i saw the passion yesterday with my youth group. i still cant stop thinking about it. I know people have been saying this, but seriously, i'll be changed forever because of this movie. i heard that it was graphic and true to what actually happend, but i didnt think it'd be like that. we think about the crusifiction and we think of the horrible things Christ went through for our sins, but what we dont realize is how extreme and gruesome it really was. Seeing it happen is an experience that i dont think you could ever forget. it starts in the garden of gesemity and ends when he rises from the tomb. I think the time period was pefect.... it had flash backs to the major events leading up to it like the last dinner... so nothing was left out. I couldnt watch alot of it because it was all so violent. Its only because he's christ, its hard to watch him being beaten for so long. You seriously cant even imagine it until after you see it. It really opened my eyes and made me reflect on what kind of christian i really am, and i've realized that i have so many things that i need to change. He died in the most horrific way for my sins, and yet i cant refrain from swearing? I cant love my enemys? When he was on the cross he said "Forgive them father, for they know not what they are doing." After they put him through the most excruciating pain, he asks for their forgiveness. The whole thing is just amazing. I'd like to say that i'd be brave enough to die so that the rest of the world could live..... but i wouldnt be able to go through that, and none of you would either... and if you say that you would, i think you're a coward for not telling the truth. I had already known the whole story, its not like there were any suprises, but wow..... it just blows my mind how much somebody can love us. Sometimes i hate myself, ok... alot of the time i hate myself and my life and i wonder why God is ignoring me. But he's not.... things happen for a reason, i know thats one of the biggest cliches.... but its the things you go through that will test your faith and your character. I've let him down so many times.... and i hate that. I deffinately reccomend you go and see it, just prepare yourself... because you WILL cry. I cried so hard. it was cool to see everyone come out of the theater, i didnt see one person who wasnt crying, and i think thats an amazing thing that it touched everyone so much. The controversy is insane. Its not anti jew, its retelling history. we're not going to change the bible because they dont want to accept the truth. So we can have movies about the holocaust and THATS alright because then the jews are the victims? But when they're not, then its anti jew? And completely disregarding the jews, non christians in general... they think that we shouldnt be able to talk about our religion and they're trying to take everything christian out of society, well i'll bet you anything they wont try and take christmas breaks away. Christmas is a christian holiday, but because it bennefits them its ok when nothing else is? Our country was built on christianity, and now they're stripping us of that even. What kind of world are we living in when they say its freedom of speech and religion but we're punished by the media when we practice them? I hate the united states, i think our values here are in reverse order. I cant wait to move out of this hell hole to a quiet country that's not centered around sex. Thats all america cares about. turn on the tv.... 5 shows out of 6 will have some sort of refrence to it. Sex sells... im sure everyone knows that by now. Britney spears, christina, rap music.... everything is becoming about sex. even disney movies have refrences to it. Thats disgusting....... it just makes me sick.

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