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2003 12 September :: 3.29 pm
kates house
lol today was gay, cedar is like a bunch of scubs all dressed up in our "school colors" in tights and crap, and fat cheerleads jumping around lol right cass, kate? hahha
yeah well im at kate's gonna go have fun! bye bye <3 Jess
Jess- are we hanging out tomorrow morning, cos I need to know what time to be at your house?!?!
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2003 11 September :: 7.41 pm
How is this my fault, what...you don't think this effects me? For Heaven's sake, it hurts me too, how could it not?
I am so tiered. I just need to cry all at once instead of every ten minutes for 5 minutes. Tomorrow will be better. Nothing can last forever, not even your problems right?
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2003 10 September :: 9.02 pm
:: Mood: depressed
I'm so tiered.
This can't be happeneing, it isn't happening.
Nicks bone displacia is back and everything is horrible. He has to get his hip bone taken out and his bones in his right leg and have them replaced w/ fake ones. And a bone rod/pole and he'll never be able to walk normal again, and everyone is mad at each other and he's all mad at us and my parents dont care that I'm sad too, and I just dont know what to say cos the first time I said sorry nick cried and I am gonna look like such a fucking freak tomorrow with bags under my eyes, and asdkfjakldjfaklsjfd
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2003 6 September :: 8.08 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Good Charollete-Fake
grrrs
Last night definatly had it's ups and downs. My orignal planned were cancelled. Long story. Oh-well I'm over it. But I had a blast w/ Katie. I love that girl to death. And I'm glad that were getting to be better friends cos she isn't fake and lol omg she's the funnest person and I can tell her everything and cry with her too. Lol I love that girl she's awsome! lol
But yeah so the dance really sucked, I really hate him. and I'll never like him again. What a jerk! Grr too much crying, bah. And I hate all those preppy people. I'm starting to hate him too. GAWD!!!!!!!
Lins's house was fun. I love that girl. She's a sweetheart. I have to give her that when most of those other girls are really mean and stuck up, she's really kind and I love her to death for never changing who she is.
Bah this really sucks I have the worse headache.
<3 always, Jess
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2003 6 September :: 12.09 am
:: Mood: crazy
laffy taffy jokes!
"Whats a fishes favortie country? FINLAND!"
What do you do call a worm in an apple, TEACHERS PET! HAHAHAHA
Lol well tonight got really fucked up, I hate him, but I love Kate and she almost cryed with me.
Now I'm back at Lynd's reading laffy taffy jokes! If your on talk to us! We need aplan to sneak out! lol and we'll tell you laffy taffy jokes! YAY! <3 Jess + Linds
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2003 4 September :: 8.31 pm
You know I can't explain things to people that I don't understand myself. If I could I would, and I don't think that is to hard to understand.
I just want to cry to Jess. I can't help that she's a part of my family. She's been my bestfriend sence pre-school, and I will *never* regreat that, and I will never lie about how much of me would be lost without her. Because she's the only person that I trust with my life. I don't say it to be mean or to hurt feelings, I don't even say it except for when I'm asked. There is no reason why I should be ashamed for having a bestfriend that means the world to me, and I know it's the same way around. She understands everything about me, and knows me better than I know myself. And I won't lie and say that we don't have a friendship that no one else has, because no one else could have the friendship we do! And it isn't just because our names our Jess and Jess, it's because she is the one person god knew I would be able to confind in the REST of my life, the person I could still go out at clubs with when I'm 90 fucking years old! And I've never been so more proud of anything in my life, than I am of our friendship because I know nobody else has the potential of ever having something like that. So I won't apologize for having a bestfriend, and I won't apologize for having someone who's a part of my family.
I can't thank Jess enough for being the person she is. And I love all my friends, no matter what, so don't tell me that it makes *you* mad that friends, even ones in peticular are more important!
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2003 4 September :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Simple Plan-perfect
Thanks too:
How can someone cry so hard, and nobody hears? I guess they do, they just don't care.
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2003 4 September :: 8.05 pm
:: Mood: confused
I'm lost.
I want to just forget about about Jason, but I know that isn't happening anytime soon.
Give me one good reason, I'm begging.
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2003 3 September :: 6.55 pm
:: Mood: cranky
Sick of everyone.
I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of a lot of people too. Espically when some people, friends or not act like they have the right to discuss you and your personal decsions when they have no clue what their talking about. I hate how people judge people who actually are very sweet, caring, funny, and perfect when they've never even talked to that person. I'm tiered of almost all of my friends being as shallow as a puddle! I'm sick of my friends changing into people their not, like I can't even trust or talk to them anymore. grrrrrrrrr I need a good cry.
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2003 2 September :: 8.41 pm
You tell me one thing, and I get my hopes up. Then everything else tells me another thing and ...I guess I just dont deserve to ever *really* be happy enough to either be with you or just to effing get over you. I'm sick of you being the one I think about, when you already have her on your memory.
What do I deserve?!?
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2003 2 September :: 7.09 pm
:: Mood: confused
All I need is you
Well there's this one "situation" that is really bugging me. I just don't understand how she could just forget so quickly, like it doens't even matter. I don't even know why the hell this is bothering me, but it does. Grrr, she's sooo...not who she use to be. I'm sick of this little game of shariads running around in circles trying to guess what mood she's in, and how the hell am I supouse to know who she should bring to homecoming? why do I even care, it's her date...not mine! *GAWD*~~~~~
So my bestfriend is grounded, hip horray! Seeing as how she's really one of the only people I talk to on the phone. Well that isn't true there's Linds, Shea, Patty, Cassie, Britt, Emily, Katie, ect. but yah shes the one I call the most and tell *everything* to. So I'm screwed for a week. Damn parents, who ever came up with grounded is dumb.
Well I'm caughtnot just in the middle of one guy, but three great huh? I really like all of them, but ughhhh I just don't know. If this whole homecoming thing doesn't get fixed, I don't know what I want to do. I'm sick of it being such a big deal. You don't go with people you don't like. You dont just ask someone, just so you have someone to go with. That's gay, and no wonder why people have a bad time.
I want him hehe, my cute little nose! :) lol whoa baby do I sound cheesy heh, opps sorry guys!
Yeah...so I'm gonna go now lol bye bye <3 Jess
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2003 1 September :: 3.22 pm
I hate school, already. Sad huh? I saw Jeepers Creepers 2 last night with Melissa. I haven't talked to that girl in like....a year. It was fun though, i'm really glad I called her. seeing as how NO BODY IMPORTANT WAS HOME~ lol oh-well it was still great, and I'm leaving to go shopping and then coming home and I'm going to see it again! wooo!!!
yeah....homecoming....boooooo
Does anyone know if there is a game this friday, and is it home?!?
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2003 30 August :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Simple Plan-Perfect
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I want to fall in love with someone who is so sweet they bring me flowers when I’m sick on my birthday. I want someone who will leave silly notes that will make me smile in my biology book. I want someone who will go shopping with me, even though they hate to shop, but will do it for me anyway. I want someone who will come over to watch a movie on the couch in my pjs with me instead of going out with all of our friends to the movies. I want someone who will sing me my favorite song when I forget the lyrics. I want someone who calls me and listens to my complaining, my hopes and wishes, my fears, and me into the wee hours. I want someone who will tutor me in math, but most of all I want someone who I can fall in love with over and over again just at the sound of their voice.
I think part of me, a lot of me really wants all that. But a part of me also says at the my age all it’s about is horomones and no matter how it happens in the end, I will just get hurt. No matter who’s making the final descion. And a part of me says all a arealtionship now will be based on is phscical attraction. Not that it isn’t important, because by all means we all know it is, it isn’t shallow, but you clearly can’t be with someone you aren’t attracted too. I have strong beliefs, that I’m very proud of. Yes, sometimes they make situations and times difficult but nothing good has ever just come, you have to work for everything and that’s what makes success, friendship, relationships, grades, sports, ect. feel so damn good.
I don’t believe in pre-matrtial sex. I mean cleary it’s not too un common these das. I just have been brought up, and because of certain events in the past, and what I represent, I believe if you truly love someone with all your heart, that kind of love you’d die for, that you can wait to sleep with the guy of the month. A month is month, a year is a year, four years is four years. But forever is the rest of your life, and eternity. Just because condoms were invented doesn’t make it okay. I mean think about it evertime someone is willing to lose their virginity their also willing to change and most likely ruin their lifes and the life of the child involved. Then do you ever really know if the reason you stayed with that person is because you gave them your innocence that you can never get back, or is it because you really love them. Sex is a figt that I personally think should be shared between two people so in love they don’t mind waiting till their married when you can honestly say that hes my one and only forever! I want it too be special just like I know it should be. Now days that’s the crazy idea, instead of vice versa, sad huh?
There are so many things I want. I want that guy, I want my dream car, perfect grades, I want my 1600 meter relay time to be better than Bigney’s, I want my mom to stop being just a strict freak all the time, I want puppy’s to not get teeth till their like 20 so they don’t chew up shoes, and everything else, I want life to be the fairytale that everyone wants.
But having Jess to always tell me she’ll always be the closest person, the person who is my bestfriend, my sister, the person who I can relive all my memories with because she was there, my bestfriend who knows all about me and loves me anyways. To have Andy as someone who by all means can fill the shoes of my older brother, and bestfriend. To always listen, always give advice, and always care assures me that I don’t need to worry about him turning into a “prep” lol when me and Jess start pushing each other down stair cases and laughing. to have Cass as my bestfriend who I can always laugh with and cry with. To know she’s opened up to me and to hear I have someone who cares, loves me, and will always be there on my bad days. To have Shea to always cheer me up on a bad day. To have Katie just walk up and give me a big hug and know I always have someone to turn too. To have Linds as someone to me nutty and dumb with lol that I don’t get judges around and always be told I’m loved. To have Patty who is such a dork, but I love her so much. To have Taryn as the sweet girl I still see as Tare that after all this time I still feel so close too. To have Shelbs , Cramer, and Bigney who are just crazy, but some of the sweetest people. And to all my friends that I couldn’t live without. They are the ones that make my life more of a fairy tale than I could ever have being a singer, or big actress. ~*A friend is someone who know’s you and loves you anway~*~
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2003 29 August :: 8.44 pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Mandy Moore-Only Hope
Woo !!!
Whoa baby I haven't been online in a long time! Well...school started, I'm normally really excited, this year school is just..school. I like my classes except civics, a lot of dumb people in that class. And my lunch got changed, which really sucks. I'm just glad Jess got changed too. Homecoming is next week, I'm still not going...I think. But I did buy a cute dress for swirl, if I don't go to homecoming. umm...me and Jess got winked at and grawled at lol hehe people from cedar are so ...strange and messed up! Umm..yeah and everyone's a hooch! hmm...what else.... me and cass are back to normal :) I missed her a lot, and then theres a nother friend I'm really worried about not being friends with much longer, and hmm...I wish me and jess had classes together. Well I gotta go bye bye Lov <3 Jess
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