yup, im a slacker, i stayed home from school today, i didnt go to track, and ive done a lot of sleeping

ok, so i havent updated in awhile and previous commenters are starting to get demanding so we'll see what we can do

last week at school is kind of a blur right now...nothing exciting must have happened then....meet on tuesday, i got 2nd and 5th in shot and disc respectively...it was cold but fun, southview has no class and we dont like them very much...afterwards me megan hodges ian and daron went to arbys, that was tons of fun, i didnt end up going home until 930, and i remember not doing my hw...good times. arbys was seriously a lot of fun though, i enjoy sitting down with a small number of people and just letting the conversation go in whatever direction it pleases...contrary to popular belief, i am not one that enjoys massive amounts of people all around me at the same time, id rather i be with 5 of my good friends than 30 of my acquaintances

all people seem to be engulfed my prom...im trying not to be, but it cant be helped, i however, am the big loser without a date...it'll be ok though, we're going as a group so maybe it wont be obvious and if it is i'll succumb to making myself a sign and attaching it to my dress that states big loser...urg to me and my normal teenage girl discomforts, at times i really wish i wasnt so stereotypical. i wish i could be one of those girls that things dont bother me, that i dont care what i look like, or what my status is, i wish i could get to the point in life where i only answer to myself...however, im way too superficial for that to be so

hess burned himself...fairly seriously, he was up in the hospital and i had no free time to go see him, i felt horribly about it, but there was nothing i could do...hes home now, so i shall make my way over there soon and hopefully shed some joy to his ignorant and incompetent bubble...

friday....party at ians. many people were there, half stayed upstairs the other half watched kill bill...i would have watched the movie but they started it without some of us and i really dislike watching a movie without seeing the beginning, so i opted for hanging out upstairs with barber, daron, ian and megan....good times.

saturday....fostoria, i placed 4th and 6th in shot and disc respectively...not too shabby, i got to talk to whitney and tell her she was sweet and amazing, i also told her my ymca secret and she looked at me weird...so any hopes of a friendship there is hereby terminated, oh well..shes not that amazing, just sweet. i got burnt again, and it was a long day...mainly spent with bob adam and ian...it was fun, but i think spending that much time could actually be a detriment, im not completely sure what i mean by that but its what i feel

ians house again that night...not as many people, we played hide and seek though, which was interesting, i wasnt feeling very good though so i wasnt that great of compant so i apologize to those that were there...just blame pms or something, idk

sunday...busy day....tara got confirmed..yay! shes the last of us to do it...bittersweet really, i came to the conclusion that i am sweet in my memorizing capapbilities because i still knew most of the answers to the round of questions and answers...that was like a 15 page packet we had to know and i still knew it...i guess those 8 years of catechism classes really did something...i felt sweet though..was busy with that most of the morning, started to work on my 4h project a tad, went to a relay meeting, came home and tried to do hw, failed and went to sleep...woke up and i didnt go to school...so i did a lot of work on the hw i failed the night before, wrote a letter of recomendation, got ahead is gatsby and worked on our final project of greatness...im really starting to get excited about it which is odd..it takes a lot to get my excited about school nowadays

ive been rather bitter lately...and i know why, but its really hard to explain it to someone...anyone actually. people can tell somethings wrong too...they keep asking, its like they feel obligated to hear me rant becuase i listen to them or something, i appreciate it really, but its hard to take seriously at the same time. idk, ive always had a problem with trusting people and wondering why they do what they do...so its hard for me to tell someone what im thinking because i dont understand their real intentions behind asking...do they really care? or are they doing it because they feel obligated? idk..its bothersome though...id rather just keeps things bottled up inside than talk something out with someone who doesnt really care they just do it because they'll feel better about coming to me the next time they have something to vent about..like to make the score even or something, idk, its frustrating

i have the worst farmers tan ever, prom pictures will be interesting...grr..

relay will be tons of fun this year...now that ive done it once i can really jump in and help without feel out of place. so im pumped, im actually sharing ideas and they're being accepted and such, its nice to feel accepted...the only bummer is we have districts the same night so idk what time i can get there...i think adam and ian want to come so maybe we could leave as soon as we finish, im not sure though, i know megan and kelly will have to stay later so we'll see i guess, its crazy to think track is over so soon! it feels like we all just got started, and i still havent broken 33....grr...soon, i swear, along with that 100

i think im going to dye my hair again...im getting bored

ok...so lets make an agreement, ok? lets have a good week? i could use one and im sure others wont mind either

let it