A Knight who says

:: 2004 20 December :: 6.46pm

HELLO DUDES!
It's finally winter break but it sucks cause in 2 weeks I'll have to go back and be at my school and learn. So now only 13 days before school again. I realized on Saturday that I forgot to bring the book with Romeo and Juliet in it home so I have to find another copy to write the paper. It ruined my vacation.

Today I learned something about myself. Something that isnt so good I guess. I think sometimes I mean to be nice but mean things come out of my mouth and people take them offensively. Then after I thought about it and how mean it was, its too late. I did that again today. I meant that it would be annoying for Jessica to drive to San Jose and not even be here for the Christmas thing but it came out as it would be annoying to have her come. I didn't mean that at all and I feel really bad about it. Why the hell am I so stupid? So yea...sorry to anyone I might have something mean to cause whatever I was trying to say probably just came out wrong.

I saw that a while back I wrote about how pretty California is in the winter. Something changed. Its not as good this year. The hills are pretty green right now cause of the early rain we had but nothing special. It hasnt rained in like a month and half so its making me angry. Also the sun is out so much. I dont care if it rains as long as its all cloudy and beautiful. Jeeze. THis sucks. I'm sad. Christmas is almost here and it doesnt even feel like it. I hate that. It feel like January. THIS YEAR WAS BAD! It makes me angry thinking about it. Good things happened but overall nothing that great that made the year worth remembering. The main thing was getting the house. In some ways I liked it when we rented a house cause that meant we'd have to have every couple of years and I like moving.

Lets see..one really good thing that happened this year was that I figured out that Sarah is a fucked up little bitchy asshole and that I despise her. I hate almost everything about her dumbass personality and screwed up views. Smart people aren't all nerdy. Couldn't she strive to be at least mediocre? Then she's right in the middle.

Ok I'm gonna admit something that I think everyone knows already. I want to be really smart but I just don't put all of my energy and time into studying and being good at school. I put in the minimal amount of work it takes to get B's then when my grades start slipping I put in a little more to get them back up but then I go back to my normal study habits. I know its bad. I've been trying to figure out what I can be when I grow up that requires very little memorization and complicated work but nice pay. My list isn't very long. I think I wanna do something that would benefit other people more than me..not like charity. I'm talking about work that gives me money and still gives other people stuff that they want. Does that make sense? I dunno.

I'm gonna go. BYE!

:: 2004 12 December :: 6.47pm

HEY GUYS!
This week is going to suck. But I will try not to dwell on all the shitty things that are going on. On Friday...I sat home...watching T.V and talking to Jennifer on the phone. Her life is looking up. She called this guy she likes and they are going to the Sadie Hawkins dance which is in March. I can't believe she called him this early but she was so excited that she couldnt wait.
Saturday I....sat home and watched T.V all day instead of doing my homework which I should have. Then we went downtown to get starbucks and see Christmas in the Park. It was fun. When we were in Starbucks there were 4 guys that came in all dressed in black pants, red sweaters, and Santa hats and they sang a Christmas carrol. They were really good. So after they left my sister got up the guts to go give them some money. The guy we handed it to was so nice. He looked shocked and then he took it and said "Are you sure? Thanks!" It was only like $3 but still he obviously didn't get very much money judging by the look on his face.

Ok now I'm going to go back in time. On Thursday we went to get our Christmas tree and we were there when it closed so the guy had to stay late to tie it to the car. He was so nice cause my sister apologized and he said "Awwww. Thats alright." It was really scary though cause he looked exactly like my sister's husband, James. So weird.

Ok so today I went to go get my friends presents and I can't say what I got Louise cause I don't want to ruin it for Jessica. I got Jennifer this Hello Kitty thing because she likes hello kitty. Then I got Cynthia and Grace these Christmas rats. They're really cute. I like them a lot but they are small so I'm going to have to make cookies as well. I was just going to give them candy until Cynthia said "Yea..I dunno what to get you guys." I didn't know if I had to get them anything. Oh well. I did now.
Whoa dude. My hands look all scaley.... lol.

I miss American Dream. OH TO ANYONE WHO MIGHT READ THIS: WATCH AMERICAN DREAMS. IT NEEDS BETTER RATINGS! PLEASE WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JJ IS SO HOT! HOW COULD YOU NOT WATCH IT?
Congratulations to Jessica for the good things that have happened to her on Friday and Saturday!

Well I'm out. Bye Bye

:: 2004 10 December :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Rock No Gyakusuu - Miyavi

Okeedokie! Tis Friday! And tomorrow is the Winter Ball! Oh joy in my freaking heart. I want to go, but the whole fancy dress thing is kinda weird for me. I would like to be seen in public as little as possible.

Today was today. Talked a bunch about the Odyssey in English. She assigned each group a god to draw a picture of and write a bit of info on. I wanted Hermes really badly, so she was nice and put him in. Then though, there weren't enough important gods assigned to the groups. Apollo, Dionysus, and I forget who else were left behind unintentionally. When she discovered that there were more gods then there were groups, or at least that the important gods had been somewhat neglected, she said, "We have to take a few off. So I'm going to take off... Hermes"
"NO! Not Hermes!" said I!
She said that she was sorry and that Dionysus and the other dude were more important than Hermes. But then someone spoke up and said that they would take on another one, then another group said they would do the same, and then a third group. They saved Hermes for me!
I was thinking: "Aww. Thanks guys! You saved Hermes for me!"

Twas very cool. Then I felt kinda bad because we didn't take on two gods. But it was very nice of them. I was with Diana in my pair, and the thing about us is that we both like to draw, and it's hard for us to decide what to make hermes look like. We brainstormed the way he would look for a while before we even started attempting anything.

After school I had about an hour to spare, so I went with Erin, Darya, and Kiley down to San Jose State and raided their Jamaba Juice. Stupid people don't accept the gift cards. As we were waiting to cross the street they started talking about that movie "Bowling for Columbine."
"That's a good movie"
"yeah it is"
"I haven't seen it. I really want to."
Michael Moore makes me sick. That fat bastard can go drown in a sea of donuts for all I care. He should spare us all and stop making those movies of his.
But yush. Just a little annoyance of mine.

We got back and I sat outside of Manley Hall (teehee. Fonny name). Nicola came by and said that she was going to email Mr. McCaw, our drama teacher and play directorwith some questions she had. Now, just to catch up, I tried out for the spring musical and got called back. However, the cast list isn't supposed to be posted until monday or tuesday. So I asked Nicola jokingly if she'd ask Mr. McCaw if I got a part in the play because I wanted to know.
The play we are doing by the way, is Joseph and the amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.
A little bit later I went into the lobby and was headed to the library to see what erin and darya were doing in there, when Mr. McCaw came in and called my name.
"Nicola just sent me an email saying that you wanted to know if you got a part in the play."
"Oh yeah," I said and smiled sheepishly. I didn't really expect him to tell me anyway.
But instead he said "Come here." So I went over with him kinda near the beginning of the hallway that leads off to the computer labs in Manley Hall.
I notice he glanced around a bit. "I'm not going to have the cast list posted until probably Tuesday with the way this is going because there are a lot of people to cast. Now, I've gotten your permission slip from your parents, and I haven't received any objections from any of your teachers, so things are looking okay. You can't tell anyone, but you're Joseph."

I was so happy! I mean, when you think about it, I am a freshman, and got the lead of the spring musical, which is the biggest dramatic production of the year. I'm so freaking happy. It's a really big accomplishment for me.

However, I have said that i would not tell anyone at school until the cast list is posted, so Marilyn, you can't mention this to anyone if the cast list isnt posted on Monday.

Yush I am so very happy. I will do a dance of happiness.

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:: 2004 30 November :: 8.45pm

my life kinda sucks right now. At least to-day (oo look the english way). I love the English language way more than any other language on this planet. I don't like Ms. Gonzaga. Theres a reason why she isnt married. I dont like my mother. She is threatening to divorce my father. Dumb selfish bitch. I actually think she might do it. But i dunno. She has said this before but not this many days in row.

MY FAMILY IS SO FUCKING DISFUCTIONAL THAT IT WOULD MAKE A LOT OF FAMILIES LOOK NORMAL. Most of the people I know don't seem to have the screwed up relationships my family has but maybe they just don't wanna talk about them. Who can blame em? They are embarrassed like I am. I wish that people would talk about their issues cause I would like to know about them and help them if I can in anyway. I like listening but when no one will talk I like to fill the noiselessness with my own voice. I know that can be annoying. Sorry if I talk to much. Maybe thats why people avoid shy people cause they know once they get to know you you won't shut up. Thats the way I am at least. That can piss people off which sucks.
DUDE I'M FUCKING RAMBLING ON AND FUCKING ON!
Dudes whoever gives a shit about this and decided to read this I am so sorry.

I miss my Aunt Marie. I miss Mr. Vane. Bye dudes.

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:: 2004 22 November :: 8.45pm

YO HOMIES!!! I'M BACK! YAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA.
Now on to my extremely boring life. Lets see...
I went on this dumbass retreat this weekend and that will be the focus of tonights entry.
So I left on Saturday morning and I told my mom that I really didnt want to go but she said that it was too late and that I had to. So I went. All the way up Sarah and Lynn drove me nuts. When we got there all Sarah and Stephanie and Lynn would talk about was guys. Its so fucking annoying! Stephanie had her little stupid ass boyfriend from Turloc (k?) come down to go. Hes not even Catholic. So the whole time none of them participated. I thought that you went to retreats to participate but maybe thats just us nerdy people. Not only did they not participate but they were rude when people were speaking and they were making fun of and laughing at everyone. Don't they realize how stupid they are? How not perfect they are? How fucked up and worse than everyone they are?
Stephanie's dude is fresh out of Juvenille Hall. On the trip all he could talk about was sex and they went off alone together and he fingered her. SICKNESS DUDE! THEY ARE BOTH SO NASTY.
I have to get off soon. So I did manage to learn some things. 1) I do not like retreats.
2) I am not like Sarah, Stephanie, or Lynn at all.
The third thing I learned was something that never occured to me until just this weekend. When I chose my Confirmation name I chose Cecilia who is the patron saint of musicians. I was sort of wondering why I picked it other than that it was my Great Aunts middle name. I did not play any real instruments back when I chose it. I now am learning the bag pipes. So I realized that now that name fits me more. It all works out and stuff. I thought it was really cool.

I GOTTA GO.

:: 2004 18 November :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: okeedokie
:: Music: We go on - From Illuminations in EPCOT, walt disney World

Reasonably quick update

This song always makes me feel sad. I miss Walt Disney World muchly *hugs it*. Anyway, as for how life it? Stressful. School as of recently sucks ass. The work is making me feel crappy. I imagine I'll get over it once I stop being so tired. Been having some ugly days lately. Ah, teenagers and their moments of insecurity, don't ya love it? No. Tis not loveable. I dont even know why i feel stressed. Maybe it's the makeup work from yesterday or the fact that the grading period ends Friday. I hope this week goes by fast.

I love Christmas songs.

Anyway, an update in the political world. The damn media is over exaggerating things again, but what's so new about that?
They're talking about how this marine soldier killed an innocent wounded Iraqi soldier, violating the rules of combat. The thing is, people arent getting the real story here. These Iraqi soldiers have been boobi-trapping the dead and wounded bodies of their own soldiers, so that they will explode if touched by a soldier. Recently actually, a guy from Gilroy and his friend who was over there was killed by one
of those people.
Sean Hannity played the video on his radio, which means we can only hear sound, really, but what I heard of it was the soldiers talking and then one of them going, "He's playing dead! He's playing dead! Shit! he's playing dead!" Then the gun shot.
It makes me sick how people can put a man on trial for protecting himself and his friends. And about violating the rules of combat.. what do you think these Iraqi soldiers are doing? Playing by the rules?!
Not to mention it's a soldiers reaction to kill someone if he feels he's in danger. I mean think of all the things these guys have been through! This man was shot in the face the day before and back on duty the next day.

This subject kinda reminds me of a question I asked my mom once and I asked her why they don't have people cleaning up the sides of the highways anymore, because it's pretty damn dirty. She said it was because the people think it's cruel and unusual punishment to put prisoners out there. After all, they might get hit! Oh no! These poor child molesters, rapists, and murderers aren't allowed to help the environment anymore because they might get hit by cars! Numero uno: if they stay far enough from the road, that probably wouldnt happen. numero dos: If the driver is a dumbass and hits them, get the license plate number and sue them or try them for murder or something lol. Then they can be the ones working on cleaning up the trash. Or, to prevent all that, they can close off a part of the road or one of the lanes or something.
Silly silly liberals.

NOW ON ABORTION! WOOHOO! Bunch of political crap here.
First of all, these people are whining "Women should have the choice on whether they want to give birth to the baby or not." HELLO HOME DAWGIES! Them thar wimmin had the choice to have sex! Simple as that. You talk about well they'll find illegal ways to do it if it's banned and then people will die because of it. Okeedokie. Then DON'T TRY TO KILL IT! What a concept. Give birth to the baby, and put it up for adoption.
Now there are a few exeptions, and I mean very few in my case. Rape, for example. I have been told that after someone is raped they take them into the hospital and clean things out to lessen the chance of the woman getting pregnant. Of course, if you're a little too late, man does that suck. lol. I guess depending on how strong of a person you are, if you were raped and got pregnant, try to have the baby and give it up. Though of course it would make me sick to have the child of the person who raped me, so I dont quite know my stance on that. The second condition, is if the mother is in danger of dying because of the pregnancy. She will be labeled by me as a complete dumbass for having sex and not considering the consequences, and I wouldn't think of her as a very honorable person, but I suppose if she has to get an abortion, then she has to. Though it also makes me feel gross to say that.

On the death penalty, people say that those who are pro-life should be against the death penalty as well. I'm not. It's a simple as this: there's a difference between taking an innocent life and a sick murdering bastard's life.

Now on a happier note, my mom told me a few weeks back that she was doing something at school. Actually I think it was the seventh grade zoo trip that she was chaperoning, and she had that Clark girl in her group. Mrs. Clark, who was that science teacher lady for the lower grades at some point, is in the army. Still in the U.S., but she's preparing troops to go in to Iraq I think. The clark girl was talking with my mom and she said very cautiously: "..So.. who are you voting for?"
My mom said "Bush" and then the Clark girl smiled and said "Good. Because he'll get my mom home faster."

Now out of politics and back into my life. Let's see, what's happening in my life? well, the play went well and was a lot of fun. how I miss it. So that means to practices, which, despite my missing the performances, is a good thing because now I get more rest. Maybe now I'll go back to being ridiculously hyper in the mornings. Of course that can't be good for everyone in my school, so maybe it's just good for me.
I'd talk about Ryan more, but I remember how we used to make fun of Sarah and Stephanie for talking about boys constantly, and I'm afraid I'm going to sound like them too much. I shall keep that to my paper journal I guess.

Doody Doody doody. I gotta stop eating crap, dude. Well at least recently I've been snacking too much. If I had a swimming pool I'd excercise a lot more often. Me Mum says I should ride "the bike", which is an excercise bike upstairs, if I'm feeling crappy, but I don't like it. Oh well. Gotta start somewhere I guess.

This Woman's Place Project is a peice of crap. I feel bad for those people who got the really boring women. I'm not even overly excited about doing a report on princess diana, which doesnt mean I dont appreciate it and think she was cool, but I just dont want to write a whole assigned report thing.

Anyway, I think that will be all I'll write for today. Tootles! And sorry everything's so political now-a-days!

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:: 2004 8 November :: 9.07pm

Wow..I havent been on here in a long time.
We moved. Ever since the internet hasnt been working cause the DSL thing is all screwed up and my dad wont fix it. So I'm on my sisters computer right now and can only be for a little while because this blocks the phone line and its on the first phone line which means no one can call us.

Lets see...lots has happened. Someone in my life is changing quite a bit but I'm not going to put their name in because I dont anyone to know (sorry Jess..I trust you but its better this way) So this person is changing for the bad. Maybe its me but I doubt it. Times are tough these days. I dunno if that made sense. Oh well. So anyway the person is pissing me off cause I dont like it when people change like that. I like people to stay the same and circumstances to be different which can't happen cause you cant stay the exact same when things around you are changing cause you have to adjust. I think this person is adjusting badly but thats just me.

Good news:
My favorite Giants player had his option get picked up by the Giants so he'll be there for another year! YAY!
I watched like a shit load of movies this weekend cause I was trying to relax and uh...take a "break" from school and stuff. As in not think about the people or the work. I deffinately did a good job. Every movie I watched had a hot dude in it. The exception was Hidalgo cause Viggo could be my dad so he's considered handsome.

Today I went with Lindsay to Valley Medical Center where her mom works for service hours. We worked in the play room. The 5 hours I was there we had 2 teenage boys come in. One was 13 and a was hit by a car while he was on his skateboard and was severely brain damaged. THe other was 17 and was in a car accident and had was also brain damaged but not as bad as the other one. So we read to them. I was reading Star Wars to the 17 year old but luckily he fell asleep..that book was boring. Lindsay ended up reading for a 1/2 hour to the 13 year old. It was a really good experience. The "child specialist" in there said they were both just short of being vegetables. Really sad...

I better go.

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: New York, New York - Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennet

VICTORY IS OURS!
CONGRATULATIONS PRESIDENT BUSH ON BEING RE-ELECTED! WOOT SAY I! FOUR MORE YEARS!

I'm so happy that I didnt wake up this morning to Kerry being my president.

I kind of hope all this political unsettlement will calm down a bit, but then again it's going to be so unexciting not really being able to argue with any left wing liberals. I kind of feel bad for some of them, especially Julia. She looked really upset this morning when I walked in. Ah I hope she will get better.

Halloween was good good. I was a gothic lolita, as planned, though I don't know if I talked about my costume here. Anyway, it was a black boddess top that zipped up in the back, and some fishnet sleeves that I wanted to add to it. A lacy kinda poofy black skirt. Sounds dumb but i don't know how to describe it. Mind you, these are the only times I will willingly wear a skirt -- in costume or if I am forced by school formal uniform and or mother. And then my blue and black striped stockings, or as I like to call them, Totchi or Toshiya stockings. Then my boots and zee makeup ^-^ Yush i liked it muchly.

Hmm so for recent things.... lesseeee... Well Friday I went to another football game with Ryan! ^.^ Twas fun, he's so nice and cuddly. lol. Next time I have to invite both Marilyn and Louise *nodnod* because if I don't I'll feel guilty but if I do I'll feel guilty anyway.

We have this Friday off and Monday as well, but I have to help out at 8th grade day on Friday, so no extra sleep for me.

Not to mention next week is Hell Week for the play. Practices from 6 PM to 10 PM. Right now it's only eight and I'm already exhausted from practices. It sucks. I really need to catch up on my sleep this weekend. Anyway, I need to get this character sketch outline done tonight. Maybe if I stare at the word processing application long enough I'll get something done.

:: 2004 13 October :: 10.32pm

Today has been so weird I'm not quite sure where to begin.
I'll begin with Joanne. She really really bothered me today! REALLY BOTHERED ME! When were done with our testing we all went into the gym to vote on class council and cheerleaders and stuff. Well we were supposed to be being respectful which includes being quiet and paying attention and stuff. Not too many people were really paying attention but you dont have to be obvious about it. She was talking with louise and they were being loud and drawing on eachother and stuff so I said "Be quiet." and then Louise said "SHUT UP!" and poked me with a sharpie which pissed me off because of the way she said it and the way she poked me. She was being an ass. Then Joanne was screaming really loud in support of some other girl and it was near my ear so I said "DUDE! SHUT UP! You're so annoying." I know it wasn't the nicest thing I could have done but shes been pissing me off for so long and then the Louise thing made me freshly angry so I kinda lost it for a second. I have a habit of doing that. Maybe I have an anger managment problem or something. I wouldnt be surprised if I did. I keep having this urge to smack her and tell her to leave me the fuck alone. But I can't... I've sorta been trying to avoid conversation with her and when I do talk to her I tend to be a bit short. I'm not like this to other people I dont like. Shes just different.

Lets see...I went to CCD. Nothing extradorinary happened. I saw Mrs. Saunders and Mrs. Borges and talked to them for a few minutes. Then Mrs. Cronin said hello to me. They are all really really nice. I think Mrs. Cronin is getting grumpier with age she was sorta rude. The calss was a little bit better today than last week. I actually got to do stuff instead of just sitting around the whole time. She also let the class out on time which is always nice. There was a hot dude in the Parish Office after. I've seen him around beofre...I think hes homeschooled. Well hes gotta be pushing 18 by now so he probably wont be homeschooled for too much longer.

My sister is so mad at my mom because we gave her dog away. Shes pulling a Sarah. She refuses to talk to us. My dad called and she gave him about a minute before saying she "really" had to go.

My bagpipe lessons are going pretty well. I need to memorize the notes and where they are on the paper which really sucks. When he tells me to play it and he plays it at the same time my fingers know where to go but when I'm trying to read it I'm just guessing.

DINNER TIME! BYE YA'LL!

:: 2004 10 October :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: Ebudae - Enya

Quick update
Here's just a quick update because I don't feel like typing all that much right now. But here's an article thing I found that I'd love to post here. Well it's more like a forum thread, but you get the picture.

You know what I�m sick of? ��I�m sick of all this liberal sympathy towards the soldiers of the war. ��Don�t hurt the poor little 18 year old kid; he shouldn�t have to fight this battle.� It�s not worth his life to drop the price of oil a fraction of a cent.�� Here�s news for you liberal sympathizers, he�s not a damn kid. He�s a soldier. �He�s a soldier who signed up on his own free will to be a soldier.� He made the decision by himself, and has prepared to make a sacrifice to his country if necessary.� He�s not all talk like you damn idiots running the television stations and news media.� He�s actually doing something to help the welfare of this country, unlike you.� He�s not sitting at home complaining or teaching students biased views in college about the evils of Mr. Bush.� He�s not a whiner or a wiener, like many of you are. �He, and men and women just like him, train every single day in preparation to go to war and fight those who threaten our motherland.� The United States is only what it is today because of people like him, those who decided to give something back instead of hogging all the glory without the repercussions.� He didn�t join the military for a big pay check or to further the luxury of his life, because he will never find that in the armed forces.� He joined to truly help others.� Go find something else to complain about you dime a dollar, stupid piece of shit, liberal sympathizers.

LAGOD20@AOL.com Writes

First off let me tell u that u need to calm the fuck down.� People have a right to speak their minds just like u are doing on this site so fucking deal with it.�

Second, yes, there are many people who signed up for the military under their own free will.� But dont ever say that everyone that's in Iraq signed up under free will.� On my 18th bday I was forced by law to sign up by law for� "Selective service"� or in my words the fucking draft.� Myself and my brother have many friends who were "activated"....DRAFTED to go to Iraq and are there as I'm writing this.� So fuck that, screw your outlook on the war that everyone is there under their own will.� You may have been, but most people I know that are there, arent.� And I would never sacrifice my life for a country that tells people that they have to fight for it.

In response:

Everyone whom is in Iraq signed up under their own free will, including your buddies who are building sand castles right now. �They may not be in Iraq under their own free will, but regardless, they knew what a soldiers responsibilities were when they took the oath.� They knew there was an opportunity of deployment. �As for the �selective service� you speak of, it�s not the draft you idiot.� It only becomes a drawing for draftees when the United States is at the point where it has to draft people, which by the way hasn't happened since Vietnam.� And you�re probably thinking, what does this guy know?� I�m a soldier, and every one of my friends are soldiers. Most have already been to and returned from Iraq.� You�re a liberal piece of dog shit, which sucks off the welfare of our country.� You don�t like it here?� Join the Taliban you fuck.

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i found this in the weirdest and most random place anywhere: "http://www.slickpimp.com". lol I went there because of a link in Sarah Andrade's profile, so it's not like I visit there regularly or anything ^.^

Lookit:

:: 2004 10 October :: 8.34pm

HELLO THERE!
My weekend sucked pooh. I left for Shasta on Friday morning with my mother and we came back yesterday night. I went to help my sister move into a much better house and neighborhood. The place she was living in before was really really dumpy. It was on a street that was paved so long ago that its mostly gravel now. There are children running in the streets with dirty clothes on. One of the people has pot in a makeshift green house. The pot is supposed to be for medicinal use only but he sells it to anyone. There are like 10 dogs running around freely and a million cats and their kittens. This cluster of residential streets is behind a wood will where they take logs and turn them into boards and other stuff like that.

My sisters roommates are extremely stupid. Annie is 24 and has a 5 year old son named Jesse. She did a bunch of drugs and stuff when she was younger but according to Michelle she has gotten her life together since then. Her boyfriend has a house in Yreka but spends most of his nights in their house doing God knows what with Annie. He calls my sister's dog "Jock Strap" (His name is Jake) and he uses improper grammar all the time. Hes really really nasty. He also did drugs and has a baby who lives in the Bay Area with it's mother. So they are both really horrible people to be around. I think she likes them because they make her feel smarter and better.

Other stuff has happened but I can't talk now. I just needed to describe that.

:: 2004 6 October :: 10.03pm

hello everyone. TODAY WAS WONDERFUL!....Not really.
I WENT TO CCD! Sorta fun. I saw Lynn. She kept talking about things I didn't want her to talk about at that exact moment. I saw the dude,Justin, who was supposed to have hot arms. SOMETHING HAPPENED! They are not hot anymore. His voice is hot and he has really pretty eyes. *Lynn so nicely pointed that out for me.* I think that I am so desperate to see guys that I will find every single thing that is hot about them so that I can be happy. It sucks. My mom asked him and his sister if they remembered me and they did. SO SMART ARE THEY WHO REMEMBER ME! Lets see..I saw my Confirmation sponsor. She is so nice. I like her a lot. Duh. I wouldn't have picked her if I didn't like her. The teachers I work for are so annoying and I really hate them.

I'm not to bad at bagpipes. Its fun. Its hard though because I have to put so much air pressure into it. Its alright. My lips really start to feel it first.
Well. Goodbye everyone.