its been 3 days, you come around here like you know me...
here i am as
[ p e r f e c t ]
as im ever gunna be...


today was alrite. i was soo freakin sick when i woke up that i was gunna stay home. but i didnt. i think my hair color still looks like shit. but whatever. 1st hour was ok. we went in the mini computer lab thing and did gay stuff. then 3rd hour i fucking failed the test. grrrr. then took notes. lunch-was funny. sum girl fell on her ass. lol!! 5th hour sucked penis. its so boring and i dont get anything. 7th hour was ok. i dont mind that class. me and dana talk and laugh constantly so its fun. i got a 78% on the test tho. thats a C. i dont get C's. grrr im soo mad. then met up with justin b. after skool and me and camila walked home with him. oh and jd but he doesnt count. i made up a song along the way....

"Smoke Song"

i plant a seed
to grow mi weed.
it will choke
so i can smoke
mi WEED. mi WEED.


--lmao. its gunna be a #1 hit sumday.

jesus christ. i think i've sneezed more times today than i have my entire life put together. i think my nose is gunna either explode or fall off.

i need a tissues and my m&m's. peace muthafuckas.

<33-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

my niggas dont dance we jus pull up our pants and do the ROCKaway...

oooh i forgot. on sunday at like 3:30 allie randomly calls me and is like lets go bowling with dan. i was like ok. so her grandma took us and we met sum new people. eddie, jackie, steven, and mike. and wel dan. but we kno him. it was fun, me and allie suck at bowling but i did get a pair of hott ass bowling socks!! hehe. then dan had to give us a ride home, as in him driivng the car. OMG i thought we were gunna die. he left us at teh alley with mike and told us he wuld come bak for us, it took him forver to come bak then he took us home and yeah. surprisingly, neither of us got in trouble. w00t w00t. but yes. i cant say this in english cuz then ill get "yelled at" so here goes..."mop i kop e [new word] i sop [new word] rop e a lop lop yop [new word] hop o top top!!! [end of sentence]. omg it was like...wow. lol. anywyas i gotta go to sleep. peace foo.

my [heart] keeps
f
a
L
L
i
n
g

faster...

im afraid to know the answer...
do you
[want]
me too?



<33-janelle

6 _* | ...[Ryan

hit me, you cant hurt me, suck my kiss xxx...

well. things are back to normal somewhat i believe. i dyed my hair. i liked it but ppl dont seem too. funny how ppl can make so much fun of it, but when its gone they are sad. supposedly im hotter with blonde hair..whatever. and i got mad that i got a 88% on my history test. grrrr. i hate that grade the most. anyways yes. then after school jd was gunna give us a ride home but she neevr came so we jus all walked. camila ditched us for jd and his gay friends so me, amanda, and my new friend stefan walked home and talked. twas fun, then amanda and me went to camilas and we decided to meet jaryed and andrew at publix so we wakled to amandas house and her daddy drove us there. we sprayed perfume on each other and i still smell like a man (a sexy man) lol. then i saw ERIC!! from pe last year. aww. lol. and i saw jerermy schniberg. then i wanted a quarter and nice andrew gae me one (you rock) and so did sum mentally retarded man that works at publix (i think it was the same one that hit on me that one day) so yes. i bought gum. then we went to wendys and chilled. then to packys and played on their fake motorcyles. then we all went home. and yeah. thats it. im gunna go. peace out niggas.

--oh yeah, and "the thing" backfired and im pissed. i dont want to hear about it anymore they might as well go and fuck each other. theres no stopping this anymore. jesus christ...

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

blah blah blah....


OMFG. tonite sucked so much ass you have no idea. today was dilan's 16th birthday party and i was all happy and excited and then no one else was home so my daddy was gunna take me. but he told me to drive since i havent driven in a while. well the shifter gear thing in his car doesnt workk very well so when i tried to shift to reverse i accidently shifter to neutral, stepped on the gas and hit the fucking garage door. i have never gotten yelled at soo much before in my entire life. my dad was cursing and swearing all over the place. he told me to go to my room and i was all like "but daddy, wut about the party?" and hes like "ur not going %^%@&@!" omg i was sooo pissed i was like crying in my room then jack called me and i was all upset and stuff. god i hate my dad. its not like i did it on purpose and his car barely got a scratch. i mean at least were not dead. but yeah, i have no idea how long im grounded for. but then my mommy came home from work, and felt bad so she took me to coldstones to get ice cream and i saw a few friends and was all like "hi" and i saw kia but then i i had to go home. this sucks i wanted to go to dilans party so0o0o0o0o0oo bad. grrrr. fucking parents i swear. now ill prolly never get my license...

<33-janelle




I LOVE YOU DILAN!!! I HOPE YOUR BDAY KICKED MAJOR ASS. WE NEED TO HANG OUT SOON. IM SOOOO SORRY I COULDNT GO! LOVE U! <333

2 _* | ...[Ryan

to hell with you and all your friends...


god. no one understands me. i hate it. no really even tries. i hate how people make assumptions or says things based on my beliefs and shit. like seriously, lots of things piss me off, make me mad, and make me depressed. i dont like feeling like that so i try to tell people what i like and dont like and then they turn around and say shit or dont even talk to me at all. god i hate this soo much.

-whatever-










im not the happy fucking retard everyone thinks i am. i jus play that part so i can cover up how i really feel since no one ever tries to get to kno me. all they do is judge...

4 _* | ...[Ryan

[drum solo baby!!]

grrrr ness yo. yes, im gunna talk about ppl in here once again. and guess what? i dont care wat u all say. ok wel here goes....

***[names have been changed to protect the innocent]***

ok well george* asked me out and his best friend herald*, who is george's best friend, got mad cuz he thought he wuld be losing a friend. well i've tried and tried to make him feel normal but it hasnt seemed to work. he hardly ever talks to me at school (not that he ever did much) but he talks even less and like yeah, eveytime i see herald when im woth george, herald doesnt stick around long and i see like anger or hurtfulness of sumthin in his eyes. this could jus be me losing my mind but whatever. its makes me upset when i found out that hearld said he can never talk to me the same again. that hurts because now i dont even kno if i want to go ouit with george if its guna jepordize a friendship witha pretty good friend. i mean, i love george and herald with everything i have cuz they are two of the most kickass people i kno and they pay attention to me, but ....i just wish things were back to normal between all three of us. . .

-janelle-

"friends last forever, boyfriends/girlfriends dont"

^^ wow how corny, yet so true....

6 _* | ...[Ryan

[insert guitar solo here]


AHHHH!!! OMFG!!! my little camila is growing up soooo fast!!! awww her and jaryed are going out (supposedly as of sunday) that means, once again, we got asked out the same day. annnd both ou bf's are jewish!!! wtf there is seriously something wrong with us!!! LMAO!!

best of luck u two!! <3


=)

5 _* | ...[Ryan

cuz my [heart] keeps f a l l i n g faster....

wow. lately everything = fucked up. like seriously. im starting to lose my fucking mind. i dont know what to do or what i want. i was supposed to change or delete a past journal entry but i jus cant do that. what i write in here, stays in here. if you dont like it, dont read it. its that simple.

anyways, i've come to the conclusion that i am a horible, bitchy girlfriend. well i've always known this but whatever. this is my list of DONT'S that any guy who wants to be with me has to abide by:

-i hate clingy bfs. sumtimes i jus need my space.
-i need time alone with my friends. i cant be with u all the time.
-i have other guy friends. dont be jealous of them if i liked them i wuld already be with them, not u.
-i hate talking on the phone.
-never call me when im studying or trying to sleep. you will piss me off if i tell u not to call and u do so anyways.
-absolutely positively NO SEX or anything else related to it.
-i dont like PDA's (public displays of attention) so dont get mad if when we go to class im not like all over u making out and shit. cuz thats not how i roll.
-i also feel extremely weird kissing and stuff in front of my friends because i hate ppl gettin all in my business and asking me questions.
-if im uncomfortable with sumthin, ill show it and then u shuld kno to stop whatever it is thats going on.
-i hate it when ppl call me "baby" "babe" and all that other shit
-dont say "i love u" to me cuz i wont say it bak cuz i dont believe ppl actually "love" each other after like dating for a week. thats complete bullshit.


-----yes. thats my list. i kno it seems gay, stupid and retarded and like it seems like no guy can do all those things, well they can. if u dont like the above^^ then u dont rilly like me. so yeah. dont care what u think cuz i actually make morals and rules for myself to abide by.. im not sum walking slut. take it over leave it.

ok thats all i really had to say. so yeah.

-later niggers-

<33-janelle

4 _* | ...[Ryan

Help Me!!!

i've been debating about dying my hair reddish again. im getting really sick of the fucking blonde jokes. what do ya'll think? please comment and tell me. thnkz.

COMMENT HOES!!!


much love. <3

6 _* | ...[Ryan

feels like the top of the world right here...

school was gay. failed my env. test. then study my butt of for my spanish test only to find out that it isnt until tomorrow. grrrrr! then had an ap history test. was easy. yay. math was easy. chemistry was fun. lol. i love the ppl in that class. especially dana. shes sooo funny. lol. then daddy piked me and camila up cuz it was raining. then we talked. walked up to publix and i got attacked by a bee that wanted to kill me. it was horrible. i like cried. yes. then we went to the park and sumone broke camilas swing in half *tear* now i haveta go read. i keep putting it off. STOP PROCRASTINATING JANELLE UR AN IDIOT. lol ok later ya'll.

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

i almost fell right thru, but i held onto you...

wow. um lots have happened since saturday nite. woke up early and went home and did hw from 10 am till 10 pm. im not fucking kidding. it was awful. then in the middle of it all, i had and oh-so-famous janelle "episode". lol. yes the kind where everything is great then i fuck things up and make everything good horrible. yes it is one of my horrible flaws. i can never make a relationship work very well. i usually dont want them too anyways. i dunno im weird when it comes to having a bf. like i say i want one, then when i get one, i kinda dont want it. lol. im sucha fag. but yeah theres more. so yes max asked me out. i wasnt sure what to do cuz chris got mad and i totally understand why and i dont want anyone to get mad at me ,,,i LOVE everyone. especially my friends. but yeah the horrible part is, and i kno i shuldnt say this here but i jus have to, is that i like max but, i kinda like sumone else too. and yeah. thats horrible. i dont mean to be ungrateful but i kinda wish the last two days didnt happen and we were all jus the same did group of good friends. i like it better that way. i always get all weird when i have a bf. the onlu exception was with dan and i think that was because i didnt kno him very well, he didnt go to my school, and i wasnt friends with his friends. ahhhh i dunno. im gunna end now. i dont feel like getting cranky and crying again. =). holla.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle




COMMENT HOES!!!

2 _* | ...[Ryan

i drove for miles and miles and wound up at you door...

What is your favorite..
gum:	pink extra
restaurant:	fidays?
drink:	dr. pepper
season:	winter
type of weather:	cold and cloudy
emotion:	happiness, however mostly i experince sadness and anger
thing to do on a half day:	go to mamas pizza with the crew...I MISS U ALL!!!
late-night activity:	talk at camilas window, its getting gay tho
sport:	basketball, skateboarding even tho i suck
city:	not boca.
store:	dont have one
When was the last time you..
cried:	almost today
played a sport:	dunno...
laughed:	tonite
hugged someone:	tonite
kissed someone:	tonite
felt depressed:	yesterday
felt elated:	yesterday and today
felt overworked:	everyday at school
faked sick:	havent done that since 1st grade
lied:	today
What was the last..
word you said:	"no"
thing you ate:	chicken fingers
song you listened to:	somebody told me by the killers
thing you drank:	diet coke
place you went to:	marshalls house
movie you saw:	dreamcatcher
movie you rented:	dont remember
concert you attended:	xtina aguliera in 6th grade lol
Who was the last person you..
hugged:	max
cried over:	dan
kissed:	max
danced with:	mike
shared a secret with:	prolly alina
had a sleepover with:	camila
called:	max or camila
went to a movie with:	scott, camila, juli, alex, gustavo, jeremy
saw:	spiderman 2
were angry with:	everyone
couldn't take your eyes off of:	ryan cabrera
obsessed over:	ryan cabrera
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:	oh yes
kissed someone:	yeah
done drugs:	nope
drank alcohol:	yes
slept around:	no way
partied 'til the sun came up:	no
had a movie marathon:	yeah
gone too far on a dare:	no
spun until you were immensely dizzy:	yess
taken a survey quite like this before:	yeah

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!


boredness = gayness

2 _* | ...[Ryan

you were everything that i wanted..

god i fucking hate this shit. it makes me soo mad whe this happens. and it always fucking happens. grrr i hate this. whats the point of even being here if im never included in anything? jesus christ..











leave me alone fuckers.

2 _* | ...[Ryan

i let go, cuz theres no one that gets me like you do....

today was gay. woke up at like 10 and went home. did chores. showered. started homework. stopped cuz im gay. slept. babysat marshall -which was a m ajor pain in the ass- came home. ate dinner. max came over. hung out with him. we thought we saw spirits and dead ppl in the backyard. then jeremy and chris showed up, made noises, and scared the shit outta me. lol. then we went out front and played the oh-so-original "truth and dare". lol. it was gay sorta. oh course jeremy makes me go first and i have to kiss max. i did. no big deal =). lol. then yeah it was retarded. camila kissed jeremy, chris wuoldnt hump the fire hydrant (lmao), jeremy touched my boob and max kissed it (with clothes on of course). yes then we quit cuz emily came home and god forbid jeremy be seen with us. wtf seriously that pisses me off soooo bad. grrr. then we had to go in and they went to the window and it was gay. max wasnt allowed to sleep over jeremys so then his dad came and took them all home. then we killed mosquitoes and im here takin to chris and yeah thats all cuz no one else will tlak to me. gr tomorrow i haevta get up early again, do shit loads of homework and depending on how much i get down, max might come over and chillax. HAHA thats sucha gay word. anyways im gunna go im tired.

-later losers-

<33-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

anyone will do tonite...

CURRENTS...

Current Clothes: black shorts and scotts shirt
Current Mood: tired and distressed
Current Music: taking bacj sunday
Current Hair: straight
Current Annoyance: actually...nothing
Current Smell: diet coke
Current thing I ought to be doing: homework and chores
Current Desktop Picture: its gay black and gray stripes
Current Favorite Artist: ryan cabrera
Current Favorite Group: taking back sunday
Current Book: scarlett letter
Current CD in CD Player: ryan cabrera cd
Current DVD In Player: i dont have a dvd player lol
Current Color Of Toenails: black and pink
Current Refreshment: diet coke
Current Worry: doing well in school
Current Crush: ha...this dude...
Current Favorite Celebrity: dont care.

LAST PERSON...
You Touched: chris
You Talked to: camila
on the internet:: chris and camila
You Hugged: johnny and sum random weird kid
You Instant messaged: camila
You Yelled At: probably gustavo
You Had A Crush On: ...la...la...la...im not saying
Who Broke Your Heart: dan i think..

ARE YOU...
Understanding: yeah
Open-minded: yeah
Arrogant: eh sumtimes
Insecure: yeah
Interesting: sure
Hungry: not really
Friendly: yes
Smart: yeah
Moody: hell yeah
Childish: of course.
Independent: eh sorta
Hard working: yeah at times
Healthy: sure
Emotionally Stable: nope
Shy: sumtimes but not usually
Difficult: oh yeah
Attractive: i dont know
Bored Easily: yesum
Messy: yeah, jus look at my room lol
Thirsty: nope
Responsible: yeah
Obsessed: no
Angry: yes
Sad: yes
Happy: yes
Trusting: yep
Talkative: yeah
Legal: no
Original: yes
Different: heck yah
Unique: yep
Ignored: yeah all the time
Reliable: yeah
Content: hmm...no not really...
Optimistic: not at all
Deep thinker: ehh no
Self-disciplined: yeah
Sleepy: yees
Lonely: no not really

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...

Kill: gustavo
Slap: gustavp
Get Really Wasted With: no one
Tickle: anyone but me lol
Be Like: i dont want to be like anyone else
Talk To: ANYONE lol

-----------------------------------

9 things you wear daily

1. bra
2. shirt
3. underwear
4. necklaces
5. bracelets
6. pants
7. earings
8. shoes
9. make up

8 movies you'd watch over and over

1. the notebook
2. remember the titans
3. scary movie 3
4. signs
5. legally blonde
6. def. not spiderman
7.NOT dumbo-that movies is fucking scary
8. malibu's most wanted

6 objects you touch every day

1. computer
2. cell phone
3. pencils
4. books
5. door knobs
6. my hair

5 things you do every day

1. sleep
2. shower
3. put make up on
4. talk to people
5. fight with brandon

4 foods that you couldn't live without

1. chicken fingers
2. easy mac
3. thats it
4. i dont like anything else.

3 of your favorite songs at this moment

1. exit to exit
2. love for me
3. true

2 people that have influenced your life the most

1. mom
2. dad

What time is it?: 10:46 am
What is the date?: august 21
Why are you filling this out?: because it was in camilas journal lol

You:

Full name: janelle leigh
Do you like it?: yeah
Nicknames: jan, ja, blondie, dumass, penis lover, etc.
If you could change your first name, what would it be?: dont want to change it
middle name?:leigh
Age: 16
DOB: apr. 16
Height: 5'6
Hair colour: blonde
Eye colour: green/brown/gray
Where do you live?: in gay ass boca
Do you like it there?: not at all
Why/Why not: the ppl are gay
Where were you born?: milwaukee wisconsin
Astrological sign: aries
Shoe Size: 8
Grade: 11
School: WBRHS ---ick
GPA: last year= 4.0 bitch!

Family:

Parents names: mommy and daddy lol
Do you have any siblings?: yeah
If so, what are their names and ages?: brandon, 14 and steve, 35
Are your parents divorced/remarried/single?: together?
Pets: dog cat fish
Names: i dont really care lol
Favorite relative: my big brother

Favorites:

Food: chicken fingers
Drink: coke
Color: black and pink
Album: dunno
Shoes: my flip flops and my adios
Candy: gum?
Animal: llamas
TV Show: real world, the assistant
Movie: the notebook
Dance: who the fuck dances lol
Song: exit to exit
Fruit: i hate fruit
Number: 11
Car: i want a dark sparkly blue jetta
Season: winter
Holiday: christmas and my bday
Month: december and april
Day of the week: friday
Grade so far: 10th
Sport: basketball and skateboarding
Class: psychology
Veggie: asparagus
Dessert: i dont kno
Radio station: 94.9 or 100.7
Actor: paul walked
Actress: who cares
Word: penis
Phrase: what the fuck
Flower: daisy
Clothing store: i dont know
Article of clothing: skirts
State (that you've been to): north carolina
Ice cream flavor: vanilla
Breakfast food: chocolate milk
Way to have fun: hang out at the movies, get kicked out by fat ass cops and chatting at camilas window. lol

This or that?:

AOL/AIM: AIM
CD/Cassette: CDs
DVD/VCR: dvd
Radio/CD: radio
Slow dance/Freak dance: slow
Jacket/Coat: jacket
Leather/Pleather: leather?
Sparkles/Bronze: sparkles!!!
Sexy/Hot: sexy
Car/Truck: car
Civic/Acura: civic
Corvette/Camero: corvette
Strong/Weak: strong
Upset/Pissed: upset
Tall/Short: tall
Lunch/Dinner: dinner
Abercrombie/Hollister: screw them both
Gap/Old Navy: old navy jus for flip flops
Nsync/BSB: hah BSB
Britney/Christina: neither
Love/Lust: lust
Gone In 60 Seconds/The Fast and the Furious: the fast and the furious
Inside/Outside: outside
Lipstick/Lipgloss: lipgloss
Silver/Gold: Silver
Piercings/Tattoos: piercings
Football/Basketball: basketball
Thunder/Lightning: thunder

Friends:

Who is your best girl friend?: camila, lauri, and hillary
Guy friend: im not really sure..
Do you get along with people easily?: if they dont bother me yes
Why/Why not: sum ppl annoy me
Who have you known the longest?: hillary and mike
Who do you dislike the most?: gustavo
Was your crush/bf/gf a close friend before you liked them?: not really
Craziest: hmm...scott, alex, or juliano
Loudest: scott
Funniest: anonthony
Quietest: chris
Sweetest: haa no one
Most caring: max
Most understanding: ha no one, no one ever listens to me.
If you could date one guy who wuld it be?: not telling foo!

Love & Relationships:

Do you have a bf/gf?: not rite now


--wow that was a gay survey. oh well.--

...[Ryan

i cant,...i cant hold on for too long...

w00t. w00t. today was fun stuff. school was ok. saw ppl. did stuff. whatever. walked home with scott, anonthony, sean, and camila.oh and gustavo. it was ok. then we stole anonthony and scotts shirts and went home. then yes. we made plans for tonite and stuff. then went over to scotts to give them their clothes and get my book. then we chilled a lil and i try to play guitar. lol. then we left to go home and get ready. i wore scotts crayon shirt. teehee. then we went and met up there with alex and brain. chris too!!! cant forget him! lol we hung out got kicked out of like evry fucking place. then they were skating behind mc donalds and we met a kid named nick who was cool-to-the-max and then the cop kicked us out of the whole fucking plaza. so we went across the street to the other one. =) skated hung out fished out money from the fountains, u kno the usual. then we went to get ice cream and stuff. then went back to the "forbidden plaza" oooo. and went to walgreens after we went to borders, saw chris, and bought my RYAN CABRERA CD yeah bitch, i got it. yay!!!!! <3333. then scott stole me a letter "L" from a sign. its hot and has bird poopie on it. hehe. then went to walgreens and u''ll never guess who i saw..."JOHNNY fucking NONNI!! oi havent seen that child in like a year. <3 aww he hasnt changed a bit! cept for the beard. lmao. anyways met alot more people when scott went around tell ing EVERYBODY that I LOVE THE PENIS. but i did get several blowjob offers tho! ;). lol. then we eventaully left and brian is all mad at me. whatever. im so sick of this shit. we took chris to jeremys and then took scott home. jeremy, chris, and max are supposed to come to the window tonite but jeremy's mommy doesnt kno if she wants them to go out. [tear]. they better come or i'll haveta kick sum ass!! well im guna go talk to camila about...boys!! <3 later lovelies. xoxo

-later days-

<3-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

someday i wont be lost, someday i wont miss you...
...i lost my direction, where do i turn now?


today was ok. max and chris were our friends in the morning. then went to english. talked to jeremy and max till bell rang. then walked to spanish with max and i had a test...yikes!! i do ok i think.. then lunch was homosexual like usual. then 5th hour-same. jus lectures and notes. i love it! =). no seriously. then went to alg. that class is pretty cool. i learn stuff, do all the hw and talk to ppl like stephanie, valerie and Demario [hes sooooo hilarious!!] yeah then met EVERYBODY outside of school and like the whole freakin school walked home with us. well jus lauren, scott, gustavo, chris, max, me, and camila. wow 7 ppl. lol. then me and camila and max and chris went to wendys and hung out. ran into scott and gustavo. hung out more. was kinda gay. certain people are RILLY pissing me off. grrr >( . then we all got married. max wuldnt marry me like he said last nite. he married camila. grrr. so me and chris got married. then we like switched husbands (sorta) lol. anyways....yes now sure whats going on this weekend. think movie plans changed. like were gunna go saturday instead of friday? i dunno. ok im out. Holla!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle








wow. im so white. =)

...[Ryan

here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you...

grrr. i culd barely get out of bed this morning, i was soo friggin tired. mayb its cuz max called at like exactly 10:25 and we talked till like 11:30. wow like 5 hrs of sleep. anyways got o school hung out with max [our only friend lmao] yes and he made fun of me, what else is new? and chris saw his lover. lol!!! and yeah. 1st hour was gay. we got assigned seats. i hate my seat. then we did like shit. then 3rd hour was sooo boring. lunch was gay as usual. saw seth. lol. then 5th was same. good. then 7th hr was ok. learned stuff. did all classwork and homework and talked to dana. then walked home with scott and camila and justin b. yayness. lol. now i must go do my hw. later loves. <3

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

ill come back and beat you up!!

today was so-so. max was our friend again this morning. so was leo...ehhh. classes were ok. spansih was sooooo long. lunch was ok. awww i sw lil freshy seth, hes sooo adorable. lol. rest of day was ok. walked home with scott and gustavo. camila and him kept fighting. ahhh. oh yeah and gustavo said he'd do me. wow, wonderful aint it? yes well i g2g cuz im supposed to call max. lol. later skaters.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

im mixed up, so what?

AHHH OMFG!!! YAY YAY YAY!! FINALLY!!

RYAN CABRERA's CD CAME OUT TODAY, AUGUST 17th!!!






grrr. i was supposed to go and buy it right after skool but i didnt have any money so my mommy is taking me this weekend. w00t w00t.









imma gunna marry that motherfucker. <3

...[Ryan

i hope you die...

wow i fucking hate everybodie right now. you all seriously need to die. i do so much shit for u people and i go out of my way to help and when i rilly need to to help me with sumthing, u dont want to or sum gay shit. i hate how i feel like i cant depend on anyone. everyone is jus a lying, cheating, backstabbing, self centered asshole and i cant take it anymore. i aint fucking doing anything for anyone again....







..ever....now fuck off.

2 _* | ...[Ryan

next thing you know, you'll be using my toothpaste...

today was unn...unexciting? after doing homework went over to scotts house with zach and camila. we went to wake him up. we also brought him pretty pink and purple balloons for being a lazy fuck. lol. hes rilly grumpy when he wakes up. haha. i was playing magnetic darts. it was soooo awesome. i want one. lol. then we went outside and yeah pretty much didnt do shit. while we were walking, scott found a birdy egg. zach wanted to break it but i said NO! then zach tried to break it over my head so i had to drop the egg. it cracked and broke. i almost cried. i am a KILLER. i feel terrible [gosh, imma loser]. then yeah pretty much went home and did more homework. Joy! k i have nothing more to say. bye.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

im lost without your light...

...sigh....last nite was fucked up. slept over camilas again. lol. we went online and what not for a lil then gustavo, chris, and jeremy come over at like 10:45 so we go outside for like 20 minutes then we have to go inside and they go to the window. we talk to them there for a while. they sooooo dont kno how to do the window thing as well as scott. lol. they are amateurs. then we IMed scott and told him to come over. didnt think he was tho. him and zach end up coming and then there is 5 boys outside her window. lol. they were so fucking loud tho. they all left shortly after and yeah. it was gay tho. worst window experience yet. but oh well. oh and jeremy knows miss skank [emily hogan] and heslike head over heels for her. its kinda patethic. no offense. yeah but then we went mosquito killing. damn there was like a bazillion. then went to sleep. i woke up at 9, went home and wrote my analysis for english. i still have to write a one page newspaper analysis and write a spanish poem, make flashcards for spanish, read part of the scarlett letter and yeah. i think thats it. lol. well im gunna go shower. i think i smell. =)

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

im not the kind of girl you want to leave...

YaY! QuIz!!!

Skater/Stoner
You usually do your own thing with your friends. Friday night you could be chilling at a party and Saturday night you could be with some of your close friends skateboarding and running from the cops.

What Is Your Social Status?

LMAO! me, a stoner. yeah riiiiight. =)

...[Ryan

i like it better when it hurts!...

today was ok. i woke up at like 11 and did my chores. then got ready and camilas mom took me to advent where i met up with camila and kristin. from there we went to the mall. we walked around and shit for ahwile. then we asked if we culd get our makeup done early. so we did. it literally took 15 minutes for my makeup artist lady yto take off my eyeliner. she had to ask this gay guy for assistance. LMAO. then she did my eyes rilly pretty. too bad ill never be able to do what she did. ha. then after all of us got our make done we chilled with jeremy, max, and chris [the lil freshman] LOL. jk. but anyways. we went to get food at fridays and the waiter was soooo nice. he gave us tons of free sodas. he rocks. lol. then gustavo showed up. eghhh. he rilly pissed me off. then we went over to cheesecake factory so they culd skate. go figure. then i had an "episode" lol ad jeremy was very nice about. <3 thanks for caring dude =). then we went bak to the mall and chilled. then kristin left and a lil bit later so did me and camila. it was fun. i think tonite chris, jeremy, and gustavo are coming to the window. what joy.

-later skater-

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

so much for my happy ending..

grrrrr. i hate seriously everything right now. my life is horrible. everything i have right now, i dont want. everything i dont have, i want. i hate school. it sucks. i seriously have like no friends. the ones i do have dont help much. u hate my classes. i hate florida. i hate not being single. i hate my teachers. i prolly hate u. pretty much i hate EVERYTHING. but mostly stupid ass WEST BOCA HIGH. it needs to die.

-whatever-

3 _* | ...[Ryan

dont let me get in your way...

today was friday the 13th. i had a most horrible day. i woke up late. we had to to go skool. damn huricane. then i cut my armpit shaving. then i burnt myself on the iron. and i heard a train coming and everyone told me i was on crack. wtf there has to be a train around here. then got to skool hair got fucked up before 1st hr. grrr. awww i saw chris today! i didnt kno he went to the new skool. anyways...then it got severly windy and i had to hold me skirt so it wuldnt fly up. then had a pop quiz in chemistry. grrrr. then we walked home cuz were cool like that. well us - scott cuz he ditched us for a free ride from lauren lol. and we tried to get thri this gate and it was locked. shit. so me, camila, and martin walked around in the graa and i tripped over a tree. wow. im gay. then martin left and we walkd to wendys cuz we were starving. then camilasmom piked us up and we went home.

then decided finally after sum upsetting times, to go to the movies with zach, eric, jeremy, scott, and jason. we were late so we didnt go see a movie. we went out back and the skated and we saw a big ass dead stork bird thing. it smelled bad. camila almost barfed. then zach broke erics board so he was depressed. awww. anywyas...then we went to mc donalds a "stole" soda. then we went to starbuck and on the way i was a reindeer. yeah u heard me. then we went to borders to but books for skool. i saw chris and chris. haha. yeah. senior chris and sophmore chris. then yeah. we got in trouble there so we left. then went to walgrrens or sumthin. i cant remember. oh yeah jeremy looked very sexy in his gay french person beret. then yes we met up with gusavo, lauren, patrice, juliano, alex, justin, sum other kid named jeremy and other ppl who shall remain nameless since i dont kno their names. lol then we had like 3 fat security guys tell us to go away. damn fat fake cops. so we left and i have jeremys hat (the non-gay american one) so yeah. took scott and zach home then decided to sleep over camilas. i dont riilly want to any more cuz i forgot that i have chores 2morrow. oh well. oh yeah did i forgot to mention another aspect that jus topped off my bad day..brian asked me out. ahh jus wondefull....*moans*. im so horrible when it comes to this stuff. grrrr. die. im out.

-later-

<3-janelle

3 _* | ...[Ryan

everytime i feel lame im looking up...

ABOUT YOU
Your full name::	janelle leigh bannow
Age::	16
Height::	5'6"
Natural hair colour::	blonde
Eye colour::	hazel
Number of siblings::	2
Glasses/contacts?::	neither =)
Piercings::	yes sir
Tattoos::	nope
Braces?::	noo
FAVOURITE
Colour::	pink and black
Band::	hmmm...maroon 5 ? i dunno
Song::	She will be loved, all ryan cabrera songs
Stuffed animal::	wtf i dont have an animal, i have a blankey lol
Video game::	i dont play video games
TV show::	recess
Movie::	the notebook
Book::	to kill a mockingbird
Food::	chicken fingers
Game on a cell phone::	dont have one
CD cover::	ashlee simpsons
Flower::	white daisy
Scent::	ralph lauren
Animal::	llama
Comic book::	wtf ppl still read those?
Cereal::	cap'n crunch
Website::	woohu.com (my journal)
Cartoon::	kim possible
DO YOU
Play an instrument?::	heck no
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?::	no i dont think so
Like to sing?::	yeah
Have a job?::	no
Have a cell phone?::	yea
Like to play sports?::	yeah
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	nope
Have a crush on someone?::	uhh yess
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?::	no
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::	i have 5
Have any special talents/skills?::	ha no
Excercise daily?::	lol riiight
Like school?::	uhh at times
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?::	yes
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?::	noo
Speak any other languages?::	nope
Go a day without food?::	never tried...
Stay up for more than 24 hours?::	yeahhh
Read music, not just tabs?::	ha no
Roll your tongue?::	nope
Eat a whole pizza?::	no
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?::	yes
Cried to get out of trouble?::	oh yeah
Gotten lost in your city?::	yup
Seen a shooting star?::	yes sir
Been to any other countries besides the united states?::	nope
Had a serious surgery?::	no
Stolen something important to someone else?::	dont think so
Solved a rubiks cube?::	nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas?::	oh definately all the time
Cried over a girl?::	prolly over a friend
Cried over a boy?::	oh yes all the time
Kissed a random stranger?::	no
Hugged a random stranger?::	yes
Been in a fist fight?::	nope
Been arrested?::	almost lol
Done drugs?::	heck no
Had alcohol?::	yeah
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::	haha no i had chocolate come out my nose tho,
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?::	oh yes all the time
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::	no
Swore at your parents?::	no
Been to warped tour?::	nope
Kicked a guy where it hurts?::	yeah
Been in love?::	no way
Been close to love?::	nopee
Been to a casino?::	yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?::	omg on accident! the poor bunny
Broken a bone?::	no
Gotten stitches?::	nope
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?::	uh yeah!
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?::	eww no
Made homemade muffins?::	yeah, but i forgot the eggs so they bounced lol
Bitten someone?::	oh yes [owen] lol
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?::	yeah
More than 5 times?::	nope
Been to niagra falls?::	no
Burped in someones face?::	yeah!
Gotten the chicken pox?::	yes
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth::	this morning
Went to the bathroom::	few minutes ago
Saw a movie in theaters::	hmm dodgeball w/ alex and camila i think
Read a book::	last week of summer
Had a snow day::	years ago...=(
Had a party::	my bday
Had a slumber party::	monday nite [wink]
Made fun of someone::	today
Tripped in front of someone::	prolly today if not yesterday then
Went to the grocery store::	umm monday
Got sick::	while ago
Cursed::	today
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables::	fruits
Black/white::	black
Lights on/lights off::	off
TV/movie::	tv
Car/truck::	car
Body spray/lotion::	spray
Cash/check::	cash
Pillows/blankets::	blankers
Headache/stomach ache::	headache
Paint/charcoal::	paint
Chinese food/mexican food::	eww gross neither
Summer/winter::	winter
Snow/rain::	snow
Fog/misty::	fog
Rock/rap::	rock
Meat/vegetarian::	meat
Boy/girl::	boy
Chocolate/vanilla::	vanilla
Sprinkles/icing::	sprinkles
Cake/pie::	cake
French toast/french fries::	fries
Strawberries/blueberries::	strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool::	pool
Hugs/kisses::	kisses
Cookies/muffins::	muffins
p33n/bewbz::	penis!!!
Wallet/pocket::	pocket
Window/door::	window [haha]
Emo/goth::	emo boys are soo adorable!
Pink/purple::	pink
Cat/dog::	cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve::	short
Pants/shorts::	pants
Winter break/spring break::	winter break
Spring/autumn::	autumn
Clouds/clear sky::	clouds
Moon/mars::	moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?::	lots
What are their names?::	wtf im not naming them all.
Do you have a best friend?::	yes
Have you ever liked one of your friends?::	oh yeah
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?::	girl i think
Have you ever lost a friend?::	yeah
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?::	yes sir
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?::	reddi_whip! lol
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?::	uh yeah? who hasnt?
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?::	dunno
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?::	dunno
Do you miss any of your old friends?::	oh yes i miss my olympic friends to death
What friend have you known the longest?::	hillary
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?::	yeah
If so, what is it?::	none ya bizness
How often do you spend time with your friends?::	everyday?
Do any of your friends drive?::	yeah
Has a friend of yours ever died?::	nope
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?::	haha....lotsa stuff
What do you think your friends think of you?::	im a loser/retarded/blonde fag lol
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?::	heck no
If you have, with who?::	nobodie
Are you single?::	yess
Are you in a relationship?::	um no
If so, for how long?::	leave me alone!!
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::	i guess
What is your idea of the best date?::	dont care
What was your first kiss like?::	ha...no comment
How old were you when you got your first kiss?::	13 i think
Do you think love is a load of shit?::	oh yes definately
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?::	[wink] you'l never kno...
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?::	yeah
Have you ever been dumped?::	yup
Have you ever dumped someone?::	yes
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?::	im not telling you. its confidential
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers::	pajamas
Hat::	cowboy
Hard::	hat
Free::	time
Space::	rock
Taste::	buds
Good charlotte::	hott
Red::	peppers
Deep::	thoughts
Heart::	broken
Cord::	phone
Cheese::	sprinkle
Rain::	dance
Work::	hard
Pedal::	bike
Head::	butt
Bed::	sleep
Fluff::	puff
Hardcore::	heavy metal
Race::	track
Knife::	stab
Jump::	high
I....
am::	tired
want::	to sleep
need::	a boyfriend...i think
crave::	nothing rilly
love::	my friends
hate::	preps and pimps
did::	my homework
feel::	lonely
miss::	jack, kyrie, dilan, mara, carolyn, SETH, etc.
am annoyed by::	my brother
would rather::	die
am tired of::	school already
will always::	love you
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?::	rock
What time is it now?::	9:38 pm
What day is it?::	thursday
Whens the last time you called someone?::	tonite
How much money do you have right now?::	50 dollars
Are you hungry?::	no
Whatcha doin?::	takin this gay survey and talking to brian
Do you like parades?::	no
Do you like the moon?::	sure
What are you going to do when youre done with this?::	go to sleep
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?::	hahahah yeah...
If you could have any magical power what would it be?::	to fly
Have you ever had a picnic?::	yes
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::	oh boy i sure did
What about sock em boppers?::	no mommy never bought me them
Are you wearing any socks right now?::	no i never wear socks
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?::	yeah
pretty?::	i dunno
sarcastic?::	yes lol ppl never get my sarcasm tho..
lazy?::	yeah
hyper?::	oh most definately
friendly?::	yeah
evil?::	haha not rilly
smart?::	yeah
strong?::	ehh not rilly
talented?::	no
dorky?::	oh boy yes
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high::	johnny
skip::	shana
dance::	scott and his sexy dancing LOL
lonely::	gustavo
pen::	alina
flower::	steph
window::	camilaaa
psycho::	anonthony
brain freeze::	jeremy
orange::	i
sassy::	dont
jelly::	know
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::	against
love::	against
drunk drivers::	against
airplanes::	for
war::	against
canada::	for
united states::	against
rock music::	for
gay marriage::	for go gay ppl!!! w00t
school::	against
surveys::	for
parents::	for
cars::	for
killing::	against
britney spears::	against
coffee::	for
pants::	for
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?::	no way
Play strip poker?::	ha
Run away?::	yeah
Curse at a teacher?::	nope
Not take a shower for a week?::	eww no
Ask someone out?::	yeah already done.
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?::	no
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?::	yeaahh! that wuld rock
Go scuba diving?::	no prolly not i hate water
Write a book?::	no
Become a rockstar?::	sure!
Have casual sex?::	no way
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?::	biolage color care
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?::	monday nite, well actually early tuesday morning
What kind of computer do you have?::	dell?
What grade are you in?::	11th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?::	never tried it
Or just make out?::	no
How many posters do you have in your room?::	none
How many cds do you have?::	like 15?
What time is it now?::	9:45 pm

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1 _* | ...[Ryan

here i am as perfect as im ever gunna be...<3

2nd day of school. still didnt get much better. kinda got worse. did sum gay thing in ap env. then wrote a fuckin essay in ap english. grrr. mine sucked major cock. then didnt rilly do anything in psychology cuz mr. adler is cool like that. then read a stupid story in spanish and guess what....we arent allowed to speak english to her. wtf!? its all spanish. grrrrrness. then lunch was retarded. we lost janis and angela, dont kno where they went. but i got a Dr. Pepper. YAY!!!! i was happy. then sum stupid police man and goth ppl were sitting in our designated spot [the 12 shade as scott calls it]. so we sat in a gay place and lauren and jeremy and gustavo were there for a while. then gustavo sat on my head. lol. history was cool. we took notes and i paid attention and learned stuff. yay! lol i kno, im a nerd. then algebra is gay. the ppl in my class need to die. i cant pay attention. grrrr. and chemistry was gay we looked at our lab supplies and did sum gay conversion w/s. then was gunna walk home with scott and camila again but daddy came to pik us up. scott walked tho. lol. yeah then i did my hw. went to camilas. did her hw and she helped me with my spanish. then we walked to scotts in the deadly lighting cuz her computer was being gay. so we printed out her thingy on his comp and watched "Rocky and Bullwinkle" yayness!!! it was soooo kickass awesome. i forgot how ghetto [well sexy ghetto] it was. i <3 bullwinkle! hes sooo dumb!! lol. then we left and i went home to eat dinner.

hopefully CHARLIE will come and we wont have school tomorrow. however, if it comes, then alex cant come over 2morrow *tear* so hmmm....having a hurricane day wuld kick butt!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan