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brokenmentality

:: 2005 17 May :: 11.05pm

stratford was good.

me and keegan were with scott wilde all day, and he's very fun.. i had never really talked to him before... but yay for me making a new friend.

the bus ride was nice, because we got to sleep and all that jazz, the play was good.. i kept half falling asleep through the first half.. but scott was too, so i didnt feel alone. in intermission i bought a ginormous snickers... that did it... i remember the second half, and it was wonderful.

the seniors...... hmmm, lets not go there. im sad. but very proud. a good combination i presume... i dont know.. today wasnt as bad as i expected.. its not like im not gonna see em again.. they're not dead, and if the only thing keeping us in contect was being in high school, then i guess we know now how shallow our high school friendships are dont we.

me and keegan were at gorters today... im very tired of hearing about the mercury and what a dumb ass he is. i dont care what anybody says... he's one of my best friends and i KNOW he's a good guy. the rumors can stop anytime now... its very annoying for those of us who KNOW what happend. i dont think i need to go on... its nobodys business... im just tired of hearing people talk so bad about him. there's nothing anybody can do about it now, and most of our parents grew up playing with it and they're fine.... we could have gone to school the next day. this whole thing is just a big over-reaction. i love him, and all of his real friends love him. thats all that matters.

im going down to watch keegan and his crew break dance tomorrow.. im excited to meet them all. sounds like a lively bunch... woohu.

bahh.. im tired.. i should try going to all 6 hours tomorrow.

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:: 2005 17 May :: 9.16pm
:: Music: Eisley

Slowly growing up.
I had some things I had to get over.

I did today.
It feels good.
Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be pissed off about petty shit.

Sleep well, kids.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 15 May :: 12.52pm

me and keegan rented series of unfortunate events..... that had to have been the absolute dumbest movie i've ever seen.

i have to work tonight... bahh, but tomorrows stratford, and tonight is desperate housewives.. and tonight keegan comes over, and in the morning we wake up and leave together.... *smiles.

the tulip parade was so much fun yesterday... me and the girls had a blast running around holland. AND we were on some live cable channel, we're not sure where it is.. but regardless.. we were. that was the longest parade... omgosh! we didnt think it was ever gonna end! we thought it was over, then we rounded a corner and all we could see for as FAR as we could see was just people lining the road... PHEW.. did our arms hurt! it was great though... my mom, shelby, keegan and yancy came up together to see us. awww.. family bonding time...!

things are getting better.. its almost summer.. schools almost out, i couldnt be happier for that. this has been the hardest year for me. i cant stay focused... next year will be better though. i know it will. esp cuz its our senior year and so many exciting things happen.. with one year left why would i waste my time messing up? its time to start thinking about college and all the stuff that comes with it. i havent even SIGNED up to take my ACTs yet... i think its just a matter of... life happens to fast. i just need to make sure im ready for it.

im pretty sure after 2 years of CC im gonna transfer out of state. i really dont like michigan.. the only person holding me back is my mom.. well and shelby to i guess.. i'd hope to think that if i was (still) in a serious relationship that we could make that decision together to move... but i dont really like planning the future in that sence.. so i'll stop there.

hmmm.. well i should probably jump in the shower before spending 4 hours in a hot kitchen where by the end of the night i'll be covered from head to toe in nursing home food..... yay, bring on the night.

:: 2005 14 May :: 2.04pm
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack

All clear...

"Hey Mom, feel like being really scared?" - Ron
"What...?" - My Mom
"Well, I was thinking I could drive today." - Ron

I don't know why I'm so afraid of driving, but I am. I can barely control my body and I run into shit all the time, how am I going to be able to control a chunk of metal that weighs two tons?

We'll see, I guess.

One thing is for sure: I'm going to need contacts before I ever take drivers training. I'm blind as a bat. No, I'm probably even more blind since I don't have sonar. Dude, that would be sweet if I had sonar. I can see it now...or rather, sense it. Heh...I'm dumb.

[Edit]
I just did it. I can't believe myself, why was I so scared? Now I want to drive. A lot. My mom wouldn't let me go on 20 mile though, so we just drove around the development. Woo, I'm excited.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 14 May :: 1.45am

hmm... how frustrating.

please... somebody comment something positive and brighten my day.

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:: 2005 13 May :: 5.10pm
:: Music: Coldplay

Hungry like a squirrel

I'm in the mood for a bagel right now.
Give me some of that creamy cheesey goodness.

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:: 2005 12 May :: 11.35am

No school tomorrow, kids.

I had to talk to a cop about it because I was in the class when Ryan had it.
I don't want to deal with this shit, but it's understandable that I do. I just hope it doesn't turn into me having to testify in any court.
Bah..

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 12 May :: 12.30am

i just called my dad at 12:30....

i've called him a total of twice now..
whats wrong with me.

god erika, pull yourself together.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 11 May :: 11.41pm

yes.. i am a bitch.

im glad to know that my sorry little journal that nobody reads is able to reach so many people NOT on my friends list and create drama in all of your pathetic lives.

its pretty sad when i have to delete an entry from my journal because you are relentless.. we all have opinions.. do we not?

and what the fuck... im stereotypical? you SERIOUSLY think that it upsets me that we dont have "pirate hookers" on our senate? lyndseys one of my best friends... so first of all lay off the pirate hookers.... and second of all. i am OBVIOUSLY not concerned with that seems how i fit into NO social group. stacy cain is one of my best friends... but WAIT is that allowed? i mean i though that all terrible rotten people like myself only talked to the popular people who wear abercrombie and hollister.. oh YEAH that would be YOU stereotyping meee... thats right. so in all reality we're all just a bunch of fucking hypocrites.

except even though i AM after all a heartless bitch.. i apparantly dont have feelings. so you attack me for expressing a view.. even when my entry was so indirect that nobody knew what each statement was refering to anyways. funny how that works.. how in the long run you just look like an ass.

what i said was i have my doubts, but next year will work out.. because we had our doubts about this years group too.. and THAT worked out. so leave me the hell alone about a group thats "different".. dont TALK to me about not wanting something thats different. im dating keegan... we've got to be one of the most unlikely pairs OUT there.. but we work. so dont TELL me im stereotypical.. you dont know me. none of you do. lay off. seriously. LAY off.

im glad i've fueled a couple of peoples need to bad mouth someone...
thanks for proving my point guys....

i cant help that im defensive... just please leave me alone.

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:: 2005 11 May :: 6.25pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle - Judith "Renholder" Mix

Lying; laughing while crying

*Updates about how cool it is that we don't have school tomorrow, and also how dumb Ryan is for bringing mercury to school*

Dooouuuucccchhe Baaaaag.

I worked throughout the day on my homework that was due in English, and I finally finished it in art, right before I found out I wouldn't be going to 6th hour. Oh well, at least I finished it.

I got my math unit test back today, and I got a pretty good grade on it for how hard it was. I was surprised I did so well, but that's how I am. I don't pay attention during class, and I never do work then either. I never even understand it. But somehow, miraculously, I get great grades on tests. I love it.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 9 May :: 10.14am

this weekend was so good.

saturday night... i woke up at 5 and looked over at this perfect person sleeping next to me... never in my life have i felt so content and happy. i'd wake up and find myself away from him and quickly snuggle all back up to him, softly kissing his back.... he's such a beautiful person. and it was such an innocent night, because thats how we are. perfectly content with being together without BEING TOGETHER... and i love that.

:: 2005 9 May :: 6.42am
:: Mood: blah

I felt like crap all last night, and I couldn't fall asleep until 1:30. Well, at least it was 1:30 the last time I looked at the clock. Let's see how much sleep I got.

5:30 - 1:30 = 4 hours of sleep

I woke up this morning feeling even crappier, but I decided to get ready anyway, to see if I would start to feel any better. Obviously I didn't. I fucking hate missing school. I'm already behind in english, and today is just going to set me back even further. If I start to feel better, I'm definitely going for the rest of the day, even if it's just for 6th hour.

I need sleep, goodnight or..whatever

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:: 2005 7 May :: 5.16pm
:: Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers

How about, shit no?

Someone fucking save me. I'm trapped here until 8 with two little brat kids and Mark's mom and sister.

Gah...*dies a slow and painful death*

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:: 2005 6 May :: 10.05pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday

Rain drips, the colors bleed and run together

I sure do love thunderstorms. Only at night though, for some reason. It's just so much cooler when the lightning brightens everything up for half a second. I used to love to listen to the rain beat down on the roof of my trailer, but now we must have some sort of insulation, so I can't hear anything.

My wall of flyers is looking pretty sweet. I finally have some color in my room, instead of being surrounded these bland, off-white walls.

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:: 2005 4 May :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Rage Against the Machine

What's it gonna take?

Come on. Just let me go. I won't laugh, I promise.
I'd love to see you all dressed up, screaming your lungs out.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 4 May :: 2.11pm

the symphony today was awesome. there was about 1,800 people that came out and it was just soo cool. it really is rewarding to see how happy just one simple concert makes them. for most of those people thats like the biggest outing of the year.

yeah.... it was great.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 3 May :: 10.12pm

how dare that keegan charactor put me on hold...

today was so good.. right after school we went home and took a 2 hour nap. and when i woke up, keegan had dinner all ready for us.. well his mom made it *laughs.. heaven knows keegan didnt* but he had it all ready cuz his mom and emma left for emmas soccer game. UH when emma woke us up to let us know they were leavin.. she's like, you're candles drippin wax all over the tv.. and we looked over and the candle keegan lit on top of his tv had a steady line of wax the WHOLE way down it... we're like what the heck... laughs* that was short lived though.. cuz then we fell back asleep... i have way to many of keegans clothes! today i was wearin his shorts and a big shirt, and i probably have like 2 other pairs at home... my moms always like , does he have any clothes left! but its all good.... maaaaan i ramble to much.. but its ok, cuz nobodys required to read them.. so if they do and think MAN this girl rambles.. then they're the fools who wasted their time reading it. *smiles sweetly... woohu for fools and boring entries! seriously though... unless you wanna read about keegan, my stressful busy life, or worthless tidbits of fun information.... this is NOT the journal for you.

tomorrow we've got that grand rapids symphony... im excited. i love the symphony.. we're going with the senate to help disabled people get into the concert. every year they put on a concert for people in wheelchairs and mentally challenged people and they need volunteers to help wheel them in to the devos place since they'res so many of them. its an awesome experience... and it counts as community service hours.. so next year you all should sign up to go.. im sure you could go with the senate.. we encourage volunteering. next year i hope to provide a lot more volunteer opportunities through student senate. i headed up a commitee this year but we didnt do anything.. next year i'll have way more time to organize since i'll have an entire credit hour dedicated to student senate (ed ex with Mr. A) i guess thats what all the exec presidents do their senior year.. im excited. its gonna be a good year. watch out for us, cuz we're gonna hit you full force next year with so many new and awesome things. and if theres anything you want to see done, any type of event, let me know or one of your class reps know... cuz thats what we're spose'd to do, is be YOUR voice.. im so sick of people complaining about things that we plan when they dont even take the time to give input. let your voice be known.... hmmm, im not sure why i just went off on a student senate rant... but heyyy.. its late, im tired, and its alll good.

of course my cell phone would not get service anywhere... of course it wouldnt even get service in CEDAR SPRINGS... not like i'd ever NEED it in our home town or anything.. i was about to throw it out the window fer sure... gahh.

i got a lot of * you look cutes* today... the funny things is emma picked out those shirts when we went shopping together.. *laughs..* she saw the black one and was like aww that'd look so good, so i tried it on and it did. im gonna have to deal with the fact that keegans sister is more sylish than me! *laughs and cries...

im so excited for this summer.. we're gonna go to the beach alot. i didnt get to at all last summer cuz i worked EVERY day. if you go back and read last summers entries.. you'll see how depressed and tired i always was. i seriously broke down like every week because i felt like ya know it was the summer i turned 16 and i didnt get to do anything ever. sometimes i feel (felt) that i've been forced to grow up and mature to fast through things that i've gone through. but im a responsible girl with a strong head on my shoulders. i've got direction and passion to pursue a purpose thats been pre-destined for me by the power i want to strive to live my life by. what an awesome feeling. to know that someones always got your back, always got you covered in times of need, even if they're presence isnt physically visible. i've gotten better with accepting the fact that i cant do things alone... and thats one thing thats gonna make life so much more bearable.. and its gonna make me more able to fulfill a life that used to be so empty.

well kids, im tired.... *kisses*

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:: 2005 2 May :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Queens of the Stone Age

I can't wait

I'm feeling a bit more content here, but I'm still a little reluctant to come home everyday. If anyone wants to hang out, I'd be happy to.

I've been thinking about this summer a lot, and I have two things I really need to do:

1. Get a job.
2. Learn to drive/take drivers training.

Doesn't sound too hard. I might have to do number two before number one though, since getting to work would be difficult without being able to drive.

This summer could be one of the best I've ever seen, if things keep going as well as they are now.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 1 May :: 10.50pm

yeah, so i cant even describe prom... it was that awesome.

and awesome really doesnt even do it justice. EVERY aspect of the night was perfect. and i know i use perfect alot.. but this time more than any other do i mean it. short paragraphs seem fun... mine probably wont be as short as keegans.. but hey i'll give it a go.

hair: 2 and a half hours... my cousin audra did my hair and makeup.. we watched the entire meet the fockers.. and still were doing my hair a little before and after... but it turned out SO good, and it didnt even lose the curl the ENTIRE night...

the getting ready process: after my hair and stuff was done and i got home.. it took me maybe a half an hour.. i put my dress on, but my flower in my hair... waited around. yeah, i got ready by myself. .how sad... KEEGAN got ready in 12 minutes... pshhh. laughs* i was really scared, i called him at like quarter to five and he wasnt even in the shower yet, 15 minutes later i call him and he's on his way. im like... whaaat.

pictures: my house first. my mom, keegan, my aunt susie, and suprisingly yancy... im so glad he was there. then we went to keegans house, when we got there his mom had little orange cones set up all over the yard for "picture spots" laughs* it was so cute. (i got all my pictures back today by the way... and keegans too.. those cones sure payed off, cuz every single picture turned out SO good)... aww and when we got back to keegans he gave me an orange and yellow rose that matched my dress... because i dont like corsages.. crazy i know. but usually i always tell my dates NOT to get me a corsage.. yes they're pretty, but they get in the way, and i'd rather not wear one.. *giggles. .im SO not a girl am i?!* so now my rose is hanging upside down so it can look like the rose he got me for swirl.. which is beatifull and makes my room look so elegant.... THEN we went to brandees house for pictures. and those were good...

Cygnus: we seriously must have eaten at the nicest resturant out of everybody.. it was the most incredible view i've ever seen. top floor of the amway. our waitor even PULLED out mine and brandees chair. our napkins were CLOTH, and there were lit up trees in the middle of the resturant.. i felt like i was gonna break something just sitting there. we got really good pictures there, even better food, and the best memories!

Horse and Carriage ride number ONE: awwww.. so elegant. i felt like a princess! :) our horses name was Morty *and i JUST happend to notice that that JUST happens to be one of johnny depps names in a movie... TALK about making the night even more perfect!* i've never been on a carriage ride before..... it was just the best ever!

Prom: like keegan said.. all the other high school dances combined couldnt even compare with this one. the museum was the BEST place we could have had it. it was beautifull. the dance floor WASNT that small.. and if it was.. i liked it cuz everyone was so close. the carasel was the pefect touch, our prom picture is gonna be fabulous *we did our gangsta pose... :) .... we didnt want to be all posed and such like.. OHHH look at us all romantic and stuff.. thats just not how we are.. so we had fun with it* we danced, keegan breaked, i got so many good pictures.... it was just the perfect night. everyone looked so good.. SO good. and i REALLY felt good in my dress. for not finding one for the longest time... i REALLY did find the perfect one. i felt so elegant... :) i didnt want the night to end, and it ended so fast. but the best part was that the ngiht was far from over.. we did so much before and after, it was like one mega prom experience... and i had the best date i could have ever asked for. we coordinated so good, we fit together so good. WE ARE SO GOOD! laughs*

Horse and Carriage number two!: this time it was even better cuz it was night and we were all so tired. it was so relaxing and so romantic. it picked us up right from the museum. talk about a grand entrance and exit. before and after prom... it was just the perfect way to get there. espeacially cuz the amway valleted *spelling i know* our car. the whole night was all about us. everything we did was catered to us so perfectly, that i just felt like *repetitive... * such a princess! not only did i have the best prom ever, but i have this amazing boyfriend who just proves to me over and over and over again how.. well amazing he is! what other guy could have thought of all this.. to make my night so incredible, so fun.... all i can do is smile.. because he's MY boyfriend. and i dont have to share him! he made prom night OUR night, and i LOVE that... even if i dont love him. and the best part about THAT is i dont have to. because he doesnt, and we STILL had in my opinion the best night out of anybody. and yeah thats probably biased, but seriously.. it was that good. (i just got way off topic there... but by the way for anybody who cares... im falling in love with keegan...... :) it'll take a good couple of years before it'll happen and i'll admit it..... but thats how we roll... *laughs.. because i love everything about US.. and i cant wait that if God permits it, i love him too.) (*ok sorry, back on topic) we even (on the carriage) got the best picture of us kissing that we ever have.. and just cuz im cute and can do this and want to show off my wonderful boyfriend im gonna post it in the next couple of days... *giggles again.. aww im being so girly.. prom night was so girly.. i loved that!* so then the carriage brought us back to the amway, and we got the car. (valleted of course... smiles)

Oasis: i had never been there before.. .but it was so much fun. i got some GOOD pictures there. we ended up in the tropical rain forest one.. it was outside and had this waterfall and bamboo.. it was really pretty. we were there for an hour.. it just added to the night and was such a fun touch. i LOVE brandee weeks, we had so much fun together. and we had the best dates... i never really hang out with her.. but GOSH was she fun! i say gosh because i'm nerdy and dont like the alternative to it.... we even got that sparkling grape juice stuff cuz we're losers, but enjoy being losers.. because in all reality, the REAL losers were the ones... nevermind i shouldnt say that...! in other words.. we didnt have to be drunk to have a good time. and we still remember every detail of our night! something i wouldnt trade for the world. OH and i got to wear my new swim suit.. and i love it. just thought i'd throw that in there. :)

Dani's: after oasis we stopped at my house and got some clothes and all that good stuff, and then the four of us went over to danis.. and that was a blast. when we got there dani, jenna, becky, and josh were in the hot tub.. but they got out and we went upstairs and ate a WHOLE bunch of food.. including this fruit dip that seriously was like an edible orgasm.. it was THAT good... *laughs* awww.. i love jenna and dani! *and of course becky!* all of them looked so pretty on prom.. and were so fun at danis! between the (stops to count) 8 of we talked up a storm.. it was great. then we went downstairs and brought out a massive ammount of blankets and all fell asleep watching beauty and the beast. talk about the perfect way to end the perfect night. i fell asleep with my OWN (corny.. get ready for it) prince charming.. watching a classic fairytale, to top off our own fairytale night. and yes i KNOW thats the ultimate corny line.. but its so true. the ngiht was seriously like a fairytale.. every part of it. i got to sleep with my perfect boyfriend on prom night, and it was so innocent, and it was so just... ( i simply cant find the words.... i hate how corny im being... but ahh.. ! ) and oh my gosh we didn't conceive children! *laughs.

in the morning everyone woke up, layed around for awhile, then danis mom made us breakfast.. and this woman can COOK. she made everyone pancakes and sausage... mmmmmm. i was lookin pretty scary by this point... eh, i was surrounded by friends, so it didnt bother me. finally my prom experience came to an end when i had to leave Danis to go to our red flannel thing... but maaaaann... i dont know what to say without being overyly repetitive... which i already have been... but yeah.. my prom kicked so much ass! it was just... *smiles.

keegan: you're amazing.

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:: 2005 30 April :: 7.24pm
:: Music: Razorlight

Restless

There is nothing to do here.
Absolutely nothing.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 28 April :: 11.57pm

i spent all day with emma today.. and it was awesome.

we got our nails done and we went shopping... and it was just a perfect day! aww, she's so fun... at times it doesnt even seem like she's keegans sister cuz we just laugh and talk ALOT... laughs* i know she's quite a bit younger then me.. but today was a blast, and i love getting closer to keegans family.

tomorrows prom... :)

brokenmentality

:: 2005 27 April :: 10.41am

what an awful night at work. there had to be about 200 kids there and we ran out of blades in a half an hour...

after work was good though.. i finally picked my car up from keegans.. its been there since saturday. we're always together anyways, so usually theres no reason for me to even have my car... except this morning... *tears.. i had to drive MYSELF (i know right) to school cuz he didnt have to be here till 8 ish for senior interviews... ahh well. but yeah.. last night was good.... *smiles... soo good. and i really do think that im in love with muffins... they're just so good.. mmmm.

tomorrow me and emma are going to get our nails done.. woohu. im excited, i've never gotten a manicure before. AND im excited cuz i love emma... she's so fun... PLUS she's keegans sister, added bonus i guess. bahh.. i just love his family. and im SO glad its likewise!

hmm... im hungry i suppose... off i go..

:: 2005 26 April :: 4.54pm
:: Music: Linkin Park::Somewhere I Belong

And all was good

I'm back, finally hooked into the internet.
So, things are going good.
Well, no, they're going greatly. Amazingly.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 25 April :: 9.56am

this weekend was soo good.

friday after keegan got out of practice and i got out of work i went over to his house and we just fell asleep cuz well.. we were tired. go firgure right.... i love working fridays at lazerskate. my friend jordans there every friday.. she's in 8th grade but looks like shes older then me.... i hate when that happens... laughs.

saturday i was with him all day... i went to go tanning in the morning.. but didnt feel like waiting 30 minutes for the mega... so after that i went over there and we got my car fixed.... *smiles... later that night we went to logans... thats the way to my heart. logans sweet potatoes and shrimp... mmmm.

then SUNDAY i spent the day with my mom.. cuz i love her and all that warm fuzzy stuff. AND we got new cell phones... im soo excited. its been like 5 months since i've had a phone.. and that was just a prepaid.. we got matching picture phones.. then we went to the olive garden and were like oooooooh, just playing with our phones. im like, how cool do we look.. laughs* BUT i got a new swim suit and a little mermaid purse and a few sweaters (well i got the sweaters saturday.. ) it was just the perfect day.. ending with my favorite pastime... tickling my favorite asian. (he says... "im your only asian..")

pshh, if he only knew.

*giggles....

yay for my new phone! woot hoot!

this is what all the cool people do... guess its my turn...

516-6237

brokenmentality

:: 2005 23 April :: 5.59pm

keegan didnt have to dance today.. so we've been together all day.

pshh.. how dare him frustrate me when im trying to talk sweetly about him... laughs*

now im not even gonna go into it, i'd rather get offline, turn around, and attack him since he's looking at me all cute right now. like that just works.. like he can just be all cute and smile at me with that ridiculous hat on and make me melt....

cant resist anymore...

brokenmentality

:: 2005 22 April :: 1.57pm

community night was fun... i love becky... its true.

oh riiight, im not to say "its true" anymore.... hmph.

prom is approaching quickly... and damnit, what to do about my dress. i hate being so short.. because my dress is to long... i guess i cant really do anything about it now though. ah well.. its still gorgeous... well, i hope. i think it is.

i love the mornings... walking by people... *winks
we're so cool.

i have to work tonight till 10:30, but afterwards im going to keegans and we're gonna sleep... *laughs. maybe his mom will make us muffins. *hopeful smile*

im tiiiired. i dont wanna go tannnning. yes i do. but noooo i dont. its relaxing.. then you're in there for 50 zillion hours and i get board... restless.

last night i went tanning after community night so i had all my red flannel stuff on... a little awkward, fun though. ehhh.

ok, well i've lost interest with this entry.

:: 2005 22 April :: 10.35am

The morning after...
I stayed home today so I could pack, which I still haven't even started. Guess when we start moving in.

Go ahead...guess.

Yeah, it's tonight.

[Edit]
I'm not going to be back online until Tuesday night. If anyone has to reach me for some reason, call my cell phone.
799.2701

brokenmentality

:: 2005 20 April :: 10.23pm

i went to the mall tonight with micah and keegan..... tonight was... well it was..... laughs*

first i lost the cap to my gas tank because im a moron... then there was that whole ordeal... then i found my prom jewlery... then in alpine that was the whole other ordeal.... bahhh. whatever right.. lifes not perfect eh?

it was nice after a hectic day to beable to just relax for a couple hours.. and when i say hectic.. i DO mean hectic. lord do i...

tonight was just one of those nights. .but the thing i love is that "those nights" only last for a brief period... lets say an hour TOPS and that hour is still filled with smiles... odd as it is.. what can i say. i just cant help it.. plus the glorious last 15 minutes where either im home late or he leaves late.. it seems to be our magic number... i hate goodbyes.. even though they only last a little while.... cant we just run away today... with my mom of course. heaven knows i couldnt leave her... but hmm that WOULD defeat the whole running away part... i guess its a good thing im so content with my life right now! *kisses....

i've been reading this really good book called "The Case for Faith" its really good... its a whole bunch of "proof" of God and its so inspirational. the part that makes it awesome is that it IS indeed facts and hard evidence that prove the atheists and pagans and whatever else wrong... my opinion of course... but in this matter im pretty bullheaded and choose to KNOW i'm right... we all have our issues right? so what if mine happens to be defensive religion.

well.. im tired, and kind of irritable... i think thats what happens when you eat turkey loaf... turkey shouldnt come in a loaf anyway... *ponders that..... uhhhh.

have a good night all.

brokenmentality

:: 2005 19 April :: 9.19pm

its hot... really hot. i feel like getting naked... but that would be dirty.

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:: 2005 19 April :: 5.47pm
:: Music: Razorlight

Crumbling to the ground

The new pope looks evil. Like one of those guys who files their teeth down to points.

Yeah, evil.

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