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2004 14 August :: 3.38pm
Emotion Dump makes me sick.
It used to be such a nice place to go. A place to just spill everything and listen to people's problems.
Now it's just a cesspool of insensitive idiots.
It makes me mad.
Can't you show some compassion? Does insulting someone over the internet boost your ego?
Oh wow. Look at you, Mr. High and Mighty. Mr. I Just Insulted Someone Over the Internet And That Makes Me So Smurfing Cool.
Ug.
I remember Andy saying he got the idea for emodump off of livejournal.
P.S. Three lazy icons on hoshi-ko.
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2004 13 August :: 12.01am
:: Mood: lonely
Some things never do change... never do change....
My dad...
I don't even want to go into all that went down today concerning him.
If you want to know so badly, ask me later.
He's coming home maybe tomorrow but that's really all I feel like going through.
I am feeling so incredibly lonely right now. Fred came last night. I'm just hurting and feeling terribly exhausted.
Yarr.
I love you all.
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2004 13 August :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: blah
I took this political compass quiz that was in Kelly's journal.
I'm not as left winged (if I can say that) as I thought I was. I didn't understand what half the questions said though. My excuses.
Economic Left/Right: -4.75
Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -4.51
Read more..
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2004 13 August :: 12.17am
8 days
i didnt even see him today
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2004 12 August :: 11.52pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Straw Dog by Something Corporate
Hey, now. The straw dog's out in the street. Hey, now. There's chemicals in the clouds.
And it's not what it seems
Nothing's the same when you give it away
No it's not what it seems
It's just what you think it is
So today marks two months for Nick and me. Time sure flies when you're having fun.
I love that kid to death.
He came along with us when we went to see my dad today so he could bring Dad's car home.
It was nice of him and I don't think I ever thanked him.
My dad kept getting moved around because they don't know what's wrong with him and everything.
It was kind of freaky seeing him today. They took his IV out because it was hurting him and he started bleeding. It just sort of brought my dad down from invincible parent to human being.
And I was scared.
I'm listening to music that I think I've mocked before. I want to take this moment to retract any statements I have made against any band or music form.
I got my hairs cut.
Trivial. Trivial. Trivial.
Ben, Nick and I were talking on the phone last night and we got into what I thought was the deepest conversation we had ever been in. It started with Ben saying something about freeing Tibet and ended with a debate over right and wrong.
I got so deep into the conversation that I felt helpless. I ended up crying a lot more than I have for a long time.
It was one of those moments where I put everything into perspective and got totally overwhelmed. I was thinking about all the things that were going wrong in the world and I couldn't can't do anything about it. (I wanna read good news, good news. I wanna go to sleep at night again. I wanna read good news, good news. But nothing good is happening.)
It was amazing really.
But I'm silly.
I love you all.
I'm willing to break myself
To shake
This hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days
More reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much
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2004 12 August :: 1.33am
So True
Horoscpoe
You may find that you need to go back over old relationship issues in order to get to the heart of the problem currently concerning you. It is also likely that even though you and your partner are enjoying a progressive phase, you may feel as though you are regressing. But there is too much happening for things to remain this way for long. Mars is going to make sure that nothing stays stuck. The Sun trines Pluto on Thursday, which brings some intensity to your work situation. Go with the flow!
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2004 12 August :: 1.01am
9 days
Im sad. So today a bunny ran across me while driving. I stopped of course but spencer said the bunny was really cute. then he said i was his little bunny. and it was so cute and then i cried and he's being so cute and so sweet and telling me he loves me and he's leaving in 9 days, so i cried.
to help myself i went to get doughnuts and went to barnes and noble and saw a really cool assingment notebook i think im going to get. it was cute. then went to quarter bowling which we didnt actually do and then went to ashleys and just sat around WITH EARL! that was cool i was never really close with earl or anything it was just cool to see he's still alive, and that he's still the same and a really nice guy to me at least. so yeah i dunno just laughed, talked about one acts and got my mind off of college which was good...cept kyle is leaving saturday so thats sad and i was reminded of college again but not for long. Yeah im gonna scrapbook ive been gone a while and i need to scrapbook :) byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
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2004 11 August :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: calm
Cardiovascular is a fun word.
We went to see my dad today. It was kind of scary seeing him with tubes in his arms.
He looked so small in that bed.
They might move him to another floor because his doctor wants him to be on her floor or something. Right now he's on the cardiovascular floor.
He's staying at the hospital until Sunday and maybe longer.
He's on some medicine to dissolve the clots. He'll be on the blood thinners for a while. There's some diet he has to be on for his blood thinner medicine and another diet to get him in shape.
But so far, so good.
The blood clots might have been caused (somehow) by his sleep apnea.
My mom was sort of freaking out because her brother, my uncle, was feeling short of breath a week before he died. She really pushed for my dad to go to the hospital because she didn't want another person in the family to die.
My family is crazy.
I love you all.
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2004 10 August :: 12.30am
:: Mood: worried
My daddy is in the hospital
So I had promised myself today that I wouldn't Woohu until Monday but I need to.
Today Ben, Brigitte, Nick and I went to the mall. Nick and I were hanging out afterwards when the cell phone rang.
My mom said she was taking my dad to the hospital. She said he was feeling bad all day, it was too late to go to the doctors and she didn't want to wait until tomorrow.
It turns out he was having trouble breathing. My mom called about an hour ago and said that he had blood clots in his lungs.
He'll be on blood thinners for five days I think she said so we're not going to Ohio this weekend.
They're keeping him overnight and maybe more than that, maybe for those five days, but at least until they find out how the blood clots got there.
My mom isn't worried but she specifically said she wasn't worried and that it's nothing to worry about. That makes me think that she's on uppers today. My dad, of course, is worried.
So hopefully everything's okay and there isn't anything to worry about.
I'm going to worry and pray anyway.
I'll probably go see him tomorrow since my mom has to grab his car from the hospital.
On a slightly higher note, Nick's grandfather is doing pretty okay. For a while he had an abnormal heart rhythm but I think he's doing fine now.
I love you all.
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2004 9 August :: 10.40pm
:: Music: breaking benjamen
went to the race today...mushrooms back...my dad was 13/16 with his team of three, my bro 14/16 when i left...jens babysitting.....cathy's here.....neils in gurnee with the rest of the world.....cathy's here and were gonna go for a walk cuz my mum's being super-bitch again.
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2004 9 August :: 7.24am
:: Mood: tired
Band names
Phosphorescent Julio
Teeming with Hernandez
Child of Spleen
[edit 8:01]
Rue Tomorrow
Plethora of Alliteration and Onomatopoeia
Hindsight is Blind
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2004 9 August :: 2.01am
:: Mood: amused
I less than three you.
That's the best thing I've heard all day.
I love you all.
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2004 8 August :: 3.27am
WOO! CAN'T SLEEP!
"If I had enough money to be on MTV’s Cribs, I’d have an entire room covered in blubble-wrap, with bubble-wrap area rugs and a bubble-wrap recliner, and I’d walk around stylin in my bubble-wrap bling."
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2004 7 August :: 9.45pm
My parents are gone.
They've been gone since 4.
They'll be gone until late tonight.
To keep us company (and since we make them feel so bad when they leave without much of a warning) they bought us the newest Nancy Drew PC game.
I haven't even touched it yet. Hannah won the coin toss, like always, and got to play it first. She's been playing since 2 or 3.
I love those Nancy Drew games.
I've been watching CSI season one for the four billionth time.
Katie comes home tomorrow. I'll probably head over there around 4.
So anyway, my parents are gone. If anyone wants to stop by and see a nasty, unshowered girl, stop by my house. We'll eat popcorn and talk about cows. If you want to see a clean, showered girl, call me before you come. I'll get clean and dressed just for you.
I love you all.
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2004 7 August :: 12.57pm
I really wish I got to say goodbye
Does anyone have chalk?
Katie comes home tomorrow!
I love you all.
I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
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2004 7 August :: 1.12am
:: Music: Hanging On by Everyday Sunday
Everyday Sunday reminds me of Everyday is Like Sunday by The Smiths. Just the name though. The band is much happier.
I'm trying so hard not to fall
But everything keeps coming down with the rain
And I try so hard I forget to call.
Things are beautiful.
How can you not see it?
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2004 6 August :: 2.33pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: humming of mojos computer
mwaha.. i am a flaming babboon!!!
looooooonnnnnnnngggg time since i actually did a normal update......
annnnywhos, im at mojos house and shes forcing me to update ^.^ (mojo: I am not!!)
ok, i went to open house for school and yeah, my classes are easy ^_^;;;;;;;;; *cough* my french teachers last name is laffette.....pronounced "la feet" i think...lol....
where was i now...lol...ok, im at mojos house and stuffage, and shes talking to people on meh buddy list ^.^;;;;;; its rather interesting, hehe
This be MOJO!!! ::huggles Joe's journal:: is that even possible?? O.O anyway Joe didn't know what else to write, so here I am goig crazy on the keyboard while he looks at our books liek they are giant sexy beasts!!
ok, im back now O.o....for the moment.... 14 more days til meh bf visits ^____________________________________________________^ *ginormous smile*
mojo is running around the house again....looking for stuff XD i dunno what, but yeah.......sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Mojo: My dad.. just walked in the room.. he smells REALLY bad.... like we're DYING in here...
im back again.......and covered in fumes >.> from mojos daddy....annnyways, this is a long enough entry? ne?
well im done for now, mojo wants to look at somethin, so yeeeeaaahhh im off,
bye byes!!!!!!!!!!!
Joe
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2004 5 August :: 3.10pm
I apologize to anyone who has tried to call me today (because so many people do).
My mom has been on the phone since forever. I think she woke up with the phone to her ear.
My dad has called who knows how many times on her cell phone, trying to get ahold of her. He even, for some desperate reason, called us kids' cell phone.
I think she's talking to one of the relatives. (She just went out to the garage. Is she going to smoke and talk now?)
Sigh. Anyway that's it. Just a rant.
I love you all.
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2004 5 August :: 12.02am
:: Mood: CRAP, Thanks guys
Not so Happy
i feel like crap! CRAP! CRAP!
so i spent the majority of the day bragging about how great spencer is, then i get a text message, he misses me, so i call him...doesnt want to talk he's with friends...so i go to work call again...he doesnt get it...so screw the suprise visit, guess he really didnt miss me after all
i talked to james todd today, he's only 18, thats crazy sweet, i got hyper a little but not too much spun in spinny chair got dizzy..he wanted me to answer his cell phone too which was weird but ummmmmmm today sucked, thank you all! BYE!
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2004 4 August :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Stairway to Heaven
You humble people everywhere
Night.
No matter how much I love it, it's the worst time of day for me.
I'm sleepy and everything that has built up over the day (or week) just comes rushing out.
In a flurried blur of black and stars.
I'm sore.
Inside and out.
I love the nighttime.
I love you all.
There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
And you know sometimes words have two meanings
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2004 4 August :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Enya
Fucking relaxing bath...
im gonna pop mr. bubble's bubble
set fire to burt's bees hives
shoot dove
put venus in a good fly trap
and rip apart all the water molecules in the universe.
yes.
my bath sucked.
i inhaled bubbles.....and it hurts like fuck in the bronchial tube...
then i got soap in my eye from burt's bees...
the water wouldnt get hot...
the other day i cut myself with the razor
and im cursing dove although its done nothing but run out on me.
not to mention, my brother walked in on me...it wasnt that bad ::shrugs:: although i think i would have preffered someone else...
anyway.
ive been a real basket case this week....i cleaned the whole downstairs
Mood swings like CRAZY!
Attracting the male more
and crazy driving
yup...im not even gonna bother writing about today...its not that intresting to anyone but jen...and she was there...
basically i felt like a little kid all day...
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2004 4 August :: 7.50pm
I wants for me an iPod
Rawr!
I am Rachel, hear me roar!
I love you all.
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2004 4 August :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: amused
"I buy time every time I come," Reader said while trying to catch his breath.
Jackie is apparently a guy now.
Why didn't anyone tell me?
Bwahahah! The best thing all day!!!!1!!1one!!one!!
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2004 4 August :: 11.32am
Today looks like a grand and beautiful day.
I love you all.
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2004 4 August :: 1.23am
:: Mood: yarr
:: Music: Castles Made of Sand by Jimi Hendrix
And so castles made of sand fall in the sea, eventually
Have you ever had one of those days that's filled up with so much stress and worry for someone else and their problems that once one tiny problem of your own pops up, you just explode?
Yeah. That was my day.
Lovely, ne?
Drama, drama, drama.
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2004 4 August :: 12.58am
The Village
I must say I am proud of myself. Yes circumstances are different but I got through this movie with no nightmares...yet.
Before you make fun of me you should know this, when Signs came out i had a lot of things going on and after i saw it i slept in my parents room for 2 weeks. Now i can pretty much guarantee you that you do not know what was going on in my life now. Only 2 people know that and if you think you know...you dont.
So yeah its not only because i was scared of the movie, but i can never be sure you see there waere many things going on, many therapisits i was talking to, many people in my house, i went insane but only for a month...you dont know what im talking about trust me.
so anyway aback to the being proud of myself part...woo hoo 1 night with no nightmares! :)
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2004 4 August :: 12.35am
LIKE 2 WEEKS AGO SPENCER WAS VERY SWEET LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT IT...
FIRST I WAS GROUNDED AND I COULDT SEE HIM BUT HE STOPPED BY ANYAY AND BROUGHT ME FLOWERS
THEN THE NEXT DAY I WAS STILL GROUNDED AND HE GOT ME SECRET WINDOW...
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
ALSO HE WENT TO MICHAELS AND BOUGHT ME A SHIRT SO I COULD TIE DYE...IT TURNED OUT LIKE CRAP BUT IT WAS FUN
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
BTW FUZZ YOU STILL HAVE MY DVD...
LOVE YA SPENCY! :)
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2004 3 August :: 11.40am
Babies and sarcasm
So I accidently click random and out of the collective Woohu rectum comes this lovely piece of journaling. It's almost as fun to read the journal itself as it is to read the comments.
I go snooping around a bit and I find "Noah" 's punk rawk advice site. I love this kid.
And that's it.
Nick's grandfather went in for surgery today. I think his surgery is around 2.
Nick called me and woke me up around 11. He's babysitting his little cousin, Paige. She is the cutest thing on the face of the earth! BABIES! I love them!
I love you all.
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2004 2 August :: 11.58pm
Don't let this happen to you!
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