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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 15 July :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: The Fish

holy awesome concert
so last night was the concert and it was awesome...

incubus always is!!!!!!!!

there was a like ten minute drum solo featureing brandon on bongos and i think his name is ben (new bassist) and of course jose. and after they came back out i agree with the kids we met at denny's (that'll be later) but it was kinda disappointing.

of course the lights were awesome, and they played a different version of drive which was awesome...and they played "pistola" and then a whole mess of morning view and then some science!!! woo science...not enough make yourself tho...it was sad!!!

i wish a few more from

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 15 July :: 3.42am
:: Mood: calm

Hate is never too strong a word
I think I know why you hate me.

I think I know why you're so protective.

I think I know why you turn it into hatred.

I think I know why you're always afraid I will hurt the one I'm with.

Because you have. Because you have already done it.

And you don't want me to make the same mistake.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 14 July :: 8.02pm

I'd like to see you try to act offended by this. I thought it was hilarious.


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[edit 8:27]

I've never played the game but I thought this was a lot of funny.
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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 14 July :: 6.09pm

It's not you ...it's me
It's windy out and I want to go fly a kite.

If it's this windy tomorrow, I think I will.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 14 July :: 2.25am
:: Mood: calm

This entry is sort of stupid and long but most everything I say is so... deal with the crazy for a second and listen.
Random memegen:
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I'm sorry that I haven't commented on anyone's journals with any regularity lately. I've been thinking about the words that come spilling out of my mouth everyday and I find that I repeat myself a lot more than I'd care to.

In other news, I'm almost bored with summer. I almost want school to start again.

We all like to gather up in circles and treat the sofa with champagne. Oh and the conversation lasts for hours. It's easy to make it all the same. Millions sing but I go inside.

Excited but not enough.

I really long for my computer at times like these. I need to listen to Bush. I really want to listen to Midlake after quoting them. And I long for all of my anime songs. Sigh. What piracy has done to the world...

In other news, I am a loser.

We (meaning my mother) sent off the computer today to get fixed. It might be back Monday. Really, I don't mind. I like the laptop. It's cozy.

In other news, I'm insane.

Seriously, never listen to anything I say past 1 or 2 in the morning.

But now you will listen to what I say and hear out another one of my crazy ideas.

The all-nighter at eDen helped me discover that everything is a lot funnier with your friends and no sleep.

Anyone see where I'm going?

I think we should all have an all-night end of the summer get together party thing.

Because they're fun and you all are fun so it'd be double, maybe triple the fun. Probably more since there'd be more of us.

I'm insane.

If anyone thinks my idea is in any way relatively intriguing, it'd be nice if you'd think, hold that thought and complete it for me. No one is going to listen to my ramblings at 2 in the morning and remember or hold any belief in them, mostly because I told them not to.

Remember that? It was about eight or nine paragraph things above this one.

Anyway, I think it's a fun idea because past experiences have proven that it was a fun time. But I don't think anyone can drive home. That was sort of bad. I thought Brett was going to kill us. Not that I don't trust him, but it was just bad. I mean good. On second thought, I'm going to cross out those last couple of sentences because they're really stupid.

I'm not making sense anymore and this entry will probably turn out to be really long so I'm stopping here.

In other news, if you were a hot dog, and you were starving, would you eat yourself?

I love you all.

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goose

:: 2004 13 July :: 12.30am

Im watching Aqua teen hunger force, its the one with meat mountain. I dont get it but i actually like this show, and i love the ball or meat, hes so funny! yeah goli and melanies party today it was fun, sweaty smelly boys, and bugs, and tickling and i went to go see my spency...:( i hope he's better soon hes really sick. And i went to the scrapbook store today and got beach stuff, sooooooo cool! and i printed my pictures heeh theyre funny i have funny pictures espically this one of wender where he looks like a guy from baywatch, and hes running. and pictures of spency and our sandcastle :) good times!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 13 July :: 12.27am

Je ne suis la belette de personne.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 12 July :: 8.34pm

I hung out a bit with Brigitte today.

I turned down the chance to see Spider-man 2 with my family.

I'm sitting here.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 11 July :: 1.29pm
:: Mood: nostalgic

So. I was thinking...
This year is our last year. Together.

I don't even know where everyone's going but I doubt most will stay.

Michigan's a boring state.

But even if you go, it doesn't mean we'll never see each other again, right?

You'll keep in touch, right? We all will, right?

Right?

I have this view of the future and it's dark after high school.

I don't want to disappear. I don't want everyone to disappear.

I love you all. Very very much.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 10 July :: 7.17pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: 94.7 zone

hello

i live in a sauna

enter the sauna

you may not return from the sauna

but the sauna has a fan

and three windows





VISIT THE SAUNA!!!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 10 July :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: calm

Jackie's quiz
I'm me!! What a surprise!
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I love that picture, Jackie. To DEATH! But Charlie's dead.

Rawr! I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 10 July :: 1.46pm

It's like debate class only much better!
I love flame wars debates/arguments.

They're exciting if it's not all swearing and you're debating against intelligent people. Then skife says that's a flame war. Those suck.

But with this, I get to have a debate and defend my personal opinion.

They're better if the people involved aren't attacking you or anyone specifically. That way, personal feelings don't get involved and it's all based on opinions and beliefs.

I love you all.

P.S. I don't know anything. I just want my music back. I really crave that It Don't Mean a Thing remix.
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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 10 July :: 2.10am

So that makes it the 12th.

Okay? Okay.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 9 July :: 1.50pm
:: Mood: blah

Life and love and why... child, adult, then die...
Made a new layout thingy for my journal, it'll be better when I actually care about it.

Inspired by my favorite song: Daffodil Lament by The Cranberries.

Yarr. That's it.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 8 July :: 4.30pm

Stupid teenage movies are kind of funny but really stupid
Well we have Mozilla Firefox on the laptop to try and prevent all the crap that happened to the computer upstairs (starting with IE) from happening to the laptop.

So far, it's really awesome.

The only thing that sucks is that on Woohu, the transparency doesn't work. So any transparent tables are BSOD blue. So I guess I'll make a new layout.

Does anyone know what's up with that? Andy? Anyone?

My mom made me a hat. It's really awesome. Especially since I haven't washed my hair and it's all nasty. I look bad in hats too because my hair and my ears are crooked.

I love you all.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 8 July :: 12.04pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: chevelle

im going swimming!!!!!!!!!

woo!

okie...recap of last couple days...

so the other day patrice slept over and in the morning when i was going to take her home (okie so it was four o'clock) hul and Q and stunkel came over... i walked with hul and Q and stunkel down the railroad across milwalkee and into the libertyville forest preserve...then from there we found the path and ended up on st. mary's and we walked down that to sixty and then to rivertree to visit buttface/trix/patrice...and then to best buy where i saw anthony and andy and mark (he lost loads of weight and got taller)...

upon arriving home nick called hul and met him at the corner...and then they came over...

well i promised Q id take him back to best buy so he could buy whatever he wanted...and then, again, upon arriving home, more people were there...

kyle, benton, jackie, sandy (who i asked to come get her ice cream) were all there.

i must remind you all i wanted was to take a warm bath with some national geografic story about the rest of the world being as wasteful as the US and then relax while watching a movie that i hadnt watched in a while.

but then i had to wait a few hours for everyone to leave.

and jen ended up sleeping over cuz she came home...


next day (i actually have no idea what order these go in...but yea)

then neil came home and so i went to see him right after my useless doctor appt. which only told me to go see a dentist cuz my ears/head have been doing a lot of hurting.

so neils...yea fun about an hour there...then i went to go pick up sandy and patrice so we could bake a cake at jens for mushroom...although the first ended up being for us...marble with chocolate frosting...

then sandy had to go home so i took her and met jen and patrice at the park later...then we decided to get frosting for mushrooms cake/ cupcakes....and went to get sandy (she had to make dinner for sus hermanos)

then, returning to jens, Q called needing rescueing from kurt and them...cuz they went miniture golfing and he didnt have any money...

so i took patrice with me and driving down milwalkee this car turned left in front of us and (yes, we had a green light) we thought "the next car isnt going to go" but it did and i almost killed us again...

no airbags=no good...but no accident=all okie!

then coming back i notice that my thermostat was all the way at hot and flashing...so after dropping off Q i turned off the car and trix and i sat in the car (doom doom doom de doom) and waited for the madre to pick us up to take trix home...

and what else but get yelled at...

oh well.


last night campy and jen and i went to jennas after sending mushroom his cupcakes

jen and i jumped in the cold water but they didnt ...

after that we came home and we went to pet stores cuz jen wants a frog but no luck...she bought more hamster stuff...

my bro's gonna give her his though...

his froggie died

oh and i saw a picture of an australian shepard who's five yrs old with green eyes and reddish fur whose owners moved to florida and she needs a home and shes perfect so shes coming to visit today or friday

yes...and today im going swimming..

and i love neil...endlessly...

i dont want to be away from him its horrible sitting in his van becasue all i want to do is hold his hand but i cant cuz hes too far away...

:)

okie swimmy time!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 7 July :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: tired but not enough

WARNING: This entry is longish and written by a drowsy person who can't sleep.
I think snafu is my favorite word/acronym. I have a different favorite word.

I ended up actually going to the all-nighter at eDen (the local cyber cafe) last night. I wasn't going to but I decided to be spontaneous since that's the only way things are fun.

I showed up at eDen around a quarter to 10 and was told by my mother that I could only stay until 2 (it lasted until 10 this morning).

I played DDR, watched Nick, Ben and Brett play whatever they were playing and met three Woohu friends/people I talked to via Woohu.

I called my mom at 2 and convinced her (it was easy) to let me stay the whole time.

I played DDR, Super Smash Brothers Melee and watched people play whatever.

I crashed fast and after I got tired, I got loopy.

We ended up leaving around 8 because we were all too tired/bored to play anything. And we were all acting like we were high/drunk/whatever. Ben turned an innocent-looking game background into a horrible perverted....ug. But it was fun. It was the best.

Everything last night/this morning is a blur.

I remember all the guys hitting on me. That sort of sucked. A lot.

And I remember getting tons of people to play DDR.

Anyway, from eDen we headed to Ben's and we all curled up and fell asleep watching Meet the Parents.

Ben and Brett fell asleep fast but Nick and I couldn't sleep/didn't want to.

I ended up falling asleep at 10ish and waking up around noon.

I was lonely until Ben woke up around who knows when. Then I fell asleep for a bit.

So we all hung around and I just got home.

Our computer upstairs is starting to fall apart. The monitor won't work. This message in a BSOD box pops up and says something about a connection or something.

I don't remember.

So I am/was freaking out about that. I called Ben and Nick (note that I had just gotten home from Ben's) and felt really stupid asking them Nick about my computer when I just saw them.

Nick said the graphics card might've come loose or blown. I'm hoping the former. He did say that those were the good things, the fixable things, and that it was best to concentrate on those before jumping to horrible conclusions.

I don't even know what card in our computer is the graphics card so he might come over to check it out maybe.

All in all, last night/this morning was excellent and today was even better.

If our computer can just be okay...

I love you all.

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cradleofilth

:: 2004 7 July :: 6.44pm

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 7 July :: 1.21pm
:: Mood: lonely

eDen all-nighter
I'm awake
The rest of you are sleeping
What if you will miss it
When it comes




I'm at Ben's and I'm the only one awake out of me, Nick, Ben and Brett.

It's lonely, being alone.

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Lavitz1985

:: 2004 6 July :: 9.35pm

Well... since everyone else posts lyrics that nobody reads... why don't I.


I had a dream that I could fly
I can feel each moment as time goes by
We'd never be too far away,
You would always be here, I heard you say

I never thought
Thought that it would be our last goodbye
(our last goodbye.)
I still can dream
That one day love will fall out from the sky

Do you still remember all the time that has gone by?
(do you believe?)
Do you still believe that love can fall out from the sky?
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love
(do you still believe?)

Find a way to bring back yesterday
Find a way to love
I hope we stay
When tomorrow becomes today
Love will find a way

I'll be waiting for you, in my heart you are the one
If I cannot find you, I will look up to the sun
(do you believe, do you believe?)
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love

Do you believe?
Do you believe?

Do you still remember all the time that has gone by?
Do you still believe that love can fall out from the sky?
If from where you're standing, you can see the sky above
(do you believe?)
I'll be waiting for you, if you still believe in love

Do you believe?


I'll let you guess as to the title and the origins of this song.

Angel_Bob

:: 2004 6 July :: 1.35pm
:: Mood: sad

I'll never forgive myself for thinking that it was a hat.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 6 July :: 1.27am
:: Mood: annoyed

Yarrr!
Don't call things gay or I will beat you within an inch of your life.

And I'm non-violent.

To end with a total oxymoron: I love you all.

P.S. Arg, I be obsessered!
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goose

:: 2004 5 July :: 11.59pm

Alright, im back, i was in Bolingbrook for the weekend and i came back today so i could go to work, where they made me come in early, and stay late, which my friends bites. gah. today was my first official day not in training anymore! :) im so happy cuz i was being trianed for 4 weeks, and now im done! im special! And my drawer...wasnt bad today, being as it was open all day constantle serving customers because of the stupid work holiday and millions of zillions coming to see movies! GAH! Well i got throught it alive, and just because i have nothing better to do, im going to tell you a little bit more about it. Ok so first, last summer i got sick almost everytime i had a frappiccuino and since that was a year ago since i had one, i figured it was over, and i had a frappiccuino today, and guess what i got sick and i still geel sick. so i got my butt up, forced myself to stop being so sick, made food, and went to work, where i stared at food and served foor all day. bleh. then it was sooooooooooo busy i didnt have 3 minutes to go to the bathroom it was insane i had to wait 3 hours, by that point with all the hot popcorn and stuff and the not feeling well thing i started sweating, which I NEVER DO! i almost NEVER sweat, because of my hormone imbalance thingy...but anyway i felt really sick and i started feeling dehydrated, and this customer came up to me, and i just walked away, and i went to the bathroom and i got some water...ahhhhhhhh. Then i went back to work and worked 6 hours until i got my break, bux poopy Dost wouldnt let me go! gah! ok so then i came back from stuffing my face on break, which turned out to not go well with my stomach but this was 9 and i hadnt eaten a thing all day. so then Benito, gosh i love Benito sometimes, pulled my drawer only like 10 minutes after 10, which is pretty good, and then i went home. to sit. and not serve people. :)


This weekend was AMAZING well ok it wasnt like that fun, i was at my dads the whole time, but our friend got thousands of dollars of illegal fireworks that were so cool! i really enjoied it, and we had lots of good good, and this super amazing taco dip (honestly its the first time i've ever had taco dip cuz everyone puts meat in it :/) so it was good, and fireworks were sweet! stupid people next door letting their 4 and 6 year olds shoot off fireworks INSIDE their garage. They were so stupid! they did it for a long time too! o man they were stupid!!!! and i played with the most adorable little kids, spencer, mackalia, and josh, 4, 6, and 8. I love them theyre soooooooo cute! Espically spencer!!!! and i took them swimming and spencer kept thinking that he could swim and he definatly cant so it was scary...( he was holding onto a noodle the whole time and then he would let go ahhhhhh) not good. yeah so this is a really long entry, i havent been on line in a long time. SPencer comes home tonight :) im so excited!!!!!!! YAY! yeah i talked to him today, not for long but it was good! Yipee! okie bye bye

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 5 July :: 5.27pm
:: Mood: sad

I'm sorry.

Talk to me. I'm here.

I've been through it how many times now? Three? Four?

And once for someone else.

I've been through it all.

I can help. Let me.

I'm here.

I'm sorry.

I love you.

Are you crying?

Angel_Bob

:: 2004 5 July :: 12.58pm

Fireworks are so beautiful.



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I think Kelly might like this icon, I can't stop looking at it...
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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 4 July :: 12.34pm

Only in America
I AM NEVER GOING TO EAT A HOT DOG EVER AGAIN!

A Japanese guy (Takeru Kobayashi, he's really cute) won the hot dog eating contest. He ate 53 and a half hot dogs. Ug. I don't ever want to even see a hot dog again!


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Here we are, on the day in which we celebrate our idependence from England.

All over the country, people are preparing to celebrate with a pyro's wet dream and food.

Here we are, my family. I was watching The Twilight Zone marathon on Sci-Fi. We're a geeky family. We're weird.

Suddenly, we are transformed into real Americans.

And now we sit in our living room watching a hot dog eating contest on ESPN.

Only in America, where gluttony is king.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 3 July :: 11.49pm

I feel am really really stupid.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 3 July :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: some bird movie

Random thinkings
I just finished watching Field of Dreams for the thousandth time.

I love that movie.

My parentals bought us chitlins the first book in A Series of Unfortunate Events since the movie's coming out later this year. Hannah and Nathaniel say the books are great. The movie looks totally awesome.

I always seem to cause trouble without really meaning to. I'm sorry.

I have a weird view on things. At least, compared to other people's views. I care/love/am nice to people no matter what that person has done/said to me.

No matter what.

You could be really pissed at me and I'd be pissed at you for maybe half an hour. Only as a reflex.

Then I'd feel really awful and beat myself up about it.

And I think that's normal. I think that's perfect.

Love everyone, be nice to everyone no matter what.

And I don't hate.

But somehow it's weird. Somehow I'm weird.

I just do what feels natural.

On a slightly curious note: Who's going to Brett Bretterson's tomorrow? (you've filled out nicely, too.)

I love you all.

Put on whatever makes you attractive
If it isn't you then do it for the sake of fashion
Your friends like a certain you
That's who you've got to be

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 3 July :: 3.54pm

so my dad went and bought a M3...

its awesome!

only problem is

i know there'll be a fight t'night

anyone wanna do something?

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 3 July :: 12.39pm
:: Mood: contemplative

I love the smell of burning things.
I've been thinking about the future.

Since it keeps getting closer.

I want to go to GVSU. I'll major in French and minor in Japanese or "east asian studies" (too lazy to capitalize).

I'll probably do a Japanese exchange thing along with a French summer school program.

Then I'll get a job translating something or working for THE MAN.

Oh yeah. I'll move to California (or Martinique, Kelly) then I'll write my novel in my free time.

But if I work for THE MAN, I might have to live near him.

The future looks fantastical.

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