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blah, i didnt update yesterday, and i didnt really update the day before either. thats because theres nothing good to say, so i wont say much at all. spencer is gone, i miss him, hes in michigan with neil, he invited me to go but couldnt. i think i am going to make invitations to my party now. im really really sorry if i forget someone theres a limit to how many people i can have, but if you just call me im sure i can arrange something, its nothing perosnal, i promise!
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2004 2 July :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: amused
Boring amusements
I was reading Nick's sister's journal, because I'm bored and weird, and she was having a bad day about half a month ago.
Even though the entry is really full of angry angst, it's sort of funny.
Something of hers was missing and she blamed Ben and Nick: so then that leaves nick, or ben, probably both! AND I JUST DONT EVEN WANT TO FUCKING THINK ABOUT THAT, because they're prob. gay, and prob. used my shit, ajkndflkjakfljd ughh just the thought makes me want to fucking shoot myself.
Then she's mad at Nick again: There's now way that they [Ben and Nick] can't be gay.
And at one point, she wasn't mad at Nick: Suprisingly he gives really good advice, and can be really good at help.
Other people's lives are highly entertaining.
And very interesting.
Quote of the day: just because you have a brain in your head, doesn't mean you can't love her!
I love you all.
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2004 1 July :: 10.56pm
:: Mood: thoroughly displeased
Sorry but I'm going to be cussing like a sailor for the next few days
Today: snafu.
Our fucking computer has a damn virus.
That's the only explanation I can come up with.
IE isn't working. Our internet is fine but IE keeps giving us that damnable page cannot be displayed thing.
So I'm a teeny bit pissed.
This is the first virus we've ever gotten. We've been working on it for over 6 hours and the only progress we've made is to create a boot disk for IE.
Which helps so much.
So if any of you know anything about a virus that makes shitty IE stop working, it'd help us out a lot.
Why would you make a virus? Just to sit around laughing as you think about all the people you're pissing off? I bet the kid is twelve. And he's a furry. He's probably bragging to all his friends right now while playing D&D.
People fucking disgust me.
So here's my traditional warning: don't open attachments, click links on pop-ups or open those e-mails that say you've won a bajillion bucks.
Tomorrow we're calling ABS, the people who made our comp, to see if they know anything about it.
I'm going to chill all day. I'll try to get some sleep tonight and then just leave the house and go somewhere far away from computers that have viruses.
It pisses me off so much.
So I might not be online that much until we get this fixed. I don't want to spread the virus like genital herpes and I don't feel like dealing with it.
I love you all.
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2004 1 July :: 5.37pm
:: Mood: angry
My parental units are dad is being a complete dumbass about my lack of driving and a job.
If I could get a job, I'd have one.
If I wanted to drive, if it didn't scare me half to death, if I didn't hate it with every fiber of my being, I'd be driving.
Grr...
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2004 1 July :: 2.46pm
:: Mood: awake
ACT score
Well.
I don't feel like lying or hiding or whatever.
I got a 25 on the ACT.
I wanted to get a 30 or a 28.
But I didn't. And I feel dumb.
So I'll probably be re-taking it.
I love you all.
P.S. I got maybe three hours of sleep last night and woke up at 10:41. So if I seem crazy, it's because I am. Tired, I mean.
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2004 1 July :: 1.24am
I....I am not going to say anything (besides this) about my day, because people will then just say im only thinking about myself, when im not. so if you think that, they why are you reading my journal?
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2004 1 July :: 12.33am
:: Mood: contemplative
Sometimes it's hard to believe reality is reality.
Sometimes the prettiest stars are neither the ones in the sky nor in the movies.
Sometimes your own beliefs can become unbelievable to yourself.
Sometimes thinking is the best recreational activity.
Sometimes dreams are real.
Sometimes you need to spend a whole day just listening.
I love you all.
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2004 30 June :: 5.11pm
so last night sandy and patrice slept over.
we talked and then headed to get sandy ice cream...not that she needed any...
and then to blockbuster after realising patrice couldnt find now and then and freaking her out at her house with my headlights and corny bean.
and then we came and made cookies
and sandy kim left after abotu twenty minutes of Now and Then
and trix and i talked til five in the morning...
then...today we woke up and trix had to go get her retainer..
and sandy called
this is the part i feel bad about.
neil and i were supposed to see The Notebook yesterday...but he didnt want to see two movies in one day
so we decided to see it today
but i neglected to tell sandy and patrice that...
but we didnt go see the movie
and i invited sandy to go to caribou...but she didnt want to...so i went out with neil anyway
we went to potbellys and jamba juice...
then we bought his shirts and went to the bank...
stupid fucking bank...
i deposited 117 dollars but they wouldnt let me take out twenty dollars cuz im not a signer
theres this huge sale at the mall...
EVERY STORE!!!
its amazing and i wanna spend some money
i wanna buy clothes and a hat!
i wanna hat this summer
i already have my birthday list...althoguh i know half of its not going to happen its just what i want
"White Fluffy Clouds"
{Brandon Boyd's [of Incubus] book of artwork}
"The Lovely Bones"
String Tribute to Incubus
A Job
A Job
A Job
A curling iron
a new burner or fix mine or soemthing...
and just gift certificates...
hot topic
kohl's
barnes and noble
best buy
i just got told by my brother that basically, im stupid for getting mad at neil for the shit i do cuz its dumb and i should know that at the end of the night he's "coming home" with me.
but...its hard to think of the big picture when you're in the mist of it.
adios
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2004 29 June :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: indescribable
Last night I dreamt that somebody loved me
I finally scanned my senior pictures because I'm cool like that.
So now you may witness them in all their senior picture glory.
Joy and rapture. I bet you can't wait.
Some don't look that great because the scanner is a bit dirty (fingerprints, smudges, dirt, whatever). I'm really quite beautiful. Ha, sure.
But yeah, they're a little smudged. And larger than they should be. So they look like crap.
Read more..
If you want one, tell me and I'll talk it over with my mom. She's a little paranoid about them. Or you could talk to her. Or you can print out your own. Oo! It's like a Choose Your Own Adventure book! Sort of. (If you want to print them out on your own, turn to page 4,596,208,390. If you want to be eaten by the shark, turn to page 4.)
I love you all.
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2004 29 June :: 5.59pm
I want to see The Terminal.
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2004 29 June :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Let Go by Frou Frou
Pointless entry...yay!
Is this it? Is it?
I woke up at my normal time today and I was quite upset at myself. I want to wake up earlier.
Tomorrow I'm going to explore the other part of that path running through town. I'll wake up early and head out as soon as I can.
I've had this song stuck in my head since I started to feel lonely and homesick on Wednesday. These are the parts that were stuck in my head and seem relevant.
Read more..
I love you all.
Sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud...
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2004 29 June :: 1.10pm
you know what...if you're going to read my journal, at least pretend you knwo what you're talking about before you get all pissed off...
"Maybe you shouldnt assume things."
maybe it shouldnt be assumed what i meant.
not that you should be reading my journal!
secondly
"she was occupied"
only meant that she was occupied and had something to do...and so she didnt need to talk to spencer.
PERHAPS they arent attacks against you...
but then again
everything is isnt it.
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2004 29 June :: 12.18pm
:: Mood: good
so last night we talked.
he tried to call...i hung up
he came online...i blocked him
he came over...i was gone...
i really did not want to talk to him.
and when i finally came home, we walked
i explained why i was mad, except not so very calmly.
then when i was done i wanted to know what he thought.
but he didnt know what he thought.
so i told him to go home and think.
and went upstairs.
and he went to talk to my mum.
for like two hours...
then i went down
"if you have thought about it, then come up and tell me rather than just sitting here talking to her"
he told me why he was in the garage
"when you ran upstairs, i was crying and your mum told me to come into the garage to calm down"
so that was all i really needed.
but we discussed and talked and yes everythings okie...
sandy called whne we were talking.
so dont worry...
we're going rollerblading today
and then to see the notebook
it really reminded me of us.
::shrugs::
yea.
even her hair color!!! hehehehe
:)
thank you everyone
wender thanks for calling...i really appreciate it.
and sandy and patrice and goli thanks for listening
and advicing
and helping me understand what i felt.
:-D
you guys are good friends, see! i told you!
what is there to get mad at?
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2004 29 June :: 1.47am
Amaxzing day, with the exception of the previous entry
Today was so much fun. I really enjoyed it. I went to the beach early in the morning, and later on spencer, wender and stunkel joined me. it was very fun. we built a sand castle then splashed everyone with the dirty sandy water, which then led to everyone going in the actual water and splashing, dunking and throwing people. and unfourtanatly (wtf? sp?) (for me at least) throwing people. it was very fun, then we all took a nap, my family went home and we went on a boat, where stunkel was crazy, ahhh. ten wender went home and spencer stunkel and i ate at my house...food was good. then we watched the ending of office space, i felt so bad for the guy without the cake. :( im going to make him some cake, lots of cake. so then i called patrice who i guess called me much earlier but both of out stupid phones werent working so she didnt join us at the beach :( which would have been a lot more fun. but anyway theni called her and we went in my hot tub. yummy pina colada hot tub! yea thats the end of my story
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2004 29 June :: 1.29am
Halo and that Spider-man2 video game
Gephyrophobia is the fear of crossing bridges.
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[edit 1:49]
My brother is playing the Spider-man 2 video game. He just beat this boss and before it disappeared to the land of dead video game bosses it said, "You have no chance to survive make your time."
Obscure geeky references crack me up. It would've been even better if he put the "HA HA HA" at the end of it but, hey, it was still pretty hilarious.
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2004 29 June :: 12.30am
GRRR!
people should be allowed to be friends with whoever they want to. What reasons do you have for hating someone because theyre friends with someone. Thats stupid you know that, i can be friends with whoever i want, and if they want to be friends with me they can. you should not think its dumb or anything, people make their own choices they do what they want!
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2004 29 June :: 12.10am
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Today, I woke up at ten-ish to my mom shoving the phone in my face. It was Nick calling to see if I wanted to hang out with him, Ben and Brigitte.
So we hung out and blah de blah.
Went to eDEN. It's so cool. It's like a cyber cafe. We went once early on then again later. I played this guy in DDR but I hadn't played in a month. Still, he sux0red and I beat him bad. Now my legs hurt.
Before that we sat around and Nick had to go to work but didn't. We got Brigitte a memory card because she got a GCN (w00t).
And, of course, I fell asleep. I don't know why. I wasn't trying and I don't even remember doing it. I was lying down because watching Nick play Vice City was making me queasy. Then I woke up.
I had a dream about a boat and a storm. Nick and Ben say it's because they were washing the house. Hm.
All in all, a darn good day. I'm going to try to hang out with people more. I missed people a lot more than I thought.
Me mum went online and got my ACT score. It was bad. I was aiming for a 30 or even a 28 but missed it because of my damn math score. I hate math. Can some of you guys help me out next year with this Algebra 2 crap? I suck at algebra.
I want to go to eDEN again. Minus the fact that I was the only girl there and I was surrounded by geeky guys who looked like they had never seen a girl, it was really fun.
I'm rambling, sorry.
I love you all.
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2004 28 June :: 10.39pm
i love Q.
only recently have i realised what a sweetheart he is...and how much he really cares about people around him...and for that, i have admired him.
he shows a certain support that no one else does.
and would sit with you in silence while you cried...just to be there.
here's proof:
This letter applies to people at Neil's
party that happened last weekend.
I am well aware of the fact that our anti-social
behavior might have caused some anger. I assume
that nobody's mad at me, but only because I'm
single and have no special someone to spend time
with. As for Neil, I believe he should have had his
priorities in order, and probably Spencer as well
(although it seems Jill wasn't too pissed
off...) she was occupied. My personal reason for sitting down and
playing video games for 11 straight hours is that I
already had had a pretty fun conversation, I drove
Benton's truck around the block, and got bored
playing guitar. There was honestly nothing else to
do, so I completely understand where you guys
were coming from if/when you talked about being
bored. I do look up to Neil, but I believe that he
should have played the part of host a little bit
better and tended to his guests before joining us
in playing a game- especially his girlfriend, who
it seemed everyone else noticed was a little bit
steamed (and quite a bit bored) except for him.
If you have not visited the forums lately, I
posted a similar comment to this already. (i'm
sending this out, in case nobody bothers to read it
anymore.)
It is one of my strongest opinions that hosts of
parties should never indulge in a single activity
with a stagnant group of people for the entire
occasion. Doing so alienates certain people. I
have been at parties where the hosts were so
involved entertaining one or two people that they were
unaware that some new guests had arrived. I try
to avoid this sort of behavior when I have people
over, party or otherwise. Before I go about
tooting my own horn, I'll stop myself.
funny...he still doesnt see that everyone else was bored....he keeps saying "there was nothing else to do"...but why were there other people doing nothing too...talking is not against all party rules.
ahhhhhh
he needs to think understand.
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2004 28 June :: 10.29pm
are you all happy now?
i talked to him
and just what i thought.
he had nothing to say
but excuses
thats all he ever has.
he doesnt know how to apologize
i dont want to talk to him
but while thats happening
hes talking to my arch nemesis
oh joy, my mother.
shes being such a bitch to me
"im at patrice's" "so?"
"hey, im going to patrices" "whatever."
shes been such a bitch...
probbaly to show she hates that i told neil how horrible it is living with her.
whatever...im leaving.
maybe ill go to...i dont even know.
maybe ill see if sandy is still at wenders.
hopefully jackie isnt there
i didnt want her to know
btw jackie...
dont read my journal.
tahnks. appreciate it.
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2004 28 June :: 7.07pm
You are a Day Dreamer..
Daydreamers tend to be away from the normal, and
have a deeper aspect when looking at things.
Most of the time, thier outcasts of the social
society, but don't worry. It just means your so
deep it scares thier simple little brains.
What kind of Dreamer are you?
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2004 28 June :: 9.33am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: shower running through pipes over my head
horoscope
Greetings Virgo
Here is your horoscope for the week of June 28 through July 4
Chances for a meeting with someone special are there for you on Monday, when the Sun trines Uranus. If you have been feeling left out, and drowning in all the social responsibilities you have, then it is time to remedy the situation. You need some excitement and a chance to freak out once in a while. Being so perfect just isn't possible all the time. Venus in your house of career turns direct on Tuesday. Now you can make progress, and use your charm to help the process go even more smoothly.
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2004 28 June :: 12.59am
:: Music: the silent man
pretty lame day
ok so heres my real entry about the day...woke up really late. showered, painted my nails, spencer came over, we ate, called people, went to the park, got ice cream, went to wenders, went home 30 minutes late, and didnt get in trouble...yet. yeah thats all that happened. or so i think. tomorrow will be much more exciting i expect.
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2004 28 June :: 12.36am
:: Mood: contemplative
800|< q|_|1z and middle of the night ramblings
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I'm bored and a wee bit tired.
Tomorrow I'm going to wake up at 10 or 11, take a shower, get dressed and walk. I don't know where to yet. I'll figure it out in the morning. I'll probably walk up to Kyle's and Ben's and Jackie's sometime if I wrap her present.
Or else I'll just walk.
I like walking. It gets you thinking and looking and wondering. And appreciating.
I think I'll go hug a tree.
I might walk up that path but go the other way, the way I haven't gone yet.
Hm. Sounds like an adventure.
Who's up for some exploring? I'll probably be up there by noon.
I like adventuring.
I love you all.
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2004 28 June :: 12.03am
:: Mood: hurt
:: Music: Morning View
funny...i havent felt this hurt in a long time...
i guess its because he hasnt called
and because he was at jackies all day...
even funnier, there were no other cars there...
i want to cry
but it hurts too much.
i dont wnat you guys to say "im sorry" and all that...
::shrugs::
i appreciate your concern, but i dont wanna feel like this is all for pity...
because i stayed quiet in the car for a long time about it.
i think sandy and patrice knew how upset i was tho.
i didnt even cry during the notebook.
it was a good movie tho...
you should see it.
bring the tissue box.
by the end sandy was sobbing so loud...
lol
im soo happy patrice is back!!!!!
i missed her.
i like hanging out with her and sandy...
they are mucho divertido...the use of spanish was purposeful...divertido
yes.
jackie is whiningabout her ankle
its twisted.
la de fuckin da.
oh look shes on!
sweet dreams all.
g'night.
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2004 27 June :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: "U.G.L.Y"-Daphne & celeste ( god this song brins back memories from guard >.>)
well...
today was so/so....i wake at oh, around 2-ish? and i went to wal-mart...oh the fun...we get back from there, and my sister says shes getting a python...which she'll probably kill, so yeah, it wont last long...
my mom comes up to me today and says "ya know what, im gonna get you a car, because i feel your worth it" im like "yes!!!!!!".....but yeah, it kinda sucks though, cause i cant drive yet >.> so it wont be til like..oh 2 years til i can drive it? but hey, im happy about it ^_^....
around like 4-ish my friend tells me he's gonan go see a movie, he said he is gonna see stepford wives, and yeah, i was gonna go do that with him...but, i go and ask my mom shes like "no you cant, because its the oly day rogers off from work this week" i was like "mom, its only like a half an hour drive to the theater...whats the problem?" shes like "no, sorry, but i dont wanna do it"....*sigh*...well....i guess i cant always get what i want...but yeah, it was worth a shot..
me and mojo we're lookin for fruits basket backrounds today for our journals, i finalyl found onw i liked...whatcha think of it? mojo got a nice one too ^___^;;;;;;;;;;
well yeah, i think im gonan stop now, before i get too far into this whole updating-ness
bye byes, and i luv ya all ^___^
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2004 27 June :: 10.06pm
:: Music: Sweet and Tender Hooligan by The Smiths
I was bored before I even began
I love playing a new CD for the first time. I love that feeling. All the songs sound different, even if they aren't. And they all sound new even if you've already heard them a thousand times.
DON'T BLAME
The sweet and tender hooligan, hooligan
Because he'll never, never, never, never, never, never do it again
(not until the next time)
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2004 27 June :: 8.13pm
:: Mood: cheerful
...home where I wanted to go
I'm home!
I can't do anything today because we just got home and stuff.
Tomorrow I'll wake up earlyish and call people and actually maybe leave the house.
Wow. I can't believe it.
Plane ride was fine. We had to wake up at literally the crack of dawn this morning and flew out of Portland to Detroit then to GR.
Rock.
We got kites in Oregon because the people we were with were big kite/outdoorsy/do stuff people.
So if anyone wants to be a loser and go fly kites with me, just call on a moderately windy day. Hannah says ERMS would be a good spot.
I'm so happy to be home, you have no idea.
I was thinking and I sort of sound like a record a lot so I apologize.
I love you all very very much.
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i am starving grr neil for not having vegetarian food...im sooooooo hungry. houmph (thats the sound of me eating) Neils party was fun. but i was so mad at spencer for playing video games all day...(thats what he wants me to say, im not really mad) so im eating now. yeah. i think im tired. i dont think i have anything else to say either...OMG! YES I DO!!! so corey told me today that im directing a one act! (sweetness) and Wender is going to write me one, and Sandy Kim if shes not Sming for Dracula, is going to be my stage manager!!!!! it is so amazingly sweet!!! i am excited
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2004 27 June :: 12.51am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: the fierce beating of my heart
fucking boys!
so neils party was today...and it was fun...until the guys started to play video games...
for like four straight hours~same spots, same game...same shit!
so...obviously not able to join the girls relocated...soon to be overtaken by more videogame whores (like gaz from Invader Zim)...jackie, hul and benton...they wanted to race...so we left...actually....i left. people were playing guitar...cant do that...and on the computer...can do that at home...flirting (when they arent supposed to) ....and what else? video gaming. i dont think patrice had very much fun near the end either...she askeed me to go for a walk...
what pissed me off too, is that melanie...remember...dangerous girl from a few months ago...gave him boxers...
i thought it was weird for girlfriends to give guys boxers...but she did...
then...after five hours or so of not talking to me...and after i had left several times to drop people off or just plain leave...he noticed i was gone...probably only cuz goli or melanie asked where i was.
so when i went back...still playing...still fucking playing...
"neil, i'm leaving"
and melanie asked for a ride...
and neil asked for a hug...
what the fuck!?!
yea...thats right...wtf!
after all that not-spending-time with anyone thing...you want a fucking hug?
so i took her home...she forgot her purse...may i allow myself to state that my fucking gas light is on!??!
so i take her back to neils...she gets the purse...and i take her home...
i get home
"i dont wanna go home..."
i go back to neils...im gonna tell him im mad.
i go in.
he comes out with me.
"you realise you didnt spend any time but a whole ten minutes with me?" (yea, of nine hours...wonderful boyfriend) "cuz you were playing video games....i tried to get you outside and i tried to get your attention cuz im bored as fuck" (goli and i carried him outside to play wrestle but low and behold...he went to play games, complaining about how he was winning....fucker)
"you're mad at me for trying to have fun?
"whatever...bye."
no hug for the noo noo...
no kiss for the noo noo...:-D
i realise its sorta dumb...but being a host to the party, you cant just forget half you guests.
whatever...::Sigh::
its wonderful the mother isnt home...free reign.
no gas tho...anyone know where a citgo is around here? its the only card i have.
adios!
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