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2004 27 October :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Melissa Manchester-"Don't Cry Out Loud"
randommmm...
I love to look into your big brown eyes
They talk to me and seem to hypnotize
They say the things nobody dares to say
And I'm not about to let you fly away
My lover with no jet lag
We're staying up all night in my sleeping bag
You got a heart beatin' rhythm from the subterranean
I really love you little girl
I don't need to explain
[Chorus]
I love you 'cause your deuces are wild, girl
Like a double shot of love is so fine
I been lovin' you since you was a child, girl
'Cause you and me is two of a kind
Ah, like deja vu I feel like I've been here
Or somewhere else but you've been always near
It's you that's in my dreams I'm begging for
But I woke up when someone slammed the door
So hard I fell outta bed
Screamin' mama's little baby loves shortnin' bread
And the moral of the story I can testify
I get stoned on you girl
That's the best reason why
yea well today wasent much of an evenful day.. did the usual.. sept my poor Johnny Mo mess up his knee downtown today.. speeking of which if the bum didn't lie too me he shoudl b at the hospital getting x-rays lol....
oh joy i have to work again tomorrow.. i worked one day and i already hate it... bahhhh
im off ot watch the sox win the world series!!!!!!!!
<3Lizzy
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2004 27 October :: 7.39pm
:: Music: mercy kiss x abandoned pools
i dont know what i think anymore.. i guess im happy, maybe? i sometimes miss the old times.. but i really dont remember what they were like.. i really like that ive made new friends..i like keeping busy and making money and having fun :-) you only live once.. and your only a teenager once why not make the best of it?
the whole meaghan situation is fucked up.. i honsetly forget why i hated her in the first place.. hum maybe it was the rumors factor or the fact that she talked so much shit to ppl about me.. i dont know i just wish shit wasnt so fucked.. i dont think i regret anythign thats happened cuz obviously theres some reason were not friends and have gotten into huge fights like this more than once... i mean i was drunk on gonchas bday and i wanted to appoligize to meg.. and they say "drug words are sober thoughts" but when im sober my other thoughts are bias and i get pissed off and dont wanna talk to her.. i dont know um fucked..
people talk so much shit about ppl who smoke and shit.. its so dumb it doesnt change who u are how live what your like i am the same person.. i just like pot because its a temporary blink of happiness its not like i cant be happy without it.. i can.. it just is fun! idk..
i dont like anyone as of right now surprisingly.. i guess i really havent found anyone worth liking right now who i know will actually like me back.. hummm chances are slim to none..
men = ass yes i said it lol
well i guess thats it for now
4 DAYS TIL FRIGHT FEST!!!!
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2004 26 October :: 10.41pm
new song
dont come back...x3
let go of me and let me live my life
cant take no more of this
you push, i pull
had enough of your shit
wont blink, just once
cant miss my babys smile
your beautiful disgrace
love your cocky ego style
spinning round and round
im getting tired of this
and i dont know what to do
with this imposter bliss
cant let you know
the things i'm feeling now
my heart says stay with you
but my mind says let go somehow
(chorus)
bleeding, dreaming, wishing things would change
was it all a waste of love, or is it worth the pain?
time is wasted, and counted twice
logic lost in the black and twisted night
beat me bruise me
threaten me with my life
suicide haunting me
blood dances on the knife
disrupted, uprooted,
torn from what is real
you told me what to think
now tell me what to feel
torn with broken bones
take all you want from me
stole the peices of my heart
and left me there to greive
sewed me up used me again
im gone in everyway
they ask me if it hurts
but now im numb, cant feel the pain
(chorus)
fed you forbidden fruits
touched the fires of desire
took a hit from satans bong
didnt think id get much higher
throw me something here
break me off a bit of slack
you tore me up and threw me out
now you want me back?
mind games
fucking with my head
these signals your giving out
make me wish that i was dead
your touch when used in vein
emits a feeling that i know
only to your fingertips
and your dark demonic glow
(chorus til fades)
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2004 26 October :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: alicia keys: karma
ugh...
today i had three tests and like two lab activity thingers so i couldnt miss those cuz i hate making up work. so instead of sleeping i worked all day at school and gave myself a fever. so now im rying to sleep but i cant stop coughing,
i hate being sick :(
comment please.
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2004 26 October :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: undescribable
:: Music: none
Anyways.
today was decent.
I decided I need to start being myself around everyone.. I act different around certain people and I dont know why.. I hate it. yeah well that's my new goal for now
5 days until Halloween!!!! :-D
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2004 26 October :: 8.10am
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: instant pleasure x rufus wainwright
i had a very good night last night :-) humm ya thats all ill say
my baby goncha is moving in almost a week.. i dont want her to go :( i love her i hate when i meet someone new and i finally become close with them and they leave and its like i never met them in the first place i cant stand change..
roar
well im in a good mood ;-)
- manda
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2004 25 October :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Akon- "Lonley"
well today was liek every monday.. pretty shitty and exctramly boring... i had myfirst day of work today... it wasent that bad but i can tell im prob gonna hate it after 3 days... but idk... atlest il finally have some money... and mayb my fuckign parents will get off my back...
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
good song... random but good lol...
yea well i have a shitty fuckin dtention tomorrow.. then back to the normalness of Johnny mos prob... fun fun...
yea well i ahve nothgin else to write... GOOD BYE!
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2004 25 October :: 7.46pm
:: Music: Crossfade ` Cold
wow
well today just follows my last entry..
I guess its back to that whole game we play.. over and over again.
we'll see what tomorrow brings then update more, good day.
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2004 24 October :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: the game! lol
my weekend!
well i had an awesome weekend. it started when i arrived in natcik at 1130 at my love jhulies house, then we went to see the grudge which is the fucking scariest movie ive ever seen in my life! i was like clinging to julie the whole time lol!
lol then we went to the mall so julie (who waited to the last minute) could buy nikkies present. and me, being a dumbass forgot my present so nikkies getting it at school tomorrow! well that was fun then we headed to the party.
i saw so many people that i havent seen in liek so long! i missed everyone! the party was great i had so much fun lol. nd i missed hanging out with all of my natick friends who i dont see nemore :-(. i hope u had an awesome nite too nikkie! i love u!!
well today i hung out iwth julie nikkie and virginia and we went to georges and then went ice skating with dj and his cousins. yeah that was interesting considering we all sucked at skating.
ahh im so sad its over. i love you all! i need to come down again really soon!
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2004 24 October :: 11.40am
:: Music: Kanye West ` I Used to Love U
hm.. how does it feel.. the only person who's ever truely cared about you is just slipping away before your eyes.. maybe when you grow up you'll realize what you lost and how badly you fucked up something that you wanted and needed..
if only you had taken the time to really know me.. you would have seen what it was that always brought you back to me
you're gonna miss me..
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2004 24 October :: 11.09am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Kanye West ` I Used to Love U
Good Morning
Last night was amazing like woahh!
I got drunk before hand.. not intentionally but that's what you get when you wave alcohol in front of my face. baha so anyways being intoxicated at a party is key cause you know you don't give a fuck what ppl think and you just act like yourself. I don't remember anything I did the first half of the party but I had a great time anyway I love you Nicole!
now its off to work, good dayy :-)
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2004 24 October :: 9.27am
last night was my party.. i had fun!! i made out with like $300 and a bunch of presents..
some people said they wee going.. but just never showed up.. it was kinda gay.. anyways i know who my true friends are..
i love you guys..
ya so my party was pretty interesting.. all the guys sat down and noone danced.. it was funny.. finally some of them danced..
we have sooooooooooooo much food left over tho!!
ohhh ya so friday night we were going to have fun but my zoloft was giving me heart pains.. so now i stoped taking it so i can have fun again!!!! ya well me amanda virginia bill and dj all watched forest gump and fell asleep after that! it was soooooooooooooo cold out tohugh.. becasue before the movie we had a bond (or bon or whatever the fuck you call it) fire! it wasnt even that wasrm though :( !!! ohh well.. thats all for now.. i have pictures!!!!
post them later!
-Nik
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2004 23 October :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: Keane-"Bend and Break"
lol well im trying to get back in th swing of writing in this again... not doign very good but hey im trying lol...
well this week has been pretty good... nothin exciting has happend.. jsut same old going out with madna after school to johns normally and then dt... fun but nothing new lol
oh and i got a job! lol everyone wroks at Stop and Shop so i decided i would b the origional one and get a job at Roch Bros... lol i start monday, joy joy lol... atlest now i will have some money so i can eat lunch and have money for other things...
tonight is nikkies party! should b funnn!! :-)
and on a sad note.. my Goncha is leavein :-(... shes going back to turkey on november 3ed... sux cuz before i had a problem with her and now that i know her and love her she leaves.... but i guess im happy that i got to b frineds with her even tho shes leaving... still EL7 BIIIITCH!!! aww im gonna miss u Goncha!!
well im off to try and find johnny mo!! cuz i was sopsot to chill wiht him but i took to long in the shower that he went out... lol imm write back sometime...
~lizzy
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2004 23 October :: 10.32am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Ashanti ` Only you
Update
well yesterday after school meg & kate came over then we went to robbie's and the bike track after that. then we got picked up and went to party city to get our halloween costumes. we spent like an hour looking at things that were sold out and then finally decided to make our own costumes. we got witches hats and brooms with glow n' the dark tights haha we're original :-D I came home last night from the football game and realized I dont know where my witch's hat is though... so my mom got all mad and told me if I stopped smoking weed that I'd be able to remember things, like where I left my hat, bahahah. well she said she would go buy a new one for me so it's all good.
anyways I have work soon.. I don't get out til 6. then I have nikkie's partyy to go to ! :-) I love her. it will be exhilarating
well that's about it - write more later
<3kels
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2004 22 October :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: have you ever...
yay!
haha tomorrow im coming to see you guys! ahh i cant wait for nikkies party! i havent seen some of you in sooo long and i miss u! i love you nikkie! and julie!!
lol well i just wanted to say how happy i was.
:) darien
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