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2005 26 October :: 11.56pm
:: Mood: Not Very Shiny
:: Music: Rent- Goodbye, Love
Crisis Averted.
Music has been restored to my computer. Thank God for the restart button.
I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
And that's about all.
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2005 26 October :: 2.49am
I am an insomniac. I hate this. I dont sleep till like 3-4 am basically every night. I go to bed and i cant sleep for an hour. My advice 2 y'all is do not pull an all nighter it sucks the next day.
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2005 25 October :: 11.04pm
To No one
To You: Do you ever really hear what I say? Or is it that you just don't care?
To You: You promised me you'd never do it. You promised. Looks like you're just like the rest of them.
To You: I'm sorry. That sucks. Move on.
To You: Don't worry, I still know my place.
To You: Stop trying to sound smart. You're just making yourself out to be an annoying dumbass.
To You: What's really important in your life right now?
To You: I don't talk to you because I don't like being yelled at.
If you think it's about you, it's not. Probably not about anyone who reads this. Maybe. yeah.
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2005 25 October :: 3.03pm
This is too right:
Virgo
The sign Virgo is symbolized by the Virgin.
Your sign's element is Earth. Virgo is ruled by the planet Mercury.
You enjoy helping others and being of service. Virgo is shy, and prefers working behind the scenes. You are highly discriminating and a bit puritanical. Virgo is intellectual, critical, fussy, shrewd, logical, methodical, practical and has teaching ability. Virgo can lack confidence and needs constant reassurance.
Possible negative aspects of the sign Virgo:
You can be highly critical, cynical, sarcastic, unforgiving, nervous, self centered, and ridden by fear. You may also have a tendency to be unfaithful.
This is interesting:
Virgo Compatibility with Capricorn
Both of your down-to-earth signs are responsible, hard working, devoted, loyal and stable. You are each stubborn so you will have to work on that. Neither of you wastes money and you will both probably have good jobs. Savings is important as you have similar goals for your money. Being earthy, the chemistry between you is awesome - as I am sure you will have already noted. You have similar ways of showing displeasure (the cold shoulder treatment). If you do not hit it off right away or otherwise find yourself alone - don't worry - the next time you see each other everything will be fine. The chemistry, you know. It is a good idea to compare your rising sign to the rising sign (or Sun sign) of the person you are comparing yourself with. This will give you a more detailed overall picture of the relationship.
oooh...
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2005 24 October :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: Worried
I feel really rushed right now. I wish I had time to slow down and not make this decision. It's too hard. Things need to just slow down. I'm serious. I mean, it's only my future we're talking about here. Not that that's important at all.
:-\
I need to talk to Ryan. He's about the best person to talk to about these things. He's surprisingly un-biased. And that's cool. Plus he's much more level headed then I am.
Damn me being a girl.
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2005 23 October :: 12.04am
i have found salami. life is good.
i just returned from a really fun wedding. i think lauren and maria and kristen are my favourite people to work with. lauren is a bit of a tomboy and hates pink just as much as me lol. maria and kristen are just so playful that it's hard not to have fun with them. none of them are chastising or restricting; just act as equals, even though they're ten times more expirienced.
and i decided ama ask justin out. but in time.
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2005 20 October :: 1.38am
people are incredible hypocrites. understandably, one can trust in another until that trust is broken. but when one is angry at another for breaking the very same trust barriers as they have done, how can they be angry at the one to whom they told it.
i am not going to lie and tell them im sorry, because im not. its not that big of a deal to anyone else. he was right; i am souless.
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2005 19 October :: 11.20pm
:: Mood: exhausted
Puzzles
Today went pretty well overall.
We bought a puzzle! It's so exciting. We're already like an old couple. Sweet.
Then I talked to him about stuff. Which was nice. Because I actually talked. I've tried starting that conversation a half billion times and I actually did it this time. Yay?
Anywho, Patrice is happy, but can't keep her eyes open. Her Mom is making her take the driving test tomorrow, even though it's obvious that I'm going to fail. Oh well. I'll find some way to convince her. Hopefully. Plus I realllllly don't want to start paying for gas.
Poooo on gas.
And that's all. Nights.
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2005 18 October :: 12.49pm
Petra was just here. she thinks knows am mad at my mum. quite understandably, i think. Day after day, watching overlapping line ups with litanical commercials in between on every station, she sits. There is no mother in a creature that does that. I've accepted it though. Life is happy for me right now, but I suppose that's selfish. But that's the reason I'm not doing anything like Petra wants. I can't give up, though. Everyone has given up on her; I guess that urge goes along with wanting to be different. I pity people who have been left behind and collect the wrappings they leave upon discovering themselves.
I found out that I need someone to put me back on track every five years or so. Shaun did it back in third grade; Christine in seventh and eighth; Justin now. The people that I look up to. I understand what Justin says about needing to something for someone. I like to protect everyone and teach them if I can. I strive to understand, but understanding does not come from watching, but from being. Therein lies my camoflaging skills, which really aren't all that great. That's why, when I hang out with someone for a while, their style and ideas rub off on me, as they do anyone. But from those things, I begin to understand.
Petra thinks I'm troubled, wounded. Everyone has been wounded, only they heal up and become scars. I think mine has a thin layer of skin on it because right now, I'm comfortable with the fact that my mother is an alcoholic. I'm sure if something happened, it would hurt once again though. I hadn't thought about it in a while, but she sort of made me think. She went so far as to say that even my dad is an alcoholic. You'd think Tyler would be cautious, having such a history. But he isn't which is probably more of a worry to me than my mum's health.
It seems like something that should be buried because of it's recent death, but it's always got a finger poking up in the new ground. I don't think I'll ever be able to bury it, but then again, that's what's made me who I am, so why would I want to?
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2005 18 October :: 2.16am
I wish Ryan Hoffman was awake. It'd be nice to talk to him right now.
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