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2005 9 March :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: unhappy
:: Music: nothing
Goodevening, I hate liars.
So Ive come to the conclusion Im damned to a life of misery and woe. Maybe it isnt that severe but for right now it might as well be.
To come flat out and say it...Im not happy.
Im overwelmed between school, family, sean, work, money, being fat and anything else you feel like adding to the list.
I hate winter...nothing good ever comes out of it.
I have a big feeling that ball isnt going to work out.
My parents just gave me the "you slacked off and you are going to in college. Party and sex. Money" talk. I hate when my dad acts like Im some incompetent asshole and especially in front of my mom because she feeds off that shit. She walks by and sighs and makes all those "my life is so difficult and I blame it on you and the rest of the world" sounds.
They kill me. Walk in the house in silence...say nothing to me. She bitches at me for whatever she can. He sits and pretends to ignore it. He doesnt like her let alone love her. She fakes it so when I go to college she still has a home to fake be happy in. Paint the walls and strip the floors....whine about it and fake a happy home. This house is ridiculous and everyone knows it. The colors you have chosen prove it.
Im failing like three classes because I miss school so much. I can make it all up but I have to get out of this attitude.
Everyone is going in this other direction which is fine but I feel kind of alone where I stand. Sometimes I think the only reason I stand here is because you hold me here. I think in the long run thats a good thing. I kind of feel left out from everything though. I am left out from everything. I remember the days when people liked calling me up and hanging out with me and now its like you call me up if no one else is home.
On a lighter note...I get to watch Forest Gump friday night and I havent seen it in a looooong time so Im excited.
Lisa and I might go see Hawthorne Heights on Monday.
Well I have a lot of homework to do to get me unfailing... Sorry I complain so much.
BYE
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2005 8 March :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: Congested o.o
:: Music: Thank You for The Venom - MCR
FCAT anyone?
I stayed home today.. 'cause I would of been in my third hour for four hours instead of just one. I wasn't missing too much today, either, I think I'm fine at home.
Except I have to clean.
And take care of my sickley old mother. Poor dear. I guess I don't mind running up and down the stairs, we'll just call it an involuntary work out.
JJ is sick today, too, poor kid. And I.. I have the SNUFFLES! T.T
So yeah, great fun in my sickly house.
Ooh! I went to Ren Fest on Sunday! And Diego's party on Saturday was an EFFING.. BLAST! AMANDAAAA! Where the hell were you?!?! Your camo-man was there! And in a TOGA, even!
P.S. Diego already had Sex Dice =p
Since I'm a horrible friend, I wait until the last last LAST possible second to get some one a present, so before his party, Melissa, Dylie, my mom, JJ, and I ran to CVS/pharmacy to get him a present. We picked out a lovely easter basket that included candy and a jump rope (xD) and found some 90% off Valentines stuff, THUS!!! We bought 6 pairs of "love cuffs" (cheap-ass shitty plastic hand cuffs.. they're red e.e;) for NINE CENTS EACH! YESSSS!
We bought each one we could find! It was so funny xD Amazingly awesome, too. So we gave him the easter basket and a pair of love cuffs (even though he already has WAY better ones xD)
Anyways, the party was fun, Ren Fest was KILLER! How is it NOT cool to wander around a bunch of people dressed as pirates and faeries and the like? If you found some reason for it to be not cool, well.. you're not cool. I'm sorry. =p
Yuh.. all's good.
It's only Tuesday...
I have some homeworkey things to do that I didn't do last night.
Fun pants.
My nose is stuffy.. T.T
<3
"If this is what you want, then fire at will"
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2005 7 March :: 10.48pm
Her life is shit, I love her, I can't help her, She loves me, I don't care bout my life, she needs me, I need her, I wanna help her, what can I do...
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2005 6 March :: 9.42pm
iMA WORK ON SOMETHiNG FOR MJ AND THE GiRLS.. iM GUNNA PUT TOGETHER A BOOK OF STUFF LiKE PiCS AND WHATNOT FOR WHEN THEY LEAVE.. MJ ALMOST MADE ME CRY TODAY TELLiNN ME HOW THEY REACTED.. COCO SAiD SHED LEAVE BERKELEY CARROLL ND COME TO ST.A'S iF iT MEANT STAYiNN iN THE HOUSEE ='[ i WAS LiKE OMGG AWWW.. MOLLY DOESNT WANNA MOVE BUT i THiNK SHE UNDERSTANDS WHY THEY ARE.. AND COCO.. SHES STiLL MAD.. BUT SHE'LL GET USED TO iT.. iTS SO SAD THOUGHH.. THE THREE HOUSES iS NOW THE TWO.. =[ MOLLY TRiED TO MAKE ME PROMiSE THAT i WOULD HATE THE NEW NEiGHBORS.. i WAS LiKE UMM THATS KiNDA MEAN BUT i PROMiSE i WONT LiKE THEM MORE THAN U LOL i THiNK THAT SATiSFiED THEM ENOUGH.. STiLL SAD THOUGH.. AT LEAST THEY WONT BE FAR.. iTS STiLL NOT THE SAME THOUGH.. =[
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2005 6 March :: 2.30pm
ME AND LEX PARTiEDD YESTERDAY.. YEAAAH WHAT?! LMAOO WE WENT SKATiNGG AND THEN WENT TO 86TH.. ROMEOO&JULiET LOVEE EACH OTHER<3 LMAOO i LOVE YOU ALEXA.. THAT WAS SOOO FUNNY.. UR LiKE 'U CALLED' AND i GO SSES! LMAOO NOO HELLO OR ANYTHiNG.. JUST SSES!!! LOLLL U WERE RiGHT.. WASNT THE TRAiN KiDD.. DAMNNNN LMAOO.. 'SHE SAT UP, LiCKED HER ARM, WiPED iT ON HER FACEE, AND STARTED TALKiNN TO HERSELF' LMFAO.. OOK ANYWAY.. YEAA i DUNNOO iF THE GiRLS KNOW ANYTHiNG YET.. THEY AiNT HOME NOW.. i CHECKED CUZ i JUST WANNA KNOW iF THEY KNOW.. iMMA START CRYiNN AGAiN iF THEY START CRYiNN TO ME.. iTS GUNNA BE SOO SAD THE DAY THEY LEAVE.. iMM GUNNA MAKE A LiL SCRAP BOOK FOR THEMM.. YEAA THATS A GOOD iDEAA.. i AiNT GUNNA START YET i WANNA MAKE SUREE iTS DEFiNiTE BUT i'LL START GETTiNG PiCS TOGETHERR..
iM OUT.. i GOTTA DO HW.. 1NEEEE
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2005 5 March :: 11.33am
:: Mood: crying
mj's moving.. ='[ i cnt be more upset
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2005 5 March :: 9.52am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Floors being sanded
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Last night was nice. Sean took me out to a suprize restauraunt which ended up being Delmonicos. I dressed up and fell on the way in...it was definetly ridiculously funny.
My schedule for work next week is the same as this week minus the fact Im working all day on Saturday. It is kind of annoying because Im mostly first cut and first cuts dont get many hours. Maybe I can stay for Lauren seeing how she never cares. : )
Im massively failing 5 weeks so we have to keep that from the parentals. Photo, PIG, Mature Adult...yeah bad.
SHOWERTIME
BYE
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2005 5 March :: 2.59am
:: Music: Queens of the Stoneage - Another Love Song
Its like...3 am now. Im so tired. I like played World of Warcraft all time. First I'll get some hot chocolate and then I go to bed. Package still hasn''t arrived so I hope I'll get it tomorrow...which is today...saturday that is. Man...to much thinking.... g'nite!
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2005 4 March :: 1.24pm
Ah crap this sucks. So when did she send me the package again..ermm Friday, or was it Saturday...I think it was Monday. Anyway it's been 4 days now? It should have arrived now, but maybe it arrives tomorrow. What I don't get is, why is she so worried bout the package arriving safely here, she said herself it was just a dumb book, nothing big. I mean ok sure I wanna have it. Just kinda wonder if its a really just a book and a little comic in there. Yeah I guess there is. Man I wanna have it. I guess the bad weather caused it to delay or something. Stupid that it frustrates Gaby so much though. That sucks butt. I mean my package got there after what, 2/3 days? Hmpf no fair. Ah well she did just mail it by normal speed? Hmmm that should still not take that long though. Odd. Ah well...wish I could just say; "Gaby dont worry, it's gonna arrive here" and that she will be releaved from all her worries then. Guess we dont live a dream huh?
Kewl thing she liked my package though. No matter what's inside I dont really care bout it, just the thought that counts, and its so true, I mean even if the package she send me was empty, it's something from her and yeah it just reminds me of her and all that. Its just nice. I sound like some un-interested zombie on the phone....I know...and I don't even say I love you. I don't wanna make it a ussual habit cause I dont think it is ussual. I mean yeah...I love you...its not just a phrase you know. But I don't want you to think either that I don't love you just cause I dont say it alot. Arn't things going through your mind like "why doesn't he say I love you?" or "he seems so un-interested, does he still like me?". I mean damn I can understand why you would think that cause I fucking act like all that, but its just me. I mean I still love you more then anything else, I just cant express it. Besides its kinda gay. Hearts and stuff...ewww. Then again I could use some other way to express it. Some day Ill just surprise you by being there for you. I just hope it won't bug you of course.
And I think I was so depressed last night cause I think I was just tired. I could barely keep my eyes open. I should have done the smart thing and just go to bed instead of bothering you with my cranky depressiveness....damn I'm sorry I bother you with that. I know it really bugs you alot. I just don't wanna the little time I can talk with you.
Writing down "I love you" is easier on paper cause its just a bunch of words without meaning if I dont say it myself. You cant feel it from paper I guess...mmm maybe you can. I dont know. I know what I write and what I feel with it.....I love you....
I just wish I could make it be more believeable to you....
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2005 3 March :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: Ecstatic
:: Music: Los -- Rammstein
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS
I'm FINALLY.. OFF.. MY PERIOD! YESSSS!!
Just in time for the effing weekend!
~mini-score dance~
GER NIGH!
<3
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2005 3 March :: 4.36pm
RETREAT TODAY.. YEHHRRRR BEST PARTS WERE THE GAMES AND THE BUS LOLL YEAA i GOT LOADS OF PiCS.. i BROUGHT A DiSPOSABLE CAMERA THOUGH NOT MY DiGiTAL CUZ i DiDNT WANNA RiSK LOSiNN iT SO MY PiCS AiNT DEVELOPED YET. ACTUALLY.. i SHOULD GO PUT THE CAMERA iN NOW.. CUZ THERES A PiCK UP TOMORROW i COULD HAVE EM BY SUNDAY.. OOOOK THEN GOTTA GO!
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2005 2 March :: 7.06pm
YEHHHRRR MAN NEW PROFiLEEE PiCSS WOOP.. ALOT ARE OLD BUT i ADDED ALOT AND MOREE ARE COMiNN CUZ WE GOT RETREAT TOMORROWWWWW YEAAAAA BUS RiDE iS GUNNA BE FRiGGENN AWESOME!!!! WE GOT JULiE, ALEXA, KELLiE, GiMMP, BRi, CAiT.. MANN i GOTTA MAKE SURE i LOOK GOOD iF WE GUNNA BE TAKiNN PiCS LOL WELL AT LEAST i WiLL.. iF MY CAMERA ACTUALLY CHARGES TONiGHT.. i HAD iT PLUGGED iN FOR LiKE 4 DAYS AND iT NEVER CHARGED... PiECE OF SHiT.. DUNNO WHAT i'D DO WiTHOUT iT THOUGH LOL
kRiStiNn [7:07 P.M.]: omg readyy for this one
kRiStiNn [7:08 P.M.]: i put my brace on my wrong ankle
wowwww gimpp ur a fckinn retardd.. what a LOSERR =] i LOVE YOUU =]~ ahaahahha
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2005 2 March :: 8.54pm
:: Music: Killswitch Engage - Wasted Sacrifice
"Humanity just die now and I'll die with you.
I know I can say I got more then some people. But still my life sucks, to me. I can't take this dull boring life. Sleep eat and work...just kill me now. I wanna have more time for myself then spend it on working. But I have to work, they make me. Hmpf its not fair, this is my life, not theirs, they are wasting my life. Not to mention all this shit in my head it won't come out it's like pilling up and just getting heavier and crap and bla everything just fucking irritates me now. I don't even care bout my friends now....oh wait...I dont got those...fuck em all. Your old classmates hmpf they look all the same, I don't know em and I wouldn't want to know them. Everything is just dumb. Fucking cunt life.
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2005 1 March :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: Further Seems Forever- Pictures of Shorelines
Yup
Hi
Today Lisa Lauren and I went out to eat at Fresnos. I choked on water and spit it out everywhere and made some really strange noices...it was worth it though. Lisa came to my house and we looked at Ball and Warped Tour stuff. We got somewhere...kind of.
Im in a ehh mood right now. I cant explain it. I dont like it though. I have so much homework I should really be doing right now and Im not.
I feel really crappy right now.
Maybe Ill go eat Chicken Catchatore (sp?)...maybe not.
Work Schedule:
Mon 6
Thurs 4
Fri 4
Sat 4
Sun 8am
Not too shabby...
Im going to the gym tomorrow to get depressed. Yes, I find the gym depressing.
Why am I talking right now.
BYE
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2005 1 March :: 4.52pm
:: Mood: Yum
Ooh
<3
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2005 1 March :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: Contented
:: Music: Your Sweet Six Six Six - H.I.M.
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New layout. How fanciful.
Today was a better day..
And.. my burn mark deflated o.o;;
That's.. kinda gross <<;;
DAMN YOU KEITH!
<3
"We've beat it to death with a horse!"
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2005 1 March :: 2.14pm
YEHRRR MANN.. SNOW DAYY WOOOOP.. AND WE PROBABLY WOULD HAVE HAD SCHOOL CUZ WE GOT LESS THAN EXPECTED BUT THEY TOLD US iN THE ANNOUNCEMENTS AT THE END OF THE DAY YEHHHRRR.. SOO YUPP iMM HAPPY.. i SLEPT TiL ELEVEN.. NOT BAD FOR A SCHOOL DAY.. OMFG YESTERDAY AT LUNCH WE ALL KiNDA TURNED ON NiCOLE FOR GiViNG ME ATTiTUDE AND SHE COMPLETELY DENiED iT BLAMiNG iT ON DANiELLE AND WHEN WE STARTED GETTiNG iNTO HOW DANiELLE ANNOYS US.. SHE TALKED SHiT ABOUT HER TOO AND THEN WENT AND TOLD DANiELLE WHAT WE SAiD!!! FUCKiNN MESSEDD UPPPPP.. ME AND JULiA ARE DEBATiNG WHETHER OR NOT WE TELL DANiELLE WHAT NiCOLE SAiD CUZ SHE DESERVES iT.. B i T C H =]
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2005 1 March :: 5.42pm
:: Music: In Flames - Only for the Weak
Cut myself again during work, ouch. Damn glass. You know I think if I didn't have a job where I get so fucking dirty all the time and have to wear old clothes and crap I think I'd kinda like it actually. But the job I got now it's just well earning money. It's no fun, I don't wanna make a career with it. It's just for the money. Ah well. Anyway it was kewl Gaby gotted my package though hehehe, I hope I get to talk to her tonight wonder what she's gonna say bout it ^_^. She sended her package aswell and I should be getting it on wednesday or thursday. Can't wait, it should be really nice =D. I really miss everything bout her, damn. It kinda sucks yeah of course I'd rather be with her, but we talk to each other. I'll never leave her for anyone or anything else..never. This is life, can't be happy in that, but I'm happy I got her =P . Well gotta go eat now XD
:: 2005 1 March :: 10.16 pm
:: Music: Rammstein - Keine Lust
"They listen to the popular music, they dress the latest fashion and talk the latest gossips. They don't think about life. Hey somethings gotta fill up the emptyness in this world."
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2005 28 February :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: Enraged
:: Music: Spongebob
.. What the hell is going on?
Phranki90: why would you do that?
o0p5 y3r d34d: ...
o0p5 y3r d34d: ?
o0p5 y3r d34d: Do what, if I may inquire, my dear Franki?
Phranki90: don't call me dear franki
Phranki90: cause you hate me
Phranki90: and i know you do
o0p5 y3r d34d: I don't hate you o.0;;
Phranki90: and i don't understand how you can stab someone in th eback, and then be nice to them right to their face
Phranki90: i dont' understand
o0p5 y3r d34d: I don't hate your, Franki, and I didn't stab you in the back.
o0p5 y3r d34d: I didn't tell Keith to break up with you.
Phranki90: but see, i wouldn't be able to belive you
Phranki90: because i wouldn't kno
Phranki90: noone would openly admit that
Phranki90: and from 3 other ppl telling me...
Phranki90: 3 people that your friends with....
o0p5 y3r d34d: And who would tell you this?
Phranki90: i don't want to say
o0p5 y3r d34d: I'm not going to like them any less
o0p5 y3r d34d: And I really don't hate you, seriously.
o0p5 y3r d34d: I'll admit that I was insanely jealous of you, but I
didn't tell Keith to break up with you. Never. Not once.
Phranki90: see, i dont know what to belive
o0p5 y3r d34d: But seriously, who told you I told him to break up with you? Because I promise you, on the pain of death, I never told him that.
Phranki90: i don't know
Phranki90: i don't want to say
Phranki90: cause i didn't belvie it at first
o0p5 y3r d34d: I'm sorry you had to hear such things.
Phranki90: then someone said that you actually told them that, and i
was like great...
Phranki90: someone who i thought was my friend
Phranki90: its discusting
o0p5 y3r d34d: I swear to you, Franki, breaking up with Keith was
fully his idea.
Phranki90: like even if you didn't do it
o0p5 y3r d34d: It really is, especially if you almost believed them. And
they were "my friends"
Phranki90: but i dunno if i belive them or not
Phranki90: and like, i've seen you talk about someone and then go up
and hug them... ive seen it
Phranki90: i don't understand how you do it
o0p5 y3r d34d: What?
Phranki90: i have seen you say you hate someone, and then the next
day go up and hug them
o0p5 y3r d34d: Like who..?
Phranki90: alana
o0p5 y3r d34d: Ugh.. I really don't like Alana. I was trying to be civil. She doesn't like me either, so I guess we've made a silent agreement.
o0p5 y3r d34d: I really never talk to her and I really don't plan to any time soon.
Phranki90: alana never said she didnt like you, people judge her to fast all the time, ALL THE TIME, and we were talking about htat outside, and i go upstairs and you all talk about how you don't like, when you met her for what 4 minutes?
o0p5 y3r d34d: I've met her before, and you can almost just kind of tell when some one doesn't fancy you. I guess I wasn't very fair, but she seemed to look down her nose at Jade, Sexye, Amanda, Naomi and I
Phranki90: but you all don't know her, veronica hated her when she first met her, but she got to know her
o0p5 y3r d34d: That's good for Veronica.
Phranki90: whatever
Phranki90: im just sick of this bullshit
o0p5 y3r d34d: I am as well, Franki. I'm sorry that you have problems with me, but I can't change your views all that easily.
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RARRRRR!
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What did I do? I told the truth! I WAS jealous of her, okay!? But I didn't tell Keith to break up with her. I wouldn't do that. And that shit about Alana? I don't like Alana and Alana doesn't like me, the end! No fancy shit!
MLEGM, FOOLS!
"Our hands are cleaaan!"
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2005 27 February :: 11.50am
SOOOO.. YEAA i DiD NOTHiNG LAST NiGHT EXCEPT BABYSiT MY BROTHER.. AND i HAD TO PUNiSH HiM CUZ HE WAS BEiNG A FUCKiNN NiGHTMARE AND WOULDNT TALK TO ME FOR THE REST OF THE NiGHT SO.. YEA.. i WATCHED MURDER BY NUMBERS LAST NiGHT.. i <3 THAT MOViE SFM.. WOOOP DANCE NEXT FRiDAYY.. YAYY.. iM PROBABLY GOiNN WiTH KAiT OR JULiA..
CUZ iF THE WORLD iS SPiNNiNG AND iM STiLL LiViNG iT WONT BE RiGHT iF WE'RE NOT iN iT TOGETHERR<|3
EW i HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK.. LiKE i REALLY HAVE TO DO iT.. CUZ iTS DUE TOMORROW.. EW i GO BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.. i HATEEEE WAKiNGGG UPPPP EARLYYYY.. OOH WELL i GOT STUFF TO TALK TO JULiA ABOUT.. iM PROBABLY GUNNA HAVE HER COME OVER TO HELP ME FiND SOMETHiNN TO WEAR TO THE DANCE =] iMM EXCiTEDDDDDD AND iF YOU HAVE HALF A BRAiNN YOU SHOULD KNOW WHYYY.. EVEN iF YOU DONT KNOW SPECiFiCS YOU HAVE TO HAVE AT LEAST A LiL iDEAA OF WHAT iM TALKiNG ABOUT.. iF YOU DONT.. LEAVE A COMMENT.. WOOOP.. YEAA SOOOOOO UMMM.. i DONT KNOW WHERE JOEY'S BEEN LATELYY.. HE HASNT BEEN ONLiNE.. i DONT KNOW iF i STiLL LiKE HiM.. i HAVENT MADE UP MY MiNDD.. BUT iM NOT GUNNA SEE HiM FOR A REALLY LONG TiME.. =[ WHAT AM i GUNNA DO TiL HE COMES BACK? i MiSS YOUU MUCHH JOEYYY <|3
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2005 26 February :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: Cassidy* Im a Hustla rx
I'm uncomfortable and heartbroken watching the Kings play the Sixers..knowing C-Webb got traded 2 da Sixers..and dis his first game playin for dem..but anyways ..
I Miss y'all! get at me on my Myspace cuz im not on dis enough...
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2005 25 February :: 12.27pm
:: Mood: TiRED
:: Music: ALMOST - BOWLiNG FOR SOUP
SOO iTS FRiDAY.. AND MY VACATiON iS COMiNG TO A CLOSE.. AND iM SAD.. i ACTUALLY HAD TO DO HOMEWORK TODAY.. iT SNOWED.. GRR.. iM GOiNG TO CENTRAL PARK TODAY.. MOM WANTS TO SEE THE GATES.. SO THATS WHAT WE'RE DOiNG.. iM KiNDA TiRED BUT WHATEVER.. i WENT TO BED AROUND ONE AND WAS UP AT LiKE 9:3o SO iM NOT A VERY HAPPY CAMPER.. YUCK i SAW SHAWN TODAY.. ASHLiNGG HAD SOMETHiNN iN HER PROFiLE AWHiLE AGO.. PART OF iT WAS 'THERE WiLL BE BOYS YOU CANT BELiEVE YOU LiKED, AND BOYS YOU CANT BELiEVE YOU LiVED WiTHOUT..' WELL WE ALL KNOW WHO THE ONE iS THAT i CANT BELiEVE i LiKED.. UGHH i WANNA HURL EVERYTiME i SEE HiM.. AND YEAA, THERES ONE i CANT BELiEVE iM LiViNG WiTHOUT.. i MiSS HiM SOO MUCHH.. =[ <|3 NDD i KiNDAA MiSS JOEY TOO.. i MiGHT BE GOiNG iCE SKATiNG SATURDAY NiGHT.. iF MOM LETS ME GO WiTH MJ.. ND MAYBE MEGHAN WiLL COME TOO.. iM GUNNA GO SEE WHY WE HAVENT LEFT FOR MANHATTAN YET..
1NE
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2005 25 February :: 12.09pm
:: Music: Futute Leaders of the World - Spotlight
So I'm gonna get this new kick-ass keyboard. My old one was broken so I'm getting a new one and I was thinking it might aswell be fucking cool. So yeah I bought this one and I will get it today or tomorrow.
Revoltec LightBoard XL
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2005 24 February :: 10.38am
:: Music: Hot Rod Circuit- Knees
"you can wake me when we get there cause i dont care if i see the daylight
Hello...
So it's thursday in mid winter break...that means its almost over. That sucks. I still have a bunch of work to do that I havent even started on. Shit...I just realized the extent to that. I got three new cds over the course of this vacation and that makes me happy. I worked two day shifts at work which were fun and now I get to work my weekend away. I wish I minded.
I think Im supposed to hang out with Jay and Allen today. Im guessing they are still asleep right now. I also have to clean my room and instead of doing all this Im sitting on the computer....god I suck. Im the biggest procrastonater EVER.
Ug...I get to work with incompetence...so if anyone would like to visit me and help me regain my sanity that would be awesome.
I guess thats that.
BYE
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2005 24 February :: 12.34pm
:: Music: Chevelle - Panic Prone
I feel so shit, I've been feeling like shit...no not like shit, just dead inside. I've been feeling like that all day. It even shows when I work, I make mistakes..doh~. I wanna tell Gaby I'm sorry but what's the use. I've said some dumb things, and it wasn't meant to hurt her in any way. But aparently it did. Sorry is not good enough, but I am sorry. I worry bout her, I mean...bleh what if she killed herself. I can never life with that, cause it would be my fault. I need to keep her with me. I just got this bad feeling. Hmpf...I'm really paranoid...
And I'm not perfect Gaby! You know that, I mean your calling me too perfect, but look at what I do to you... you can't really mean it when you say I'm to perfect. Hmpf... I'm not. I love you, but that's not all, I care about you, your my whole life...my whole life...
:: 2005 24 February :: 19.50 pm
:: Music: Tool - Stink Fist
Ouch...ouch...ouch...ouch....OUCH!
TeArS i'Ve CrIeD...
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2005 23 February :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: My Tummy Box is Broken
:: Music: Kittie - Loveless
Danielle and I (I'm t3h b0ld.. note the grammatical difference?)
i did n im proud of it so ya kno wut stay out of it if u dont like it n leave me alone i am way more mature then u am i the one obsessed with anime i dont think so! n u went out with ducky can i say ew n ur hair so gay u have like those long pieces of it, it looks really bad
XDDDDDDD
OH MY GOD! I LIKE CARTOONS! I'M SOOOO immature! Big fuckin' deal. People WAY older than me are obsessed with it, you don't even KNOW how many people rather fancy anime.
Oh no! I went out with Ducky! Well, you see, I'm sorry that you can't handle that, but you know, we were friends and we had this dare at a party a bit back where we had to make out for a little while and we liked it, so we decided to hook up. Big bloody deal.
XDDDDD My hair looks so bad? I think I need to trim the "handles", as they could be called, but I don't think it's too horrible. I guess it's just my mark. I rather be distinguishable then part of a crowd, missy.
Thanks for caring. <3
actually poeple just find u weird and wierd thats basically it, n im not "part of the crowd" as u call it im acctually very diffrent u just dont kno it but i try to be part of that crowd cuz hmm I ACTUALLY WANNA FIT IN unlike sum people. n if ur alwayts mature u kno how gay that is im happy iwht the person i am u dont like it too bad
I don't mind if you are you're own person, that's wonderful. But.. why must you fit in? Can't you be different than others and still have friends? Is it an impossible feat..?
And you're one of those people who find me "just weird", I'm guessing? Would it please you if I "fit in"? If I chopped off two peices of hair that I've grown out for about 2 years just like that, just for you, just so people didn't think I was weird? What if they think I'm weird anyways? What would you do then..? Would I be the talk of the school? Or would I just be one in the crowd again?
.. What if I like standing out and hate it at the same time?
Can you answer all those questions?
i wanna be cool n popular i wanna be pretty but if i dont fit in im not gonna be those things im sorry but thats who i am
You're still pretty, Danielle. No one really can take away some one else's beauty.. unless.. I guess, that one got beat up or something, I don't know. You don't have to apologize to me, apparentally I should apologize to you for my choices.
My choice to grow out some of my hair.
My choice to date Ducky.
My choice to love anime.
My choice to call you immature because you made a group about hating some boy who's just trying to express himself as well.
Atleast I follow through with all these choices, I guess.
im not askin u to apoligize for anything n im not pretty n that kid u dont even kno him i do
he does alot of shit he curses to be cool u dont kno him i do
He's in my PE class, and yes, he acts like a jerk, I've seen it myself, but making a Myspace group? He probably acts that way due to low self esteem in the first place. Thusly, he feels he needs to make up by being the alpha-male. So, really, stunting his self esteem further won't exactly help either of you, or anyone else.
idc wut it does to him cuz wut he did to me i will never forgive him so all i can say is fuck him
What'd he do to you that's so injustifiably wrong?
called me alot of shit, spread rumors about me saying that uhh i fucked him
.. Ewwwwwwwwwwwww...
That..
Is.. Wronngg..
CONSIDER YOURSELF JUSTIFIED IN THE COURT OF EMILY! o.o;;;;
'Caure that's really gross. Even though it's still wrong. I had a "club" against me for about a week once, you don't feel too good about it.
Well, whatever. Okay.
I'll leave you with this?
<3
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2005 23 February :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: AMAZED
:: Music: DEFYiNG GRAViTY
OMG LAST NiGHT WAS iNCREDiBLE.. iT WAS JUST.. WOW.. OMG iVE NEVER SEEN A BETTER SHOW iN MY LiFE.. i MEAN.. iT WAS JUST SO WOW.. THERES NO WORDS TO DESCRiBE HOW GREAT iT iS.. i WOULD SEE iT EVERY NiGHT iF i COULD.. EVERYONE SHOULD SEE THiS SHOW i'VE SEEN PLENTY OF BROADWAY SHOWS BEFORE, BUT NONE LiKE THiS.. EVERYONE SAiD THAT iT WAS iNCREDiBLE SO i WAS EXPECTiNG NOTHiNG SHORT OF ONE OF THE GREATEST SHOWS i'D EVER SEEN AND THATS WHAT i GOT..
ABSOLUTELY iNCREDiBLE..
TeArS i'Ve CrIeD...
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2005 23 February :: 7.08pm
I dont know? How can I not know? You have told me everything about yourself. How can I not know? I know... I just dont care as much about it as you do. Just stop blaming yourself for the crap that means so much to your parents. They are just some psycho fuckers who don't know any better then that you need to perfect in any way well hey NEWSFLASH! No one can be perfect, not even the person you love. Stop with the damned self pity I cant hear it anymore, do you really think it will help you to get further in life with that? Just cause you have so much self pity you think life is gonna be like "man, she sounds really sad, lets give her a break from life" NO! Instead it will crush you like a flower being stepped on by a big ass ORC. Loose that self pity cause it isnt getting you anywhere...YOU ARE NOT THE ONE TO BLAME DAMNIT!!! I know.
How dare you to think that it's your fault?
When I say I'm an asshole,
It means I'm an asshole.
When I say it's best to hate me,
You should hate me,
When I say I can't be trusted,
You shouldn't trust me,
When I'm right,
I hate being right...
TeArS i'Ve CrIeD...
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2005 22 February :: 4.11pm
SOFTBALL THiS MORNiNG.. WOOOP! i THiNK iT WENT PRETTY WELL.. BESiDES THE FACT THAT AFTER WE RAN SUiCiDES i GOT REALLY DiZZY BECAUSE i HADNT EATEN ANYTHiNG iN 14 HOURS AND MADE A NiCEEE FiRST iMPRESSiON ON JiM AND BRiAN i'D SAY iT WENT GREAT. LOL. THEY WERE BOTH REALLY NiCE i MEAN, i GOT 'A' TO GET ME AN iCE PACK TO BRiNG ME BACK i GUESS i COULD SAY LOL BUT i MEAN, i GOT BACK UP iN 10 MiNUTES SO i THiNK THAT KiNDA SHOWED THEM i COULD SUCK iT UP AND STiLL PLAY HARD.. AND BRiAN KNEW i PLAYED FiRST AND THEN LATER ASKED ME JUST TO CATCH FOR THE MOMENT AND i THiNK HE COULD SEE HOW i COULD CATCH ALOTTA STUFF THAT WENT A LiL OFF LOL.. AND SOME PEOPLE KNOW HOW ABSOLUTELY HORRiBLE i AM AT BATTiNG FOR THE FiRST PRACTiCE OF THE SEASON.. COUGH ALi COUGH LOL BUT AFTER LiKE 4 BALLS i MiSSED iN THE CAGE i HiT EM ALL.. SOO YEAA iT WAS FUN.. iF i MAKE iT iM DEFF GUNNA HAVE FUN THiS SEASON.. iTS DEFF GUNNA BE BAKER AND NANCY ON THE TEAM CUZ THEY ALREADY WERE LAST YEARR AND iM SURE JULiAS ON CUZ BRiAN AND JiM KNOW HOW GOOD SHE iS AT BASKETBALL BUT BRAiN KNOWS Mi PADRE Y Mi TiO SO YEAA i DUNNOO ALL iN ALL i THiNK iT WENT GOOD.. iM GOiNG TO SEE WiCKED NOW!!!! YAY!!! AND ERiNS GUNNA BE ON TRL!!! WOOOOOP! =]
1NEEE
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2005 21 February :: 3.19pm
i FEEL SOO BAD.. i WAS JUST LOOKiNN AT LiZ KENNEDY'S PROFiLE.. HER&GEORGE BROKE UPP =[
i THOUGHT THEY LOOKED CUTE TOGETHER ::SHRUGS:: OOH WELL.
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