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2006 29 March :: 10.18am
oh and seriously... when did 3rd marking period end? hey, dont get me wrong i'm GLAD it did... but i was completely unaware of it. YEAH for your information, I REALLY WAS. jeez you coniving b8****88*8888*.
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2006 29 March :: 10.10am
omg what a humongous b itch. seriously! i hate when you ask someone a question... i didn't aruge or complain or anything. just asking an effing question and she acts like i'm the hugest idiot in the world
I SWEAR TO GOD I F UCKING HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH ... I WOULD SAY WHAT I WANT TO DO TO IT BUT YOU KNOW.. I'D GET IN TOO MUCH TROUBLE. SCHOOL, YOU CAN SHOVE IT..
SEVERAL ANNOUNCEMENTS MY A$$..............
UGAH;;LKFJA;SLDKFJS;LDKJFLKJASLKJSA;LKFJAS;LK I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I'M DOING IT.
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2006 26 March :: 6.17pm
sooooo maybe i'll go back to sleep for the 3rd time today since my life is so effing pathetic.
and boring.
and .
ugh fuck you seriously. fuck you and how much you unappreciate everything you have . you fucking whore.
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2006 23 March :: 10.19pm
I've been gone for far too long, I want to come home
Well, to put it lightly, I haven't felt this dejected, irascible, neurotic, and disoriented in so long. Honestly.
I have decided I am going to play piano in the talent show. Please don't laugh at me.
I feel like since I hate and have hated high school so much that this will be a good way to end it. It might and hopefully will be a "happy" memory to leave school with. I guess.
And I don't know I just feel like my body is in 12 different places at once. I'm not all here and I can't stop biting my nails which I know is just gross and that is so not like me and when I develop a new bad habit, I know something is really wrong with me.
I feel so full like I need to pour everything out. I thought I did last night with that little breakdown but I guess I just filled right up again. In the worst way.
I guess that's it.
Jess.
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2006 23 March :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco
The Great Gatsby
"His heart beat faster and faster as Daisy's white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning fork that hade been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips' touch she blossomed for him like a flower and the incarnation was complete."
I wanted to use this entire quote in my essay. But it's too long and doesn't relate to it... really at all. SIiiiiiggghh... nahhww...
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2006 23 March :: 3.53pm
So...
I have an interview at Menard's tomorrow... (like I need another job, or another new one for that matter..)
I don't know what I'm doing in my life...
I'm doing this thing that I don't want to do at all.
Yeah, what's new.
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2006 21 March :: 9.54pm
tonight was rough... i feel drained. nothing matters. i eat because it is there... i was not prepared for this... i don't know how to handel it. i have never had to go through this, and now that i'm right in the middle of it my emotions are all over the place.
i'm not myself tonight. i just sit and don't care.... When i was coming home from class tonight from i didn't sing all the way home!! well until i got to rockford and realized i hadn't been singing to the radio... i love singing to the radio when i'm all by myself.. and i didn't and dindn't even realize it until 25 min. later!! i just kept praying... lord take her.. she needs to go. she is prepared to go... this is where she needs to be... i don't cry infront of people... even more infront of people i don't even know! i just break down at the veteren's home. i couldn't catch my breath. it was horrible. i don't cry, and when i do it gets the best of me... it sucks all my energy out. i don't know how to deal with it... i listen to songs that i don't even like so i won't have to think about it. oh lord just take her... she coudldn't even talk... i'm so use to jokes that when she didn't.. i just broke down.
i called my dad and just cried to him for like 10 min. i get home and we just cried together for another 10 min... i have never seen him cry so hard... I can't even imagine what it is like right now at the home. he is probably bawling. Lord just take her.
it is her time.
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2006 21 March :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco
When will I grow out of being a 40 year old woman?
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2006 20 March :: 7.16pm
oh. one more thing. I miss my friends.
and am I ugly?
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2006 20 March :: 7.14pm
okay so well 2 more pages to go.....
ugh! suck me english paper! go to hell!
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2006 20 March :: 2.40pm
Nobody get too close to me...
I might taint you with my unholiness!
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2006 20 March :: 1.54pm
can you believe i'm honestly STILL procrastinating to start writing this paper and it was DUE TODAY?!?! .....
so yeah... maybe i'll start it sometime today...
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2006 18 March :: 10.39pm
and well blah blah blah and then she was dead.
ughghghgh the end.
Oh! But I see Roman tomorrow.... thumbs up! way up.
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2006 17 March :: 2.34pm
uggggggggggggh.
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2006 16 March :: 2.19pm
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [ ] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [ ] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [x] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert. .. well kind of
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [x] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [ ] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [X] in an elevator
54. [ ] an ex
55. [ ] last night.
56. [ ] Just today.
wellll good.
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