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kangabunny

:: 2004 19 May :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Crossroads-Cream

just to be saying them...
Ay... things are mundane.
So average.

*sigh*
I'm going to write a story. Haven't done that for years.

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orfwashere

:: 2004 19 May :: 5.51pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: RATM

"In the great words of Kappy Sood, It's Over!"
Indeed it is. My last day of high school was about a week ago, which consisted of doing nothing in 1st, 2nd, and 4th periods, skipping 6th and chilling with Hotchkiss, and was followed by band practice and the worthless chorus concert. My AP Art History exam was the following day. I took the Palm Tran to school, which involves 3 busses and $2. The third bus had some sort of computer problem, and forced us to wait for a mechanic, and eventually another bus. At this point I was thoroughly annoyed, and the bus driver claimed that she couldn't reach the pedals because of the seat, so we had to wait for another bus. By this time I had smoked more than half my pack of cigarettes and was ready to kill somebody. I got to school an hour late and was given shit by the ROTC douche bag guarding the entrance. I made it to the AP exam just on time, and bs'd my way through the multiple choice. I got my free response booklet, and handed it in about a minute after the section started. This invoked the classic like by the media center woman "you must know a lot about art." I turned in my book and was lucky enough to avoid Mrs Stecker and have to explain to her why I wasn't taking the exam. It was sad to realize as I left that that was the last time I'd do anything academic at ATL.

The final band concert was really sad. We sounded great, and I was really surprised at how good the concert band sounded. I can see that Lerner's worked hard. Banquet was definitely the highlight of my senior year. I tied Chris O'Brien for the most awards received. Bastard. We had a bet going. The speaches were really sad. I'm lucky I didn't have a bet with Lerman, because I started to tear up when the seniors were up there. My speach wasn't too bad. I got a nice aww from the whole room that made my night. It hurt to realize that I'd most likely never see any of those kids again. I mean, I'm going to come back and visit, but still...

Checkout was yesterday. Mrs. Fontaine told me that I have to go to Senior awards night. That’s a very good sign. I seriously doubt that I'm up for an award, so the only thing I suppose I will get is the $500 band parent scholarship. That's great because I need money to pay for books and such. I'm only getting $3500 in financial aid, and I will have a $2600 loan. Paying for everything else next year is up to me. That money from the band parents will be well spent. (: Suki and I had a nice run in with a focus on the way to ATL. The guy's car was pretty much fucked, but her car is ok. She just bent the front driver's side wheel. Hopefully the axle isn't bent, because that would make her car fucked as well. She got a ticket, and I feel really bad. I told her to make the u-turn. Luckily the guy that hit us was sane, because I know that if I got into an accident that fucked my car, I'd come out screaming.

Speaking of my car.... I had that piece of shit '84 Monte Carlo waiting for me, but something miraculous happened. One of my dad's friends said he found a nice Pontiac Grand Prix for sale. The Grand Prix is the same car as the Monte Carlo, much as the Camaro is the same as the Firebird, and many other similar GM vehicles. My dad went to go look at it, and bought it on the spot. It's a 1987, with 30,000 miles. To put that in perspective, my dad's 2000 Tacoma has 65,000; meaning that this Grand Prix has been garaged and well kept. The guy that was selling it invested a lot of money into the car, at least 5 grand, and had it almost completely restored. It has the expensive two-tone metallic paint, and just a whole buncha other options that make it fucking unbelievably sweet. The guy is getting married and is desperate for cash, so he let it go for $2500. It's worth almost 7 grand. I wanna go give him a hug, and then kick him in the face for selling it. This car is in almost mint condition. I can see myself driving it for like the next 10 years. It can probably go for another 100,000 miles before it needs anything major. Sure beats the piece of shit Monte Carlo. We were ready to invest about $4000 into it to fix it up, but now we're just selling. Anyone know somebody who'd like to buy it? It's got 140,000 miles, and is mechanically sound, just needs some bodywork, paint, and seat covers.

And finally, being 18 fucking blows. They've got me working long shifts at work now. I had to close the other night, meaning we don't get out till 12:30. I have to open tomorrow, meaning I have to be in at 5:45. Major gayness. I also learned something from the experience: Mopping sucks.

Well that's it. I'm done. Post. Too. long.

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kangabunny

:: 2004 16 May :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Over Now//AIC

going over it over and over until you've lost your way
Here.
A watercolor I did with Lauren a few months ago.

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SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2004 15 May :: 8.35pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: I wish there was silence...

I'm not like you..... I can't handle this...
Angels. Where are the angels? If I were an angel I would not be on Earth. Stripped of wings? Removed of innocence. Punished. The angel placed among men.

Stories sprout from seeds of negativity.




Tomorrow will just be another yesterday two days from now.

or

Two days from now, tomorrow will be just another yesterday.


Which sounds better?



Yes, that's three posts in one day.

I've very select feelings about what I want to do today.



I....... I don't know who I am. Was it strength? Sheer power of will? Determination?

Backstab myself.


~*~

Never look back.


SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2004 15 May :: 7.39pm

*sigh*
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. What is one good thing I have done for you? One bad?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest and worst memory of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. What do you think of me physically, what do I need to improve on?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. If you could change something(s)about me, what would it (they) be?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how distant am I to you, or you to me?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable or likeable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in four words.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married? Should I get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone? Why?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Will I have kids? Should I have kids?
35. What is my favorite color?
36. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

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SeraphimRhapsody

:: 2004 15 May :: 7.39pm
:: Mood: nostalgia revisited

Fly Away Home
There's been a lot of nostalgia to hit me lately... been meaning to put this up but couldn't decide how to do it. When I was reading it off of Amanda's journal... the songs hit me each time. And the characters. But Lauren did such a good job at highlighting all of that that I can't just copy her stuff. So go here to see her clips of stuff and I'll just add other random stuff.. yeah.


Childhood Memories
Place a star next to the ones you remember:

* Fresh Prince of Bel-Air (Such good laughs from this..)
* Fraggle Rock (They were so random! Used to love the little adventures that one had out in the real world)
* G.I. Joe
* Are You Afraid of the Dark? (Scary. Scary. Scary. But so good.)
* Secret World of Alex Mack (Loved it)
* Nightmare Before Christmas (Meant something...)
Welcome Freshman
* Space Cases (No one ever remembers this one.. but it was above all my most favorite on Nick in the Afternoon)
* Roundhouse (So funny!)
* The Muppet Show (Yay!)
* Muppet Babies (Doubld yay!)
* Eureka's Castle (loved those little clay worms, and those three singing fish in the fountain, and all of them)
* Salute Your Shorts (So great... Made me want to go to a summer camp)
* Legends of the Hidden Temple (This one annoyed me... How could they never get through that maze!? ^__^)
You Can't Do That On Television
* G.U.T.S. (Annoyed me a lot too)
* What Would You Do? (That wall with the tokens!! Man wish I could've been on that show)
* Double Dare (Ahh, the days when Mark Summers ruled Nickelodeon)
* Rocko's Modern Life (Katie hated this one... it was great)
* All That (It's all about the original cast)
* Ren and Stimpy
* Clarissa Explains It All (I so remember Elvis the Alligator. And Sam with his ladder. Loved this one too)
* The Torklesons (Large small-town family with values... awwww)
* Pete and Pete (This has got to be the emo influencing show. So great)
* Stick Stickley (Write to me, Stick Stickley, PO Box 963, New York City, New York State, 10108 <~ I sing that all the time!)
* Goodburger (That's been on HBO a lot this week...)
* Angry Beavers (Annoying..)
* Hey Arnold!
* AAH! Real Monsters (Hooray for monsters!)
* Tiny Toons (Action packed)
* Animaniacs
* Pinky and the Brain
* The Babysitter's Club (More values and moral... fun stuff)
* Kablam! (Action League.. NOW!)
* Gullah Gullah Island (So the best show ever to watch when you're home sick from third grade)
* Richard Scary (The Busy World of Richard Scary. Yeah man)
Dumbo's Circus
* Ocean Girl (No one remembers this one either. I miss a lot.... it was... mystical.. and powerful.)
* Mystery Files of Shelby Woo (So much fun!)
* Snick Snacks
* Dunkaroos
* SNICK (Now this was the thing to watch)
* Koala Yummies
* Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? (Another fun theme song to sing)
* Nick Magazine (Neckelodeon Magazine, Please!)
The Goonies
* Ernest Movies
Radio Flyer
Disney Watchers
* Adventures in Wonderland (OMG! They play a clip of this in the Alice in Wonderland store in the Disney Marketplace. Real people.. wow it was so cool)
* Homeward Bound (I still feared they wouldn't make it home every time I watched it)
The Adventures of Yellow Dog
* Milo and Otis
* Neverending Story
* Who Framed Roger Rabbit? (With the melting cartoons and all... scared me! But cool)
* The Lion King (Lauren and Meaghan.. yeah LOL)
* Labyrinth (I LOVED this! So complex and magical. And the Power of the Babe song.. Yay!)
* 101 Dalmations
* The Secret Garden (I may have cried during this... so sad at some parts..)
* Pete's Dragon (Lighthouse song.. Mom loved this movie)
* Hocus Pocus (I put a spell on you...)
Secret of Roan Inish
* Land Before Time (LOVED it! More morals and good value and all that... and dinosaurs! So sweet)
* Dinosaurs (The Baby.. and the teen sister and brother.. wow this was a good show)
* Fern Gully
* Secret of NIMH
* Gummi Bears (AHHHH Majorly my favorite Disney cartoon creation)
* Care Bears (It was all about the Care Bears. More good values and positive outlooks)
* A Little Princess
* My Little Pony (^________________________________^)
* Black Beauty
* Rainbow Brite (YAY!!)
* Lady Lovely Locks (Only saw the movies :()
* Candyland (Definitely my first board game)
* Sorry!
* Trouble
* Don't Wake Daddy!
* Mousetrap
* Jenga
* Don't Break the Ice
* Hungry Hungry Hippos
* Cooties
* Tinker Toys
* Sky Dancers
* Polly Pocket
* Hypercolor T-Shirts
* Lite Brite (:*****( Always wanted a Lite Brite...)
* Scrunchies
* Side Ponytails (So inspired by DJ Tanner)
* Stirrup Pants
* Jellies
Saddle Shoes
* Barbies
* Beanie Babies (My favorite was Spike, the rhino. I have so many now... x__X)
* Tamagotchies
* Yo-Yos
* Choose Your Own Adventure
* Pogs (*Looks to the left* Yep, still got my collection of pogs)
* Goosebumps (Scary!)
* Magic Attic Club
* American Girl (Have the entire collection and the doll Samantha thank you very much)
* The Island of the Blue Dolphins
* Saved By The Bell (So much fun!!!)
* Full House (This one........ meant so much. It was great stability)
* Step By Step (Never watched it.. but I remember it)
* TGIF on ABC (Never watched this either.. but it was the talk of the school)
* Sabrina, the Teenage Witch
* Boy Meets World (Such coolness)
* Clueless (Defined a generation <~ Yep)
Mork and Mindy
* Simpsons (So funny!!)
* Flipper (Used to watch this all the time... Adventure!)
* Eerie Indiana (Dun Dun Dun)
* Third Rock From The Sun
Tracey Ullman Show
* Ghostwriter (Another one that defined it all for me. So very great)
* Growing Pains
Family Ties
* Titanic (Titanic itself was always an interest of mine)
* Felix The Cat (That movie! Yeah..)
* Jonathan Taylor Thomas (Lindsay..... oye..)
* Home Improvement (Fun stuff)
* Tom and Huck
* My Brother and Me (AHHHH!!!!!! Love this one too *Cries*)
* Kenan and Kel (All about the orange soda.)
* Hanson (Mmmbop alsfjkaosicosdoowop <~ LMAO That's it exactly! They really were good though)
* Inspector Gadget (do do do do do inspector gadget do do do do do do do This one too... great cartoon)
* Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Let's see...Donatello was the purple one with the staff, Leonardo was the blue one with the sword, Michelangelo was the orange one with the nunchuks, and Raphael was the red one with those fork-y things, I have heard they are called sai blades, but I can't confirm that...oh yeah, that's skillin <~ X___X Could never remember all that. But I grew up with this too. Yayness!)
* Power Rangers (The first series was the only good one)
* Hot Wheels
* Creepy Crawlers
* Easy Bake Oven
* Flower Making Kits
* Weinerville (Used to watch this every morning before school!!! So random)
* Wild and Crazy Kids (Didn't like this much either, but Katie did so we'd watch it)
* Playdough McDonald's Sets
* Animorphs (I'm just missing the ending of the series..)
* Rainbow Fish
* If You Give A Mouse A Cookie
Bailey School Kids
* Wayside School
* Mrs. Piggle Wiggle (This made me smile.. defintely a good book)
* Boxcar Kids
* Ramona Quimby
* Amber Brown
Roald Dahl
* Allegra's Window (ALL of their names are after musical terms??)
* 3-2-1 Contact (Hooray for learning..)
* Slip-n-slides (And I remember when Lauren got hurt from them. Yep.)
* Teddy grahms
* Candy Necklaces
* Popeye the sailor man (Yay!)
* Barney (My sister and I used to watch this all the time..... good source of love and comfort)
* Bananas in Pajamas (Freaky)
* James and the giant peach
* Good Night Moon (Mom's favorite book)
* Dr. Seuss (Theodore Seuss Geisel)
* Dragontales
* Arthur
* Big Wheels

And I will continue Lauren's list protesting the absence of:

David the Gnome
Hey Dude
The Magic Schoolbus
Viewfinders
Rugrats
Bernstein Bears
Where's Waldo
Robin Hood Men in Tight
Kerplunk
Mr. Potato Head
Shel Silverstein
Tale Spin
Darkwing Duck

Umm.. I had a whole looooong list when I first read Lauren's continuation... I'll think of more things later.


With love..
~*~

Never look back.


Beagle147

:: 2004 14 May :: 1.36am
:: Music: "Big Yellow Taxi" -Counting Crows

Fun Times with Smarterchild
Just had to post the highlights of my conversation this evening with my good buddy, smarterchild. :)

Skillet9886: I have had the hiccups for like an hour
SmarterChild: I'm impressed.

SmarterChild: Nice typing, Skillet9886.
Skillet9886: thanks :-)
SmarterChild: You're very welcome!

SmarterChild: Don't feel bad. There are lots of fun things you can do.
Skillet9886: like what?
SmarterChild: Maybe Sasha wants a walk!
Skillet9886: =-O how did you know?!
SmarterChild: I wouldn't ask how. I'd ask why.
Skillet9886: ok, why?
SmarterChild: Because that's the way the universe is.
Skillet9886: profound.

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kangabunny

:: 2004 12 May :: 10.15pm
:: Mood: cold

Hurt me
Here I am
Rape me
Let me live
Memory
Rip away
Stinging
Here to stay
Numbness
Hate to feel
Always
Never real
Living
Never true
Whisper
I hate you.
Lying
Killing light
Horror
Hate tonight
Dying
In your eyes
Defeat
Never rise

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