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2004 23 February :: 1.44am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Nope.
Damn math!
Blast these damn word problems! Blast them all to hell!!!!!!!!!!! -_-
I have asked Nick. He had to go because the aunt was calling. I have asked Gwen. Of course she was lost. And also sleepy = p. I asked Alex. He was lost. I asked Alex(ander). He just would not help me. I asked Lindsey. She helped me greatly with one, but I did not want to pester her with MATH = p. I asked Kyle. He tried and tried but could not get any to work. I asked my older brother. He tried numerous ways and even went to get his math book (He is in college fro the second time...business stuff). He could not get 'em. DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well.. Thank you all for helping somewhat...
Nick...did you get them all??? I shall kill you happily if you did. = ).
I really need to sleep.
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2004 22 February :: 9.24pm
Fuck you all.
You are Pig Pen!
Which Peanuts Character are You?
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Goddess of Loneliness
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The goddesses were along the same lines. Lonliness...sadness...I see the connection.
I don't want to work on math.
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2004 21 February :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Leave it to Beaver
*sets Mishelle ablaze*
Yes. *sets Mishelle ablaze for her "interpretations"*
I went to the play. I enjoyed their unison. It was...weird...And I now know who Lacey is! WOO!!! It made me want to go out and find a duo piece and do it with Gwen NOW. Like sometiems Deviant inspires people to draw...that inspired me to act. I am a loser. Leave me be. I now need to go write a paper on it for drama.
Nick is going bald AND gray! Mwaaaa!!!
Shell and I are just a "herub (SP??) of girls" after Nick. My meaning that I had in life dissintegrated.
We were going to go to the cast/crew party. Damn the mom of Shell's. But no, because she was nice enough to give me a ride. Thank the mom!
I need to do the Egg Drop capsule tommorrow.
Wow I am bored.
This is going to sound pathetic. I want emo music so I can just sit and cry.
I think I am becoming sentimental or whacked out of my mind or something. I began to cry today. No particular reason. I was not sad until then. It hurt like a bitch to cry out of the blue like that. I quite wish it had not happened.
A dream is a wish your heart makes. This is quite true. If you do not know what you are feeling or something, read your dreams. It is amazing what they tell you. Maybe there is a reason why I can never remember mine.
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2004 20 February :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: I have
Fucking journal just deleted ENTIRE entry -_-
DAMN JOURNAL!!!! *sets it ablaze* = )
I just got back from the play. I still like it. I saw all kinds of people I don't like. Such as: Policy debaters out the ass (for those stupid kids, that means alot ;-)..), Katie Hall, Michelle Noble, Allyson English (she can be ok...), Skyler Morgan, Maggie...Yup.
I am very sore and I do not know why.
My mom is watching the Home Shopping Network O_o..
I die everyday..the death of her dying soul...
In choir stupid people got us a writing assignment.
In English the stupid teacher had me read like 2 full pages today. GRR on her. -_- *sets her ablaze next to my journal* Damn Mishelle got me using that.....
Motion problems absolutely suck. EWWW and such. I am sucking as of late. = p
Nick's mom's van is going to explode. Not Lacey's car.
Ummm....I think that is all.
NO!!! It isn't! I got Lion King 1 and 1/2!!! YAYYYY!!!!!!!!
That is all. ^_^
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2004 19 February :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: Sister Sister
Damn English teacher!!
I had to stay after for a timed write. I went all debater......security to improve quality life...blah blah blah......That was ok and not too bad.
Then my English teacher got back from a meeting and we began working on my essay revisions (I got a D-!), and she pretty much told me I have no points whatsoever and I can not organize my thoughts. She "helped" me get straight points....bullshit like that......Then she started on the typical "You have potential....blah blah blah...." So I said something to the effect of how I can not write, I lack creativity, I am good at grammar and talking and that is it. She then went about how I can discuss things..TALKING......why she was being stupid....then she said she has seen me write good and stuff.....I said no....then I was just "arguing with" her or so she said......I left nearly in tears and very very pissed. BITCH.
Drama was fun today. We played games.
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2004 19 February :: 7.22am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Evanescance - My Immortal
Damn you, I like to sleep.
I went to sleep around 7:30 last night. I slept for 13 hours. Now I do not get to take a shower because I have to do math. Damn.
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2004 18 February :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: Very, very tired indeed
:: Music: diabetes commercial
*yawn*
Screw editing my other entry.
I went to the banquet. It was a waste of bed time. The teachers did a skit about the "typical" teenager (jocks and preps), then a raffle (I won nothing ((DAMN POLICY DEBATERS)))...Whoa that looks funny. Anyway I should be sleeping right now. Rochelle gave me a MAJOR headache. I kept dozing off during the raffle. I slept on the way home. I do not feel as if I wish to do homework today. I have damn word problems again in math and they are stupid and I don't understand them! Goddamnit! *angry face*
I feel lazy. Inertia.
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2004 18 February :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Full House
Stick your finger in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We listened to the tape of our concert and Aolean girls sounded worse than I remembered, so it made me happy. We sounded better as well. Whatever..
On Friday the GFH play festival thing is being shown! Someone come with me!!!!
I "get" to go to a banquet thing soon....I have so much homework. I don't think I am going to get done.
I need to sleep.....It makes me forgetful. I forgot what my point of updating was. I shall continue later more than likely.
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2004 17 February :: 11.47pm
I am stupid. I read some of my old entries.
I DID realize, however, who was always supportive, and who caused most of my problems then...
And once I conquered my atrocious typing skills, I became sad because of a few comments that were so fucking sweet just to be there.....
Yah. If you are curious enough, search through 150 billion entries and find them. I didn't think you wanted to know = p.
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2004 17 February :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: STUPID FUCKING PEOPLE
Oh...where to start?
The concert was pretty damn terrible...First off, our soprano to alto count is 18:9 or 2:1.....twice as many. To lessen the count, the majority of the altos sing soprano. Our sopranos COMPLETELY missed their entire first PHRASE. We are the start of the concert, so the entire "mood" was off. The altos kept dropping out on 1 or 2 words at a time...I was the only one left singing. Then the sopranos went flat and I believe we did too. The next time we came in was missed by nearly everyone as well. We sounded terrible overall.
Aolian(or whatever)/the other choir that wasn't us: Guys - Lovely. Especially the tenors. They rock. Girls - REALLY young sounding. Altos were quiet and off. Sopranos were just really young sounding.
Fresh Orchestra - I do not know how they were to sound, but it seemed very flat. That is all...it sounded weird and flat to me.
Jazz Band - WOW. That is all. They fucking rocked. Which also reminds me...I wish to play a) saxophone! (alto preferance), b) trumpet, or c) bass (STILL!)
Then the little people and the mom were stupid. "Is that Ed that was walking with Bailey???!!" and such stupidity.
Ignorance truly is bliss. I wish I did not know some things. I would be so much happier. Take for instance Becca Triplet. She is happy. She is also the most oblivious person I know. I don't know anyone that is aware and happy at the same time.
I wish I knew nothing.
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2004 16 February :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: movieeeeeeeeeee
My mouse roller thing can massage my finger......wow....Ba da daaaaa!!!!
WooooooO NO BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not now at least.
I took a long ass nap today.
Out of lack of better things to do, I am updating(again!).
I am now talking to Roxanne, Alex(ander), and Alex.
I talked to Nick for a little..errr...LONG.. while. He disgraced me beyond reason. But before it he helped me with my math. So he is *slightly* forgiven.
I also called Gwen. She is bringing me a book. Yay Gwen!
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2004 16 February :: 9.32pm
I must update once more.
Call me pathetic if you wish, but I had to change my icon and this is what I came up with.
I got this from some chick's sight, but she ripped it off w/o giving props, so I am not sure where it came from. I guess I will just have to keep in mind that I WOULD let you all know who made it, and make them feel special, but stupid people are, well...STUPID.
I am feeling that way lots lately....(what it says)
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2004 16 February :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: water...Oprah
Damn words.
God damnit it. I resorted to doing homework and discovered the math homework sucks royal cock. They are all word problems and the wording confuses me greatly.
Will someone help me?! *bursts into tears*
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2004 16 February :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Leave me alone...(Limpe Bizkit! - Nookie!!!!)
I am procrastinating.
Woo hyper and nothing to do for once! = (.
It is SO fucking nice outside! If I had somewhere to walk I actually would! Gladly!
How long it will last I am not sure. The little people and mom just walked in.
They got the dog a carrier thing so my dog quits destroying the house. They have her in there now, and I have to listen to her whining and I feel terrible = (.
Last night I was at Roxanne's house. Pretty uneventful, but good to get away.
Britney Spears' Toxic is on!!!!! WOOOOOO!!!!!!!...
not really.
I like comments ; )....
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2004 15 February :: 4.10pm
:: Mood: exanimate
:: Music: AFI - Synesthesia...AAR - last song...Blind Melon - No Rain....RBF- Beer...wow this is taking long
Adding more to before. WHOA! I made a rhyme! Rock on! ^_^
I forgot stuff and did not wish to edit my last entry.
I gave my mom the pills Mishelle colored to save me. My mom did not believe me and said they were colored with a pen. It was nail polish stupid lady!
Later that day, she saw my wrist as I was wiping dog spit off my pants. She demanded to see it more, and said it was bruised. I really did not see how she got that, but there IS slight discoloring from wearing my Death all the time...Then she said an entire layer of skin was rubbed off and asked what the scab was from. The scab was just a dot, so I said I landed on a tack. Worst excuse I have ever thought up, but I am not spontaneous. I had accidentally dropped a tack on my bed and landed on it when I flopped down. She did not believe it (nor did I!), so now I am thought of as being suicidal AND taking illegal drugs from her.
I was not the one that took the Prozac but will never turn in anyone...I am too passive and unconfrontational.
I have a bloody nose right now.
Which reminds me...I have been spitting up more and more blood lately. Not because of a bloody nose though. I don't think it is good...but whatever.
Brownies need to come out of the oven!
I have a concert on Tuesday. Everyone needs to come watch us suck. I hate the songs we sing.
I am talking to my brother....
*dizzy*
*tears*
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