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2004 10 March :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: skool board meeting
hehe!
these people are givin me a good laugh. i find the things they say very funny. well im going to go listen to it. i will say more wen its over.
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2004 10 March :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: That duet we sing in GE...OMG IT'S SO REPETITIVE AND WON'T LEAVE MY BRAIN!!
lalalLALALALALlalalalaLALAL!!
today was great. well, it was pretty darn good.
ya know what i just realized? i am going to DIE when mss goes on tour. besides feeling extreme bouts of lonliness, (because all those beautiful people will be HALFWAY ACROSS THE WORLD!!) there will be SOO much less music in my life! NOOOO!!! don't leave me, mss and mr. shaull!!
quick overview of my day: (ah, procrastination.)
0: nonexistant. BUT I MISS YOU, MARCHING BAND! (and all you marching band people!!) ya know, i think i'll digress. *smiles* so. i saw terrance and howdy the other day in the library. what i've realised: I WANT TO HANG OUT WITH MARCHING BAND PEOPLE AGAIN!! WAHHH!! i find myself fatasizing about marching band camp already...*dreamy smile* but anyway, it was VERY nice to see you two!
2: p.e. gymnastics. bars. OW. we tall people have a serious disadvantage. oh well, i got a check-plus on vaulting, so i can manage a check (minus?) on bars. hrm. oh well. it's fun. we're all so supportive of each other! yay for really considerate, smart, compassionate, second period P.E. girls! (well, the ones in my group are fabulous.)
Brunch. sounds like crunch. uhm...talked and stuff. yeah.
4: girl's ensemble! we discussed going to egan at lunchtime to FORCE MORE PEOPLE TO JOIN THE CULT!! i mean...sign up for music classes to enrich their high school experience. :0) woohoo! fun stuff. we also discussed *dun dun DUNN!* next year's musical!! AHHH!! a few possibilities: fiddler on the roof (TO LIFE! IF I WERE A RICH MAN! MATCHMAKER (oh God, memories...love ya katherine and christiana!!) SUNRISE, SUNSET! MIRACLE OF MIRACLES!!) little shop of horrors (AHH HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE? FUN STUFF!!) and some other musical mr. shaull really likes. whatever it ends up being, i'm sure i will just LOVE it! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!! definitely. i like class discussions with mr. shaull. i have a lot of fun in the presense of that man. actually, chances are i'd have fun in the presense of ANY musical person. but ANYWAY. my BEAUTIFUL 4 bar phrase was used for dictation. (coincidentally, it was also written for dictation.) starting and ending on one, key of my choice, octave once, all major intervals, reasonable rhythm. but, of course, it is still a masterpiece. and it's still on the board!! LOL!! molly and i came to girls glee (yay for us!) and saw that it was still on the board. i was very proud. heehe. so molly wrote 'melissa's BEAUTY' or something like that by it. i wonder if it'll still be up there tomorrow morning...:0D well anyway, we sang a bit as well. lalala. yay for julia and sharon and the michelle's for doing the duet! oh, and michelle (the soprano...HAHAHA not that she would ever read this) you know that he's only so hard on you becuase he KNOWS that you would produce an AMAZING AMAZING (even more amazing than you already sound) sound if you just let go. i mean really, you should be incredibly honored that he's even so hard on you. well anyway, we love you.
Lunch: woohoo! yay for random, cold macaroni salad! oh, and we thought of a new way to do the whole sadie's asking thing. oh this is so much fun!!
French: one of the most hilarious class periods in a long time. oh, the JOYS of the french language and mme youatt.
so. we all knew there was going to be trouble when we learned the verb 'se deshabiller' (to undress) and Luc says something along the lines of 'deshabiller avec moi!' (to lady marmalade...hey! i just realized!! we just learned the verb se coucher!! ya know, voulez vous coucher?? ahhh!!) okay so it goes: voulez vous cocher avec moi, se soir? and luc added in deshabiller somewhere in there. (loosely trans: will you sleep with me tonight? (with the word undress thrown in there.)
so mme youatt is like: 'a qui est-ce qu'il dit?' and (now this is GREAT) charlie says 'A VOUS!' HAHAHAHAAHAHAAHHAAHAH!!!! (so now we're all thinking of luc telling mme youatt to strip and then seducing her...LMAO!!)
(oh, and this was partly to get backat luc for calling charle's figure (face) rouge (red) during another exercise. poor charles. but it was SOOO FUNNY.
other highlights: so we're learning reflexive verbs (i don't know if i already mentioned that) but anyway, the question was, et en francaise of course, "What do you dress yourself in for school?" Luc's reply: RIEN! (nothing!!) AHAHAHAHAHA!! so we all start cracking up immediately, but THEN, (now get this, OMGLOL) MME YOUATT SAYS: LUC, YOU ARE A PERVERT!! AHAHAHAHA!!! right in the middle of class!! and she was serious too!! oh man. i nearly died at this. i was laughing so hard i had tears in my eyes and my face was the color of my outfit (bright pink.) oh man. that was HILARIOUS!! oh, and then matt pronounced coucher (coo-shay) 'koo-chee'. it was funny.
oh and then girls' glee. no one showed up. it was FUN THOUGH!! YAY FOR GLEEFUL GIRLS!! so we sang a lil and discussed methods of getting more people to join. at one point, someone said 'but isn't next week's tuesday a thursday schedule?' (which it is.) HA. we'd only just discussed that in regards to egan timing for like half an hour in girls' ensemble.
right, so anyway, the sun is shining, and melissa has spent over two hours in mr. shaull's room today. oh, and she's happy.
but now she must go fais les devoirs. ah, zut alors! mais n'importe. il a ete un bon jour!
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2004 9 March :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: simple
:: Music: Aldersgate Street (from the church musical)
Simplicity and Revelations
My thoughts are all over the place today, and strangely simplistic. It seems as if I'm always reluctant to do anything without a complex, deeper meaning to it. It might be a combination of the weather and The Bean Trees, or just something I've concluded to on my own, but I no longer fear the "limitations" of a simple life. (And look at me, I'm still not writing especially simply. Oh well.)
I just finished reading chapters 8 and 9 of TBT. There are many serious issues being dealt with, but not in especially great detail or complex wording. Initially, I felt like I was being cheated somehow, that the author had so much to convey, and could elaborate further to what she alluded to. I realize that maybe she made the right decision in touching on important issues with recurring themes instead of piling facts and morality lessons into the story. This is where the reader is allowed to think about it in as great detail as they wish. In this way, TBT can be focused to a larger audience.
I'll bet that at least 30% of the people in Survey Comp/Lit have already missed the majority of clues Kingsolver has included in her novel that force the more serious reader to consider the world. Normally, this would infuriate me. How could they miss the incredible knowledge that could be absorbed and digested by this text? Then, in classroom discussions, I would appear bratty and superior, becoming frustrated with the lack of understanding of my peers. (Yes, this has happened many a time. Look out for Melissa during socratic semenars and debates, especially if you've been slacking.) Well that's how it was. But now, I realize that what little they have comprehended is enough. For all I know, they can relate to these issues far better than I ever will be able to. From my little studious, comfortable, rich white girl perspective of it all, I can philosophise about the hardships and pain of others, but can barely skim the surface of the emotional trauma experienced. This realization has given me a lot of respect for a larger group of people.
grrr. must ride horses. back later. what infuriates me the most is that i will no longer be able to continue this specific train of thought. in the words of winnie the pooh: oh bother.
more later.
Well, as usual, I have no intention of completing that train of thought. I'm really tired now. I can't ride my psycho thoroughbred after her day off, without bullpenning her!!, for over an hour. It is so physically draining, and just as draining mentally. Again, I got into one of those completely-focused states. I both love myself and bitterly hate myself (okay, that was a little melodramatic, i NEVER Hate myself) when I'm in one of those zones. I feel like I can do anything, and then, once my body gives out and I allow my mind to be pressured and worried, I've lost it. And that is one of the most disappointing things one can experience.
I don't want to do 31 pages of Bean Tree notes. It's really a shame that 1) I've been brought up to believe that anything less than an A and a near-perfect academic and extracurricular life isn't good enough and 2) In order to get into a good college, you must ________, you must also excell in ________, and take this or that class, etc. etc.
Who knows about the whole Sadies thing? It really is harder than I give guys credit for. Actually, it's really not. I'm just making more of it than I should. We'll see what happens...
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2004 9 March :: 4.28am
:: Mood: excited!
:: Music: none
Yippy!
well only 3 more days left till spring break!
cant wait till thursday nite..of next week. band trip. woohoo. parttay on the band bus all nite! lmao. im rely happy. we are going to atlanta and on the third day six flags. i get to fly on the superman ride! i can finally say "IM FLYINGGGGGGG" and not feel like a stoner. lol. well im gona go. l8ers.
luv ya.
jennyfer
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2004 8 March :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: content
PICTURES!! (if only the links would show up as links...)
i now present you...WALK ABOUT PICS!! (as selected from nicole's site by yours truly. :0D)
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=dd04.jpg –my MY those are luscious curves. Haha shut up. The pants make me look stupid.
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=aea7.jpg –proof of our intellect
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=c164.jpg –hiiii!! Wow, my shirt is low. And no, Nicole is not actually drinking. “NO, Nicole, I will not be seen with you and alcohol in front of teachers!”
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=42f0.jpg –cell phones!! (this wasn’t posed...of course not!) woah, it looks like I have arm muscle. Hahaha!
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=aff4.jpg –ALOHA OIEE!
http://f2.pg.photos.yahoo.com
/ph/nbadenov257@sbcglobal.net/detail?.dir=/f7d6&.dnm=d197.jpg –and NO ONE KNEW I was licking her. MWAHAHAHA! (and yeah, that line on my back is my beauuutiful scar. Pretty, ain’t it?)
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2004 7 March :: 2.23pm
interesting...
http://www.okcupid.com/personality?type=DGLD&g=2&o=1&h=170
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2004 7 March :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: in love
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!! *tear*
wow, that was beautiful. i'm going to go cry now. but don't worry, they're happy tears. AHHHHH YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!!
right then. *tries to control herself*
so last night was the koinonia murdery mystery party. unlike at concert choir camp, we actually finished it. (it was the same deal though, completely confusing and taking 4 and a half hours to finish. okay, well we had a course of dinner in between each round, but still!) funny, talented people we have in our church!!
chuck, virginia hebel's husband, came up to me and asked how 'the world famous clarinetist' was. he's so nice! i love that man! (virginia and chuck met for the first time in their high school marching band...:0D)
served communion to mr. shaull today. now that was strange. also ended up holding hands with him for 'shalom.' hrm. it's kind of cool.
wow, i cannot believe how affected i am because of the beauty of this one person. i'm seriously all teary-eyed. I LOVE THEE!! wow. i really, really do.
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2004 6 March :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: gc-h/o
la de da de da
hehe. i jst came home from the movies. i saw conf. of a teenage drama queen. it was good.
i have to stay up late tonite cuz im goin to the airport to get my aunt at like 11. fun fun. lol. im relly bored so i jst keep typin thngs like hehe lol, stuff like that. tis all good tho at least im happy.
band trip- 11 more days!! WOOHOO!
spring break- 5 more school days!
well im gona do sumthin else cuz i havent got a clue watt to writes.
luv yaz,
jennyfer
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2004 6 March :: 10.28pm
:: Mood: HAHAHAHA!!
:: Music: ...IS LIFE!
now read the directions!
this is very important. in order to fully understand and relate to the hilariousity that lies before you, you must read these things in order.
1) read the entry below.
2) read this passage below.
3) read the replies to that entry.
4) go to my friends page and read nicole (iwishtobemilkywhite)'s entry that is in the form of a conversation with me. *there are two. read her titles. (one says, read the entry BEFORE this one. do so. then read the entry above it.)
5) GO CRAZY LAUGHING!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! AREN'T WE GREAT??
LbBabe127: i hath posted and replied
LbBabe127: and my reply was extremely insightful
LbBabe127: so analyze it carefully
Horseeyoregal: i shall
LbBabe127: there may be hidden meanings
LbBabe127: for it is very deep
LbBabe127: and.. meaningful
Horseeyoregal: i hath replied
Horseeyoregal: wait
Horseeyoregal: i hath replieth
Horseeyoregal: in equal meaningful garble
Horseeyoregal: equally*
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2004 6 March :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: I LOVE MUSIC!!!!
laaaaaaaaaaaa lalalalaaaaa la LAAAA!
wow today was cool. COOLCOOLCOOLCOOLCOOL!
"Is that a choir I hear, singing the praises of God? No, the lord God himself is exhaulting o'er you in song. And He will joy (oy....oy-oy-oy) over you (oo-oo-oo) in song, and He will joy (oy...oy-oy-oy) over you (oo-oo-oo) in so(ooo in a disonant chord) (changing to make it major-ooo)ng. (and later...lalala) Put on that garment of praise, as on a festival day, sing, oh daughter of Zion in jubilant song!"
now isn't that great? in fact, it's SO great, that the 'is that a choir i hear?' has been my welcome message on my cell phone ever since i changed it from the 'boo! i KNOW i just scared you!' that ali programed into it earlier in the year. great chords. ya know, i guess i don't give jerry due credit sometimes. and the musical for this year (and auditions are when?? ha who knows) looks to be pretty good too. i guess church choir isn't ALL bad.
but, i have to say that it IS bad compared to EVERYONE AT THE FESTIVAL TODAY!! AHHHHHH!!! i sat down and seriously thought: now this is the closest to heaven it can get. okay, so maybe i was exaggerating just a bit. especially because my feet were in excrutiating pain. but WOW was that fun!! (i hope all of you upperclassman are touched at the honesty, simplicity, and open-hearted joy that music still brings to me. especially all of you negative-thinking mainstreeters. not that any of you read this. but IF YOU DID...)
i was talking with rachel after cc yesterday afternoon, and we've decided that: 1) i must stop being cute, intelligent, and ambitious. (apparently that's very attractive.) and 2) i must stop smiling.
why? I'M SICK OF UNWANTED ATTENTION FROM THE OPPOSITE SEX! (and yes, the fact that i used the word 'sex' WAS to get the guys to read that.)
wanted attention? now THAT'S another story entirely. but ummm...yeah. gosh, there really isn't anything more annoying and regretful when you realize what you had with someone (or a group of people...in fact, a group of people is often more powerful) that you don't have anymore for whatever reason.
wait. there is. potential. now THAT (and i'm surprised at how many people so quickly agreed with me on this at lunch the other day) is awful. i don't think i need to expand on this. both incredible potential and lack of potential (both of which are quite different in the eye of the beholder and in the eye of the observer) are extremely annoying. they really are.
so yeah. the festival was extremely enlightening and SOSOSOSO WONDERFUL! and was the guy not cool? he was SO cool! oh, and MAIN STREET: I LOVE YOU!!! *mwah!* bravo! GROUP HUG NOW! I LOVE YOU ALL! (some more than others...*wink wink* hahahaha oh wait, i was trying to be mature...)
oh well, maturity's gone out the window. just look at this conversation i'm having with nicole!
LbBabe127: thank you
LbBabe127: i need to be holy fucked
LbBabe127: teehee
Horseeyoregal: ha
Horseeyoregal: oh it'll be holy with him
Horseeyoregal: i bet he's GREAT in bed
LbBabe127: hahahahaha
LbBabe127: i love how we talk about this as if we're totally not virgins
Horseeyoregal: HA
Horseeyoregal: oh yeah
Horseeyoregal: cuz we so AREN'T
LbBabe127: you bet
LbBabe127: i mean i've had sex... uh..
LbBabe127: erm... a lot. hm.
Horseeyoregal: yeah...that one time...
Horseeyoregal: that was...almost like sex...but not...really...at all...
LbBabe127: hahaha
LbBabe127: exactly!
Horseeyoregal: can i put this in my journal?
LbBabe127: i mean, he winked at me
LbBabe127: and everything
i hope you enjoyed that.
OMG GUYS!! THE ALMOND WALK-A-BOUT IS TOMORROW!! little known fact: (shhh, it's a secret) I won the walk-a-bout medals EVERY YEAR from kindergarten to 6th!! from about k-4th, it was the top boy and girl in the GRADE. from 5-6 it was by class. by about 5th grade, it was 30 miles in 7 hours or YOU LOSE. well, that's what it was to me. i LIVED for that walk-a-about. became the bitchiest little elementary school straight-A student EVER to walk the planet (har har, that's sort of punny, right? just a little? sheesh, well I thought it was creative. lol :oD)on the walk-a-bout day. i didn't stop for ANYTHING. oh yeah. hard core walking, that's what it's all about!
but in life, MUSIC is what it's all about. and expression. and love. and happiness. TO LIFE! *fiddler on the roof music plays as the computer screen fades to black*
...and this is March 5, 2004, at 9:40 PM in the life of Melissa.
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2004 4 March :: 2.55pm
:: Music: Janet Jackson-Together Again
my new philosphy (that's a great song!)
i've been kind of hesitant to post recently... for some reason it's bothering me that i cannot possibly mention all of the events that have changed me in some way that happen on a daily basis. (woo, that was sort of a run-on.) i just feel like i don't give people enough credit for their impact on my life. i really, really am thankful for all of you.
sheesh, the momentary lapse of cold, windy, rainy, grey days has sure messed with my hormones...
so. concert choir is going well. i'm REALLY liking the power and skill of everyone around me. it motivates me to do better, and it is kind of a nice thought that there are like 75 other people that are also singing at the same time as me in case i mess up. *sigh* i am SO ready for spending the next 3 and a quarter years doing this. singing, that is. it was funny, i got all emotional during my bio presentation today. (about singing...) i kinda babbled on about how singing deals with physical, mental, and EMOTIONAL aspects of life. went a little overboard on the emotional...see what i mean about hormones? well, marcella said she thought it was really good, so i'll trust her on that.
random note: i was talking with de a while ago and today i TOTALLY saw what she meant. omg it's sooo cute i cannot even describe it. reminds me of me. awww!
and yeah, i am the strangest person when it comes to guys. honestly, the majority of the time recently, they've meant about a 3 to me on a scale of 1-10. and then i pass someone or other in the halls and it shoots up to 15 (again, out of ten) for like 2 hours and i just go crazy thinking about how mature, friendly, talented, ambitious this person/these people are. hmm. right. and then a guy called me last night (won't mention anynames coughYOUFLIRTTOOMUCHcough) and yeah. my priorities are still the same. funny, one's like mentoring the other right now. HUH.
nice weather. seriously.
who got a 93% on her math quiz after getting a 42% on the other one?? MEEEE!!! this doesn't exempt me from being screwed for the test tomorrow...but yeah. that was GOOD.
i'm getting a little fed up with the impersonalization of AIM. (was that a word? i'm not sure.) expression is just SO limited through wording sometimes! i feel like half the time my mood would completely change my outlook on what the person is typing. and then sarcasm can't be expressed...seriousness is hard to decifer...
tomorrow should be muy muy interesante. and just plain FUN. HECK YEAH! (that's my good christian way of saying it. HA.) *does a little dance*
ya know, i've been doing that a lot lately. just bursting out with some funky, random dance moves. must be the weather. (that's my new excuse, similar to the mrs. olsen's 'i'm pregnant, i can't correct papers' excuse.)
i'm taking history of art AP. and that is that. whoo.
cc in half an hour. should be interesting. second to last rehersal before the festival (not counting tomorrow lunch)
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2004 1 March :: 9.16pm
:: Music: the E.T. theme...it's really good!
i think it's time for an update. shall i?
well, it's been a week since my last entry. that's a long time for me. i just felt, out of respect, that i should keep that up for a while. there is a time when we must move on, though. and so i have. so, some recent events:
*happy birthday rachel!! we are all soo beautiful.
*played soccer with a bunch of people on saturday at egan. fun stuff!
*i've been having GREAT horseback riding lesson recently. i get really focused and then just perform really well.
*got another 'you need a better clarinet, you're not a beginner, you need a better instrument to carry out your potential' speech from my clarinet teacher. still thinking about that. i really think my heart is waiting to rediscover the oboe, though.
*alice? yes? no? maybe? i don't know. can you repeat the question?
*insane amounts of concert choir. (actually, i really don't know what i'm talking about. but it often feels insane to me.)
*i can be really easy in my mind. (right, that made sense, no? haha. make of it what you wish.)
*thinking about the friendships you've had in your past is comforting, but painful.
*i am quite possibly screwed in math, bio, english...etc. and then sometimes i feel like i can do it all no problem. the mind is an INTERESTING thing.
*my words were said (as well as my name given) at robbie's memorial service. i was very honored to be a part of it. wonderful service, full of closure. probably the most compliments i've gotten on a piece of writing in a long time.
*held hands with mr. shaull during 'shalom' today. it was kinda cool.
*heehee. i have a fan club. :0D
*festival friday!! eeeee!!! cooooool!
*possible camp unique emergency. hrm.
*i've been known to watch the history channel. oh lord.
so, are you fed up with the stars yet? haha. it's been a while, forgive me. je t'aime. et je l'aime. those are my beautiful, philosophical words for you.
great week. thank you.
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2004 23 February :: 10.05pm
in tribute to robbie
our youth group memorial service for robbie was very nice. for once, i really am struggling with how much needs to be shared about my recent experiences. i have never felt this kind of greiving that comes from someone familiar taking themselves away from us.
we shared memories and discussed his life. the hard part about it was that it wasn't a story of a successful, polite, friendly person. we laughed at his somewhat malicious intentions for our haunted house a few years ago, and struggled with remembering his interactions with each of us.
i had written a few pages about what robbie meant to me, and surprised myself by cutting in after about fifteen minutes of laughter and light hearted memories. i HAD to let it out of my system.
my voice faltered as i began the first paragraph. i shed a few tears as i read the first page. by the end of it, tears were streaming down my face, and i couldn't stop them.
i was the first to cry.
i would not be the last, and i would not be completely stable for the rest of the evening. there was a long silence after i read. one of the youth councilors started up the dialogue again by reading something he had written. we shared guilty feelings and tender emotions until about 7:50 (as chris so thoughtfully pointed out to us as the question 'so what do we do now?' was presented.)
we are going to make a tribute, a lasting recognition of robbie. maybe a collage, we're not sure yet. but something for the family, and something to put in the stuart youth center to remember him by.
after our ending prayer, stephen (the director of children and youth ministries and the pastor presiding at robbie's memorial service) called me over to him and asked me to sit down. he asked if he could borrow what i had written, (he figured it would be too much to ask if i read it at the service) but wanted to include some of it in what he was going to say at the service. there is no guaruntee that my words will be quoted at his formal memorial service on wednesday, but i am truly honored that he asked me if he could quote from it.
i think i'd probably rather not talk about it at school, but, as always, if i bring it up, i'd appreciate it if you would listen.
i might bring a copy of my tribute to robbie to school. it's an internal struggle whether to let people read it, and spread some memories of robbie to people who didn't know him, or to keep it sincerely private within my church family and parents.
his memorial service is this wednesday. i might be pretty...thoughtful and unhappy this week. i'm finding it harder to cope than i thought.
for all of you contemplating suicide: please, please don't do it. it's not worth it to realize how much you would be missed after you are gone.
"I hope that somehow he will realize that his life had meaning, and that even though his presence was usually unwelcome and bothersome, his lack of presence will be forever remembered and mourned." -the last paragraph of my written tribute to robbie
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2004 21 February :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: DCI Finals 2000-Phantom Regiment
AHHHHHH!!!!!
i want marching band. and you. WAHHHHHHHHH!!!
i'd also like to get my math homework done...but really, i'd rather fantasize about marching band and touring in europe.
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2004 21 February :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: sympathetic
*i really don't know if i could take the emotional strain of being a psychologist. i don't know how to become unattached to the situation i'm trying to "solve" (well, council and talk to the person involved or whatever.)
*one of my greatest pet peeves: people assuming things about your relationships (or, as brian would say, "close friendships" because i've never experienced a "relationship") GRRRRRR!!
*national honor band. OMG I WANT TO DO IT NEXT SUMMER!! omgomgomg it looks like so much fun! next summer, i am applying. definitely.
*woah there. got the city of los altos rec. dept. activity guide today. they spelled monologue m-o-n-o-l-o-g. and umm...ahhhh!! that's all i have to say about that.
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