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2005 9 July :: 11.33am
SORROW SYMPHONY
time paused when she went away
shit happend from day to day
always felt guilty bout what i did
now its back to the same old crap and shit
why did life had to go this way
basiclly there is nothing left to say
i’m dead till we meet again
i’m sorry for all that i am
incapable to be there for you at the spot
i don’t know if you blame me or not
can you forgive me
it’s the sad truth bout the sorrow symphony
TeArS i'Ve CrIeD...
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2005 7 July :: 6.30pm
summer..<3
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2005 2 July :: 12.42pm
Black Dot = Freaky
White Dot = Gaby
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2005 28 June :: 6.21pm
Where's the life in life?
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2005 27 June :: 6.49pm
:: Music: EARSHOT - WAIT
I really love this song from Earshot. Its so fucking kewl. Just makes me feel like jumping up and down and banging my head.
I don't get those people who arn't pissed at the world. Are they just ignoring everything around them and living their lives? Cause that's what it seems like to me. Can't they just wake up, get smart and look further then the horizon. It bugs. I'd love to rag/throw/kick/bash/smash all you motherfuckers up untill you see the truth.
Earshot - Wait
Something's wrong,
Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone.
And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world I dont belong
And I cant wait....for....someone to hear me,
And wait.... for... someone to touch me,
And wait....for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait....for....someone to feel me,
And wait... for....someone to heal me,
And wait.... for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone..
On my own,
I'll show myself what it means to be alone.
And the tears i cry are washed away.
All the scars are my disguise.
And I cant wait....for....someone to hear me,
And wait.... for... someone to touch me,
And wait....for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait....for....someone to feel me,
And wait... for....someone to heal me,
And wait.... for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone..
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I'm forever alone.
I, I'm not waiting here this time.
And I cant wait....for....someone to hear me,
And wait.... for... someone to touch me,
And wait....for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone.
I cant wait....for....someone to feel me,
And wait... for....someone to heal me,
And wait.... for...ever to be told,
I'm forever alone..
TeArS i'Ve CrIeD...
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2005 26 June :: 12.23pm
It doesn't really matter what I write here does it. Even when I let people see what I feel like (and dont tell me you know what I feel like cause you have no fucking idea) they cant do anything bout it anyway. Well yeah they try but it doesnt help one bit. I dont care bout all the things I have in life... So im going to college... in the future I will get a job.... so fucking what... all I want is just to be with Gaby....
Sometimes I think she too is one of those people who just care bout their lives and just wants to make career and "achieve" something in life. HELLO!!!!! THIS IS LIFE!!! Do you really think when you get a nice good-paying job you will achieve something in live? Give me a fucking break.... no matter what you will do....
you will all fail in life.
So why would you care bout life. All I care is being with Gaby. Try to share your life with a person who will be faithfull to you even after death. And that person doesnt even have to be someone you love.
I will share my life with gaby...and I will stay with her after death... that's my life. There never was anything else untill she came along.
I cant wait for someone to hear me,
I cant wait for someone to touch me,
I cant wait for someone to feel me,
I cant wait for someone heal me.
I cant wait for someone to see me.
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2005 25 June :: 1.09pm
I miss her alot. I don't get on msn anymore to talk to the people there. I just wouldn't know what to say. I do nothing anymore. Without being able to talk to her I feel lonely very fast. Cause she's the only person I like talking to. If you feel insulted by that then big deal. It's not like I ever asked anyone to be my "friend" right? At least 2 or 3 girls I knew considerd me to be their so called "brother"....bullshit if you ask me. I don't need anymore family either. I just want her and that's it.
18:10 (6:10 PM)
I rather have something bad happening to me and then later something good then nothing happening to me at all like it does now. I hate how I live. I'm a fucking pussy, I don't dare to take any risk at all. Gaby has a life... shit happens to her, but then nice things happen to her aswell. She sees lotsa places, she experiences so many things. But not me. I envy her so much. Jealousy yeah. My head fucking aches. I'm pissed. I hate my life and don't tell me my life is just fine. I hate it when you tell me that cause you don't know how I see it. Beauty is in the others eye. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life. I got no life.
I wish I was her.
I wanna shoot André, I wanna shoot him in the head so he'll be dead and will stop existing... He shouldn't be existing anyway, he is just a unnescesary space taker. Make space for people André. Let me kill you. Shoot yourself. Kill yourself. I wanna shoot you, you goddamned mother fucking son a bitch...go get aids and die inside your fuck head...your so fucking ugly with your fucked up face and all that you are. Your inside is even more ugly then the outside. Your the shit that I step in and whipe off on the curb. You should go and die you little son of a bitch.
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2005 19 June :: 9.53pm
:: Music: Bon Jovi - Ugly
Hell, heaven and life. They say hell is a fiery place where you will be consumed by the flames for all eternity. They say heaven is.... well what is it anyway.... I never really had someone tell me what heaven is like. And life...well I guess we all know what life is. It's a mixture of different things. And for each person their lives go in different ways. I don't care how they live their lives, though I have my opinion bout it how they live it. Someday I'll be dead and I'll go to heaven or hell... according to God I'll probably go to hell but I'd rather go to heaven since I can sleep forever there without being disturbed by annoying flames torching my ass. I don't understand why some people say they don't care bout going to hell. It's kind of a big ignorance you know. I mean you gotta admit you have no idea what awaits you there. What if it is worse then what you experience in life? Then your fucked cause there is no way out and you will be there for eternity. You'd probably wish "Oh crap, wish I went to heaven instead, damn" Or something it says in the bible... "if your not with me, then your against me" isn't that a bit radical. Satan is the father of lies, and God want's to be worshipped by everyone....I can't really see the good in both... So why do satanists become satanists and christians become christians? Hey I do believe God and Satan exist but doesn't mean I have to worship them right? They are both just well good guys I guess aslong as they don't fuck with me. Telling people what to do is just wrong you know, the devil says "worship me and I'll give you wealth and fame" yeah sure and die at the age of 36 cause of depression and an OD of drugs....doH~... And then God.... Well God just wants you to give up your life and be under his dictatorship (basicly paying your fee to enter heaven).
Some people start fucking cause they heard it in songs that its ok to fuck people aslong as you do it save..... PEOPLE we got minds of our own, don't just do something without thinking you know. Surely fucking someone probably gives a nice feeling, but so does eating a chocolate cake and you cant really compare those to each other now can you? (dont gimme any smart ass answers like..."well it could be as goood") right right. I agree with the fact that most people are controlled by the outside world. You know other people, music, work, money, fashion. They live their lives, they do what they do according to what they hear and see. That's bad bad bad bad....well I can't really say what you must do, but don't you think it's better to not do what they say but just think bout it really hard and then come to conclussion that sometimes things are just not right. I know you can feel it. Then why do you do it. I probably got a reason for everything I do. But I don't got a reason for loving her. She is and always will be the most important thing in my life. When you kill yourself, satan has won. When you live then you win. Just don't hate God or Satan...I think they both just got a bit of an issue going on. Ah well... none the less they arn't much different then humans right. Come to think of it I guess I am my own God. Ah well. Dont take that to litteraly.
I really got just one wish now and that's to be with Gaby no matter where it is. I miss her alot and Im worried bout her and it makes me nuts close to insane to not know how she is doing. But it's worth it...aslong as I'll see her again. Someday I hope I can write a book and it will make people realize that there is more in the world then what there is already.... just because you can't see it doesn't mean its not there you know. I love you Gaby with all my heart before and after death.
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2005 19 June :: 2.05pm
:: Mood: w3rd
:: Music: Rapture (Tastes so Sweet) - Iio
Oh geez
I gotta be cool, tooo! o----o
01] Who are you, what's our relationship:
02] How and where did we meet:
03] What's my middle name:
04] How long have you known me:
05] Tell me one good thing about myself:
06] When you first saw me what was your impression:
07] My age:
08] My birthday:
09] My favorite band at the moment:
10] Colour eyes:
11] Do i have any siblings:
12] Have you ever had a crush on me:
13] What's one of my favorite things to do:
14] Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15] Describe me in 3 words:
16] Name 5 things I love:
17] Do you think I'm good looking:
18] How would you describe me to someone:
19] Would you ever date me:
20] Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21] What do you like most about me:
22] If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23] Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24] Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26] What do you think my weakness is?
27] Do you think I'll get married?
28] What makes me happy?
29] What makes me sad?
30] What reminds you of me?
31] If you could give me anything what would it be?
32] When's the last time you saw me?
33] Do you think our ...friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34] Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35] Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?
36] If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37] What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38] If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39] Do we 'hang'?
40] Do I cross your mind at least once a day?
<3
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2005 19 June :: 1.30am
:: Mood: Not available
:: Music: Not Available
You guessed it
Today has brought many different feelings. Good ones bad ones...annoying ones. I went to Laurens Graduation party and I had a good time. I still feel a bit unloved but I'll deal...maybe it'll be better. Then I went to work and got shat on by the boss again. Im the new scapgoat of the dip...not cool. And after last night and the mysterious message that I recieved with people talking about me...I was a bit upset. I dealt though. Stopped at Seans g-mas and realized it wasnt making me feel better so I went home. Jay then invited me to his house which was good. It was nice to see some people. After awhile there I took Allen home and then myself. Someone around here is listening to horrible music very loudly. I dont find that humorous.
Tomorrow is fathers day. I work the whole day and my dad is sick. Im such a good daughter...heh.
Im rambling and I dont want to.
BYE
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2005 18 June :: 8.56pm
my mother took away my cell phone.. i think i might die...
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2005 18 June :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: Elatedly Spasmodic
:: Music: Filthy/Gorgeous - Scissor Sisters
YESSSS
XDDDD
Numa Numa SO just came onto Yahoo! LaunchRADIO.
I was like... "YESSSSSSSSS"
And they translated it, too! XDDD
I'm listening to the "Scissor Sisters" now.
But.. it doesn't quite sound like sisters to me o---O
If yoo know what I mean.
<3
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2005 18 June :: 3.03pm
:: Music: American Head Charge - Leave me Alone
I was just wondering, could Gaby have already felt like I do now? I mean did she feel like I do now even when she talked to me? I can imagine then how bad she felt, but why. Hmpf it doesnt matter anymore, now she probably feels even more shit and that has to be really shit. No one can ever compete with that if you ask me. She's really strong that she can go through all this. Some people have easy lives. Like this girl Chrissy....she's such a spoiled brat. She just has everything she wants. Her life is so easy, but why does she get what she wants and not Gaby? Chrissy used to be cool but then she got a boyfriend and now she's all....well just not cool. Like a freakin barbie doll. Man she sucks. Oh and if you read this....to bad. I could care less bout it. I'm not jealous bout it, I wouldn't want life to be like what she has, it's just unfair that she gets it so easy. Gaby said Chrissy looks pretty.... what the fuck you know. I think she's a fat ugly cow. Big fucking deal. I never stay with friends for long, cause they just arn't real friends. But this Amber girl called me up a while ago, I mean to get my number. But why...she says I'm funny. Ok.... It bugs me, on one side I never wanna see her again but on the other side I would like to talk to someone again. Nah I'm fine the way I am. I'll go to school soon again so yeah enough people there to enjoy myself.... I'm just gonna be a loner again, sitting everywhere by myself. I just like to be alone without anyone bothering me. I wish Gaby would bother me now though, that we could argue bout something or just have fun or whatever... I wanna be with her. I wonder where she'll stay when she'll come here next time. She said she didn't wanna stay in my home again. I can imagine though, my family sucks big time. But my room aint so bad, its a really comfy place. I spend there all my spare time. Hmpf...what else is there to do. I really wanna think bout Gaby every second. I'm worried bout her right now though, I mean I know its saturday and she probably has something better to do. I just hope she doesn't kill herself there. She wouldn't even let me know if she did. Thats really the only thing I'm scared of in life, that she will kill herself, or that something bad happens to her. It really scares me.
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2005 18 June :: 10.11am
Meet my soul...
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2005 15 June :: 4.47pm
OH SHIZZIT I LOVE MY REBECCA
CAITLINS MOM GOT A LETTER FROM A PERSON IN JAIL TODAY.. DONT WORRY IT WASNT FOR HER IT WAS A WRONG ADDRESS.. BUT OHHH SHIT IT SAID THE FUNNIEST STUFF.. READ MY PROFILE TO SEEE LMAOO
OHHHH GOSHHHHH I HATEEEE REGENTS!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE TO STUDYYY UGHHHHHH DID I MENTION THAT I HATE THE REGENTS???
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2005 15 June :: 10.02am
:: Music: Audioslave - Heavens Dead
When I look at her pictures I try to imagine how it would be like if I was with her now in India. From everything she told me... she thinks its happening again all the same. I hope it's not cause from what she told me it's all bad. Sometimes I think "would she be better off if she didn't meet me"... Makes sense doesn't it? I mean... now in India she just misses me and feels miserable. And even that she does know me, I can't do anything bout it. Why can't I be God. God must be a cruel tiran to let all this happen to us. And maybe just that thought about him will get me in hell. Well I don't care, he can send me to hell for all I care. I mean if God really is such an ass like he is and wants everyone to worship him I'm like fuck it. I care more bout Gaby then care bout any God. Sorry God but that's just the way it is, but hey look on the bright side, didn't you create her? And if your almighty you can look in the future aswell so you should have seen it coming. Kinda stupid.
Hmmm I dont know what to write anymore, everyday is the same feelings and the same daily crap. I'm trapped in society. You know that place where you get born, you go to school, you graduate, you get a job, you marry, get kids and die? Some people say "life is all about fun"... how the hell can they say that. Are they even aware they have a soul? Why waste your life on having fun. I mean... it's such a waste of time. I wanna do something with my life, something that can make a difference, something that will make people think bout their lives aswell so that also they will start to do something with their lives. I wanna make a difference in the world. But most of all I need Gaby for that, I need her to be with me, else I can never do that...IF I can even do it. Like it's ever gonna work.
I miss you, I love you, I'm dead.
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2005 14 June :: 7.53am
People dont understand how I feel.
They wouldnt understand why I feel like this.
They would think its weird.
When they think its weird it means they do not understand.
Its not a feeling... Its a whole life
I got nothing more to say about this...
Sad.
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2005 13 June :: 4.18pm
:: Mood: Elated.
My Faery Dream
Okay, so I was at this new day of school or something, and I had a little purse and a back-pack thing, I don't know why. By close to the end of the day I had lost the purse and left the back pack crud with Eli and then I found the purse but I couldn't find Eli! I guess it didn't really matter that much. Then there was this crazy guy who wanted to ass rape my dad ( I think that's who it was, it could of been my other cousin, Brad ) and Kristen ( my cousin, Brad' sister ) So that was scary. We were baracading the doors and there would be these little flecks all around that were.. faeries or something?
So you'd shoo the off by balling your fingers into the crook of your thumbs, then flicking them out really quickly. You'd do this repeatedly and they'd go away. It was some kind of magic or another. So we did that but he some how got in and we were fighting him with the finger-flicking, and you'd blow on him 'cause that was magic, too, somehow. I don't know!
So then we get out of the house, whoever-man-it-was, Kristen, my little LITTLE brothers and I. ( I don't know, Dave musta been 6 and JJ 4 or something ) So we're runnin' and then we're at this banquet ( my memory's fading, it's been about a half hour since I woke up ) and everyone's eating and I'm like "Don't eat, Jesus, can't you see it's faery food?!" 'cause I guess I knew it would brain wash you or something. But I was REALLY hungry, so I ate like.. a peice of bread or something. I do like the bread e----e
Then this dog got up in between us and I flicked at him and he shrunk away xDD And then a cat got on the table and I was like "FAERY CAT!" and stabbed it with my spoon..? And it.. SANK INTO THE TABLE! So you could only see it's back and I kept, like, stabbing it until it went away xD 'Cause I'm a loser like that, then I got everyone up and we started running, and I had my spoon of power. I some how like.. turned into one of the Sailor Stars? o---o I think I mighta been Yaten.. I don't remember, but it was weird.
Okay. Yeah. Wow.
FAERY CAT! >---<
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2005 13 June :: 7.43am
Havn't heard anything from her since the day she left. I don't think her cell phone can send SMS from there. Which sucks more then anything cause she thought it could. I sended her messages aswell but.... I don't know if she got them. I hope she'll send a letter as soon as possible. That would be the only way to reach her if the SMS doesn't work.
If I can't talk to her for three months................ I miss her.
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2005 12 June :: 12.23pm
WHAT A GAME!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:10 P.M.]: did u watch the mets game last night??
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:11 P.M.]: no lol did they win?
BlindedByTears2x [12:11 P.M.]: I WAS THEREEEE OMGGGGGGGG HERES THE PLAY BY PLAY:
BlindedByTears2x [12:11 P.M.]: rain delay.. 84 minutes OMGGGG
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: we finally start at 830.. it was supposed to start at 7 ughhh
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: sooo w/e we play.. its tied in theeee... thirdd i thinkk...
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: tied at onee
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: runner on first for LA, steals..
BlindedByTears2x [12:12 P.M.]: 2 outs
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: SLOW ground ball to first...
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: mienkewicz going for the 3rd out.. WTF IT WENT THRU HIS LEGS
BlindedByTears2x [12:13 P.M.]: omgg we're all flippinn out cuz the runner's safe.. next batter hits a single, run scores.. this is the 7th inning..
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: bottom of the ninthh we're still down a run
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: we're all goinn crazyyy
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: marlon anderson at the plate
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: INSIDE THE PARK HOME RUNNNNN!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: omfgggg it was crazyyyy
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:14 P.M.]: yes!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: game is tied at 2.. tenthh inning...
BlindedByTears2x [12:14 P.M.]: top of the tenthh, a run scores.. we're all likee ahhhh fuck
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: mets are up.. ohhhh shittt reyes just madee it to first
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: ohhhh shitt wtf is his nameee shitttttt
BlindedByTears2x [12:15 P.M.]: oook w/e secondd guy in the order.. ohhh shitt hes on base!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: no outs runners on first and secondd..
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: beltran's at the plate!
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: struck him out
BlindedByTears2x [12:16 P.M.]: we're like shit.. oook w/e we got 2 more outs...
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: piazza at the platee...
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: strike out on the same exact pitch he gave beltran
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: were likeee wtfffff
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:17 P.M.]: :-[
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: 2 outs, runners on 1st & secondd, cliff floyd at the plate..
BlindedByTears2x [12:17 P.M.]: i remind everyonee sitting around me that he struck out 3 times already in the game & we all moan
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: first pitch, fouled off...
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: second pitch.. ball one...
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: third pitchh.. ball 2
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: fourthh, foul
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: 5thh foul
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:18 P.M.]: =-O
BlindedByTears2x [12:18 P.M.]: 6th... OMGGG A FLY BALL TO RIGHT FIELD!!! ITS CLOSE TO THE POLE IS IT FAIR OR FOUL!?!?!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: :-D
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: OMFG ITS FOUL WHAT THE FUCK!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: so the mets lost?
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: :'(
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: 7th pitch.. before the pitch.. reyes goes right behind the pitcher who doesnt even see him, and steals thirdd b/c the 3rd base was playingg likee short stop
BlindedByTears2x [12:19 P.M.]: NOOOOO WAIT IM NOT DONE
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:19 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:20 P.M.]: im pissin in my paints.... wat else happened!
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: it was kindaa funny.. reyes kindaa just walked in theree....
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: oook so 7th pitch.. ball 3
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: full count, 1st & 3rd, 2 outs, this is for the wholeee ball game...
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: heres the wind up... and the pitch
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: FOUL
BlindedByTears2x [12:20 P.M.]: god dammit the longest at bat i have ever sat through
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: NINTHHH PITCHHHHH...
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: =-O
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: we're getting veryy impatient heree...
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: im being soo pessimistic im likee woww he fouled it soo many times hes deff gunna miss it
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: and he misses it...
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: strike three..
BlindedByTears2x [12:21 P.M.]: JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:21 P.M.]: noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: HE HITS IT OUTTA THE PARK FOR A WALK OFF HOMERUN!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!!!
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: OHHH SHITT WE WIN THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: YES!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: THIS IS Y I LUV THE METS!
BlindedByTears2x [12:22 P.M.]: OMGGG WE WERE SCREAMING SOOO LOUD!!!!!!!!
JustMeOxONaNcY [12:22 P.M.]: YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!
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2005 11 June :: 3.52pm
:: Music: Boy Hits Car- Unheard
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Mmm, I must say I really love this weather. Its hot and the sky is clear. Now if it would just rain so I wouldnt have to stay at work long.
I havent updated in awhile...like always. I have 3 more days left of high school. School was the worst part of my life so that means things can only get better. This summer should be wonderful and college will be different and exciting. Im so excited...a little scared but not sad about leaving.
Today I woke up and spent time with Jay and Allen. We went to the park and the mall. They are my only friends who are still the same. Its cool.
Came home...tried talking to my parents but they didnt give me the time of day. Its like they dont care about me anymroe and they just say whatever will get me out of their hair. They stress over this damn house and say its for me but in reality Im leaving so it isnt very much for me. They hurt my feelings a lot. They harp on me and tell me to do things but they dont take one minute out of their lives to talk to me. Not about anything. I feel like I live alone without bills. Oh well...if thats how they want us to be for the rest of their lives than thats their choice. Im not going to let them bring me down.
Well I have to work in a half hour for about 7 busy hours so Im leaving.
BYE
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2005 11 June :: 7.37am
:: Music: Audioslave - Yesterday to Tomorrow
She's gone to india now.....I said bye to her in the early morning....its gonna be a hard hard time from now on for at least 2 years. We'll face it and fight as hard as we need to. If she needs me I'll be there for her. If she wants me to come see her I will. She said she would do her best...just so she could be with me once again. I will do my best aswell. I wont let any chance slip away ever again which will make me get closer to her. I'll give her the peace she wanted... but time has to pass and we need to pay for it. But its gonna happen. Life is a bitch....but when things go bad they always go better again aswell. I'll be waiting for that one day that she will meet me at the airport and she will never have to leave ever again...... I miss you already Gaby. Your a fighter and you can achieve everything, I know you can. I love you for that. I love you for everything you are.
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2005 9 June :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: AUGHHH!
:: Music: My heart beat. ( My ear's stuffed up o---o )
WOMG! >
NEVER.. TAKE.. DAYQUILL!
YOO WEEL DIEEE!!
Okay, so I was taking a pill for my cold ( which I STILL have >< ) and totally gagged. I was like "o-----o BLEAHEAHDASDHH! ~shpit~ Ewww" so I thought "Mmkay, I'll just take some cough syrup." To me, syrup ees SOU much better than.. a peel. Sure, eet tastes liek ze shitz, but eh! Eh! You can't gag on it, riet?! WRONG! LOSER!
So I find the DayQuil, oukay? "Hmn! Only two tablespoons! Shouldn't be THAT BAD!" WRONG.. AGEN! LOSER! >
Sou's I pour the vile orange liquid eento ze leetle cup-ee thing. "Hmn.. doesn't smell to bad" Okay, it didn't really smell bad, but whatever, WRONG! SOME MORE! LOSER!
So I start drinking the stuff and I almost gag again! Not only is it thick and crazy menthol, the menthol ees SOU.. STRONG that my THROAT ees on FIERRRRRRR! FIAAAAA! Sweet Jesus! So basically, today's psychosis is that of a doctor..
"HURT THEM.. to HEAAAAAL THEMMM!"
Yoo knou what, doc? I should hurt yoo tou heal meee! ~scalple!
"OH SWEET JESUS, NOOO!"
BWAHAHAHAHAH! ~spurt, slirt, slash, cut, cadaver~
Okay. It's shower time. Maybe. Hopefully Steven doesn't hate me still and will drive me to UTurn. Sou I can see some shmexies.. ~cough~Alex~cough~
Yeah.
I love you Steven.. ~mumblesnickergigglesnort~
e------e;
Keith, why aren't you at my house?
And JADE, why aren't YOO at MAI HOUZ!?!?!
And Naomi, I'm still REALLY sorry about yezterdai, mannn.
And GERARD WAY, WHY AREN'T YOU AT MY HOUSE?! T----T
Love, my darlings, love.
~ Zeh Emz ~
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2005 9 June :: 7.53am
Just her and me....no one else.
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2005 7 June :: 8.52pm
happyy birthday to me! =)
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2005 7 June :: 10.30pm
I am ready now....if she'll kill herself, then I can aswell. I know how to cut and where to cut myself so I can go away. I dont know what to do about all this anymore.... Its so much.. I cant take this....Its just driving me insane. If she asks me "What should I do?". How the hell should I know... God I wish I knew so I could just help you so you won't kill yourself. Cut yourself, you'll cut my heart. But kill yourself and you'll drown my soul. We are one Gaby. I'll never part from you ever. I'll go beyond death to be with you, I swear to God and Satan I will...
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2005 6 June :: 10.15pm
:: Music: Aerosmith - I dont wanna a miss thing.mp3
The first time she slept in my room, this is what I felt. Everytime when I'm with her this is what I feel. This song says everything I need.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever
I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
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