::
2003 20 July :: 8.38 pm
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
--that was directed towards myself and anyone else i hate.
you worry too much |
::
2003 20 July :: 12.53 pm
:: Music: The yeah yeah yeahs-tick
I like this song, it sounds like shes going insane, its great.
went to my aunts house, we had to watch her stupid cat while she on vacation. that thing should be named satan. anyways its a condo so all these rich people live around there and I get never-ending glares....its nice. got to go to valueland, yay! haha. I got some ties, hey where else can you get ties for $1...really now.
well it was nice to get away from home, just to think about stuff...Im still as confused as I was, but I guess thats part of life...yup. well im gonna go.
you worry too much |
::
2003 17 July :: 10.37 pm
I was reading my past entries and I was thinking.......I need to really grow up...hahaha.
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 17 July :: 4.19 pm
:: Music: Hot Hot Heat-Get in or get out
yup.
well erika just went home...so now im all bored like usual. im so damn tired tho, I'll pry like fall asleep at 10, thats way early for me. well I can make it like 13 feet on my brothers skateboard without falling, at a decent speed too, haha. what an accomplishment...or not. and i only fell ONCE! wow.....pitiful huh?! well im gonna go like to sleep now.....yup. I use that word a lot..ok bye.
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 16 July :: 12.36 pm
:: Music: All American Rejects-why worry
IM GOING TO THE VANS WARPED TOUR!!!!!!!!IM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!! 3 WEEKS AWAY, CANT WAIT!!!!!!!
4 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 15 July :: 9.02 pm
:: Music: saves the day-through being cool
someone make this nervous feeling go away....god I don't know what to think. Im just hoping things work out how I expected them too, or maybe not. I dunno. whatever...I just want everything for once to be figured out.
1 kid |
you worry too much |
::
2003 14 July :: 9.08 pm
well....i wrote a good song, although its so damn sappy, it turned out really good though, I was suprised how well it turned out.
I asked what the point of flavored water was and the answer i got was... to make sex more interesting....im not sure what water has to do with that but atleaste i know now why it exisits. then i admitted I was easy, haha. it was strictly a joke i swear.
so now sitting here. its sad, I have found out if i shut my door to my room at night I can sleep practically the whole day, no light comes in, isnt that excellent?! I may just end up living in there.
well now im gonna go back to my corner and continue to pet my shoes, the only thing that has been everywhere with me....oh the greatest things int he world I love, never giving up even though any second now they could fall apart.....*hugs shoes tightly*
7 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 14 July :: 5.05 pm
:: Music: afi-wake-up call
today was ummm interesting I guess you could say. we were driving down the road and the fucking hood on my moms car comes unlatched and smashes into the windshield and she cant see where the fuck shes going cuz the hood is obviously covering it and all these tiny peices of glass go everywhere and the hood is fucking shattered. yeah it was scary and I have decided I am never riding in that car again, it was scary enough since it was the first time i have ridden in it from the last accident a few years back, this didnt help. no one got hurt tho and yeah glass hit me and it hurt but uhhhh atleaste thats all, not gonna complain about that. ah well thankful to be ok.
so stacey just went home after are exciting day, lol. poor stace...Im sure she wont want to come over, haha j/k. we were gonna see a movie and now its too late so im sitting home....bored.
3 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 14 July :: 10.46 am
I have sad news to bring you...
Well Larry the fly has.............DIED!! Let me tell you the story we met a fly last night around 9 while he was attacking my tv...then Stacey named him Larry....later on we were at the computer and Larry attacked the screen so Stacey hit him with a necklace and he went flying across the room. Then we thought he was dead, oh man were we wrong....he came and ATTACKED staceys eye...and she got mad. So a min later he came on the screen again and we got the fly swatter and stacey was trying to get him, then he went in my cd wallet and I was like "oh now that bastards gonna die" so Stacey killed him. He is buried somewhere by my door...not sure where since Stacey threw the fly swatter and he musta fell off going 100 mph...who woulda thought.
The End.
--R.I.P our dear friend Larry....if anyone would like to say some nice words about larry please do so.
1 kid |
you worry too much |
::
2003 13 July :: 11.40 pm
hahahahaha.....Oh look theres a pizzaroll, hahahaha...wow. stacey like hit her plate and pizza rolls went everywhere....so we were talking and then shes like "hey" and picks up a pizzaroll, were finding them like scattered throughout my house now, hahahahaahaha. for some reason i find that hilarious.
you worry too much |
::
2003 13 July :: 4.24 pm
:: Music: the distillers- I am the Revenant
I liked this...
Even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there-The Perks of being a Wallflower.
That quote is so cool for me. yup.
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 12 July :: 1.49 pm
:: Music: The Ataris-i dont member the song title and im too lazy to go look at the cd wallet.
today the hottest guy ever came to my garage sale....lol soo hot. the funny thing is...he was looking at toys, haha. Im hoping they were for his brother.....wooo. did I get his number, nooooo....and why becasue im too damn shy! maybe he will return, he knows where i live so theres an upside, lol. Anyways i saw a headline today that says "Britneys tiny skirt" when does she not wear tiny little skimpy things.....hmmmmm....
I think Im bipolar.
3 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 11 July :: 9.20 pm
:: Music: Goldfinger-99 Red Balloons
somethings missing...and im not sure what. i find out new things everyday and wonder how people have figured out the whole "highschool lifestyle" so fast and Im left in the dust.....right where I want to be..
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 11 July :: 4.25 pm
:: Music: Mest-jaded
hahaha.
well today has sucked royal ass...so boring. stupid garage sale...on the other hand I made $42 from selling a bunch of junk, so Im happy about that. its great, I made more then all my other families stuff together..hah. anyways soooooo bored, gotta go call some people...yup thats what im gonna do....yup.
3 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 9 July :: 8.44 pm
saves the day-rocks tonic juice magic
Let me take this awkward saw
And run it against your thighs
Cut some flesh away
I'll carry this piece of you with me
Because all I can say tonight
is that I hate you
But it would be all right
If we could see each other sometime
If I could somehow make you mine
And if not I'll take my rusty spoons
And dig out your blue eyes
I'll swallow them down to my colon
They're gonna burn like hell tonight
Because you're beautiful
Just not on the inside
Light comes from within
And your beaming eyes don't seem so bright
My heart is on the floor
Why don't you step on it?
When I think of all the things you've done
Boardwalks and breaking waves
Made our Saturdays
I'd buy you lemonade right now
if you were here
But then I'd throw it in your face
And I'd listen to you cry
And I'd remember how I miss
our nights under ocean skies
You and I are like when fire
and the ocean floor collide.
--I love that song! I wish I could write that good!
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 5 July :: 8.13 pm
:: Music: Boy Sets Fire-Last year's nest
i finished my book today (the perks of being a wallflower). that was the best book I have ever read. it taught me a lot and it was related to so many of the problems everyone goes through in highschool....including me. i suggest you all to read it.
i watched a walk to remember today...i love that movie, even if it is a chick flick.
I have been wanting to cry for so long, you know that feeling where you know your going to just break down but you cant....thats what its been like...i can see it coming..
you worry too much |
::
2003 4 July :: 11.15 pm
i love fireworks! i just stayed home this year and my dad did them...he spent over $200 on em so Im glad they were good, otherwise I would have shot him....my eyes hurt tho cuz it was like right on my back deck...everytime I close my eyes im literally seeing fireworks, lol. its great! best moments: a firework hitting my dad, and the torch falling on my deck and burning it....great stuff.
its sad how pretty colored lights and loud noises amuse me so much.
you worry too much |
::
2003 4 July :: 7.04 pm
Lemonade-Tsunami Bomb
Look at you now, remember how you gave me shit,
And I made lemonade out of it
Pass me the sugar and things still won’t be right!
Look what you’ve built, now are you proud of your deceitful quilt
Well I won’t cover myself in it, the warmth has just been choking me!
Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I’ve taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I’m demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!
What would you say? Can’t hear
you buried in the lies that you’ve laid.
I’m breaking myself away from that chain
to bad that you don’t understand why
I’m walking away, and if you’re lucky then someday I may
Possibly forgive you for all of it.
But not today, BUT NOT TODAY!
Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I’ve taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I’m demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!
Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I’ve taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I’m demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!
--I love that song!! Anyways the highlight of my day...going to a boring ass parade and seeing a kid on a leash....how exciting.
you worry too much |
::
2003 3 July :: 12.21 am
12 am....watching The Tom Green Show and eating Hershey bars....what a life! *smiles*
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 2 July :: 9.20 pm
:: Music: gob-give up the grudge
im so boring...
well these past few days have been....interesting. went to a friends house, that was fun. it was so funny tho. then today we went to the carnival, heh, that was alright, not too exctiting...nothing really to do there. so now im home, so fun....what an interesting life I lead.
you worry too much |
::
2003 1 July :: 12.19 pm
:: Music: Grenday-Longview
well this moring was interesting, my brother tackled me and it was hilarious. I started beating him with a cheez-it box, then with a lego saw (lack of objects)....fun stuff. it was so funny tho, he got pissed at me and threw this lego at me and it hit my stud belt and the lego like broke in half, it was fucking hilarious! heh just thought Id share that.
3 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 29 June :: 8.46 pm
Today I have been thinking...I was thinking about stupid sappy love movies. I watched "Never been Kissed" and "Shes All That" on tv. (mainly because im bored out of my fucking mind). but its funny how they all end the same. they all got who they wanted, they all figured out their lives...everyones life turned out perfect.....thats what made them so unbelievable. then I thought about "A Walk to Remember" (the first movie that made me cry) and how it ended....it didnt end happy....thats what made it believeable. thats why I liked it. i thought about that one part where all those kids are laughing at her in the lunch room becasue of that picture that was made and she starts to cry....then she turns around and falls right into his arms...I love that part...so much. ever since I have always wanted that to happen to me (not the whole getting laughed at thing)...just how even tho she didnt know he was there, her rock....right when she needed him, its nice to think about. it all sounds so sappy...makes me want to puke,(not really). hah.
you worry too much |
::
2003 29 June :: 8.16 pm
:: Music: saves the day-shoulder to the wheel
today was good. went to my brothers house, that was fun, watched some funny home videos. they had a music video of their cat with that gay ass rap song "baby cuz im a thug" in the background, but it was hilarious....ya had to be there.
today a good song came on the tv and I turned it up as loud as it could go, the house was shaking but I loved it, it was nice to let loose....I think I like music a little too much. I scare myself, haha.
well this is fucking pointless, im off..
you worry too much |
::
2003 28 June :: 5.33 pm
I wrote a song...it just may be my best...Im a bit proud of it. its one of the few songs I have that doesnt need much work, maybe a few better words here and there...but im dissapointed because Im not sure what kind of music i want to it, thats always a problem...deffannatley(cannot spell that) an acoustic guitar.
well this book is amazing, it keeps getting better...It shows such an awesome aspect of life, I like it.
you worry too much |
::
2003 28 June :: 3.52 pm
:: Music: The Used-blue and yellow
i had the "I want my lip pierced" talk with my mom today....it was a strong "no". then i tried for the nose...another strong "no". haha. well then she came around to the maybes, so I can hope right!?!
I enjoyed the storms today...I love storms, probably because of the rain, I dont know why but rain is so awesome for me. thats when i get songs written..and they turn out half decent. didnt get any done today tho....i should really practice guitar also...its getting dusty cuz I havnt played it for so long...
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 27 June :: 7.55 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-You Know how I do
the feeling of hot water on my skin....I love it.
on a side note....im on page 54 of my book, i just started reading it around 3 today...big accomplishment for me, books usually bore me. its very interesting I cant put it down...
i keep having dreams about him...everynight they get better....i like it...if only it was reality..i have a feeling one day it will be.
im realizing something I go for the "havent took a shower in three days, wore this shirt to bed" look...its strangely sexy.
a hint of hope is here....i like it....a lot.
2 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 27 June :: 5.44 pm
Tsunami Bomb-Tired at 20 yrs old
Memory collecting before his time
Recall the old stomping ground
I see a tear welling up in his eye
No, you can't cheat time, don't let that control your life
Hold your breath, close your eyes, just jump in, the water's fine
These pleas fall on deaf ears
Ears that were once tuned to truth
A dated, washed up old man
He's seen it all, nothing else for him to do
No, you can't cheat time, don't let that control your life
Goes over your head, you look over your shoulder
When you turn back you're that much older
It slips away
Be what you're becoming
It slips away
And not who you were
It slips away
Grab hold of the here and now while you still have the chance
So are you giving up now?
As for adventures you're had your fill
Who says you're over the hill?
I think it was you and you know very well
You're holding yourself back
(Turn your face to the day)
When you could be doing anything
(Don't just dig your own grave)
When will you treat yourself
(Take with you what you learn)
The same as I do
(Be yourself, now who you were)
I want to see you use your capabilities
Build me an ocean then destroy it with your eyes
--I love this song...probably cause she sings it with so much soul. It seems shes using every ounce of energy in every word. Tsunami Bomb-The Ultimate Escape is an awesome cd...so much meaning to it. Music is like a high for me, i sound like a freak but to me music is my life...its helped me...sounds so corny but oh so true..i have decided to update again...im sure you've noticed, im just not gonna write about depressing shit anymore...i dont like reading it, so this will be for the few positive things that are going on in my life. it amazes me as to what adults watch....puts me to sleep. well just started reading a book (The Perks of being a Wallflower)...my freind suggested it awhile back and shes done with it so she wants me to read it, so far very interesting...well off to read.
1 kid |
you worry too much |
::
2003 27 June :: 12.41 pm
:: Music: AFI-perfect fit
Vans Warped Tour!
I need to go to The Vans Warped Tour! I need to fucking go!!! All I need is a ride to Detroit at the Pontiac Sliverdome, haha.
its August 3rd.
The Bands(theres like 50 but im putting just the ones i know of and like):
The Ataris
Rancid
The Used
Taking Back Sunday
Mest
The Starting Line
All American Rejects
Tsunami Bomb
--So if anyones going and has a ride, tell me!!! Tickets are only $29 fucking 50!
1 kid |
you worry too much |
::
2003 26 June :: 4.03 pm
:: Music: none cuz I left my cds at staceys ):
who cares
why do I even come home...honestly everything gets 10times worse, when I come here. I hate this fucking house, and I hate everyone in this fucking house. im so sick of so many people. why cant people just leave me the fuck alone?! seriously, why?! ah, who cares. Im not gonna be like this anymore. i have to forget what happened yesterday or the day before, I need to take each day as it comes....my life could be 100 times worse then it is now, too much drama.....too many people getting mad over stupid shit. i dont want to be one of those people, I wont be. I dont think im gonna update for awhile, fuck this stupid journal. *shrugs*
3 kids |
you worry too much |
::
2003 26 June :: 1.04 am
you are "the taste of ink" and even tho it sux that they play it on the radio, its still an
awesome song. so be proud! which wicked song by *The Used* are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
I love that song...good song...great band! Havent listened to them in awhile...*runs and grabs cd*
you worry too much |
|