ahhh...i just spent soo much money today! i think i racked up about 365 bucks in purchases today. i went over my budget, but my mom said that was ok. it was fun, i havent spent some mom time in awhile, so to spend the day with her was fun

i havent talked to any of my friends all day today, well save a few online, but thats nothing special, i was only on for about 5 minutes. i feel so out of the loop, no one called me today, and normally everyone calls me, i feel so...unloved, like i did something wrong and now everyone hates me. oh well, hopefully thats not the case.

i had a job interview this morning at 930, it was soo freakin easy, the chick asked me to tell her about myself, when i would be available, why i should be hired, and if i've ever had any experience with retail, and that was it, it took about 2 minutes, but now i have to wait for another call back, then i get training and if im good at the training i'll get hired! finally money! i feel so bad having to always ask for money from my parents, i feel like such a mooch and its horrible.

well in a little less than 3 hours, bernard will have been dead for a week. it doesnt seem like that long, it seems like just yesterday i was sitting with him in his bedroom talking about my friends and what we do when we hang out...he wanted to meet my friends, one in particular and now he never will...i feel more bad for that one in particular who will never be graced with the presense of Bernard Lawrence Smith...he sure was a character...i miss him....

band starts soon...as pathetic as this sounds, im looking forward to it, it'll be nice to wake up and actually have something to do thats not go to track and waste 30 minutes throwing with someone who refuses to talk to me. i like the idea of being a squad leader this year and i think that being a junior i'll have a little more influence this year and by doing that i'll have a little more fun and some more confidence. i really really hope we learn more half time shows this year, i loved freshmen year when we learned a new show for every home game, last year we had the same show every week and it was HORRIBLE! everyone thought it was horrible, fans were getting sick of seeing the same thing, and the band members were sick of doing the same thing, i dont know what headley was thinking, hopefully he gets his head out of his ass this year and teaches us some more shows

i should really start practicing my clarinet soon...i need to relearn my scales...ive forgotten a few and i really wanna make a good chair in symph this year, no more of this last row shit when i was ranked 7th and should have been in the 2nd row...i beat emma in the rankings and she was 5 seats ahead of me...i hate that

mike's coming out tomorrow...hes moving hoem for about a week and a half...his girlfriends moving in with us too...that should be interesting...i havent decided if im excited about this yet

man, i bought some school supplies today...folders and paper and a bookbag...im not looking forward to school yet i am, some classes i really wanna start, like i thikn chemistry will be a blast, as will band and american studies...but spanish? pre cal? i dont think so...my brain has totally forgotten trig...preston would be so ashamed

fairs almost over, i think everyone's there tonight...i think thats why no one is online and why no one has called...which is weird because i call people when im at the fair asking them to join me..oh well, i guess people are just different, plus the fact i live so far away people probably wouldnt wanna wait for me to actually get there...oh well

thats it

2 blows | let it