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2005 5 May :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: pessimistic
:: Music: Goo Goo Dolls- Truth is a whisper
You can't blow down a brick wall...
So I havent updated in a few days for a few reasons.
1) Too busy with work and such
2) Nothing interesting to say
3) No one to read anything interesting I do have to say
So this one is for me...I want to vent.
Today a DA prosecutor came to school hoping to get the message through. Drinking and driving isnt worth it and you will not get away from the trouble it will cause you. The message wasnt taken...suprise?
I watch person after person walk away and laugh...I didnt like the presentation...but I respected it. These kids laugh and find it a ridiculous joke but it isnt funny. They say "well I drink but I dont drink and drive." I havent ever met someone who openly admitts to the fact that they do drink and drive but people do. Which means people are lying about it...which means its happening and the message isnt getting through. I know there is nothing that will get it through but it makes me so sad. So sad. The cops ask you two things when it comes to consuming alcohol....they ask two damn things.
1) Dont drink until you're 21
2) When you are 21 and you are drinking, don't drive while you are doing so.
Two things...two easy things. You have your whole entire life ahead of you to get smashed, pass out and not remember anything and if thats what you're into then wait those 4 goddamn years. They ask you to stay where you are. Not because they hate you and dont want you to be able to travel. They dont do it because they are big assholes. They do it because they dont want to mop up your blood or watch you kill other people who dont deserve to die.
Obviously, I have drank and or done things I shouldnt have but I recognize that at least. Im not naive and I dont say "Well its perfectly fine for me to act this way"
Just grow up. I know Im being so corny and everything but I have felt so sick all day because of this.
When I do things such as drive or anything that could endanger my life. I look into those obsticles and do what I can to make sure Im ok. Why doesnt anyone take the time to think about what they are doing. Or who they are hurting. It really doesnt take much to think about things.
Maybe no one cherishes their lives. Maybe they are selfish and think they can just buy a new one if they lose this one. What is so cool about putting yourself in danger, death and mourning that make people want to put themselves, their friends and their families through it?
I wish I knew.
Its a fucking puzzle. This world is missing pieces. How do we solve a puzzle missing pieces?
Why cant someone give a fucking answer to this problem...Im not only talking about DWI's. It is so deeper than that. It goes down, inside every human being's brain. Why is it such a mess?
I just had to get it out.
BYE
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2005 5 May :: 10.55am
i really need to update this more often..
yesterdayy was the seniors last home games!!! ='[ aww they have 10 days left of school =[ imaa miss themmm<333 we got balloons nd cards and signs for them nd decorated the dug out soo pretty =] kristin held up her own sign lol i feel badd.. ahaa sarah's said SCOTTiE KNOWS lmaooo =] i'll see sarah after they graduate.. ally too.. softball for the other league.. ahhhh its sooo sadd =[
kristin did something stupidd last night.. nd she still wont tell me what.. grr im getting annoyedd lol
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2005 2 May :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: A bit stressed; Special
:: Music: From First to Last
xDDD The lyrics to Emily
Smiles and her laughter
It's the only thing that I've been waiting for a time
Regardless of our distance and our hope... grows greater
Trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
... the only thing that I've been waiting for.
I hope it's something worth the waiting
'cause it's the only time I ever feel real
Thunderstorms could never stop me
'cause there's no one in the world like Emily
She's simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak in my words, the tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
and never will I give up trying 'cause you're everything to me
I hope it's something worth the waiting
It's the only time that I ever feel real
Thunderstorms could never stop me
'cause there's no one in the world like Emily
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LMAO! It's an actual song! Ahh! I love it! XDD
I feel special now
<3
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2005 1 May :: 12.41am
Going insane is like needing glasses....everything just goes blurry...
When you know nothing makes sense anymore and you cant understand anything anymore. You yourself won't see it as going insane. You'll find yourself above others, stronger, smarter and superior. What do they know... nothing. Doctors say masturbating is perfectly natural. What do they know? They think "cause of your hormones, your brain will provide you with a certain chemical. This chemical will make you feel sexually stimulated and therefor you will start to masturbate...". But does this involve free will? Just like the goverment says things about society they never think about the free will. Instinct is what makes this world go under. Free will is gonna set it free, but where and with whom will it start? I've decided to start with myself. But then again... everything is becoming quite blurry to me...
How I hate myself over and over again for the things I don't understand bout myself. Why do I do this, why do I do that...why why why. And every question I ask myself I can come up with at least a thousand answers. But never is there an easy answer like yes or no. Its always connected to a next question and also that question will have more answers then questions. Some people would say the pieces of the puzzle are falling in place. I say "thats one hell of a big puzzle" I doubt that one human beings life is enough to solve that puzzle. Sometimes I wonder if I should write it all down. But I just can't put the words on paper about what I think. The only thing I can do is tell Gaby. She is the only person who comes closest to understanding what I mean. And even she sometimes doesnt understand me. No I dont blame her at all. Even I dont understand myself sometimes. We argue, we make up, we move on. But where is the talking. Doesn't the misunderstanding stay when we don't talk...or is it forgotten forever. Another question I just don't know the answer to. People can make suggestions but I need something else then suggestions or theories cause I got enough of those myself.
She told me that I always tell the truth, just like her dad. It hurted me more bad then when she says anything else to me. I know she hates her dad more then anything, and to hear that I actually got that little thing the same as him...I felt so disgusted, so sad, so angry... and so very little. Being hated is not so bad as being seen as the person which people hate most. Unless you are that person.
Murder...would I be cappable of that. Probably not. Not cause I'd be taking a human life, but cause I'd end up in jail and waste my life there. Some people are bad at heart...you can tell. You can just tell.
I think I am both...both good and bad at heart....like a demon and an angel. Though angels are pretty much gay if you ask me. Ah well, in the end I'm just another guy with alot on his mind. A simple....human.
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2005 30 April :: 2.45pm
:: Music: Lacuna Coil - Heaven's a Lie
I got this problem which involves my education. I need to make a choice wether I should or shouldn't take the education I have choosen to my likings. I already messed up 2 other education by making the wrong decision. I can't pay for all this myself. So yeah eventually my dad has to pay no matter how much I dislike it but I just need it. What if I say yes and find out it was the wrong decision again. I can't afford to make another mistake. Even if its wrong I will finish this education. Eventhough I won't like it. I really need it to move on. I've been stuck for 4 years now... I never knew what to choose or what to do.... 4 years... I could have already had a job by now. And maybe even my own apartment. But I was stuck for 4 years. 4 years wasted on knowing what I'd wanna do... kinda proves I don't know myself that good eh?
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2005 29 April :: 11.46pm
:: Music: Deftones - Change
Got up late today. Spended most time gaming. Got online to late. Missed Gaby... Watched a movie. And now I'm here typing. Don't you just love my way of life? Just like I love it *sigh* hence the sarcasm. What does she possibly see in me that makes her love me. I'm a lazy good for nothing asshole selfish guy who can't do anything right and will never be something. I am nothing, just some worthless piece of shit. Well...least I don't smell like it. I'm not writing this cause I want people to say "aww but your not all that". I don't wanna hear that. I don't want pity. I just say what I am. Just wish I could say "Hey I'm not that bad a person". But I can't cause I'd be lying, right?
I got this feeling that I won't die of old age. "Life" is to long for that.
FUCK PERFECT
im not the perfect boyfriend
or the perfect guy
i dont have the perfect looks
or the perfect personality
im not perfect for you
or anyone else
im not perfect for myself
or God
like i care...
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2005 28 April :: 7.17pm
:: Music: Siddharta - Insane
Siddharta - Insane
I can give you a fight where no one's to blame
You can give me the light and not go insane
Let the bliss die with doves
Let a fist fight clean blood
You can be there too late they won't realize
You can come back some day they won't be surprised
Let the best cry for you
Let them see what you took
And any answer is good for your doll
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
You don't need to obey the rules of your game
Better move feet of clay than follow the fame
Let the best cry for you
Let them see what you took
When they scream and pretend you make a safe bet
Anything that is said is best to forget
Let the bliss die with doves
Let a fist fight clean blood
And any answer is good for your doll
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
There's a place of no pride
No need to be polite
Any question you have will be answered in time
There's no bullet that kills (they fall for your lies)
It ain't no bitter pill (a pleasant surprise)
Spend your money on nothing you can just go wild go wild
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
Let a man be insane for once in his life
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
Let a man be insane
Let a dog be the game
Let a man be insane
Let a dog be the game for the rest who complain
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2005 28 April :: 10.17am
:: Mood: Flustered
The fight
o0p5 y3r d34d: And why aren't YOU at school?
o0p5 y3r d34d: And why aren't YOU at school?
o0p5 y3r d34d: I asked first.
o0p5 y3r d34d: I asked first.
o0p5 y3r d34d: LIAR
o0p5 y3r d34d: LIAR
o0p5 y3r d34d: AUGH! You're.. an imbecil!
o0p5 y3r d34d: AUGH! You're.. an imbecil!
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, you are!
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, you are!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO YOU ARE
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO YOU ARE
o0p5 y3r d34d: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: I SCREAMED FIRST
o0p5 y3r d34d: I SCREAMED FIRST
o0p5 y3r d34d: NUH UH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NUH UH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NUH UH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NUH UH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: Well I'm gonna go.. talk to Weston!
o0p5 y3r d34d: Well I'm gonna go.. talk to Weston!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO I AM
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO I AM
o0p5 y3r d34d: YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM
o0p5 y3r d34d: YOU CAN'T HAVE HIM
o0p5 y3r d34d:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: <<; Get outta here!
o0p5 y3r d34d: <<; Get outta here!
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, you get outta here!
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, you get outta here!
o0p5 y3r d34d: You filthy animal!
o0p5 y3r d34d: You filthy animal!
o0p5 y3r d34d: AH! No I'm not!
o0p5 y3r d34d: AH! No I'm not!
o0p5 y3r d34d: GRAHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: GRAHH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: SHUT UP
o0p5 y3r d34d: SHUT UP
o0p5 y3r d34d: You suck at life!
o0p5 y3r d34d: You suck at life!
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO YOU DO
o0p5 y3r d34d: NO YOU DO
o0p5 y3r d34d: OH MY GOD, YOU ARE INSUFFERABLE!
o0p5 y3r d34d: OH MY GOD, YOU ARE INSUFFERABLE!
o0p5 y3r d34d: I HATE YOOOOU!
o0p5 y3r d34d: I HATE YOOOOU!
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: No, I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: No I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: No I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: No I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: No I hate YOU
o0p5 y3r d34d: GET OUT OF HERE
o0p5 y3r d34d: GET OUT OF HERE
o0p5 y3r d34d: PSH!
o0p5 y3r d34d: PSH!
Then I tried to block that ho, but it didn't go over to well..
Yeah..
BAI! ^^
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2005 25 April :: 11.56pm
:: Music: Breaking Benjamin - Firefly
SUIT FAGGOT
the life we know is gone
what happened to the meaning
we live to survive
living is what we need to do
dress me up in a suit
my outside will draw your attention
but the meaning is gone
life is hollow
life is empty
life is...
whatever
What happend to the clash of swords? The honor of a battle? The romance of a kiss? The adventure of life? It used to take hours to take one life. Now we take million lives with the push of a button. In the future we don't even have to push any button anymore...
I'm glad when it ends cause the beauty of life is gone. We, humans, don't deserve it anymore, we ruined it and will wither with it now.
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2005 24 April :: 6.21pm
I feel special for some reason.
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2005 23 April :: 10.56pm
:: Music: Nirvana - You know you're right.mp3
MY DISEASE
a disease for earth
they are so ignorant
never think about what can happen next
only living in the moment
thinking their lives are too short
trying to be the best
searching for sexual pleasure
love doesnt seem to exist anymore
wasting life as if its nothing
not more then insufficient life forms
just waiting to be vanquished
if there is a cure against being human
let me know
Something I wrote a while ago and I'm sure that Gaby is most defanitly my cure against anything. Though I always be the loser I am and will probably never achieve anything in life. She is there with me, and that's all I need.
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2005 22 April :: 10.37pm
:: Music: Nirvana - Where did you sleep last night
I feel like that song... fucking depressed and pissed and just everything bad. I'm tired and wanna be left alone by everyone. Nothing anymore for me, not now. I need sleep... and probably get some fucking dumb dream again..fuck.
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2005 22 April :: 10.22am
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: Closure- you are my hated
Rollercoaster favorite ride
Let me tell you a ridiculous story about a sad, lonely police officer.
So Tasha and I were driving home at about 1am after watching an extremely strange movie. One of those ones you cant decide if you like it or not because it didnt quite end right. So we are driving...minding our own business when a silly little copper started to drive behind me. Of course I was going the speed limit. So he follows us for about a mile and puts his lights on and follows me to the side of the road. Now I knew I had done nothing wrong but it was still a bit nerve racking. He asked where we were coming from and where we were headed. Then he had asked if I had been drinking and I said no in a very "Dont be a dick" voice. Then he asked if I were tired and proceeded to tell me I crossed the white line 7 times while he was following me. I know that was a fat lie so I said something along the lines of "oh". He ran my liscense and came back. With a quick "Have a good night." he was gone. I hope he felt like an idiot too because he made me feel kind of used. Get off my ass...dick hole. Cops are a funny species. There arent any just average cops. They are either really nice and respectable or they are on a powertrip and forget that they wipe their ass just like everyone else.
So thats my story...Tasha and I had a good laugh. I <3 Tasha.
1 more day.
BYE
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2005 21 April :: 6.48pm
Just 41 more days and then 2 months holidays. I cant wait to be rid of this lousy job I got. 2 Months of total nothingness. Sleeping till the afternoon OH YEAH BABY!!! But still....41 more days...hope they pass past. Its like 6 weeks...Ill manage RAWR!! I wanna see Gaby again. Last time I've been with her was on Januari 2nd. I miss her. People think its weird I met her by internet hmpf....for those people...YOU ARE MORONS!!!!! You'll never understand what she and I got together heheehee...its forever. My everlasting love for her will not die. Aslong as she lives, I live and I'll protect her against any harm. For whats in my reach since Im not with her right now....life is long though. And forever is even longer.
Well Im gonna watch "Signs" tonight at 20:30 (8:30 PM for dumb american noobs) bought a big bag of chips (cheese and union flavour) and popcicle's...mmmmhmmm *drool*....catch ya later!
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2005 18 April :: 7.50pm
:: Music: Yellowcard- Underdog
Sun = <3
Today I went to Onieda Shores with Tasha...the beach was covered in grass and there were little people with yellow shirts asking about oils so we decided to leave. We picked up Matt and Armando and went to Sylvin Beach...wind is cold. When that got lame we went to Zebbs and Tasha and I pigged out and the boys watched. I called into work and now I really do feel sick.
I have a headache and I am exhausted. My dad says my eyes are looking puffy insinuating that Im getting sick again so he is urging me to rest...Im so bored.
My mom is trying to paint my room because all of a sudden she thinks she is a interior decorator since she re-did my house. Well I dont want some fancy paint on my walls and I dont want it to look stylish so she is mad. Im leaving for college in a few months why would I care what color my room was?
Some more on my wanna be mom... She wont let me keep my sneakers next to the door. Instead she proceeds to throw them up the stairs into the hallway and then into my room. Last time I checked shoes go at the door. I can just see a guest walking into the house and my mom throwing their shoes up the stairs. She acts like we live in a fancy house where we are too good for shoes. Fuck that...if I want to walk into my house and put my shoes where shoes go (next to the door) then Im going to do it...
And thats my pointless rant.
Today was half good and half bad...like I was having fun but then I had that thing in the back of my head creeping forward...does that make sence?
Thats about it....
BYE
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2005 18 April :: 7.03pm
A wonderful little smut by my lover Lon
Ron backed them up towards the shelves, his hands gripping the backs of her thighs. She thrust her tongue inside of his mouth. He tasted of pumpkin juice and something else she couldn’t quite describe.
Her fingers raked through his hair and she ground her hips into his. He moaned and buried his face into the crook of her neck lovingly.
"Gods.."
He wanted to have his way with her, the right way, clothes off. But the bell was to ring in just a few minutes. There wasn’t enough time to, but he didn’t have enough sanity not to.
"Ron, We can’t.."
She felt her back hit the dusty shelves and she unhooked one leg from his waist, he took the opportunity to drop his hands into the hooks of her knickers, dragging them down quickly and throwing them over his shoulder.
"Hurry.."
She made quick work of his pants, unzipping them and letting them fall around his ankles, he couldn’t take them off, time was running out.
He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around him, impaling herself on his cock. She covered his mouth with her own to capture his cries. He leaned her back and thrust into her. Kissing down her neck he bit her shoulder to keep from crying out when she clenched her muscles around him moments later.
"Ron.."
He spilled inside her. She gripped his shoulders as he held her. He panted into her neck.
Ring.
YESSSS!
Sou good!
<3!
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2005 17 April :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Next* Wifey
4 MORE NITES!!!
IM 16 ON THURSDAY BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!
Me, Taylor, & Javonne are going to Baltimore and we're gonna be livin it up in an -actual- four star hotel [hehe im not sposed 2 noe] ½ mile away from The ESPN Zone..omg Im gonna cry..Ima go there rich, come back broke as hell! I went swimsuit shoppin..came out with two tops and no bottoms hehe. Oh well..my mom let me show sum cleavage..Im very surprised. I want a fuckin tunic yo..and one of dem strappy dress jawns. Oh...uhm I'm wearing a white dress to prom, Im still surprisingly a virgin..and I still wish ppl wud chill wit me on myspace ::cough:: lol it aint yucky..haha that's all
 Miss C.P.Nicholle
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2005 16 April :: 9.32pm
noo way it could get crazier than today! kait<3 bffl sickk day girl =]
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2005 16 April :: 8.42am
:: Mood: ehh ok
:: Music: Jacks Broken Heart- Love and Los everything
mmm spring
Last night I ended up hanging out with Tasha. We pet sat and ate food. Then she had to go home so I went home and talked to Lisa for a bit. I better get a postcard!
So now Im getting ready for a fun-filled day at work. Frez until 2 and Big Dip from 2 until 7. Im going to try and give my 2 weeks at Frez today. Im going to get nervous though. Plus Ill miss a select few. Its still worth it to leave. Mentally and Financially.
I need to do wicked good this marking period so I can graduate. Its going to be a bitch. I'm going to have big projects in PIG, Economics, Childrens Lit, Mature Adult and Photo. I need three of those classes to graduate. Im kind of worried....no more skipping school for a while.
I also need to clean my room. Its nearly impossible to walk in it now. It is really frustrating because I hate it like that but I never have time to clean it. Im always tired by the time I have time. A week off should hopefully help.
Im going to go finish getting ready for worky poo.
BYE
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2005 15 April :: 5.42pm
:: Mood: Wheee!
<3
I am to leave tonight. At 7, hopefully. I'm so excited, but so drained o.0; I don't know why I'm so tired. Ah well.
I still need to compile the load of anime to watch. I need to back my little bits of clothing and I have yet to swiffer the floor. I have to mail Kala's letter..
Why am I sitting here?! I'm leaving in an hour! XDDD
<3!!
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2005 15 April :: 3.01pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: Not By Choice- Standing all alone
Two Years Two Months and a goodbye
I had a good day. I went to first block bowling class. Then Sean and I left. We went to Tommys Cafe for breakfest. Then Bowling. Then Pool. Then Chinese food in the park. It was a beautiful day out. Now he is preparing to board a plane and Im sitting here wondering what I am going to do with myself all night.
I can make this good or I can make this bad. I wonder. Well, I'll go now.
BYE
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2005 12 April :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: annoyed
Dearest children of Cicero North Syracuse,
Take a deep breath, relax and pull your heads out of your asses.
Sincerly,
Karlene G. Schond
I will never step foot in that building again after I graduate.
BYE
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2005 12 April :: 6.37pm
:: Mood: Sing-song
:: Music: The Thing That Should Not Be - Metallica
The Jade Song
Malic and Lethe, sitting in a tree
K-I-S-S-I-N-G
First comes biting, then comes blood
And then some loverly ice cream mud!
^^
I <3 Lethe
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2005 11 April :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: bored
Like the sun spots or raindrops
This is getting boring. I havent watched this much tv in so long. I am getting fat off the continuous milkshake in my mouth. Although I enjoy milkshakes. And I love Big Dip. They sent my flowers and wordsearches and they are the best people ever. Fresnos...you jerks.
Im lonely. I get company. Sean sat on the couch with me all day on Saturday and did absolutely nothing but make me soup and help my parents around the house. What a nice guy. <3 But no matter what...I get lonely again. This house has that effect.
Im not used to not working either....thats weird. Im so not busy it freaks me out. I need work.
Sean leaves me Friday for California. I am going to be quite alone and quite bored. I will work a lot. Plus I get to pet sit, eat food on a big comphy couch and watch movies on a big screen. Although movies are much more entertaining with others and dinner isnt the same when you have to make it for yourself. I will have Tasha and Big Dip also. Im still scared.
3 days...thats a load of crap....you are never going on a vacation without me again. End of story.
So thats that....
BYE
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2005 9 April :: 12.43pm
kait slept over last night.. woww a lil too crazy.. nancy got scaredd shes never seen that side of me before lol.. hysterical night kait<3
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2005 9 April :: 12.23am
:: Music: Beck - Loser
"All around the mullberry bush,
The monkey chased the weasel.
The monkey thought 'twas all in fun,
POP! goes the weasel."
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2005 8 April :: 9.49am
:: Mood: ouchy
:: Music: Foo Fighters- Times Like These
So this kind of blows
I have mono...I had to get blood taken and I was all by myself and it sucked. The dangely thing in my throat is stuck to one of my tonsils because it is in the way...it looks silly. In 10th grade Lisa and I said we wanted to get mono together...we have accomplished our goal but it isnt as much fun as it sounded...I should see if she'd like to join me later.
Fresnos is mad at me because I can not work...assholes.
I feel like a huge slushie or milkshake from Big Dip...that would be outstanding.
Prevention Night is tonight and I really really want to go but I feel like crap. Im going to have to beg to get there...but Ill get there.
Well Im going to go lay down.
BYE
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2005 7 April :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: Ecstatic
:: Music: H.I.M.
Most Magical
Don't you love a badgirl? I sure do! My favorite badgirl is probably Yura of the Hair, shown near the bottom of this background (hand-made by Emily ^.~ ) holding a comb. Excellent.
I love this, actually. I'm very proud of myself. This was just a stroke of genius.
I'm feeling pretty good today. I made 4 Sailor Scout profiles for no reaosn at all o.0;; I was just like "Hehe.. Sailor Moon.. e.e;"
Then I thought up a really good idea for a website. It would be called "Anime geeks says SUGOI!" It would be l33t, but I wouldn't want it to be crappy, so I won't make it on tripod.
Oh my.. god..
Epiphany..
MYSPACE GROUP!!!
~happy dances~
HECK YES! Okay, you search me out if you have Myspace and if you're interested in this group, mmkay?
<3
"What? Come again? You know I don't speak Spanish!"
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2005 5 April :: 10.06pm
I feel quite good for now. She mades me feel like this, she just makes me forgot bout all the crap thats gonna start again tomorrow. If only she was here I wouldnt have to think bout that ever. But she's always on my mind and I just cant be with her. That sucks. I hate work... but I like what I work for. I work for a life with Gaby, what I am doing now, what I am gonna do later. I'll be succesfull. Hmpf it's what I want and it's what I will get. Just you wait and see. I wont fail to do what I promised.....
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2005 4 April :: 12.06am
:: Mood: ..
My heart hurts so bad.. knowing that I killed him.
I can't remove the picture, it stays for my eternity.
How I wish he lived up to his dreams.
But that is only in my own fantasies.
Internal powers wish me dead
But now, sweet prince, rest thy weary head
When the day doth rise, I may not be
For my soul has made a fool of me
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