006 26 March :: 3.40pm This is interesting.. Take the innocent love quiz! 4 will hate me \| will you love or hate

box	:: 2006 26 March :: 3.36am I may be leaving tuesday for a while to work down south.. Prolly be roofin' and framing houses down in mississippi.. Will be hard work but worth the money.. peace out ~box will you love or hate

eddy

:: 2006 26 March :: 1.25am
:: Music: Silence, but the ringing of bowling sounds still in my head

Update
Wow. Tonight was another interesting night at work. Saw my first fight. Well, almost. There were 3 girls and 2 guys leaving through the door right next to where I was working, so I heard it all. Apparently the one guy looked at the other guy wrong. He was trying to go after him and his girlfriend was holding him off. The other girls and guy were egging him on. And the one guy, finally says to his girlfriend, "Do you love me?! Do you love me?!" And, quote of the night I swear, she proceeds to say, "Not right now, you're being gay!" And I didnt really see the end of it, but it was pretty funny. It was all I could do not to laugh over the burger I was frying.

Ugh, Im so hungry, but Im sick of cooking. You don't know how much will power it takes for me to get myself to make me some food, even without spending a day cooking for thousands of others. My feet and butt hurt T_T

Anyway, so I helped clear tables for the bar people and waitresses too, cuz they needed it. Saw Sandie tonight, haven't seen her in ages =) Funny that the first person that would see me at work is one I haven't seen in forever.

Danielle, a girl who works with me, reminds me of someone, almost like I've met her before, but I can't think of who it is. At first I thought my sister Danielle, but then the more I thought about it the more I thought that it wasn't her, but someone like her...or close to her...or something. But it bugs me, and I can't figure it out.

Had Stephen Lynch stuck in my head all day. Its odd to be cooking burgers with lyrics like "Oh to have two testies would be so nice!" going through my head =S

Got my first paycheck! $25 bucks! woo! lol. Thats cuz the first day I worked was last monday, and monday is like their last day of the week as far as paychecks, and so its like i got a check for one day. lol. This weeks will be tons better. It feels good to have some money just sitting around waiting for you to use it. My wallet actually has some weight to it, and it loves it XD

Tips today were really awesome. Had a party from Verizon wireless come in, they were a-holes.

Saw Kelso, gave him a hundred bucks to strip for me, but he just gave me a bunch of 5's back instead.

Umm....I have a feeling there was more I wanted to say, but I can't think of it right now =S Well, thats why I love the edit option, If I think of it later, I add it on. All in all, things are getting easier, I like that. =)

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

skife

:: 2006 25 March :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: just a little pissed

okay, i'm just a little bit pissed right now, beth's parents were supposed to give me a ride to work today because me and beth stayed at her house last night, they never showed up, so i had my mom come and get me, no big dea, but now beth's siblings and reeba are all here, its not that i dont like them cause i do, its just i'm feeling really really crowded and shit and i just want some alone time, meanwhile her little brother is sitting here watching tv while i'm trying to have some me time....

fucking parents, i'm so pissed right now.

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

4 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 25 March :: 7.06pm

I've had quite the uneventful weekend.

Last night Ally and Jared came over. Jared put my spare tire on for me. And then I went to my moms where we cried together. Then I went for a little drive. Came home and watched a movie.

Got up this morning and went to belding to get my car from my dad. And then went for a drive. Ended up back here doing nothing til about 4 when my buddy Jay Parker called and asked if I wanted to go to dinner with him. So when he got here we talked a bit and then went to taco bell. And he just left a little bit ago. So now I'm alone. And I told Ally I'd go visit her at work but I'm not feeling up to it anymore. Justy and Bethy want me to come over, but I don't feel up to that either.

Just feel like curling up in a ball and crying myself to sleep.

box	:: 2006 24 March :: 11.58pm Here is some cool shit that went down wednesday night http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=6213937245276787023&q=spraypaint 3 will hate me \| will you love or hate

:: 2006 24 March :: 6.12pm

i'm so fucking bored. there's nothing to do in this shitty little town. i've been thinking about things these past couple of days and...yeah...i dont know...things are weird i guess. i dont like it when things are weird. it kinda bugs me. i wish mindy wasnt working so we could hang out. i miss her, granted i'm going to see her tomorrow but still. lol. we've been spending alot of time together lately. it's nice. but yeah, got invited to the geek fest (lol) then un-invited...so yeah, there goes my plans for the night. lol. welp...i'm done i guess. anyone wanna hang out, you know the number and if you dont, you're gay...

231-668-3809

1 will hate me | will you love or hate

tonyp.

:: 2006 24 March :: 5.29pm

if anyone has any questions about tattooing or piercings i have a new email for that, its

Freedom_Ink@hotmail.com

and if theres any one whos intrested in coming to a tattoo party let me know on woohu!!!

:: 2006 23 March :: 10.49pm

i'm sooo bored lol...i thought this was funny
Chelsea...! says:
lalala... i love mindy...
Mindy says:
I love you 2
Chelsea...! says:
it was a song mindy
Chelsea...! says:
if you're going to say it back you have to say it in song
Mindy says:
oh
Chelsea...! says:
duh

5 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 23 March :: 10.35pm

I LOVE YOU MINDY!!!!=)

eddy

:: 2006 23 March :: 10.01pm

Woo. Work tonight was....interesting heh.

First, I get there and the teachers bowl is going on. Crazy lights, loud music. Tons of fun. Then I look right in front of me...and there are teachers wearing skimpy loungerie(sp?), I mean...wayyyy gross. I feel sorry for the kids who have to be taught by these women. But anway, then I noticed some teachers from Cedar. Seeing teachers outside of school is just wierd. I saw maybe 5 or 6 of them. I only remember one name, which was Mr. Martens. Most of them were middle school teachers. Then Mr. Taylor came in later. So that gets over with and the leagers come in to do their stuff. One customer comes up to me and says "Hey beautiful, I need a pepsi!" Flattering, and yet oh so creepy. Thats the first time thats ever been said to me. So the rest of the night passes on rather smoothly. Oh, and this job rocks, because its one of the few I know where we get to pick on and make fun of the customers to their faces, as well as pick on and make fun of each other. Everyone there is awesome. Theres a guy Matt who works at the main counter, hes pretty awesome, and can't forget Kelso! Ugh! So hott. lol I've only got to work with him once so far though. Ummm....yeah anyway. So its about half an hour before I get out of there, and a guy who was bowling in the lane right in front of the counter comes back from bowling a frame, just super pissed. And he proceeds to knock over chairs and then kicks his bowling ball across the floor, which shoots back towards us and hits the counter. Aparently its not that uncommon for that to happen. People really get worked up over their bowling I guess. Then Connie and Danielle were telling me stories about all the fights they usually have on the weekends. I can't wait! lol. Drunk people are funny. The smoke really gets to me sometimes though, I get really nauseas. =S

4 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 23 March :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: The Best Deceptions - Dashboard Confessional

my fine day
so today was nice. nothing too exciting happened but nothing terrible happened. school was fine i suppose. Gravid David came to pick me up to take me to eat. it was good. we had mcdonalds. it was delicious. thanks again gravid...then we went to jessica's and her and sydney entertained us with their mad rapping and their awesome moves. it was ammusing, let me tell you...yup. so..yeah...i should really be doing some homework and stuff seems how tomorrow is like the end of the marking period. but...i'm lazy. i dont like being lazy. it makes me look bad...oh well. i dont really care. i'm really bored. *sigh* i should do some extra credit for physiology/anatomy. errg...ok...that's all i got...

2 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 23 March :: 6.20pm

My mom is freakin' crazy. Seriously CRAZY. She thinks something in the house is talking to her. She said it started a couple of weeks ago, and at first she was scared. Now she's used to it.

And because of the crappy luck I have, I'm stuck here. Ally brought me to my moms because I have a flat tire on my car. Go me. Mike is with his daughter and has to wait for her mom to get home because he can't leave her alone (because she's 7) so that is even longer that I have to wait here.

Fuck.

8 will hate me | will you love or hate

:: 2006 22 March :: 11.26pm
:: Music: *you're beautiful - james blunt*

*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
I hate being alone. I hate it more than anything. I hate sleeping alone. I hate being in my bed alone. Everytime I lay their alone, I feel like crying. He's supposed to hold me when I sleep. He's supposed to be there. He's supposed to take care of me when I'm sick. But he's at work when I sleep. He was with his daughter today, and I was here sick. I have always told him to put his daughter first. But when he does, I get jealous. How fucking retarded is that?

Now that I have admitted I tend to get jealous of his daughter, onto other things.

I'm sick.

eddy

:: 2006 22 March :: 5.23pm

Wow, its been a while. =) For those of you who don't yet know. I finally got a fricken job! I'm excited, and yet horribly depressed about it at the same time. lol. Worked two days so far. 5 to close. That takes a lot out of ya. Ill get used to it though. Its a lot of standing around, and everyone does everything, theres no assigned things. Work thursday and this saturday and sunday. Sat I probably won't get out until like 1:30 in the morning =S But a paycheck is a paycheck right?!?! Oh, heh. Forgot to mention where I worked. I work at Westgate bowling alley. $6 and hour plus tips, not to bad for starting out.

In other news, I "skipped" school today. Had Lynne call in. I needed a day to get myself caught up with my life. I needed to do laundry and I needed a nice long shower and a few extra hours of sleep. And I got it, and it feels great. Going work clothes shopping tonight with my mom. Need some pants. We can't wear blue denim and thats pretty much all I have. Ummm.....backstage pictures!!

......will be posted later because I just ran out to my car to get my camera and realised I left it at home =S

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box

:: 2006 22 March :: 5.30pm

For those of you who dont know how to get to my dads here are some simple directions..

Take white creek north to 18 mile rd, take a left, its the second house on the left way off the road, look for the tan house with a big barn, lots of pine trees in the front yard.