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2004 23 May :: 12.06pm
:: Mood: im ok
its been an interesting week...
schools been pretty much a waste lately, we're not pushing anything academically at all, we're basically just there to waste time until teachers can give us exams.
AS has been coming along, jackies been kicking butt in the lab, and sara and i went yesterday and tried to finish some things, we got all the images imported and started to fit some of it in, but its hard to understand jackies writing when she wrote it so only she could understand it, but its coming along, we've got all week, and megan and i finally dont have track after school to occupy us
speaking of track, districts was amazing. wednesday it was discus and i threw a 94'9'', which is good for me, but i needed to break 101 to get into finals, neither stacie and i made it, she only threw a 96 or so, but it was still a good time, i really enjoy meeting throwers from other schools and chatting with them, they're interesting. then the rest of the night i hung out with megan carrie daniel daron kelly and some others....kyle and i did the army crawl across the field, and i later found out that the coaches were laughing at us from the stands..eh, idc, when am i ever going to talk to all those people ever again, and who all really knew it was me? i was having fun haha. i got home a little after 11 that night, which wasnt too bad, but i did zero homework so...eh. thursdays practice was fun, i told bob that even though he was technically done he had to come to one last practice because we would never practice together ever again. so he came :) he skipped warm ups, but that doesnt matter. i was glad he came, and we kept joking about how we were never going to see each other ever again!! too bad i went and visited him yesterday at meijer. haha. friday...amazing!! it started off so badly though, we got to tiffin and we were put on a weather dealy, and then they put us all in the school, and everytime lightning struck we had to wait 30 minutes...we ended up delaying 2 and a half hours...it was torture, most of the team sat in a circle and played dorky elementary games, but at least they were entertaining. by then i had lost all ambition to throw...haha, i was wrong, i barely made finals with a 32'2.75'', i took the last spot and i only got it by a little more than an inch...well then coach was like well, just get it up because all my prelims were flat, so my mom pulled out the list of all the things ian told me to remember, she read them to me, i remembered to get it high and i busted out a 34'3''....that felt amazing, i ended up throwing a 34'4'' and placing 6th...i was 4.5'' from qualifying for regionals..its a bummer but at the same time, that was a 10 inch pr so i have nothing to be upset about, coach was positively giddy though, it was amazing
megan and i left districts early to go to relay, we got there, started walking, got daron ready...he looked pretty good...he didnt win, but it was still fun, walked some more, got best camp site...walked some more, it started to rain, and they ended up canceling relay, that was the biggest let down ever, after all the preparation, for it to be canceled at 1am...i was sad, but ian helped me pack up all my stuff into my car and then we went home
sara and i edited yesterday, went out to lunch with daniel, and then came back into town last night to watch troy, i got carded and the guy wasnt to pleased when i asked for 2 tickets and didnt have another id, but there was noting he could do about it, so i got ians ticket. it was a good movie though, i enjoyed it, but brad pitt isnt a very good actor, so it kinda took away from it...we went to DQ afterwards and met up with ali and megan...we were only there for a short while, and it was fun, and i got ice cream..whats not to like?
today we've a concert, and rehearsal...should be interesting, everyone should come, its at 7 at kobacker and its free!
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2004 18 May :: 9.03pm
When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin’ love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin’ alone
I think of all the friends I’ve known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody’s home
All by myself
Don’t wanna be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don’t wanna live, all by myself anymore
Hard to be sure
Some times I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
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2004 18 May :: 7.18pm
Today, Brittany, someone might ask you what you're up to or what you're thinking about. Scorpios often think about things that are often inaccessible to most people. Today it will be as if you have gone totally inside yourself on your quest for answers to your spiritual questions or to the secrets of life. Just tell that person you are trying to rest, as they probably won't understand what you're thinking about anyway...
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2004 17 May :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: ugh
ive gone back into the habit of falling asleep when i get home, i dont like it when i do that, because it results in me not going to bed until well past midnight and then waking up at 6...it doesnt work
school was a waste...band was nothing special, pops concert will be decent except for freckles, freckles is dumb, but wizard is awesome, and the movement of danceries we're playing is actually a good one, and the boroque song is really cool to listen to, but we dont play the cool parts so its a slight let down...
math test will be my death, i still cant get certain formulas to pop out at me, so we'll see...but that class is again a waste...its so bland
spanish...well lets put it this way, i dont care about subjentives...or weddings
study hall...biggest waste of time ever..its starting to bore me
chemistry, i dont get it, megan had to explain it to me in the lunch line and it finally clicked...it was a lecture today that in the first 5 minutes drove me to sleep, then people got up and moved around which stirred my interest, ian spinning on a table is quite the sight
AS...we did work today on the project..it's coming together, but everyone is getting tense about it, so nothing is easy going in that class, normally i can make things light with jokes...not now
track...ugh, coach wasnt there and it had started to rain, so we were inside, we lifted a little, nothing too hard, but something productive, the boys trained with the medicine ball, i didnt join them because they were throwing it a lot harder than i would ever be able to, and i didnt want tog et in the way, so vannett and i did a lot of abs, it was fun, and we found chalk, so we'll see how that works out for us. coach came back and gave us our schedules for districts...last flight last thrower for shot, and last flight second thrower for disc...chances of me making finals for either...slim to none :(
i can't decide if i want track to be over yet or not. is it bad that i feel like an outsider while im there? i cant talk to emgan or kelly because they're off running, vannett i can talk to for short periods of time before my eyes start to cross, stacie's not bad but again with the eye crossing, ian adam and bob seem to make it a point to seperate themselves from the group...i dont know, i used to think i could talk to those guys now i just feel incredibly inferior and dont even want to test it anymore, all this plus the fact im failing at disc horribly isnt helping the whole self esteem...but i like track, because its something to do everyday, and i really do enjoy throwing when everyone is getting along and theres no pressure...unfortunately this week is full of pressure...i just dont know anymore
remember when we had girls nights? its been awhile...
remember when we all actually hung out? yea, its also been awhile for that
change is bad, everything has taken a 180 lately, and everytime i try to bring it up it gets shot down, so im sitting here in my turmoil and that cant be good for my mental state
i talked to my parents about cincinnati..i think they're finally getting comfortable with the idea of me going away to college :)
relay is this weekend, and because of me not making it to finals probably i'll be able to get there by 8! :) that makes me extremely happy
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2004 16 May :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: undecided
well this weekend was a bust...friday was spent at nlls of course, and i went to bed that night and slept until 10, it was glorious, then i went shopping with my mom and dad...i seriously cannot spend more than a few hours with them, they ask too many questions and give too many speeches, so i was really planning on going out that night...it didnt happen. sara stevie and emgan were all working, jackie went to kats party, and the boys decided to have a boys night and not call me...so i was the big loser left home alone on a saturday night...i watched big fish though, good movie...wow im pathetic
i went to bed last night in a pretty horrible mood, in tears, i just kind of wept myself to sleep, ian just told me to sleep it out and try to forget about it, its hard, but it'll go away soon...but gah, what an ass
today i went to 4h and relay, both were productive, i was at alis for a bit, felt extremely out of place and ended up leaving after a game of pool and a short conversation..i meant to come home and write my paper, instead i fell asleep and didnt start it until 930, i finished it by 10, and its bad, but its finished, i just need a semi decent grade on it
im really ready for school to be out...im tired of having to keep working and doing the exact same thing everyday...i swear, all the days are just blurring together because there is nothing seperating them! its so annoying
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