the best of whats around

1 step | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 23 June :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Jewel~Intuition..She is too cute lol SK

It's been a couple days and I have absolutely no idea where I left off last...Oh yeah...Saturday...
So I played murderor with my 5 minus 1...SK is in Disney World...

Yesterday I hung out and had a BBQ w/ neighbors..It was yummy, my dad is such a good cook! :)

Then I watched the Yankee Game...HAHA suck that Met's fans...It's truly a hopeless cause...The Mets will never beat the Yanks...They are the ultimate best...So you might as well stop hoping and switch over to the light side...hehe I think im going Sunday for the mets/yanks at Yankee stadium...I am soooo excited!

My mom is okay for now, I think everything with us is a little less tense. I really like it this way!

Today I went to Scotts pool party...Me, Hilary, Elise, Stacey, and Kate were the only girls there...It was really fun though actually..I had a really good time...It really started to feel like summer...Pools, warm weather FINALLY...Then I came home, showered, put in this John Freida Highlight stuff and sat out.

Tonight I'm gonna do something with my gurls I think..I need to spend as much time as possible with them...I'm gonna miss them so incredibly much...

But I am so freakin excited about summer....Nothing on this planet makes me happier at the moment than the fact that i DONT have to go to school tomorrow, next day, next etc...I just can't stand summer reading ugh

BTW...Thursday night my parents were giving me a " surprise " we went to Cirque Du Soleil...It was sooooo cool and soooo fun..I can't believe I forgot to include that in my last post!

Well I gotta go play text twist, or watch TV, or lay outside or do WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT COS ITS SUMMER!!! YAYAYAYAYAY!!

Please write me...u know the address!!! I will miss you all madly !

I LOVE EVERYONE AND THE WORLD...HAVE AN AWESOME KICK-ASS SUMMER!!! YOU DESERVE IT!

*Peace*
FoReVeR & aLwAys
Gabriella
Gabs
Homie G
SK
MyMami
Taco
Smurf
DT Lover (baisers)
Goobs
Aci
Fellow IHH member
Gabi
or whatever you may call me...MUCH LOVE!

Lizzy

:: 2003 23 June :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: The Ataris "I'll remember you"

You said I love you baby, without a sound...
Hey. Anyway, a lot of you are in school right now- haha! hehe....sorry guys...love u anyway...So, on Saturday first I lazed out and then my Mom and I picked up Amy and Katherine. We went to Borders, to get our Harry Potter books! We had a pretty fun night: reading, lol, online, eating, beading, talking. In the morning we wanted to tan so we got all ready, then went outside. We stayed outside for maybe 10 min, cuz the weather was yucky. Anyway it was a fun fun time. I came home and curled up with Harry Potter the rest of the night. At 12:15 a.m. i finished. And was quite disappointed...the end, was like retarded and didn't give like any new info! I mean...i read 867 pages...for like, nothing to happen. If anyone has any opinions about the new book, feel free to share. Then this morning my mom called and i let it slip that i stayed up "late" to read the book. So then she goes ballistic and says now my bedtime is 10:30! This sux. Why am i like the only kid still with a bedtime??? grrrr...today i have like a thousand chores to do for my mother whom i'm not that fond of at the moment. Poop. And i want to talk to people but too many of u r in summer school...:(

6 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

3 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 23 June :: 1.03am
:: Mood: **lovestruck** :o)

yesterday i had to clean my room. ... cuz anda and her sister were coming over for dinner.. and andrea was gonna sleep over.. so then at 6 they all came over.. it was actually semi-fun.. then they left and me and andrea watched donnie darko.. SHE thought the chut up thing was funny lol. all u guys thought it was mean of me! ... and we made brownies.. with.. olive oil. lol. smart. the batter was gross but they turned out good.. then we just hung out talking and stuff till like, 4 am, and we figured since she was supposed to leave at like 10 we should go to sleep.. but at 9:40 when our alarm rang her mom said she could just sleep cuz we were beat.. then i set my alarm just in case for 11:40 if we didnt get up cuz i was sUPOSSED to be at emys at 1.. but even when it rang i was still .. not woken up . lol. so , i told my dad we had to leave by 12:15 cuz we had to drop her off too , and hes like ok sure, and.. we left at 12:40 lol. and its a 40 minute drive from MY house to emys. sooo.. we dropped her off then daddy sped like crazy down the turnpike.. and we actually got there pretty fast.. (he was doin like 90 mph lol ) .. and .. :o) i love him so much.. i get all .. giggly inside when i see him, like i cant ever wipe the smile off my face, and, i dont know, hes just so amazing :o) .. we "hung out" in his room for a while.. saw some of catch me if u can lol.. then we went to see "alex and emma" cuz he knew i really wanted to see it.. :o) , and , lol, its sunday old people night i guess and there were a lot of old women in the theatre, the movie wasnt ALL that great, it looked a lot better in the commercials, like, i remember during the movie thinking ok this is kind of stupid.. but in the end it was cute.. and the sarcasm throughout the movie was funny.. maybe cuz im sarcastic all the time lol. but emy was a good sport :o) .. now that i look back on it it was a kinda good movie... overall.. i dont know lol. whatever. i dont need to see any love story movies.. mines a million times better :o) .. i wouldnt give him up for anythingggggg. so then we went back to his house and.. hung around in his room again lol.. and mr. radu ( his uncle, dads frined, my dentist )was already there so instead of my dad coming to get me he just took me home... i was really.. sad when i had to leave :o( . i wish i could stay in his arms forever and ever and ever and ever. theres no other place id rather be :o) , he makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside..tehee. i feel like im at the top of the world when im with him and that life couldnt possibly get better.. but then, i turn and look at him, and, it does, hes the best :o) . so .. yeah. mr radu drove me home.. looong ride.. we talked about roads and driving and shit lol. hes like thats a new road im like no its not its been there for months hes like IVE BEEN DRIVING HERE FOR 6 OR 7 YEARS ITS NEW!!!! im like.. ehm.. ok.. little too much wine for u tonight.. lol. i have an appt. with him tomorrow :( . o well. so i came online and talked to my sammy about some stuff ;) lol .. and ehm.. i had an.. interesting? talk with my dad lol.. i went down to have some brownies.. and hes like.. so is his mom warming up to you ? im like, ....sure? hes like well is she being nice ? im like.. yeah.. as opposed to what ? hes like, i dont know, you know women, shes all upset cause youre stealing her baby from her , youre messing with her baby. im like. EXCUSE ME!>@>@ lol.. i was like... wooow. didnt need to talk to dad about that . lol. every time i go see a movie or something with emy hes like... sOOOOO .. did u actually see any of the movie ? or, was it one of those movies that you have to look at the ticket stub to see what it was ? .. its like.. DUDE STOP!! lol. dont need to talk to HIM about my personal life.. any who.. ive been trying to go to sleep.. but i cant.. i cant stop thinking about emy :o) i wish he was here........

1 step | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 21 June :: 2.05pm

this ones for sam.....
"tokyo breakfast"

::entry music ::

dad: good morning nigga

son:good morning to YOU, nigGAAAA!

dad:your stock was down nigga,
motherfucking kjdhfjskd industries, one crazy nigga!

son:damn, this stock market is one unpredictable nigga, nigga!

son:hey mom, what you cookin, nigga ?

mom: your favorite nigga, chicken and waffle

son: bitch, you my numba one nigga!

mom: :o! hold on my niggas! whasa missing here?!

all : OOOOOOH

dad: are we some dumbass niggas or what

:: mom turns on rap and all start gettin there groove on. then grandpa walks in and all goes silent::

grandpa: whassup niggaz!

son: yo, grandpa, whats with all that crazy gear, nigga?

grandpa: oh, i go out for rest of day. anyyybody call for your granpa, you tell them this nigga...gone fishin!

::daughter enters , on cell fone ::

daughter to friend on phone: eeh uhhhhh huntunheeeehh uuuh uhhhh uhhhhh UHH GUYMEH! HOYTONE! UHHH sawlala!!!

::hangs up::

daughter:what!

dad:WHAT?! what ! i tell you whaT! your reportocardo is down nigga !

daughter:its not so bad!

dad:not so bad! you failed everything except animejon!

daughter:so WHaT! i dont need a school anyway!

dad: you dont need a schOOOOOOOUOUOUOUOUL? if nigga no go to sCHOOL, nigga no get a job. if nigga no get a JOB, nigga no make no money! if nigga no make no money, nigga no be able to afford bmw 7 series niggggaaaaa !

::daughter whimpers::

dad:there there , my little nigga
::dancing resumes::

delivery guy: YO! someone order a case of 40's?

family: WE DID, NIGGA!

..lmfao....ahh thats great.

http://www.supercoon.com/video/tokyo_breakfast.asx

:: 2003 21 June :: 12.54pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: STUDENT RICK - falling for you

( see music. lol sam, FOUDN IT! )
i feel like i accomplished so much by finding who that damn song is by. lol. well . good song, i like. anywho. this past week ive been alienating myself from everyone . kinda needed my space and stuff. sry if i sent wrong messages out by that. i just needed some alone-psycho-analyze-my-life- time... i think it did me some good. i think im just hanging around here today, tonight people are coming over for dinner ( joy ) , and tomorrow im going to emys :o)

2 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 21 June :: 12.24pm
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: Z100...

Hey!!!
I really don't know what quixotic means, but it sounds cool...I hope it doesn't mean like high or anything...In plain language I'm pretty happy :)

So last night was Aarons party...It was sad...I had fun with my SK me-owww lol..Then I went to Gersh's til like mid...haha it was really funny...

My Mother is driving me CRAZY...AHHH, I need to relax because I seriously might hurt her...and vice-versa...Oh well...I'll live, and don't worry I'm not one of these people who are like "fuck my mom, she deserves to die, I want to poison her...OK let me go get high/drunk." I really am not like that...I think that's awful that someone can talk about their mom like that...But that doesn't take away from the fact that she makes me go insane.

AHHH...that annoying UH-OH never leave, song just turned on...Kate where are you???

Anway..Im not sure what Im doing today, mall, helping SK pack for FL...stay tuned

UGH WTF IS WITH THE WEATHER??? I think I've just about had it...this is ridiculous...where are u sun??? Where are huding??? ughhhhhh

More Later
*Peace&Love*
Forever^Aci~

Lizzy

:: 2003 21 June :: 9.41am
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Midtown "Perfect"

Yesterday was sam's shingdig...that was really fun. Rach and I finally got to give our gifts- yay! Most of the day we all hung out together- Bryan, Rach, Sam, Celine, Alex, Rich (for a bit) and me. Some highlights: when Bryan blew the flame onto Sammy (lol u KNOW it was funny!), alone time w. bryan, wen rocky threw up and alex had to pick it up (even tho that was gross!), pretending to be canoodling with rach under covers, everyone piled on the bed, pretending we broke celine's vibrator, and it was just a fun dia! Thanks celine for hosting. Today i will probably be hanging with amy + katherine...and getting harry potter- yea! Well gonna go...has anyone noticed woohu has their times messed up?

4 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

4 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 20 June :: 12.07pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: switchfoot- dare you to move

chut up
MOTHERFUCKING COMPUTER I JUST DID HALF THIS SHIT AND IT WENT BACK !!!!!!!!! RRRRRRRRR........anywhooo.. stole this from katherine

Name: christine
Do you like it?: not the full version, at least not usually, i feel like, its just, ,,, , i dont know, sometimes i feel it doesnt suit me, and its so, blah, lol, w/e
Nicknames: cutie head :o) that ones my favorite, nini, christini, woman ( often used by sammy to many people, it becomes more common than your own name. )
Screen names: princessmarty34
Birthday: december 12, 1987
Sign: sagitarius
Location: boca
School: atl
Status: taken :o)
Crush: my emy
Natural hair color: a medium brownish color
Current hair color: ehm, for the first 5 inches or so from the top the browns growing back in , then, its like, remainders of 2 major highlighting sprees, sun, basically it turns a dirty blonde.
Eye color: brown
Height: 5�6�
Birthplace: POUGHKEEPSIE, NY
Shoe size: 8

[ family ]
Parents: mircea ( dont even try to pronounce it. ) and maria
Siblings: michael
Live with: mom dad bro and grandma
Favorite relative: living.. daddy

[ favorites ]
Number: 7
Color: right now, orange, and green
Day: christmas :o)
Month: december
Song: hm, theres a lot, for all the different categories, for instance,
poppy/rock music : simple plan- grow up
realll rock - ehm, i dont know theres lots, but right now its Live- Heaven
that whole, matchbox 20/3 doors down kinda thing - Be like that
Movie: shrek, finding nemo, a walk to remember, ehm i duno dont feel like thinking, OH! BILLY MADISON!
Food: grilled cheese.. ive become a pro with my new idiot-proof grilled cheese maker lol
Band: right now, all american rejects
Season: winter
Sport: swimming
Class: PE with coach skinny legs lol natalia.. the good old days of sittin on yer ass not doin shit....
Teacher: mr. todd -- i miss him!
Drink: agua, or sprite, or DIET coke, or iced tea, or dr pepper, lol
Veggie: ehmmm... i count tomatoes as veggies, lol, but, oooh POTATOES! (do those count ? --probly not )
TV Show: boy meets world, lizzy mcguire, even stevens, gilmore girls, the nanny, WIL AND GRACE, friends, everybody loves raymond (thos are prettty much the only things i watch lol ) if u havent noticed im a complete disney girl
Radio Station: 94.9 zeta
Store: pacsun, ross !! lol
Word: chut up .. hahahahaha lol
Animal: monkeys and penguins
Flower: roses
State: California

[ this or that ]
Me/You: you
Coke/pepsi: pepsi
Day/night: night
Aol/aim: aim
Cd/cassette: cd
Dvd/vhs: dvd
Jeans/khakis: jeans
Car/truck: car
Tall/short: tall
Lunch/dinner: i havent eaten dinner in a few months.. so, lunch lol
NSYNC/BSB: neither, they both SUCK�but if I must�nsync ( amen to that katherine! ) i remember when i used to love them... ::stabs self ::
Gap/Old Navy: gap
Lipstick/Lipgloss: lip gloss
Silver/Gold: silver
Alcohol/Weed: alcohol

[Describe Your...]
Personality:
christini : loud-ish, silly, giggly, probably annoying, fun to be around
normal christine : more shy, quiet, usually keeps to self, depressive, moody
Driving: i could be.. but, dont really wanna lol
Car or one you want: my olive green shiny pasat :o)
Room: under construction.. soon to be : white walls with aqua sponge paint on 2, lime spongepaint on the other 2, friends collages, band posters, etc.
School: this is gonna be fun. lol . ok. theres the "ima beat the shit outa u boyyy" ghetto people (majority of school) , the IB nerds, the BOCA crowds, ok im done here
Relationship with your parents: umm. dad, sometimes pisses the hell outa me, sometiems hes cool and we hang out, mom, sometimes is nice, usually annoying, bitchy at times

[Do You Have]
Any sisters: nope
Any brothers: 1
Any pets: 2
A disease: depression ? lol, at times, and paranoia (not a medical disease as u can see.. )
A pager: who the fuck still has pagers?
Personal phone number: no
A pool or hot tub: pool
A Car: pssh

[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf?: yep yep :o)
Do you have a crush?: emy
How long have you liked him/her?: ehm.. 1 year and.. 4 months?
Why do you like this person?: hes reallly really sweet, hes cute, hes kind, considerate, cares about me, listens, hes gorgeous :o) , hes smart, funny, as stubborn as i am, rare quality lol, uhm,, hes just perfect :o)
If you're single... why are you single?:
If you're not single... give details...: didnt i just do that?
How long was your longest relationship?: this one.. almost 4 moths now
How long was your shortest relationship?: 4 or 5 days ?
Who was your first "love"?: ....vince.
What do you miss about them?: he used to be a good person.. and really sweet.. but.. yeah. lol. ive grown to not really miss it anymore, but if i had to pick something, thatd be it

[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past?: last april
Last thing you heard: switchfoot - you
Last thing you saw: ...the monitor?
Last thing you said: chut up , lol
Who is the last person you saw?: grandma
Who is the last person you kissed?: emy :o)
Who is the last person you hugged?: real hug, emy :o)
Who is the last person you fought with?: probly emy
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: missy
What is the last TV show you saw?: even stevens, and that robin williams on broadway thing.. MAN THAT IS SOME FUNNY ASS SHIT!!!! i was like cryin lol
What is the last song you heard?: rachel lampa- if you believe

[ the present ]
What are you wearing?: flowery tank and plaid pants, oh no...
What are you doing?: this?
Who are you talking to?: no one
What song are you listening to?: rachel lampa - if you believe
Where are you?: my room
Are you online?: dont i have to be....?
How are you feeling?: bored.. sleepy.. should be doing daybook...
Are you in a chatroom?: no, chatrooms are gay

[ future ]
What day is it tomorrow?: saturday
What are you going to do after this?: eat, brush teeth, work on daybook, watch tv, read, swim maybe?
Who are you going to talk to?: uhmm .. i dont know.
How old will you be when you graduate?: 18
What do you wanna be?: pshychologist/psychiatrist/shirnk/counselor kinda thing
What is one of your dreams?: get married to emy after college, :o) , move to northen cali and visit australia!!!!
Where will you be in 25 years?: cali ? or.. idk lol. maybe australiaaaaaa
[ have you ever ]
Drank?: yes
Smoked?: no
Stolen?: from friends, well "stealing" , like, u tell them lol, so no not really
Done anything illegal?: who hasnt
Wanted to die?: YES.... not at the moment though
Hit someone?: every day
[ other ]

Do you write in cursive or print?: print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: righty
What is your sexual preference?: uhm, lol
What piercings do you have?: ears
Any tattoos?: no
Do you drive?: no
Do you have glasses or braces?: invisilign
Did you like this survey?: sure pal, actually, ive seen better.. OOOOOH!
What do you most like about your body?: sometimes my hair, when it looks good, im liking my feet right now lol.. dont know why..
Do you think you're good looking?: lately ive thought that.. not usually though
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: yeah sometimes
Do you look like any celebrities?: ive been told, but i dont think so

[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch?: usually, well, not lately
How many coats and jackets do you own?: like 2
Favorite pants/skirt color?: denim
most expensive item of clothing?: besides ski stuff, probly my abercrombie jacket.. i dont even wear it anymore.
Most treasured?: hmm my big baggy quicksilver shorts :o) theyre so perty. and my reefs.
What kind of shoes do you wear?: reefs, and other filip flops, sometimes, well, rarely sneaks

Lizzy

:: 2003 19 June :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Toploader "Dancing in the Moonlight"

Everybody's feeling warm and bright...
Hey well the last few days have been pretty fun. Yesterday afternoon, Rachel came over. We watched old tapes of me, like dance recitals and the infamous shower scene...if any1 remembers that from bird's class...say ay! Anyway lol...then we went online and learned about nude camps from ashlei, wow VERY interesting. As Rachel said..."What kind of parent sends their kid to nude camp?!" But w/e...then we ate, talked online some more, played scattergories, and then jigsaw puzzles...hehe...got another one addicted...sam h if ur out there...lol. So that was pretty fun...then bryan and i talked at night, about old memories and stuff, sweet stuff..

Today Katherine, Amy, and I got together! Yea! It was really nice to see amy and to be together again...anyway, we got to her house and beaded cool bracelets! We also looked at pics and watched movies...hehe clue! "This could've happened....but this is what really happened." We were gonna see the italian job, but decided not to. We decided to see Finding Nemo cuz the two of them haven't seen it. First we went to Boston Market where lil kids attacked amy hehe. And katherine flung macoroni at me...thanks! Then off to see Nemo..we saw ur bro christine! hehe. The movie was so cute even the second time! We loooved the Dorie whale scene lol..."i speak whale!!" and the "wow...wow...then WOW!" We kinda recited it along with the movie lol. It was a really nice night...Then i came back and bryan and i bickered :( but then made up :) Tomorrow should be a blast...can't wait! xoxo and mwah! and i'm in a happy, hyper mood!

3 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 18 June :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: relieved

phew
I really feel like an idiot...I sound like such a bitch in my last post and I am so sorry for it...I shouldnt have used this dumb thing as an outlet to get back at someone and it was really stupid of me...So no one feel sorry for me or look more poorly on someone else on my account...everythings cool now and im so glad it worked out ... I <3 You!!!

Today I went to Brigs and watched the Hot Chick...it was really funny, and then we went online and hung out--it was lotsa fun..too bad no swimming......lyl BS

Tonight I went to Elise's for like an hour .. it was fun as usual even though short.

So summer is back to fun in the (non-existent) sun ... Im so happy this worked out and that i decided to make that call to fix it...it was like a pit in my stomach til we talked it out..and now im happy but so sad that we all hav to part next week * sniff sniff...........Hopefully ill see a bunch of ppl friday night at aarons bye bye party to say our final good-byes before camp and summer fun...More later!

Goodnight Dolls...Peace and Love Forever*GMA

7 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 18 June :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: mandy moore- cry (credits 2 a walk to remember.. )

:-D
falling4u2fast (4:19:17 PM): :-) i love you so much
tehehehehehehehehe :D
ninis happyyyyyyyy :) hehehehe

:)

yesterday.. was.. eh. kinda boring kinda not. i went to costco with my mommy, and to the cemetery to visit grandpa.. im finally at the stage where i can go visit him without breaking down into tears, i mean, that doesnt mean i dont miss him anymore, but , ive accepted it, and i know hes always watching over me, cuz he was the only one that ever actually seemed like he cared about me, he was the only one that never ever ever yelled at me in the history of my life, and even when he was in the hospital after his accident, and couldnt talk, couldnt move, nothing, when i came in to see him, and i fainted, when the nurse was helping me up, i looked at him, and he was looking at me struggling to get up and help me, :*9( , he was the bestest grandpa ever, and everytime i get myself into a shithole, and it gets better, i know its him up there watching over me and helping me :), so ... yeah.. that was a good visit i guess, and wen i got home.. iiiiii.. ate.. watched tv.. talked to my emy :o) , and i picked up the lovely bones again, actually i started it over, cuz i started reading it a while ago, and i kinda forgot some stuff, so i started over, and man, that book is so good, its really sad though, and scary at points too, i was up reading it till like, 2 am, and even hten when i put it down, i couldnt sleep, cuz i wasjust, scared lol, so, i think me reading it in the middle of the night is not a good thing anymore, but i read most of it yest. so hopefully ill finish it tonight.. before it gets dark out. lol. I DID DAYBOOK TODAY LIZ! arent u proud.. lol. the 1 hour plan isnt gonna work for me, cuz u know me and procrastination, i picked it up at like, 10 to 12, and i started working on it, then i went through a whole pack of gum, cleaned my room.. and stuff lol, i finished the section by 2 lol. so, this is my new plan : 1 chapter per day, meaning, i should be done in 10 days, ill take out saturdays and this friday, and that means ill be done with it by the end of june :o) , then all i have to do for the rest of vacation is read that damn politics book and watch that movie the Emporers club.. i always wanna say the emporers new groove lol andrea.. thaaanks. anywho, our patio furniture FINALLY came today.. (it was supposed to come in the end of may...) .. and mommy stopped and got me some paint samples for my room too.. its gonna be all purty and spotted lol. ull see. i cant wait! ahh. so , im gonna go, read my book. lol. later gater

4 steps | i'd dance 1000 steps for you...

:: 2003 18 June :: 12.03pm
:: Mood: discontent

UGH...I hate this. 1 minute i can be in the best spot with my friends...I love them all and we're having so much fun... ... A few hours later they become insensitve and even obnoxious. Thats what happened to me yesterday. I got into a mini online fight/argument with a good friend (and she just happened to be with 2 of my other good friends so im sure right now theyre talking shit about me which is great) and she really really upset me. I was in tears. It was just the fact that she was being a big hypocrite and seemed like she was making up excuses not to want to hang out with me (us)...Which is pretty funny considering in previous days everyone including herself is like "We have to hang out every day til camp." UGH it was so frustrating cos I feel like such an idiot writing all that "my friends are amazing and they make me high" shit in my last post and now having this to deal with.

This also helped me realize a few things. Finally seeing this person in a bad light helped me to recognize some better traits in my other friends. It was sort of a reality check. I know we'll settle this, at least i really hope we do, cos i wanna see her before camp...but honestly i dont know if she even gives 2 craps...and if that is the case, then i guess that helps me realize not just a little but A LOT. But if she does care, which i really hope she does cos I do <3 her, then I guess its okay. But this still revealed a lot to me about her, and for that matter about the other 2 friends that were there with her, since they obviously were helping her and pushing her along...but im still not sure if 1 of the girls was there yet. Oh well, last night i was really messed up and crying, because I guess it came as a total shock, but today I'm ok. And if she wants to fix this then I know how Im gonna react.

More on these developments later...
Its such a crappy day I dont even feel like changing ughhhhhhhhh i guess this day goes along with my mood....hopefully tomorrow will be a little more sunny...

~Forever&Always~
gabi

:: 2003 17 June :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: touched

awww .. boy meets world.. lol.
i mish him. :( . its been over 3 weeks since ive seen him.. 2 since ive heard his voice........ :(. i think im gonna call him tomorrow.

:: 2003 17 June :: 10.53pm

HAHAHAHAHAA i cant stop laughing when i look at that tushie thing. lmao . lol