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2003 26 November :: 9.39pm
"San Dimas High School Football Rules"
Last night I had a dream that we went to Disneyland,
Went on all the rides, didn't have to wait in line.
I drove you to your house where we stared up at the stars
I listened to your heartbeat as I held you in my arms.
We hung out at the rainbow where we drank til' half past two.
Nothing could go wrong anytime that I'm with you.
Like crashing a hotel room or leading up to that first kiss
Or searching for a high school that you know doesn't exist...
These are the things that make me free
I feel like I'm stuck in "stand by me"
This night was too good to be true.
Today I woke up alone wishing you were here with me,
I wanted us to be something that we'd probably never be.
Today you called me up and said you'd see me at our show,
But now I'm stuck debating if I even wanna go.
Whitney, don't you understand that what I say is true?
I just want you to know I have a major crush on you.
I'd drive you to Las Vegas and do the things you wanna do
I'd even have Wayne Newton dedicate a song to you.
I only wish that this could be
Just dump your boyfriend and go out with me
I swear I'd treat you like a queen.
good song....
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2003 26 November :: 9.37pm
"Broken Promise Ring"
I really wanna call you, but I know that it's not right.
I probably shouldn't tell you but I dreamed of you last night.
I guess I'm not prepared to say...
Goodbye, so long, farewell, I won't be seeing you again
Until next time that he goes away.
You told me that you loved me, I started tearing down those walls.
I really started to trust you but you set me up to take the fall.
I guess I'm not prepared to say...
Goodbye, so long, farewell, I won't be seeing you again
Until next time that he goes away.
I guess that I'm wrong for falling in love,
But you're still the one that I'm dreaming of.
I guess that it's you I want to hold onto,
But you're holding onto someone else.
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2003 26 November :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: ahh! break finally!
:: Music: the ataris
yes!! its break!!! no school for four days, i can sleep and do my idea/quote list for AS and eat turkey! i am so glad that it is break..honestly a break from school and from seeing certain people will be the greatest thing ever...its exactly what the doctor has called for...
last night was movie night with doug...and it was amazing! we watched X:2 with his mom and dad...i felt like part of the kolpien family :) and i cannot believe how much i had forgotten about the movie..and the ending still makes me very very angry...doug told me i was being stupid but i dont care! cliff hangers are horrible...grr..then when we left doug was telling me that next time we watch a movie together that carmen would like to join us...he was basically asking me permission, at first i joked and said no, but i told him that i didnt care...i mean carmen is a big part of dougs life and she is like a nano part of my life, and thats just screwy, so i told doug that i would be absolutely stoked to have her join us for a movie night...and i think my saying that completely made dougs day which makes me happy :) so now i can't wait until the next movie night, it should be a lot of fun
man, ive been feeling so unproductive lately...i think i need to be more active, maybe i'll get a gym membership with my christmas money...that would be fun...going to the gym every morning at 530...then going to school feeling like i had already accomplished something? that would be the day...plus it would help me get ready for track...ugh...i almost dread it but it will be a lot of fun...i always dread it though, and its really stupid to dread it because it always turns out to be fine, but idk, i guess i just want to do really well this year...you know? not have tucker complaining because the weight department is being stupid...hmm
well i emailed dani today...told her to get her butt up here to visit, hopefully she emails me back and i can see her soon...havent talked to her for awhile, and having her up here awhile ago was a lot of fun...so yes...manditory visit soon, hopefully over winter break :)
ahh...its the holiday season, i love Christmas, church is always great this month, everyone just becomes a little more cheerful than usual, and its just nice, idk im a big dork i guess, but i love it so i dont care
hmm...Thanksgiving is tomorrow..first one without Bernard...should be interesting, im scared, but it'll be ok, i have to get used to it sometime right? might as well be sooner than later...
so yea, i got rear ended the other day...girl behind me wasnt paying attention..good thing i had the truck, had it been my neon i probably wouldnt have a car, that neon is such a piece of shit...i feel bad that my dad has to drive it, but soon enough the truck will be payed off and then we can get something else :) but no damage in the accident to the truck, just this plastic thing was cracked and needs to be replaced, but its only sixteen bucks and she gets to pay for it...not to bad i guess.. at least it wasnt my fault
well i think ive rambled too long...Happy Thanksgiving everyone...be safe:)
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2003 22 November :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: no doubt's new song
im sleepy!!
well odu lost....its cool though, it was a really good game
the parade was this morning...longest thing ever, i am definitely not marching it next year...there's no way
3 more days of school, then break!! i cannot wait for this break, im going to sleep and read grapes of wrath, that sounds soo nice right now
school's been going ok, american studies has been great the past couple of days because they've just been work periods...chem is coming along fine, i had a study thing with james monday night for the test, math is easy and thats pretty much eat, life's been easy lately, i dont know what ive done to deserve it though
amanda told me i have to wear my hair down a lot more now..i should work on that
hmm....tuesday night! doug and i are going to watch X:2, im very excited :)
last night we hung out at megans and played scatagories...fun times..we really are a bunch of dorks, theres is not a cool streak in any of us, and hopefully we get to play life tonight, because that game is amazing and very funny...my dream husband is andy nicholas:)
well i guess thats it.....
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2003 18 November :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: im ready for break
Thanksgiving break needs to come right now. Im so ready for a break...from school...from friends...I still want to go out over break, but there are certain people that i dont want to see at all...i just need a break from them, its like everytime i turn around...there they are...its like go away! i want space! idk, maybe i'll stay home again this friday night...and hopefully this time sara and stevie wont come out..because when i say i want a night alone i want a night alone..away from everyone. i had a nice talk with megan after school tonight and i told her how i felt, we basically vented for an hour in her car, and she made me feel a lot better...i think i just need some time away, everything is getting to be a little too much lately, and im tired of having to deal with it...
this break really scares me though..Thanksgiving without Bernard? thats the scariest thing ever right now...i dont know how thats even going to work...is it going to be a meal filled with grief or are we going to act happy and remember that happier times, and laugh and be joyful? i wish i knew...
i did go to school today...wish i would have slept more but i didnt...i read grapes of wrath and watched some television, then went in for an SAB meeting, that was fun, cominghome should be cool...i havent decided if im going though...it will be fun, but idk...a night at home is so tempting right now...hell i think anything alone is tempting
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