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2004 21 June :: 9.06pm
I haven't been able to speak with Nee for several days, which sucks.
I'm gonna try to talk to Kelly soon, but so far I haven't been able to contact her.
I've been thinking about yesterday all day.
I'm not sure that I'm comfortable around Stefany. As a matter of fact, I know I'm not.
Yea...
~Caro
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2004 20 June :: 9.35pm
So I saw Mandi today. RPG was canceled so we just hung around. WE went out to this creek thing behind my house and went to this tree I love that is easily climb-able. It also totaly radiates power. She went and sat on the branch and I stood where the tree and branch met. When I tried to get down I slipped and scraped my back up. Oh well. We saw this girl I knew from a while ago, Steffany. I totaly didn't recognise her. She has short blue hair now. It used to be long and blonde. She was smoking, which bugged me. Mandi asked if she had a ciggarette which bugged me more. She's trying to quit! I acted like it didn't bother me though. Steffany is like, a total stoner now. Uhg. She kinda bugged me in general, but I gave her my number and said we should hang out sometime. I hate to say this but I didn't say anything about the smoking because I didn't want to seem stupid. Mostly I don't mind when people smoke, but when Mandi asked for a ciggarette (Which she didn't have on her) it just made me mad. Also, I don't want to start smoking. I don't wanna cave into peer pressure and start! AHG. My life is so confusing right now. I need to talk to Nee and Kelly. I need to see Nee and Kelly. I'm confused about the way people act, and what to do about Mandi. Cause I love her to death. She had a boyfriend, which I knew about and don't have a problem with. But he ditched her in her time of need. I just want to kill that bastard! How could he hurt her like that?! She would do anything for me or Cody (the bastard), and he should know that! As we all know, I don't like it when people fuck around with my friends. Anyone who hurts them earns my hate.
Yea...
~Caro
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2004 19 June :: 9.12pm
I just want today to be over so it can be tommorow.
I felt that way yesterday, too. Is it because 1. I'm fed up with my life
2. I want to see Mandi
3. I'm bored out of my brains
Or all three?
I just don't know.
~Caro
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2004 19 June :: 7.16pm
it looks long but it's not.
Last night Amanda called me and told me that her brother beat her up. She described it in detail.
It turns out that she had hallucinated the whole thing.
Yep.
So, she can't stay here tonight, but I'll see her tommorow.
At Medicine Horse she started thinking of all the shit that's been happening to her (and trust me, there's a lot) and she actually threw up. I feel so bad for her. v_v
It got sunny again today.
For about two hours.
Since then it's been rainy and were having a thunder storm *YAY* right now. The thunder is pretty loud. I love it. It looks like were going to have at least another couple days of grey weather, which I really don't mind, actually. Go me.
My dad composed something really short on his base, which he finaly picked up after ten years of not playing. I came up with a flute part to go with it.
But my dad expets too much of me as a musician. It's hard to live up to it. And he always makes me do stuff the way he used to practice, and I have to do it.
It's hard on me.
Well, love you guys.
~Caro
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2004 18 June :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Summer Sun, 4 strings
w00t
After much consideration my mother has consented to allow Mandi to stay the night tommorow!!! ^____________^ Soooo, I get to see her tommorow. I would anyway as it is Saturday and such but you know what I mean.
Kelly was over last night. Much fun was had. We chopped off the bottoms of her pants and I set some of it on fire. That didn't work out so well. The peice of fabric is in a cup of water in my room x.x;; heh . It smelled bad when I burned it, too. XD I accidentaly let my candles burn all night. Now I like, don't have candles X_X Heh. Kelly, I like TOTALY don't have candles XD
Now, I must say, Kelly is t3h Rock. She totaly rocks my socks, man. She is one of the three people I would trust with my life.
Kelly, Nee and Amanda. Those are the three people, besides certain members of my family, that I could trust with my life. I have unconditional love for those people. w00t for them.
Damn it's cold. It has been continuous cloud cover and rain/mist/drizzle for three days and doesn't look like it will let up any time soon. I'm actually really enjoying the weather. I love stuff like this.I've even loved it whilest freezing my fucking ass off working with the horses all this week. However, half the class I was working with couldn't ride today (Which was their last day) because of thunder and lightning. It was better than tuesday when we brought the horses out, it started to rain, started to thunder, took them back in, brought them back out, as soon as we get in the arena ther's more thunder, we take them back and then stand in the pouring rain. Oh well. I had a good time anyway ^___^
~Caro
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2004 16 June :: 11.57pm
Today was cold and wet and horsey smelling.
Woo.
~Caro
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2004 14 June :: 10.19pm
You know my best friend I was telling you about? That said I was "Goth"? We're friends again!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^__________^
~Caro
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2004 13 June :: 8.36pm
Another two sided coin.
Much funness at RPG today, even though Mandi couldn't make it. *Tear*
Ah well.
Alan wasn't there today, which makes me glad, as I hate being so unfortable as I am around him. It makes me very self concious. If Mandi starts coming, like we have planed, it may be less so. But untill then, I will be all like, "Ahhhh!!!" and such.
That was a rreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaally lame sentence.
(When I went to type "lame" just then I accidentaly typed "ramen" without looking. Mmm... Ramen...)
Anyway. So Mandi is probably going to become one of our happy little group. ^___^ It makes me glad.
We're hopefully gonna hang out on Friday or Saturday night, maybe go see a movie or something. ^.^ w00t!
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Yesterday my dad positively screamed at me in the car because he *Gasp* had to wait a whole hour for me at Medicine Horse which he didn't have to "Piss away". I was sobbing. It was not cool in the slightest. I was at a volonteer thing that ended at three and he thought he was supposed to get me at three instead of four which was when the therapy ended. He said I should have called. I DIDN'T KNOW HE THOUGHT THAT HE WAS SUPPOSED TO COME GET ME AT THREE!!! How was I supposed to know to call him!? I kept saying it was a mistake and he wouldn't stop yelling. HE said that it wan't a mistake, it was "inconsiderate". I said how could it be incosiderate if I DIDN'T KNOW? When we were just leaving I almost got out of the car and walked over to Mandi and asked for a ride home. My hand was on the seat-belt. When we got home I went up to mom and cried and told her everything and how he was so loud it hurt my ears. I continued crying and talking for a while and then Dad came in and said, "I wasn't yelling loud."
THAT was inconsiderate. He was listening. How could he DO that!?!?!?!? It made me so upset. SO upset. It just added on to the sobbing. I couldn't stop. At one point he had said, while I was sobbing in the car, "Why are you so emotional lately!?" I said, "I'm having some issues and...UHG! Why am I telling you this!?" "So you're having issues and taking it out on the whole family!" He said that like I was like my brother. I am NOT my brother!!!
~Caro
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2004 12 June :: 11.05pm
Eeee!!!
Amanda asked me out!
^________________^
I said yes. I am officialy dating someone for the first time!!!! ^______________________^
*Is madly happy* *Huggles Mandi*
~Caro
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2004 12 June :: 12.18am
Two sides to every coin.
On the upside: Just talked to my dearest Mandi. (Amanda)
I get to see her tommorow, much glee. Most of her friends just betrayed her, so she says she need a new group of friends, so she wants to share the guys with me, which I have no problem with. It actually makes me quite glad. It'll be nice to have another girl there. ^_______^
Probly gonna have her come to RPG on Sunday.
On the downside:
DAMN. I keep being out whenever Nee calls and it's PISSING ME OFF. RAR!!!!!!!
*Hyperventaltion*
Augh! I need contact with my best friend!!!!!
-_________-
grrrr....
Anywho. Those are the sides of my coin.
Another, less important coin is the following:
Upside: Went to the mall, got a wallet, got a shirt with Hello Kitty on it (Punk Rock style).
Downside: Had cramps the whole time and stayed so long looking for a Father's Day gift (around six hours) that my feet and back hurt like Hell.
There you have it.
~Caro
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2004 10 June :: 9.25pm
Mrrf.
I've realized that Hana is really pissing me off. I've been thinking about how she's always bitchy about everyone and everything. I mean, I still love her, she's great, but I mean, come on! Does she have to be so rude all the time? Geeze! *Hyperventalates*
*Deep breath*
Anyway. If there were such a thing as a capitol period, there ould be one after that "anyway". Rrrrrrrrrrrr......
I actualy met someone interesting on Harry Potter.com Go me.
I'm still happy about my purple streaks. w00t.
Nee, I'm really sorry we haven't been able to talk much. It's bugging me.
Love you guys.
~Caro
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2004 9 June :: 8.20pm
I have purple streaks in my hair.
Yay.
~Caro
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2004 9 June :: 2.58pm
Sunday Kelly and I got together again. 'Twas fun once more. There was much Tetrus playing XD
Yes. *Glances around shiftily*
She stayed the night again, fwee.
Hana came over on Monday to meet Kelly. She was really rude to her, which pissed me off a bit. Hana tends to be jealous of anyone she thinks is better than her at anything, or pretty-er. *Sigh* It's frustrating.
But she thought Kelly and I looked exactly the same (which we don't, at all), and I found that amusing. x.x
Yes. *Glances around shiftily.*
I haven't been able to talk to Nee for a while. I'M SO SORRY!!!! *Huggles t3h Nee.*
'Tis not cool in the slightest.
I'm getting purple streaks in my hair today. I'm exited. w00t. ^_^
Y es. *Glances around shiftily*
~Caro
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2004 6 June :: 10.03pm
Kelly and I went to see a movie at ten last night. 'Twas fun. We saw Mean Girls. It was actualy good! We got to the mall at like, eight thirty I think, correct me if I'm wrong, Kelly, and the movie wasn't untill 10:10 so we walked around the mall and all the stores were closed. So we sat down in one of these little sitting area things and talked. Then I got home at twelve thirty and drew until two thirty. I'm pleased with the result.
~Caro
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2004 5 June :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: in awe that she is still alive
Woah
I just had a near death experience. I know that sounds stupid but I am so glad to be alive right now. The horse I was working with spooked and got loose (Along with two others), knocked me over and just barely missed crushing me with her hooves. I swear, I was so scared. I thought I was toast. REALLY toast.seeing the hooves and horseflesh going over me was just so frightening. She managed not to step on me at all. No broken bones. I think I may have twisted my ankle but other than that all I have is a cut on my elbow and a few grains of dirt embeded in my hand. Thank you Goddess. If I had insence I would SO be burning it right now. I think I'll burn candles tonight. Geeze. I'm a bit shaken, but other than that fine. Events occured afterwards that brightened my day.
Much love to my friends.
~Caro
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