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I don't get why u waste ur time on such little things...


lalala i havent written in here in a while but thats ok... i don't think many ppl read this ne way....lol but for thoes of u who do.... this weekend was fun... for the first time in a while i did soemthign other then sit on my ass.... i went to britt on friday after the talent show (HELL YES THE HICKS WON!!!)... then we went over to breandans soo brit could rape her lover... lol and i sat curled up in a ball on the floor in the dark with my flashligth cuz i was scaired:-[.... lol then last nigth i want ovder to mandas at about 7 ish lol we had to sneek in as her dad left cuz she is grounded... lol but we had fun in the hot tub... lolt hats TWICE manda....lol yea but this weekend has been fun soo far...hmm but what am i to do today...??lol im gonna go figure that out...

I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO SAVE ME...

<3Lizzy

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it seems liek every time i wrie in here i bithc abotu something.. btu i guess thats cuz everythime i turn around ppl are being gay once again...... now im not gonna say all guys but alot ALOT of guys i know are pigs!! it makes me soo mad!! i don't understand how hard it is to have a guy think wiht his brain and not his fuckign dick!!! ok if ur gonna fuck a girl, espically if ur gonan take her verginity, then no matter what even if u have a g/f u better b able to admit what u did! i don't care if ur gonna get in trubble!! don't lie and sy that it never happend!!! and espically don't have ur friends or neone else for the matter try and kick her ass...thats just flat out GAY!! and i have no respect for u!! ur a fuckgin robot!! if u can b that mean u have no feelings for neone other then ur self and u need to die! idk how u coukld ever deny taking somones verginity! thats horrably!! they gave somethign very speical to u and wnhat do u deny it!! thats fucked up! and then if u say u can't say u did it cuz u have a g/f then y the fuck did u do it in the first place!?? good question huh!? welll i fell bad... and im very sry to say that i am no longer the only perosn i know who had to fell that and b treated liek shit by someone they cared for... and i was sad before.. btu now im just soo mad!! all my sadness is anger becuase i can see how gay u really are! soo fuck u i have no respect for u ne more asshole#2 and i never will, same for asshole #1 both of u nedd to grow the fuck up and take responcability for ur actions!


With love

the one who is called a hick when she isn't


ohh that reamides me....
go ahead make fun of me and my freinds but we don't care ne more were gonna b as immuture as u and call u names now 2!! oh were bad! lol ahahaha no not really but fuck u u want to b gay we can 2!!:-D

:-(
u know who ppl say getting high and using drugs fucks with ur emotions.... well i think it makes mine come out as the truth... like now.. iv been lieing to myslef and everyoen else saying im ok ill b ok.. i happy... i really am.... its bull shit... im liek dieing.. iv lost almost everything.. and it might not seem like a lot but to me its soooo much... and everyones liek oh i know how u feel... no u really don't .. i know u want to cuz u want to tell me that everythign will b ok... well fuck u.. im sry but at the rate shits hittin the fan right now buy the time it stopps it will b to late... and that makes me soo sad!... iv tried.... i have tried soo fuckign hard... iv never wanted nethin as much as i just want things to b back to the way they were, and it kills me to think that it will never happen.....i know the person im talkign about is not gonna read this and even if they did they wouldn't care :'( but i have to say it in here cuz im afraid of what u would say.. because if u were to say what i think u would, i would drop dead... thats how much this kills me... i guess im a very good actress cuz i even fooled my slef... but im sick of acting..... I LOVE U!!! I ALWYAS WILL!!! AND MOST OF ALL IM SOOO FUCKING SORRY!!!!!U HAVE TO SEE UR KILLING ME!!! I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT U!!! AND WATCHING U HAPPY AND ME SOOO SAD KILLS ME EVEN MORE!!!! BUT I REALLY DO LOVE U!! AND I AM SOOOOOOOO SRY!! AND I GUESS ILL B OK, AL LONG AS U ARE....are u as happy without me as u seem??

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HELLO!!

hehehehehehe guess what!!.... I GOT A FISH!! lol brittany just gave him to me!! hes a fighting fish, and hes pretty and red ... so i named him Pyro!! lol yes i know im a dork but hes soo cute for a fish!! lol but shhh u can't tell my dad!! lol my mom made me hide him in my sisters apparment for the night untill my dad is at work and then i can bring him in my room... lol but im scaired about that cuz my cat is an ass hoel and will drink his water and knock him over and then eat him!!:'( if my vcat eats him... i will eat my cat!!! thats not nice btu still!!!>:o

lol on a different note.... last nigth Nikkie and Darien slept over !! hehehe it was fun!! we sat on are asses and watched a movie and then the blue dildo insident.... LOL!!!! hahahaha lols oo yea i think we had fun!!

and yet another note.... today i went to the mall... and i went to that new store....first of all WTF!! all it is is Abracrombi all over again! its the same exact stuff excpt the logo says a different name.. btu there in the same spot and all that... its sooooo gay... and all the sghit says stuff about Clai.... LOL all the dumb bitches that are gonna buy thata stuff have never been to cali... so that makes me mad!! annn it makes me mad that i walk in there and Rage Agnest the Machine is blasting on the radio... i mean i migth b following the stero types a little to much here but the girls i know that shope ther don't know who the fuck they are..... and im sry but if u don't know who they are and they play at ur fav stoe thats fuckign GAY! Jesus Fucking Christ!! idk but that makes me really mad, cuz just u watch all the girls that shope there will now b liwk oh yea ummm Agnest Rageing machines is cool man!! FUCK OFF!!! im mean at lest knwo wtf ur talkign abotu before u say things 2!! ahhhh! well my rant is over and im off to bed!!!

<3Lizzy, Sinner, Hoe, Hick!!!!

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Well yesterday was a flast day.... what the fuck happend today??!! it jsut dragged on... and look it still is dragging on.. it fell like 12 and its only 10:30!! ahhhhh!! its driving me crazy!!!

lol well manda i guess are mission is set for tomorrropw don't u forget!! Muhahaahahah!! oh this is goign to be fun!!

well im a boring person soo on that note i have nothign more to say!! so go the fuck away!!!!

<3lizzy

La de da
hello!

Well today was the first day back the the shit hole... but it seemd to go buy very fast which wasnet bad..... BLAh but school is school ans sux ne way.....

hehe well on a good note i went to Hollys today after school!! i can't remm ebr the last tiem i was there(:() heheh but we had fun!! it was me her and Kate!! lol what did we do u ask...... hahahah what do i always do? sat ans stuffed are faces!! LOL but it was fun!!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do...
Sad makes me think of times before i was a "slut, or a hick" like when my friends of ppl I thought were my friends were nice people and had respect for others... and if they were really my friends then I guess they would have never said nething to begin with... well then i guess i wasted some of the best times of my life so far with ppl who could give a shit less.... and that sux :'(

eek!
well this vacation sucked ass.... that might b becasue all i did was sit on my ass but w/e.... its soo sad to think then in like 10 hours im gonan b sitting in my fuckin mAath class wishign my fucking teacher died.... i hate school.. and i deff don't want to go back :( i don't even think im gonan bother goign to first period.. ill jsut sit around in the bath rooms with Kelsey... cuz i know she hates mondays as much as me.... well im off to bed need my rest for a horrable shitty day and Natick High....

<3 Lizzy

hello
hello im at ryans right now! heheh were just sitting here on are asses.... we meaning me ryan, brittany, kevin, and katie....... yea soo ill write back later cuz i have nothingelse to say

i love u
Lizzy, Sinner, Hoe, Hick

POOP
well i havent written in here forever soo i decited to say hello......

alot of shit has happend sice the last time a wrote in here but i really don't gfive a fuck and im not gonna get inot it cuz all it will do is make me mad.... soooo

well i jsut got back form lunch with my mom, sis, and uncle Jimmy Bob... lol we went to frinedlys!! haha it was good... well nothign else is new excpt VACATION IS ALMOST OVER!!!!!! its soo sad!! we have liek 2 days!!!!!! then we have to go back to gay ass school :( but i guess its not that bad not to long tioll april vacation!! yay!! lol and then schools liek over! i have the feeling this summers gonna suck nuts! but i guess thats cuz this summer was so fun that nothin could b better... lol but who knows.... not me!

And im off!

<3 Lizzy, Sinner, Hoe, Hick!!

Touching you, touching me
Lol well today all i did was sit on my ass cuz i felt like shit.... i think it had to d with me not being able to go to bed till like 4 and then wakign up at 6 wiht the WORST head ake! soo i jsut stayed homw and slept all day.. then i watched mtv and i heard this song and i fell inlove with it!! Download it its soo good!



The Darkness

I believe in a thing called love

Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel
My heart's in overdrive and you're behind the steering wheel

Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me

I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my hart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh!

I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day
You got me in a spin but everything is A.OK!

Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me

I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my hart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh! Guitar!

Touching you, touching me
Touching you, God you're touching me

I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my hart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Ooh!

:-(
its 11:30 and i just can't sleep.. im so teired but when i lay down all i think about are things that are making me sad... its soo bad... im crying soo hard that i can't breath right now and u know i coun't even tell you y.. and all i know is that things right now are pretty shitty.... 3 ppl that i use to call friends now hate me, and i don't quite understand y but w/e and i want soo badly to b friends again and stop fighting over stupid things..and just b like we were.. and the sad truth is no matter how much they hate me and talk about me and make me mad i can't stop caring about them and its soo hard to love ppl soo much and have them hate u back:-( even if they don't believe me i loe them and i am sry and do care abotu them and i ahve never stopped caring about them because to me they are my life... my friends are like my everyhtingand im lost wihtout them:-(, also i fucked up really bad i hurt amanda and i feel like scum :-[.. i love her soo much and i hate to see her sad.. and i am kicking myslef because i made her sad :-( cuz im soo stupid!!.. i love her wiht all my heart and i hope she knows that.. and i also hope she knows that in no way did i ever tyr and hurt her because i love her to much!!! and im was jsut my stupid selfish self:-[, thats onther thing i finaly realized im dumb.. i let ppl use me and for what?? god damn it everything in the past coupple mounths has suked soo bad... and i mean yea ther were some good times but so far this is the shittyiest iv ever been.. i have never not been hungy or teired because i was too sad and mad at myself.. but u know i guess its good i noticed how dumb i am now then later... not like i think knowing that i have a problem is going to stop it.. because even if i wanted to stop i coun't.. im a crazy fuck and i wish i could change but what for?? its me w/e either u love me or u hate me and ull just have to deal with me the way i am... and i think its sad that people who have known me for so long and not so long but really know me are even starting to get annoyed with my problem.. i don't want it to bother peopel but i don't know who to stop it.. id try and fix it if i only knew y i did it:-/.. u know i wish for the first time in my life that i could change one thing i did and cause a chain reaction of things to chnage with it.. i never regret things but after all this shit iv gone throgh just beacuse of one stupid thing i did id change it.. im not sayign i wish it never happend cuz i think iv leard somehting form it but if i had the choice i think i would do it differently.. not never to it just i dunno do it some way that would change everyhting and make this whole fucked up sitiation good again... i did one thing and everything has changed.. and i hate it.. and everythign EVERYTHING and everyone remindes me of that stupid thing and how everything was before and i miss it i miss thingd the way there were before.. and not only does what i did effect me but it effects all my friends... the ones who are stuck in the middle.. and i don't want them to have to deal with this.. i don't want neone to ever have to fell like this cuz it sucks... it hurts more then you'll ever know.. and i just wish all this pain would go away!

than mayb i could sleep again without crying my eyes out first :-(

hello
Hello..

Well i havent written in this for a while lol cuz iv been at britts... but lol i got up early (early to me atlest) soo i decited to go online and write and entry... exciting isn't it... lol britt then lazy ass is still sleeping... and keite left at like 9:45 :-(... poor kaite has to spend the day wiht onld ppl lol....

u know if i have said it once iv said it 300000 times.... i don't care... i think its funny when ppl call me a slut.. liek guys when ther just as bad as me... i mean wtf is that.... lol thats y i don't care ur fucking stupid.... i call myslef a hoe u think i give a fuck what gay ass ppl liek u think of me obv not.... and don't even try and say i have no friends... here let me name a few of my friends that liek me don't give a fuck what u have to say cuz ur a fagget.... Brittany, Manda, Kelsey, Jess, Nikkie, Darien, Katie, Candice, Kimmy... and u know i don't hve time to list all the other ppl that don't give a fuck what gay ass ppl liek u think.... all the ppl i listed and more are awsome ppl no mattr what u say.... i think Silverchair said it best.... "People making fun of mr for no reason but jelousy".... i mean serously... u call me a slut cuz i gave someon head... if it was u u would b liek oh yea ur awesome... but just cuz it wasntes u im a horrable person.... YEA OOOOOOOK!! fuck off serously...... now do u understand y i jsut don't give a fuck what stupid fucking faggetts liek u have to say about me and my friends.... so y don't u quit wasting ur time think that ne of us care.....and before u EVER tell me to grow up again look at urslef first... cuz in no way and i immuture about nethign.... jsut cuz i would rather see u dead then ever have to lokk at ur ugly face again does not make me immuture.... saying that ur gonna hev ppl kick my ass and spreading lies about me is immuture... expically when i never said shit about u.... soooo u BOUNCE!!!! fuckign fagget ass bitch!!!

to all my girls i love u!!! Brittany, Manda, Kelsey, Jess, Nikkie, Darien, Katie, Candice, Kimmy... all of u girls know what im talking about!! i love u all to death!!

Hee heee
I LOVE JESS!!! shes my Valintine!!! hehe on valentines day were gonan have sex with the condoms we're getting eachother and a nice big dildo!! hehehe!! i love her soo much!!! iv never had a Valintine but shes the best one i could ever have!

Well other then that, today was pretty much the same sucky day everyday is....ug... well at lest topmorrwo if friday!! im sopost to go to Ryans(my lover) house but idk cuz plans always ge fucked up and w/e... but i love Ryan soo im prob goin hehe!

Casual Sex- A constant habit of sexual intercourse, with little interest or concern occurring at irregular or infrequent intervals.... the best sex in the world haha cuz that way ur not stuck with the asshole the dick is attached to!!


u know what.. other then a dildo ice cream is the best invention in the world... i mean comeon whats better then i big bolw of yummy ice cream to help u reachinside and say "FUCK YOU"

off to eat my fuckign ice cream

it feels so good to feel so sad
Well today was deff monday.... ug! lol i went home tho! lol but brigth and eary tomorrow mornin mr. Galvin is gonan b up my ass bitchigns about me "skipping" fist... lol w/e he clan lick my bum

lol i hate it... its umm like 12 days till the worst day for thoes of us who don't ahve a b/f or a g/f... lol cuz all it is is a painful reminder that ur not wanted by some one... and its ever wores if u lie somone and u get to watch then b happy with who ever it is ther dating.. or if ther not datiung neone u have to watch them b sad cuz the person they like don't liek them... lol so its a lose lose situation and the whole day just fuckign blows!! it was made so thats fuckign Halmark can make a few 10000$ more dollars.... well it makes me sad to think abotu a whole day of being sad soo umm ya....

<3Lizzy