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2004 11 April :: 11.25am
:: Mood: im alright
bobcat relays has come and past...it went fine, i threw disc alright and i sucked it up in shot, i seem to have hit my wall...and its a huge wall that i cant seem to get over and its really dragging down the self esteem whenever i enter the circle...we got 4th in disc though, had i thrown better we might have gotten 3rd, stacie did her job...i failed on my end of the deal...
my face is sunburnt...i should have put sun screen on...
i havent really lliked myself a lot lately...im reacting to things much differently than i used to..maybe its maturing..but i dont think thats it; i think lately ive just had many different influences and they're taking their effect on me...like the f-word...i never used to say it, and now i say it a lot, and i cant say im proud of it. im not being as helpful as i used to be, people will ask for help and i'll try but not really put as much into it as i used to and looking back on certain things i feel horribly, i should have been more helpful than what i was, and im so sorry i couldnt help the way they wanted me to...i also need to watch what i say..because what i say and what i mean arent necessarily the same thing...my sense of humor can be at times demeaning and im really not meaning for it to be that way, and i know that im joking but i fear that the person on the receiving end of the joke doesnt understand that fact...i always think back on things and realize that the comments i made werent nice and probably werent seen as humor...i just need to learn to not speak...i think everyone would benefit from that
oh, and Happy Easter
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2004 9 April :: 10.01am
:: Mood: its break!!
havent really updated since the beginning of the week...i didnt really feel like updating while being in the worst moods ever, those entries just arent fun to read
school was alright this week...basically it was just a blow off week, teachers as well as students were just ready for break and it showed, no hw was assigned and if it wasm 9 times out of 10 it wasnt completed. No one had ambition to do anything and in all honestly that was fine with me, there are times when you just dont want interaction and this week was one of them
track meet on tuesday...i sucked it up in disc but i got second in shot...stupid springfield girl and her deceptive warm ups...so i got 3 varsity points, i think i have 13 as of now, very very close to my letter, and the girls won the meet and a school record was broken by our 2 miler...cristy or kristy, im not really sure...all i know is shes fast and its great, but it of course rained at the meet and the circles were hell to spin in, everyone was slipping, but eh...it was still fun. the coaches need to stop segregating our buses because girls talk about semi depressing things! and its not good on the self-esteem here
i saw amandas prom dress last night...sooooo pretty! i picked her up on our way to saras, i ate spaghetti with her and mrs dever, so much fun! it was a great dinner with great company, it was nice...we got to saras late, but they lived. we waiting for megan to get done with dance, made the first visit of the year to the sundae station, and then crashed in megans basement, it was fun, daniel and i played pool....we really suck, then we all sat around the watched television/played video games...i took amanda home and then left..and i slept! for 9 hours! i havent done that in weeks!! it was nice
so my last entry i said this week would be good..it was...until wednesday, then it all ent down hill, we wont go into it because everyone who is important already knows so theres no need...i dont know why it happened, or the justification behind it (im still wondering if there ever was any) but its over, it was hurtful, but its in the past and it really doest bother me that much anymore...so we'll see what happens next...
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2004 8 April :: 5.48pm
Today's planetary aspects may have you experiencing a little cabin fever today, Brittany. If you have the urge to go off by yourself for awhile by all means do so. Try some new diversions. Drive down some country roads you have never explored. Find some antique shops to visit. You probably need a break from the drudgery of your daily routine before you will be able to feel revitalized.
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2004 7 April :: 9.17pm
irish pride 663: Britt, this is Amanda. But Carolyn's typing. Smile a while. For if you smile, others will smile,. and soon there will be miles and miles of smiles.
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2004 4 April :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: not too shabby
friday was alright...liberty benton relays went by sooo quickly! i was constantly going, i went from sucking it up at shot to going to watch the guys do well in disc, to watching them do shot, to waiting for my disc turn, to doing disc, to taking a potty break, to the 2nd call for fat chick, to running, to watching abby be sweet and bob be sweeter to packing up my bag. i never stopped, i wasnt too thrilled about this 3 event meet, but it was fun. i call tug-a-war next year...its mine! i'll run the fat chick again too...it was fun :) i may have sucked, but i had fun...they segregated the buses though! who does that?! so no interesting chats with bob while squeezing in the corner of a seat, but i got to talk to kelly megs and amanda...i love those girls :) they make me happy, they're just great. after the meet the girls bus decided to take over DQ, and we did...doug and sara met us there, we got some of the boys to come, and DQ was ours! i took carrie home - that kid is hilarious, and the fog was sweet...good day
woke up early the next morning and took my ACTs...not too bad, i'll have to take them again in order to get a better score, because i dont think i broke 30 this time, and i know i can...(i also got a 31 on my EMPT...i felt really good about that) but megan and i said lunch afterwards, so we met dan adam tom winston and tara there...doug wanted to come but he had to work until 1 and megan had to be home by 1, so i felt kinda bad about that...he seemed slightly lost this weekend...but lunch was great...went home, and left for columbus...shopped with dani and robin and my mom...dani and i ran from shoe store to shoe store, while looking at prom dresses in between, she cant go to prom because their school is a senior only prom, andshes not even a junior yet, so i felt kinda bad looking at them with her, but she was into it, i found the dress i want, but they didnt have my size, so no its intense searching time :) driving home ian called and we talked for 33 minutes, he was bored, and i felt bad...but he was in a good mood so im glad:) we got home late and i went to bed early because we lost a stupid hour...grr..
went to church this morning, saw my gpa after his surgery...he's gonna have a sweet scar on his face, had lunch with mike and heather, went to a 4h meeting, im excited about that, came home, hung with the bro a little more, wrote my paper and just chilled...good day
im in a good mood right now and this week will be good and thursday will come quickly and spring break will be great and relaxing and it'll feel like forever when its only a week (and yes that is a threat)
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