I haven\'t written in a while, then again i haven\'t had much to say. Ray and posse are coming in this wednesday. I suppose i\'ll have people in and out of my house most of this weekend. Summit\'s homecoming is on Saturday...so is the first Racketball practice. I\'m thinken there\'s going to be a party on Friday night and the practice that next morning would be at 8. Diana told me that since so many girls wanted to play that the try outs would be rough. I\'ve never played, and frankly i don\'t really care to make a fool of myself. 8am on a Saturdays kinda rough as well. I would actually have to sleep on friday nights. In addition to practices every wednesday...who knows what i\'m going to do. I have to talk to Dr. Anderson about lax as well...ahh will it never end? No, i suppose it won\'t.

We have testing tomorrow which means we get out 11:30. The mother decided we were going to bond that day and she\'s taking me to spa. I really don\'t think it will be that bad. I\'ve never been to a \"spa\" so this should be interesting. She has all these treatment deals all picked out for me...i think she\'s going to try and buy me clothes too. Hmm...all that\'s in Frontenac are J.Crews and other ridiculously expensive stores...hmm, this day could get very interesting.

So i went to the Rams game yesterday. My Dad\'s boss invted us, the Wethington\'s and the Steven\'s. Beau was definitely there looking even more gorgeous than usual.Yea good thing he\'s 18 and acts like he\'s my brother. That must sound creepy, maybe i should explain. Beau and i have grown up together. My dad and his dad are best friends, and so were we...until he got into highschool. He was always kinda goofy lookin, and really lanky and it was just Beau. The big brother i never had. Well Sophmore year comes around and he\'s just all of a sudden this gorgeous creature. Ironic isn\'t it?

Ah, i have about 58757697 things to do today, and i just don\'t care to do any of them. None of our homework is due till wednesday but i guess i really should get alot of it done so it\'s not hanging over me tomorrow. It\'s also about 0 degrees in my room right now and i\'m definitely still in my little uniform skirt. Rieke\'s just a big crazy woman and thought it was warm in her room so she had all her fans on and the window open. Yea, it\'s definitely only about 40 degrees outside. I froze through the whole class. Well, if anyone actually took the time to read this i alpologize for endless rambling. I wonder if anyone actually ever reads what i have to say...hmm. Until then.

Oh what a day. Back to school so it felt like a monday. Yesterdays day off was nice though. Lizz, Tom, Steve, and I all headed up to \"the new mall\". Lizz and i went solely for the ice cream. I did buy a Dashboard shirt and a Green Day poster, heh only in my bag would you find both items together. We talked about homecoming, and Tom acted strangely so that conversation stopped fairly quick. Came home and had dinner with the father. That hasn\'t happened in a while...and i was the one that cooked. A definite rareity (sp?) in this house. He left for Canada today, don\'t know when he\'ll be back though. I did however fail to finish my physics homework. Fortunatly for me she forgot to collect it. Signed up for the Racketball clinic, Lacrosse\'s is (is that right?) coming up as well. Quarter grades came out. I\'m not failing anything which is always a plus. I have a c in both English and Physics. My physics grade was wrong though i was happy to hear. So if i\'m lucky with all the points she missed i\'ll add up to a B. Now that i\'ve rambled on pointlessly about grades and what not i might try to move onto something different...

Lauren decided we were all going to get Chinese tonight for dinner. So, evidentally there will be a bunch of UA girls at \"The Webster Wok\" tonight. I was invited, so i suppose i\'ll make my way down there sometime this evening. Chinese is actually sounding pretty good.

Called Nathan last night. His Dad said he\'d call me back...and sure enough, a little after 10 he did. I felt like i was in 7th grade again trying to sneak a phonecall with him. Though neither one of my parents care anymore, i still do. It was a very boring conversation...basic small talk. I miss when he used to call to tell me what seemed like the biggest or greatest thing to him. I miss when i knew i could call him and cry, and it would be ok. He had to go, so we hung up and i put my headphones back on. Standard Lines started playing and i almost cried. I can\'t help but think of him when i hear that song...

A funny thing happened today. Mike Dusman im\'d me. I should explain. Last February, i went up to visit Sarah and Mike and Lowell came over to her house one night. Mike and i clicked pretty well. So the next night this kid Abhi has a party and Mike was definitely there. All in all at the end of the night we ended up making out in Abhi\'s basement. I left a few days later and i haven\'t seen him since. We kept in touch little, but nothing big. So today, pretty much out of no where he starts talking to me. And we actually talked for a while. I hate to say it, but it was kind of nice. He\'s been such an ass to Elyse, and i told myself i wouldn\'t let myself like him again the next time i went up, but i\'m scared i won\'t be able to keep my promise. I\'ll talk to Ray, see what she says.

I suppose i should get ready for my chinese food outing, seeing as i\'m still in half my unifrom. I guess i should really get that physics done too...my phone has been ringing like crazy, i wonder who it is...

\" I used to live in a room full of mirrors all i seen was me but i can\'t stand it no more so i smash the mirror and set me free\"

So there's a kareoke contest goin on at the fall festival this year. First prize is $100, sencond is $50...i'm definitely in need of some cash so i figured i'd give it a try. So, i know i'm going to audition for this deal, but i have to have the song that i'm going to sing by this friday. Good thing i know what that's going to be. If anyone has any suggestions (ok yea, i know not all of you know me...but i could still use any suggestions) i would really appreciate it. I'm thinken an Incubus song, either Drive or Warning, maybe...ahh what do i know. Not much, that's for sure.

"Hey Chris, it's Allie."
"Uh, hey."
"Yea, hi. Hey would you wanna do something sometime this weekend?"
"Uhh sure."
"Alright, cool. Well I have to go out with my mom this afternoon but should i call you when i get home?"
"Uhh, sure."
Awkwardness.
"Um, ok then. I'll talk to you later."
"uh, yea. See ya."

Sigh. Chris Webster. He's such a...boy. I went shopping with my mom, she felt like spending money, always a plus. She's also now encouraging me to date. I think she's just scared i'm going to turn into someone who never goes out and just stays in their rooms all the time. I went out last night. Spartan Fest. Wow, that's just...well, i don't know what you would call it. I left early. I suppose i tried to look nice and it was just driving me crazy. Ariel was there, God she's a barbie. Gorgeous, but a Barbie. I saw Joel too, we both looked at eachother and he smiled, but then this chick Casey pulled him away and engulfed his face with her mouth. I laughed and walked away.
I did run into Meg though, thankfully. It was cool seeing her, she put me in a good mood for a little while. Kate however, made me want to scream. But, she usually has that effect so I got over it.
Skipping through, i left early and came home and just felt like crying. It seems like whenever I go to things like "Spartan Fest" or some mixer it reminds me of what i'll never be, or can never have. Though, i don't really want to walk around looking like everyone else, being ignored isn't to peachy either. On the way home Mom stopped and got me some ice cream, always a plus...i felt bad after i ate it though.
I had called Chris before i left to see if he wanted to catch a movie or something but he wasn't home. (that's why i went to Spartan Fest) I got home and saw his name on the caller ID and just couldn't stop smiling. I felt like i used to when i would see his name on my phone. I felt like we were together again. I have to laugh at myself, i sound like some crazed girl, but it was just nice knowing that maybe he wanted to talk to me again. Though, after the 4th i can't imagine him ever wanting to talk to me again...but he is a strange child.
So i called him back this afternoon and that's where our conversation happened, if you could call it that. I got home, called him back, no answer. I left a message around 5...it's now almost 9:15 and i haven't heard from him. I suppose on an upside i got almost all my homework done so maybe i can shoot for tomorrow, we'll see. Steve said he wanted to hang out...i just might have to give him a call.
So all in all these past two days went down like this:

-Called Chris...twice.

-Actually spoke to him once.

-Got a new pair of pants, a dress, a shirt, and some Birks...(yea, yea they're Birks. But they're comfy as hell.)

-Went to a festival of football players, preps, and bohemian Abercrombie products with the occasional loner mixed in here and there.

At the moment there's some jazz music deal going on in Webster, i heard the fireworks earlier and now i can hear the music playing.

Sarah just signed on, but she's not actually there. We've grown fairly distant and i really don't know why. I think i'm going to go up there for a while in January considering school was basically canceled that entire month. Right now i think i'm going to head to the kitchen and try to find some chow.

Oh God, now there's some guy butchering a Beatles classic...make it stop...

"...as for me I wish i that i was anywhere, with anyone making out..."

that would be nice too.

I ment to write yesterday. I really did, and i'm mad at myself that i didn't. But tonight was much more interesting...

So the Incubus concert was tonight. Wow. It was so amazing, they sound just as incredible live. I called my house and recorded "Drive" onto the answering machine...hah i'm such a dork...eh, i'm over it. I'm just so in love with that band. Unfortunaly every person i asked to go with me bagged me. I went with Lisa and her boyfriend which was fine...we had fun. I saw Mario. Heh, that was interesting. Some of his friends got to meet Incubus through a contest the point was running. I entered...but i didn't win : (. Heh, i wasn't really expecting too tho so it's all ok. We had really good seats too...except for the giant that was infront of me. Fortunatly for me he was a smoker and left every so often to have a puff or two.

I seriously think Brandon Boyd could be one of the most gorgeous people on this Earth. Heh listen to me, telling my tales of being star struck, it was nice tho. Today was really awful, but the concert just made my month. Unfortunaly i still have to finish a poster for geography and answer questions for english. Haha...good thing i'm doing that. I suppose i really should...

"...if i had a dime for everytime you walked away, i could afford to not give a shit, buy a drink, and drown the day..."

-The one and only.