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2017 30 December :: 7.34am
Discovering my dairy allergy has been the single most depressing thing that has happened to me in a while.
I miss cheese. And eating food like a normal human being. I miss not waking up to a nuclear holocaust in my GI tract for having some cheese & cream sauce.
I miss cream cheese on bagels
I miss cheese bagels
I miss food.
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2017 18 December :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: pensive
Freedom is what you do with what is done to you.
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godessalthena
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2017 18 December :: 10.59am
When I say the bridge is burned it stays fucking burned
When I say things are over they are over.
If you all want to waste your time worrying about what I'm doing, help yourself, but I don't give a fuck about you or what you think.
Leave me the fuck alone.
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godessalthena
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2017 3 December :: 12.58am
You insist I stay home when you go out to have fun
Makes me feel like I'm the secret
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godessalthena
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2017 2 December :: 9.48am
when the puzzle is made of squares and you are a hideously deformed circle piece
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godessalthena
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2017 30 November :: 12.06am
the warm embrace of a friend
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godessalthena
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2017 28 November :: 12.50am
Please don't make it 3
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godessalthena
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2017 23 November :: 10.52pm
I try to be sweet and loving and caring and helpful and yet I ALWAYS manage to ruin the night by being a psychotic bitch
Im not made to live on this planet. Im not made to love other humans. Im just worthless. A sack of shit. A piece of useless garbage.
Same as I always have been same as I always will be. You can't change the core of a person, only the nuances surrounding them. I give up.
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godessalthena
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2017 22 November :: 12.14am
I just want a stupid smoke
But no lighter no matches no flint stone
No nothing
>:(
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godessalthena
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2017 16 November :: 6.53am
My least favorite way to be woken up is by phone call
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godessalthena
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2017 6 November :: 3.08pm
I hope it still hurts
The hole I made in your heart the day I left
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2017 1 November :: 10.47pm
I'm not a good person
Ask anyone who knows me
I'm mean and bitter
And a failure at everything that I say I believe
I'm not a good person
Ask anyone who loves me
I never write, I never call
I never think about anyone at all
I'm not a good person
No matter what I do
My exhaustion will consume me
And I'm too tired for the truth
I'm not a good person
I'm sure you're not surprised
It must be pouring out my sweat glands
It must be someplace in my eyes
I don't know why I am this way
I've been like this since I can remember
I try to keep up with everything I know I should do
But then I'll fall to pieces anyway
I don't know why I am this way
I'm not a good person, not even to you
I'm staying home because I can't stand the sound
Of another heartbeat in the room
I'm not a good person
Fuck it, you know it's true
I'm lazy, I'm a coward
I'm asleep all day in my room
I don't know why I am this way
I've been like this since I can remember
I try to keep up with everything I know I should do
But then I'll fall to pieces anyway
I don't know why I am this way
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godessalthena
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2017 1 November :: 2.07pm
So so tired of existing
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godessalthena
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2017 31 October :: 10.35pm
Sometimes you make me wish I could disappear
It not that I don't listen to you because I do, I just have a hard time piecing things together about people
Maybe it's just me being selfish maybe I feel like you never listen to me either
Maybe nothing really matters and everything is just a big old fucking waste of time we all end up dead anyway
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godessalthena
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2017 30 October :: 2.13pm
i hate that you love them so much. the stories related to me don't inspire trust or confidence and i find myself reaching to make connections that aren't there.
where does this loyalty come from?
why are these drug addicts so important?
but there's no way to talk to you about it. and there's no way to express my feelings without sounding like a dumb jealous cunt.
but i can't see their value in your mind, i can't even see their value to society.
but they are probably right. i suck. i'm fat and ugly and stupid. a waste of time. just like they are to me.
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godessalthena
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2017 22 October :: 8.40am
so much debt
so many stupid fucking decisions
i'm a fucking piece of shit and i don't deserve nice things
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