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2006 18 October :: 12.29am
why do people look so sad in their pictures? It's a mistery I'll never solve.
I have a feeling it's going to be one of those lay in bed and thing nights... oh well...
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rayray
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2006 18 October :: 5.58pm
I have the internet back!
Im happy.
I love my boyfriend.
And did I mention I have my internet back?
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kandy
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2006 17 October :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: whatevers playing on the ipod
hmm so .. i met this guy.. yeah awesome right. I'd really like to get things straight with bran and I, but no matter what I just can't be completely happy with him anymore. Lopez asked me what bran and I have in common.. it was hard to think of more that just a few superficial things. Bran and I are complete opposites. I just don't know if I want to end it and really end it after a year. Well, I'm going off to basic in january and will be gone for about 6 months. Lopez leaves the day before me and is only gone for 13 weeks. doesn't he suck. well... i've just been in one of these "i can't stop thinking" moods. I'm not sure what I want out of the men in my life. I don't want to make bran suffer anymore I know he can hardly handle me anymore. He hates my attitudes. I can't put up with his any more either. this is just bs. I just don't know what to do.well anyways i just thought I'd post since I haven't in ages.
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2006 17 October :: 4.19pm
just a diddy runnin through my head..:
Repress and restrain
Steal the pressure and the pain
Wash the blood off your hands
This time she won't understand
Change in the air
And they'll hide everywhere
No one knows who's in control
You're working so hard
And you're never in charge
Your death creates success
Rebuild and suppress
Change in the air
And they'll hide everywhere
No one knows who's in control
Change in the air
And they'll hide everywhere
And no one knows who's in control
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2006 17 October :: 11.43am
I have no job. I have no date. I have no time. I have stress. Great heaps of stress. AP Lit. is killing me. I feel like not going anymore. Ever. But I will. This too shall pass as they say. I'm taking everything hour by hour. even looking ahead one day makes my head spin.
Yesterday was fun. I helped Jake buy pants. Then attempted to help Kenny find his Homecoming things but he wasn't in the mood for it after his dad yelled at him so much. But going to the mall with everyone was a blast.
~Re~
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2006 16 October :: 2.17pm
well.... this sucks... i have to go to the libary cuz our computer got a really bad fuckin virus, and my sister dont have the money to pay for it to get fixed. i'm sick, running low on money, in a wheel chair, but on the bright side, i have beer at home, I rule.
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2006 14 October :: 5.38pm
i am bored. i should be doing homework, but i really don't care all that much.
i think i may go to my grandmas house before we all go to jakes.
that would be a good time, let me tell you . . .
my grandma-she is crazy.
she's a bad ass.
for sure.
ooh now i am really excited i got myself all worked up about grandma.
now if i don't go i am going to be really sad.
gosh.
grandma!!!!!!!
you're the bomb
you rock my life
you made my mom
will you be my wife??
well, maybe that is going too far.
i don't know.
this is getting weird.
i'm so sorry.
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tuwang
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2006 13 October :: 9.49am
I feel that in the onset of the recent " global warming disaster" , michigan has and will continue to remain unchanged...
I hate geography...
I love elipses...
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2006 11 October :: 4.30pm
so mitch told his friends that i am a lesbian.
im ok with that.
perhaps i should try it out next semester when robbys away.
heck maybe ill just try it now.
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2006 10 October :: 10.14pm
:( dang stupid job effed up and now i have no offer....gahhhh
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2006 9 October :: 1.11pm
yeah boy new job.....and at 10 dollars an hour yeah this is gonna rock hardcore......
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stinko
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2006 9 October :: 10.36am
i have been sitting here for a long time it seems and i am starting to think that it would have been better if i just didn't go to class today.
blah.
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sugarjackj
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2006 8 October :: 7.59pm
Mike was right.
I AM a sex bomb.
Ahhh dark Hair.
Welcome back.
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rayray
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2006 8 October :: 11.14am
I don't feel good enough for him.
I don't feel pretty enough, or smart enough.
I feel completely worthless.
I don't cook.
I have a job, but that doesn't even seem good enough because I'm behind on bills.
I cheated, the one time. Which still gets thrown in my face.
I whine too much.
And I'm a complete burden.
Nothing I do is good enough.
And I cry too much.
I make mistakes, that I can't fix.
He might as well just leave me.
As much as I don't want him to, and wish he wouldn't.
Eventually that is going to be the only thing he can do.
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2006 16 October :: 5.34pm
Life still kind of sucks.
I hate my job.
I need a life.
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tuwang
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2006 6 October :: 9.20am
no I would not like to freak on you and no I would not like to smoke some doja(sp)... but a avid attempt I must admit...
I'm sorry if I hurt your body like that, you're probably right, we probably shouldn't have fucked... I considered it love making though...
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tuwang
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2006 5 October :: 6.14pm
you see...
this is why I don't...
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joeydomina
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2006 5 October :: 10.04am
:: Music: Something Corporate - Interuption
Well not much is new. red flannel day is coming up and i dont know what i'm gonna do. i dunno. things just arent like i want them.
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2006 4 October :: 10.32am
I want a family of my own
I don't even know how to start this.
With Jared and Morgan, I always feel left out because well.. I'm not her real mother. So, things will always have to be discussed with another woman. It sucks that something so special that I waited to do. Jared has already done with someone else.
You always hear from people that the happiest day of their life was when they got married and then when they had their children. Jared's already had that and with someone else and I really don't feel like I should be a part of it. Especially not right now at that.
Jared always says you don't think our marriage is special. It's not that.. I'm just ready for the next stage in our marriage that he's already been in for 2 and a half years. I don't think he understands that we can't just pretend Morgan is mine forever. She calls me mom often with the occasionaly ada in there with it that (it's cute). The way I feel when she calls me that... man, I can't even imagin how it's going to feel when she/he is actually mine. I want that. But I can't have it.
For some reason going to get family pictures (I think) is going to make me feel like what we have is a real family for me. But it isn't. It never will be. There will always be someone else in the picture.
Does anyone understand how I feel?
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2006 3 October :: 2.37am
ummmm yeah work is blah but other things are good. i've been sitting around when not working. yay me. peace out. Joey
*insert smiley here*
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2006 3 October :: 1.40am
I laugh at you.
It turns out I'm a little bit creepy.
hahaha.
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tuwang
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2006 2 October :: 11.53pm
so just me and the captain tonight...
we got together and asked ourselves a question...
how long is 85 years?
is that a good long time to live?
other assorted questions ensued...
P.S. I have a devastating fear of mediocrity...
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tuwang
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2006 2 October :: 9.36am
I hate john mayer...
I try to break up with him but he always smooth talks me back to him..
I love john mayer...
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2006 30 September :: 12.08pm
Things suck.
I hate life.
I cry all the time.
I work all the time.
I got a tattoo.
My life sucks.
And I feel sick all the time.
Anyone want to trade me?
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2006 28 September :: 12.12am
yall just wait till you see my costume for this year..... i will be the halloween king mwahahaha
but still superman
hahahahah
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2006 26 September :: 6.33pm
Last night I woke up feeling so sick and then I wake up this morning.. fine and dandy. It was really odd. Anyways, we get morgan tomorrow all the way to sunday. How exciting huh? We bought her so much new stuff in the past few weeks. Like a total winter coat and pants, snow boots, and fall jacket. OOH these way cute levi pants that have a button waist so you can make them tighter without using a belt. We already bought her a new pair of shoes. They are all pink and adorable. Also we got her a few new shirts too. We bought her some learning puzzles and a book too. So far she's digging the book more then anything else we bought her. Jared and I plan on getting a family photo done this weekend. We are unsure of what we are going to wear. I already have Morgan's outfit picked out though. Haha.. I'm pathetic. Let's see what else... Jared and I are also getting the house in rockford figured out because.. my dad is getting really annoyed with us. I was annoyed with him as soon as we moved in.. but at least he let us move in right? What else...
I'm still looking for a frick'n job. I need at least a part time job of anything so that we can afford the house in rockford. 1422 a month.. yippy :| That's if Lance is okay with letting us take it over. We asked today...
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2006 25 September :: 9.46am
This is not a request for compliments so...don't think that
*deep breath* Last night on desperate housewives I was crying inside for lynnette. Then, I did actually end up crying. Not because of that though. Well.. partly, but mainly because of how I feel about myself. I honestly believe that I am absolutly ugly. I told jared last night that, Once we get a house I'm saving all my extra money so that I can get the plastic surgery I've needed since I was thirteen. And, of course he said I didn't need it. But I do. I don't feel pretty at all. I mean I don't even think about it when I'm with just Jared but.. I'm not always with just him. I feel bad for him that he has to be seen with me. I try my best to look as good as I can. Cakein' on the make up and wearing (try to at least) nice clothes. I've felt this way since I could remember considering I got this scar at the age of 4.
Anyways, enough of my sad pathetic..ness. Jessica (morgan's mother) has taken away her friendship and says she will take away the nice things she's done for us ie. lowering the child support 70 dollars. She would prefer it if I delete my entry on myspace about Jared having sex with her and all the things she said. Her friend is sticking up for her and saying it's non of my business. How is it not?
I'm holding my ground for now. Needing a job, applying everywhere. Sending out resumes as well as filling out applications. Still no luck. I applied for a receptionist posistion at a company in cedar. That's the latest. I sent it out saturday so.. maybe I'll actually hear. I doubt it.
Alright, hope whoever reads this has a good/nice day.
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allyson
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2006 24 September :: 9.33pm
I feel like lynette on desperate housewives. Her whole situation.
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allyson
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2006 24 September :: 9.28pm
alright, just letting everyone know that I am posting under friends only from now on.
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snowman
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2006 23 September :: 6.18pm
well jackass 2 is fuckin sweet
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