He seemed no different from the rest Just a healthy normal boy His mama always did her best And he was daddy's pride and joy He learned to walk and talk on time But never cared much to be held and steadily he would decline Into his solitary shell As a boy he was considered somewhat odd Kept to himself most of the time He would daydream in and out of his own world but in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A temporary catatonic Madman on occasion When will he break out Of his solitary shell He struggled to get through his day He was helplessly behind He poured himself onto the page Writing for hours at a time As a man he was a danger to himself Fearful and sad most of the time He was drifting in and out of sanity But in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A momentary maniac With casual delusions When will he be let out Of his solitary shell

 

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Toki

:: 2004 26 July :: 1.28am
:: Mood: bored

101 Things That Make Me Go :-)..dude

1.Meeting new people and being able to talk to them
2. Talking to old people and finding you have alot in common still
3. When your phone rings and the caller ID is someone other then Home
4. The text message sound. Means people want to talk to you. Still can't stand convos through texting though...
5. Singing along and knowing every word to a really bad/old song with someone else
6. Full out laughing. Not just because you feel like you should.
7. "Tainted Love" By Softcell.
8. Limeade. 3 days old. :-)
9. Chocolate so good it just melts in your mouth
10. Looking in the mirror and thinking "wow, I'm not hideous looking"
11. Getting compliments on something you worked hard on.
12. Reading a difficult book and understanding it.
13. Watching a movie for the 30th time and still laughing/crying at it
14. The feeling that you accomplished something.
15. Late night conversations where you can talk about everything.
16. Unexpected phone calls from someone just to see what's been happening.
17. A hug when you really feel lonely
18. Putting on a warm fuzzy sweatshirt after you've been cold for a while
19. Laying down in a soft bed with a comfy down comforter after a long day
20. Making dinner 100% on your own or with a friend and eating it. And it tasting good.
21. Random unexpected compliments
22. Overhearing people talking good about you when they don't know you're there.
23. Making someone else smile
24. Making someone's day a little easier
25. The beginning of a crush..before you get crushed
26. Realizing that somehting you dreaded isn't so bad afterall.
27. Dreaming
28. Laughing until you can't breath and your stomach is sore
29. Inside jokes that you never really tire of
30. Realizing you have alot going for you, especially after some bad times, realizing how much good you have.
31. Being able to say "remember that time.." in reference to something years back.
32. Peanut butter and FLUFF sandwiches.
33. Screaming parties at tech saturdays
34. First day of crew for a show
35. Getting flowers after a show you've worked on
36. Finding out random tid-bits that you have in common with others
37. Foam. Foam. Foam.
38. Getting covered in foam and hugging people.
39. Spatulas and microwaves. :-)
40. Pillow fights
41. Stealing from contenintal breakfasts
42. Seeing a good movie
43. Sheep.
44. Being insanely creative and making people go..wow..good idea
45. Crazy stupid dancing with the friends.
46. Vernon Hills style raves at 4am
47. The Tribe
48. Waking up after a long night of sleep and feeling refreshed
49. Actually havign an appetite. Being able to look at food without getting nasuas.(sp)
50. Geeky boys..tehehe, Lol.
51. Making random lists.
52. Relaxing with the cats.
53. Long striped socks
54. My people. The people who I can lean on and who can lean on me..who will catch me if I ever fall. And vice versa.

Blah di blah. I can't think of more right now. So that is 54/101 things that make me happy. Tune in later days for 55-101. I feel like the I Love The 90's people. Woo hoo! o that reminds me...

55. I love the 70's, 80's, 90's
56. Lord Of The Rings
57. Johnny Depp
58. Going to salvation army and finding a sweet shirt for 50 cents
59. These smilies faces on the advertisment that keep smiling randomly.....
60. Getting money after working your ass off.
61. Surprising people
62. Knowing that you are loved and have somewhere to go if it gets too bad.
63. Knowing people trust you enough to confide in you.
64. Getting personal email
65. Getting anonymous comments in your journal that aren't bad. That are supportive and nice. Even though you don't know who they are, it makes your day.
66. Sitting down and reading a good book.
67. Seeing a sappy movie and that makes you cry alot
68. Playing in the summer rain
69. Sledding
70. Acting like a little kid again
71. Disney movies
72. Sporks
73. Pippin
74. Hanging out with friends and just..hanging out. Enjoying each other's company. ::nods::
75. Those rare days where nothing wrong happens and you don't even think about the bad shit. You jus tlive.
76. Flipping to a random radio station and hearing your favorite song
77. Getting positive reviews on yuor stuff on fictionpress..even though they're probably lying
78.Doing something out of the ordinary routine
79. Being right on time for something. Not too early..not too late
80. Finding this many things that make me happy.
81. Monty Python and The Holy Grail
82. Looking at the stars
83. Cheese
84. Roasted garlic
85. The soap in Jill's house
86. People randomly showing up at my house(doesnt happen ever mind you)
87. Staying the night at a friends house and staying up all night and sleeping until 3ish
88. Random walks at 6:30 am
89. Hot chocolate after freezing your ass off sledding
90. Canoeing with no idea how to steer or paddle
91. Visiting the cats at PetSmart
92. Finding money on the floor
93. Did I mention chocolate cake?
94. My kitty cats
95. Uber awesome people who are uber awesome...too many to list
96. Whenmy cell phone gets reception
97. Being short
98. Writing/drawing something and actually liking it
99. Good times.
100. EEP! :-D
101. All my dudes out there. Lol. I love you all. :-)

Maybe more, I'm tired and lazy though. Lol. Okies. Nightsss.

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Toki

:: 2004 26 July :: 12.27am
:: Mood: Um..

Yes. I decided sleeping is bad. So I might as well just write. Things right now are...different. I can't explain why or what, but they are. I can't even tell you how I feel about certain things anymore. I feel like a sponge and I've absorbed waay too much and I'm at the point right now where I'm just a wet soggy mess. And I need to dry out a bit before I can take in more.

It's like...a platau. Things go either up or down..then level off. Yay for endless analogies. Um. Bozo on crack. Haha. Had to add that one.

Before I go..just one big dramatic ::sigh::. we all need a good bit of dramatism in our days.

Boy oh boy. Am I a confused little person or what?

:-\

-Patrice

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Toki

:: 2004 25 July :: 11.56pm

Quick update of the journal. Weird weekend. Worked alot. Moon bounce yesterday. Sandy came over and it was fun. Saw Sandy and Goli and Matt sing today. They were uber awesome. Woo final 11! :-D Then I worked for two hours. Cleaned and such. Made pasta. Ate. Made a list. Only up to 35...it's getting tough. Started another book from the library. Decided I'm tired. So Sleep. Good night.

-Patroce

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sandatthebeach

:: 2004 25 July :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: tired

crushed cookies
Yay we made finals for the talent contest! Our group was one of 11 group out of 18 contestants to make finals...not bad, eh?

Headache....ahhh I want milk. I'm eating chocolate...yes I actually found some.

Always, Sandy

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sweetyas

:: 2004 23 July :: 11.40pm
:: Mood: content

Im always content
i've just realized that everytime i go online and actually post in my journal i make my mood content...i like the word and i think its very descriptive of me.

i'm gonna have a jessica kong moment and tell you a story which you really dont need to hear but must....So i got into my first every car accident (collison) i was not to blame :) a guy backed up into me (he was tlaking on his cell phone) he didnt damage anything at all but you know what he hit me and thank god for the seat belt. we werent hit hard enough but i mean without it i dunno...if it had happened at a faster speed it woulda been more useful. Anyway Lisa's an awesome person to get into an accident with she called her mom instead of me calling my parents (who dont give a shit, when i talked to my mom on teh phone she ddint even ask if was ok). But i was shaking right afterwards like when i was talking to the guy and getting his info i was shaking it was weird, i mean come on it wasnt bad at all but u know whatever.

After taht we had the movie party at me house adn we watched the company we were unable to find the deeper meaning it was way to hard for us (me lisa and jessica) to understand and we assuemd we were idiots and the movie did actually have a very deep plot.

i've been gettting these horrible headaches but i have no idea why...i htought it was because of my contacts but i changed them last night and i still have them i mean ARG.

Im babysitting sunday which should be fun. i hope the guy wont stay there the whole time cuz he sorta scares me.

Im almost done with my shift at the really slow store (thank god) i was dying i mean it was so slow and me and that guy dont work well together and so it was like AHHHHH. but i only have one more day (unless i agree to it again) But there is a cute guy who works there but he works in the front store i work in the pharmacy...so sad.

im reading a book called the geography club adn i hate it. AHHH. i dont understand the concept of being gay (im not homophobic or anything like that:do whatever you chose to do) it doesnt make sense to me how ti works adn why. So i thought ti was disgusting when the guy was like i had my first kiss with a guy adn it was awesome i was like OKAY and shut the book and then i read more later on.

that is all i hope i work more cuz i want to have 1000 in my bank account which means no spending any money till the end of october. (yea right)

~yasamin

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 23 July :: 1.45am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fan ::zzzzz...fffffff...zzzzzz...fffff...::

Play-Doh (acutally fun-dough, but eh..)
im playing with play-doh yay!

i just wnat neil

yes.

thats all.

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sandatthebeach

:: 2004 23 July :: 1.29am
:: Mood: hurt

dead batteries
Which do you value more?
Friendship or your newest crush?

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toki

:: 2004 23 July :: 12.21am
:: Mood: Lonely

Sorries.
Um. Yes. I don't feel too good. Don't feel like going into details much. Whatever. ::shrugs:: Life will go on.

I love you all. And I'm sorry, to some of you,(well..most) for my uber-complainingness. I know it's not fun for anyone.
Bye.

-Patrice

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 22 July :: 5.10pm

Paitence
Guns & Roses

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but baby the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....


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toki

:: 2004 22 July :: 2.26am
:: Mood: crushed

Hm. Assumptions are fun. When you find out people are two timing lying sacks of shit. I almost was in a good mood for once in about two weeks. Almost. I almost didnt cry today. Thanks. Just....wow. Wow. Screw you. Bye.

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