I LOVE LIFEEEEEEEE

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Celebrate we will, because life is short...but sweet for certain.
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FUCKING WEEKENDS GO BY LIKE ITS NOTHING AND THEN THE WEEK COMES ALONG AND DRAGS ON IN A MEAN TORTUROUS WAY---AHH I WANT ANOTHER WEEKEND, WHERE IS THE FAST FORWARD BUTTON ON TIME??

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well now that thats off my chest...
somethings been scaring me lately. ive come to learn that some of the people im friends with are so two faced its disgusting. its like, when they see you in the hallway they wave and smile and come and give u the hugest hug, then tell u that they love your new pants---but as soon as your back is turned they go up to another one of their two faced friends and say something like: omg can you believe what she was wearing today? it was absolutely the ugliest thing ive ever seen. as ive been paying attention to these particular people lately, ive noticed how mean they actually are. theyre all so judgemental with their comments and stuff, so quick to judge others even when they dont even know them....literally. and the worst part of it all is that its all rooted in their insecurities. can you imagine what life would be like if every time someone thought something it would be forced to come out of their mouths? or not even that, just imagine if the world was a place where everyone was themselves...there was no pretending, no insecurities. do you remember when we were little and we all used to pretend to be people we werent? we would dress up like mommies and put on makeup and high heeled shoes 8 sizes too big for our feet, and wheel our baby dolls with their arms falling off wearing stained clothes in their little plastic baby strollers, and we'd walk around the house on the "street" and talk on our pretend cell phones to someone named "honey" or "darling", bossing them around or complaing to them about how they'll be home late from "work". those few people who are still stuck in the past still pretend, but instead of putting on high heeled shoes 8 sizes too big for their feet and wearing clip on earings and a hat with a big bow that flopped down over their eyes so they could barely see, they put on a fake smile and cover up their real personality with a fake one that tricks people into liking them....even trusting them with information you know that they could use against you and then letting them, all because you thought that they were actually who theyre trying to be when theyre around you.

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next week is the pediatric aids kids for kids fair and i CANNOT wait. its gunna b crazy, i hope the weathers nice, it really was icky 2 years ago, that sucked. wow i cannot wait, its gunna b waaaay fun!

---danielle morgan

"take you away from that empty apartment..."
i got my report card in the mail today. god, if theres one thing that would fuck my week up, i shoulda known it was that---not that it was bad or anything, it was totally fine, just not up to my parents' "standards". my first b+ in spanish ever---they almost died. my mom was yelling at me like crazy, it was awful...and the stupid part is that she makes me believe that thats what im worth....a b+, and even though thats a good grade, she makes me feel stupid---both of them did. and with math, nothing even happened with that grade, i have my solid b for the whole year so far and they were disappointed in that one because they "thought i was going to get a b+", which all of a sudden had become acceptable to them. and in global, i have an a-, which is awesome, but to them, its not acceptable because its less than my usual a. i mean sure, i was a little disappointed when i saw some of my grades dropped, no one likes when that happens, but i wasnt dissatisfied with them, they still managed to stay in my acceptable range, but they didnt exceed my parents' expectations. god that makes me sick, it was awful when my mom was yelling at me....i cried. i dont know why, i wasnt disappointed in myself, but it just reminds me of that day when i got a b on my math test [once again, not bad], but my dad said "you have to do better" and stared me down---once again, even though i saw it as acceptable, the way he said it and how he looked at me made me feel so stupid, like "how the fuck could u get a b and not be distraught danielle?". im not perfect, i dont get a's in everything, and im okay with that, i dont know why they cant be....



.......and what makes me feel even worse is that as all parents do, they see me as perfect, so i know it kills them even more when the imperfections surface.

you know, its funny...how movies can make you think. the other night i saw the weirdest movie, it seriously was one of the weirdest movies ive ever seen. it was sad and depressing, and also disappointing to see how some people actually live. it was about this innocent girl whos life became corrupt because of this new lifestyle she decided to try out. she would steal stuff and smoke and drink and do drugs and have sex and lie and cheat and cut herself and she let her family life go down the tubes. she was in 7th grade. her mother would tell her that she loved her and she would tell her to "fuck off you stupid bitch". that absolutely killed me, but it was 10 times worse when she would say those things because all i could think of is how much it must hurt to open your heart to someone by telling them that you love them, and not having that love returned, i know that the first time i experience that im going to cry. just watching it happen to that mother in the movie made me want to cry. and the worst part of it all is that every time that scenario would happen i would see me and my mom. not like i tell her to fuck off bitch when she says i love you to me, its just that a lot of times when she says it to me, i find myself saying "thanks". it makes me feel horrible now, i mean i cant believe i say "thank you". i cant even imagine how horrible that must make her feel. im not doing that n e more, just because me and my mom dont get along all the time doesnt mean i should be so cruel. uggh god, i need to get my act together. i feel so awful.

-danielle

queries of my wondering mind.....
as i was taking a shower, my mind somehow wondered off onto this tangent which inspired me to write:
if theres one thing that i hate about other people is how they sort of take one picture of you and assume that thats how you always are...how you always will be. [ill put this a couple ways because i dont think that sounded as clear as it did in my head]. people that you know have this image of you, kind of this mold made out of unbreakable, immovable material, that if you fail to fit into because for one day, for an hour, or even a minute you decide to deviate from that mold, they are absolutely taken aback by that. its about images. its about how people see you as what you "appear to be"----and it makes me think that if the people you think know you best are the ones to be surprised when you struggle to reshape that mold, why are they the ones who supposedly "know you best"? i know, that we've all tried to dent our molds every once and a while, you know, test something new out---find a new...."shape". sometimes its hard for others to accept this new shape we want to take...it freaks them out. i know we dont like change, because ive been the one whos been freaked out before, but when you think about it, if no one dented their molds every once and a while, no ones mold would have room enough for them to grow.

[make it up urself]
okay so i guess ill start out with my vacation---
went on a cruise with my family and the glickmans and had the most amazing time everrrrr. i honestly dont remember the last time i had so much fun. just the thought of being out in the middle of the ocean with no where to go and no one to disturb you is just so relaxing, and thats the one word i would use to describe this vacation. despite the fact that i got back to the room at 2 every night and woke up early every morning i must say that i came back refreshed as ever. theres nothing like a taste of summer to brighten my day. we met this girl jaclyn who was absolutely awesome and we hung out with her every night, we all skipped from group of friends to group of friends until the last night, and with each group finding a new joke or something to laugh about. wow i wish i could go back, and OMG do i miss that food! everything about it was just perfect, it was one of my favorite vacations.
All My Crusin Buddies:
*French Harvest
*J-Dawg
Kirk Cameron
Kirk Cameron's brother
Jorge
Big Poppa
Capers
Japers
FEVESSSSSSSSS
Chew-n-spit
"Jake"
Hot kid with glasses
Hot Brad
Hot Pennsylvania Andrew
South Carolina
Devil Children 1 and 2
Fat Bitch
Fat Bitch's sister with the baby lobster
Hot kid i wanted to meet but never did
PA Brittany
Loser Slut
Girl With Big Teeth
George/Frank

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and back to the wonderful world of edgemont.....my first day back was okay, ive talked to josh a few times which was good after not hearing from him for a week, god i missed talking to him :)
its interesting---i always knew that i loved the guitar, but today when we were sitting in english the guitar advocacy was in the next room and i could hear them thru the wall. that instrument is absolutely INCREDIBLE. my mind just wanders when i hear it, and honestly, when i hear the sound i just smile. i feel like such a doof, but omg i just LOVE it. its so soothing, so---ahh, i cant even describe it. it almost brings tears to my eyes. its so beautiful. im definetly going to learn how to play one day.

**********and i said baby, ur gunna be the one that saves me, and after all, ur my wonderwall **********

----dml

VACATIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
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I adopted a cute lil' giraffe fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!


ahh yes, the joy a fetus can bring to ones life, i cant help but smile when i see this "fetus" lol. im leavin for my cruise tomorrow....wayyyy excited!
love love love and more love- dan morgan

9th Grade Camp= LIFEEEE
i must say, before leaving for 9th grade camp i was kinda pissed to be going. it seemed so unappealing...small rooms shared by 6 mirror hogging girls, cold weather, in the middle of no where---i didnt want to go nor did i see the point of it. they tell u it helps you to bond with the people in your grade, but i didnt believe that for a second. we're talking about people ive known anywhere from 3-10 years, i know them all so well already wtf do i need to go to frost valley for? i cannot even explain how important this experience was for our grade. although i was so quick to assume that i knew all these people so well already, i learned so much about people i thought i knew like the back of my hand. u dont realize the amount of drifting that u do with people over time-- there were people who i used to be so close with who if im lucky i get to say hi when i pass them in the hall everyday now, that i got to finally spend time with after all the time that has passed. i learned that i have some of the most awesome people in the world as friends, and even made some new awesome friends too. the seniors were awesome and made the experience that much more enjoyable :) the last night is one night i will never forget...the talent show was soooo funny and the dance was soooooo much fun, we were all dancing up a storm!----EVERYONE, yes EVERYONE, even the GUYS!!!!----- 9gc gave everyone a chance to grow and branch out among other people, and it helped to bring us all closer together. this grade which i have always been so frustrated with just transformed into this awesome group which ive always wanted. frost valley was an awesome time---incredible memories with incredible people...
hu12 and gGgGgG Green Unit love u all
xoxo-dml

tell me what u thought about when u were gone and so alone....
although most of it was spent in front of a computer screen typing things for english and having my face stuck inside a book (not that i minded that, harry potter is the best), i must say that it was a pretty good weekend.

yesterday i went to the mall with meredith and stephanie, there was nothing at the mall but we did manage to run across the street between the mall and the cheesecake factory 3 whole times in 6 degree weather. we were originally gunna eat there so they told us to come back in a hr to get our little pager thing (ran to mall time #1), we came back and hr later to get our pager (run to cheesecake factory #2), lady tells us that its another hour, so we tell the lady umm no and we got some YUMMY cheesecake and went back to the mall (run to the mall time #3), we ate our "designer" cheesecake lol meredith with ranch 1 and then ran around the mall saying MAH-HAH really loud as we passed people and discussing the origin of cherilyn and merediths word GNA. good times girlies good times. i heart meredith's facial expressions during her GNA fits.

GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA GNA

i also discovered a new song thanks to miss lizzy which i absolutely love...check it out:

"Best of Me"-The Starting Line
tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

here we lay again on two separate beds
riding phone lines to hear that familiar voice
and pictures brought from memory we reflect on miscomunication
and misunderstandings and missing each other two
much too without you, let go

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone the worst is over you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you

we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss girl
we will kiss girl

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont
feeling that we cant
we're not ready to give up

we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up