DIE, GLOBAL....DIEEEEEEEEE
GLOBAL ONE NEEDS TO GO FUCK ITSELF.


AND FINALS NEED TO GO FUCK THEMSELVES.



AGH.

yet another EXTREMELY embarassing moment....
i come out of the english final and im walking in the breezeway. i decide to be cool and just cut onto the grass and get out of the breezeway, but of course i fail to see those stupid yellow ropes that the stupid gardeners put up to make u not walk on the grass and my sandal gets caught and i trip and fall on my face, my glasses go flying, and i get grass stains all over my knees and palms....worst part of all: all the little 8th graders were standing there and all saw and they laughed at me. one particular person (samara hart cough, cough) laughed so loud and pointed at me. what a bitch, jeez, its not like shes never tripped before. uggh. the little alben was the only one nice enough to ask me if i was okay, hes nice, i know him from stage crew. whatevs, theyre just our stupid "little sevies".
ive yet to decide if that embarassing incident tops the time when my bathing suit top fell off and i didnt notice.

im not having a good week in terms of klutziness, i fell down the stairs yesterday morning lol.


english final wasnt so bad, ive had a massive headache since this morning though. as i do more math problems for tomorrow i find myself dreading the final less and less. what frustrates me the most is that i can do as many math problems as i want at home and get them all right, and then as soon as i take the test, i make STUPID mistakes (i.e.:2x4=6) [yes, u make fun now, but ive actually done that....a few times. lol] maybe if i just pay more attention ill have flawless work tomorrow. i would love that.





english. math. italian. global. spanish.

ONE DOWN 4 to go.....summer, here i come :)

--heres to freshman year--
so thats it. thats really it huh? just a regular day, regular classes, regular people, regular stuff....and then you find yourself cleaning the crap out of your locker and throwing it into a huge white garbage bag, only in hopes of being able to lug it to your car without the bottom falling out and having your papers fly all over the parking lot. somehow, i seems surreal, i mean, dont get me wrong, i couldnt be any happier that its over, but it just didnt feel like the last day. theres was just no sense of closure to me, and i like to have that. i helps me to feel like its completed, and that theres no "unfinished business", as cliche as that sounds. anyway tomorrows the english final. i think ill be okay with that. all in all i think this years "end" if its even worthy of that name, has been pretty good. im saving my whopper of a woohu for after finals when i can reflect on my friends and yearly issues, so keep ur eyes out, its comin up :)

its like a dream, no end and no beginning......
last night in the city with all the girls was so much fun. i needed to go out and have fun with friends after yesterday, it really took my mind off my issues. bubba gump had quite the staff...dancing around and spilling ice all over the place, it was lots of fun. i didnt get a tee shirt though, i just thought i would never wear it, and it was my money, oh well. the ride there and back was really fun though, listening to all those songs from the elementary school days really makes u think about how much we've all changed, and how time really goes by fast. its kinda sad actually, i, like lauren, have a major problem with change. its something ive struggled with my whole life, and probably will for the rest of it.


i mainly studied today. uggh finals can suck my ass, thats all i have to say.

gabi and joannas cd is my life
and so is briggette
and so is josh :) im expecting a call from him soon...yay!


thats all for now, xoxo

so we have two days left....my mind is already on vacation.
thats it. im done. despite the fact that i still have 2 more days to put in, my mind has decided to be done for weeks, but i never realized that it could take such a toll on you mentally. im sick of this over-achieving town. im sick of report cards. im sick of tests, homework and those stupid award ceremonies. im sick of the people who start bugging out when they get a 98.

today was the worst day ever. i honestly bombed that math quiz, and that was my last chance for a b. i have a b minus, WITH THE PAPER AND THE BONUS PROBLEM. what happened to me? i used to be good at this. ive been so lazy lately, i cant even remember the last time i studied for a math quiz, not because i didnt need to (obviously i do, ive gotten c's on my past 3 quizzes) but just out of pure, unmistaken laziness. i have no motivation, what happened to me?

i sit here reprinting my newly revised stupid math bonus paper which she said "wasnt good enough" and doing the bonus problem. i came home and cried. i cried walking from math to italian....and it wasnt necessarily for my grade. it was for me. i used to be so motivated and so "study study study"....not anymore. i honestly dont know where that spirit went, but i wish i had it back. i wish i werent lazy, i need this b, so god help me: ms. a, please, have a heart. she saw me cry. i hate when teachers see me cry. maybe these 8 bonus points will bring it to a low b. any b will do.....any b at all.

i hate awards. i feel like i bust my ass for a whole year and i dont get recognized for it, when other people who are "naturally smart" and do nothing but get a+'s anyway the whole time get a certificate. i hate those people, u should have to work to do well. its so damn competitive. and i hate that i let it get to me. uggh god, thats it. please let me have the strength to make it through the end of this freshman year without breaking down....i cant afford to do that.

xoxo-danielle


ps- please disregard this entry if it offended anyone at all, im just blowing off steam. no harm meant.

wow, i havent updated in a really really long time
wow, i really havent. ive just had this major woohu dry spell, theres soo much to say, i just cant sit down and type it. ive been a lazy potato lately. sigh.

today was yearbook day, and not to echo erica, but i must say, i was a tad disappointed. i mean yea, it was a good yearbook, but some how i was expecting something GREAT......and some how it wasnt. its just not the same without the annual ugly disgust-o blow up picture of me, they were all normal. wat a change of pace. so i went to the doctor today. i was stressing out, MAJOR, but thats nothing new, as u all know, im not a fan. i had a lovely sharp fresh syringe filled with tetnus fluid to look forward to. i went and it wasnt all that bad, i didnt even cry this time. thats honestly one of the very few times thats happened, considering i was practically working myself to tears just picturing dr berman holding the syringe. ahh god, i cant even think about it now, i did get a really cool circus bandaid though :) and the next time i have to get a shot is before college THANK GOD, ive got a couple of years to be stress free before my check ups...wow thats a releif. they have pink finger prickers, they were pretty. thats pretty much all, that writers block thing is still happening which is why this entry totally sucked ass biznacthhhh. i hope i get my writing back before schools over, i need my yearly refelction to be a good one. im out for now, gunna go admire my circus bandaid, it has the cutest seals on it :P








***wow, im really unproductive lately, i didnt even fix this ugly woohu...ick, ill do it later, needa go take some tylenol, tetnus is a bitch :( :(

so excited for fire island next weekend!!!!
FIRE ISLAND IS A PLACE WHERE:
-you cant walk into town without saying hi to at least 3 people you know
-you walk around barefoot everywhere
-you know all the store owners by name
-you have no idea whats going on in the "mainland"
-wearing expensive clothes isnt an issue
-you can recognize the day trippers and first timers
-everyone owns old bikes
-everyone has at least one piece of kenny goodman jewlery
-every one of your friends houses are only a bike ride away
-a wagon or a bike is the most desirable form of transportation
-going to the beach is a daily activity for everyone

I LOVE SUMMERRRRRR

i found this particularly amusing.....
Mattel recently announced the release of Limited-Edition Westchester County
Dolls:

Bedford Barbie: This princess Barbie is only sold at Nordstroms in the
Westchester Mall. She comes with an assortment of Kate Spade handbags, a
Lexus SUV, a long-haired dog named Honey, and a cookie-cutter house.
Available with or without tummy tuck and face lift. Workaholic Ken sold
only in conjunction with "augmented" version.

Bronxville Barbie: This yuppie Barbie comes with your choice of Mercedes
convertible or Hummer H2. Included are her own Starbucks cup, credit card,
and country club membership. Also available for this set are Midge the
European Nanny and Private School Skipper. You won't be able to afford any
of them.

Chappaqua Barbie: This princess Barbie is a replica of Bedford Barbie, but
is sold at Bloomingdales and Nordstroms in the Westechester. She has an
assortment of Louis Vuitton and Coach Bags, and her Lexus SUV comes
complete with "Catch the Greeley Spirit" bumber sticker - specific sports
bumber stickers sold separately. Availible with fingernails and toes are
freshly manicured and pedicured and complimentary flip flops.

Croton Barbie: This doll is made of actual tofu. She has long straight
brown hair, arch- less feet, hairy armpits, no makeup, and Birkenstocks
with white socks. She prefers that you call her
"Willow". She does not want or need a Ken doll,but if you purchase the
optional Subaru wagon, you get a rainbow flag sticker for free.

Dobbs Ferry Barbies: There are actually two models available. One is a
duplicate of the Yorktown Barbie, and the other is a duplicate of the
Croton model.

Mt. Vernon Barbie: This recently paroled Barbie comes with a 9mm handgun, a
Chevy with dark tinted windows, and a methlab kit. This model is only
available after dark and can only be paid for in cash. Preferably small,
untraceable bills. Unless you are a cop, then we don't know what you are
talking about.

New Rochelle Barbie: There are two versions of this Barbie also. One is a
replica of the Scarsdale Barbie...she represents one section of New
Rochelle. The other Barbie is a replica of the Mt. Vernon Barbie who
represents the other side.

Peekskill Barbie: This English-as-a-Second- Language Barbie comes with a
1984 Toyota with expired temporary plates and three baby Barbies' in the
back seat, but no car seats. The optional Ken doll comes with a
paint-bucket lunch pail and is missing three fingers on his left hand.

Rye Barbie: Available only in the Summer, nobody is quite sure if Rye
exists throughout the rest of the year. She comes wearing a tennis outfit
and with her own boat.

Scarsdale Barbie: This is the only Jewish Barbie in the collection. Comes
with a lot of gaudy diamond and gold jewelry, wigs for every occasion, a
BMW 7 series and a Bloomingdale's credit card. Her husband Rabbi Ken is
sold separately.

Tarrytown Barbie: This doll comes with a complimentary EZ Pass for her
leased car, as well as a monthly pass for Metro-North.

Verplank Barbie: This pale model comes dressed in her own Wrangler jeans
two sizes too small, a NASCAR shirt, and Tweety Bird tattoo on her
shoulder. She has a six-pack of Coors Light and a Hank Williams, Jr. CD
set. She can spit over 5 feet and kick mullet-haired Ken's ass when she is
drunk. Purchase her pickup truck separately and get a confederate flag
bumper sticker absolutely free.

White Plains Barbie: This doll is quite a bargain as she comes not only
with her own car, but with her own parking space too! The only problem is
that the spot is a 3 mile walk from he $3,000/month studio apartment 4
miles from the train station.

Yonkers Barbie: This gum chewing, brassy-haired Barbie has a pair of her
own high-heeled sandals with one broken heel from the time she chased
Beer-Gut Ken out of Elmwood Park Barbie's house. Her ensemble includes
low-rise acid-washed jeans, fake fingernails, and a see- through halter top

Yorktown Barbie: This modern-day homemaker Barbie is available with Ford
Windstar minivan and matching gym outfit. She gets lost easily and has no
full time occupation or secondary education. Traffic-jamming cell phone
included, headset sold separately.

Green cards are not available for Peekskill Barbie or Ken.

global is over thank god----no more textbooks dominating my life :) :)

"then whats left of me, ill give to you?"- j.m.
its kinda sad. usually, i see this as such a secure relationship...someone i know i can always rely on, someone i see as one of the best people i know, someone i know who accepts my flaws and even when i act stupid and weird will be laughing with me, not at me- but lately this security hasnt been there. i feel like i went to sit down in a chair, but before my butt actually reached the seat, someone pulled the damn thing out from under me and now im sitting on the floor with nothing...by myself. every weekend we used to hang out, just do nothing, sit around and watch tv, go online, bake stuff. we havent done that since the week before april vacation. i used to get calls from her all the time, but now when i call her mom goes: hi! [that i havent spoken to u in the longest time voice], hang on a second....its danielle! [talking to her] remember her? i just feel like her time has been consumed with all this stuff lately, not that i can blame her for that, but she hasnt had any time---literally. she does stuff with other friends on weekends, but i dont go....3 movies in a row and i havent been invited to one. actually, i take that back, i was invited to the last one, but i cant help but think that the only reason y i was was because she was talking about it with someone in front of me. when i come to school in the morning, shes always off on her way with her morning posse to her class...today she didnt even stop to say hi. i walked over to her talking to someone she spends a lot of time wth now and stood there hoping, wishing she would say hi....NOTHING. when i make weird comments, which i am known to do, she no longer makes the wtf faces at me, she makes them to other people, in a mocking way. and although i know its just kidding, it hurts to know that shes not making the faces at me. shes doing it to someone else now. this has happened before, and it always hurts the same...ive been the most loyal friend there is- even when she didnt want to be mine. there just isnt any time for me any more. i cant talk to her about it, i just cant, i would start crying...its happened before. i dont want my best friend slipping through my fingers like this...i miss those blue cupcakes.

weirded out....
this may quite possibly be the strangest thing thats ever happened to me---
i just got out of the shower so i go to brush my hair, and i hit this knot. so i pulled the brush through it and it hurt a little and all of a sudden i just started to cry. i have no idea why....it wasnt because i pulled my hair, that barely hurt, just all of a sudden i started to cry. the weirdest part about it though, was that it took me a while to realize i was doing it, and when i did, i couldnt get it to stop, i must've been crying for 5 minutes....it was so weird, i cant figure out why----------

Newly Updated Top Favorites List!!
Ive decided that it was about time for me to compile a new list of things that i love in my current life- here it goes.....

#7--Reef Sandals: i honestly believe that these are some of the most comfortable shoes that i own. theyre so cushy and soft, and they do this thing where they mold to ur feet and make little indentations for ur toes and heel, theyre like customized shoes, whats better than that? plus, since theyre sandals it lets ur feet be free to breathe and people can see your shiny blue painted toe nails :)---if u dont already own a pair, i suggest u go out and get some.

#6--The 9th Grade Camp DVD: those of u that knew me in elementary school know that i have this obsession with videos of school events like the cirque de greenville and the caesar play---and now a new one for me to put in my collection, frost valley. not only is it put together really awesomely (word?), but the whole thing makes me really wanna go back. 9th grade camp was so important for our grade, and even if we did go back to how we were after the experience, we can say that we were a social group for 3 days. what really gets me is the music, i must say that i was kinda pissed that they transitioned zack borenstein's rendition of "wonderful tonight" into the original...wow i love acoustic guitar.

#5--Wearing Skirts: i love feeling girly and wearing skirts to school. i love warm weather so i can wear skirts to school. theres just something about being relieved of the burden of tight, stiff jeans that is just so wonderful...its fun for me :) lol

#4--Yellowcard, The Dave Matthews Band, and Rooney: theyre all so unique and so unbelievable. i could listen to their music all day long and be totally amused. it kinda surprises me that i like them all, but theyre awesome...if n e one wants some suggestions of good songs by those 3 bands, i have a couple good ones to spare, just ask.

#3--My *NEW* Glasses: theyre so "secretly sexy librarian-ish", i love it. ive been begging and begging for a new pair of glasses since the beginning of time and now i finally have them...yay! i love wearing them around 8-)

#2--My Week: theres just something about doing well in school, having only 45 mins of homework every night, feeling successful and loved by all the people that surround u that just makes u feel so happy. everythings been going my way, just perfectly...what a change from the past 2 weeks. in this week alone, ive scored a 90 or higher on all my tests, ive had only 45 mins-1 hour of homework each night, big red got booted last night on american idol, amy and ephram went to prom together, brad and cameran FINALLY hooked up, i made peer leadership which was something i really wanted, and i feel like im in a place in my life where all my relationships are just perfect. god, life can be good sometimes.

#1--Pediatric Aids Kids For Kids Benefit: this weekend im going to PAF with a bunch of people. i absolutely love it, i mean whats not to like? meeting famous people, free gourmet food, and free stuff which would otherwise cost mucho dinero. wow, i cannot wait for that.

I think this quote appropriately ends this entry, although i used it as my last post, ill write it again:
"Celebrate we will because life is short, but sweet for certain."
-The Dave Matthews Band