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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 1 January :: 4.43pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: radio

horoscope
Greetings Virgo
Here is your horoscope for the week of December 29 through January 4


Your desire to mix with those who may be able to help you in the future may be particularly powerful. It would help you to be a little more patient and not quite so pushy at this time. You have what it takes to achieve the goals you have long desired. Venus conjuncts Neptune, and Cupid could be on patrol, so be warned. Mercury, your ruling planet, continues to be retrograde, and this may be causing you some frustration. Stay calm and know that you are meant to try and relax at this time.


wonder if its a sign.

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 1 January :: 3.04pm
:: Mood: morose
:: Music: one oh two point three XLC

simpson's monopoly
im not really in that mood...i liked the sound of the word...but i dont know what to do with myself. i want to go places but no where is open cuz everyone was out late last night getting drunk/high and probably all have awful hangovers. neils still at spencer's and jen's in chicago. i havent even tried sandy yet...but i still odnt wanna get dressed. there isnt a point. so i tried making beads...but it was an ugly pattern and i got bored really fast. i have to say, last night sucked. it was the worst new year's i think i've had. it even beat the badness of last year, which i spent babysitting kids i didnt even know. monopoly was fun, i wanted to keep playing but kyle and spencer started getting restless and no one was paying attention and shit...so it ended. all the other girls were calling each other on their phones, so am glad i wasnt over there cuz i dont have a phone and would be like woo fun... the guys missed the ball drop an d all that...they were getting sparkling grape juice stuff...that tasted strangely like sparkling wine...fermented would you say? its been awhile since ive written; hope you guys dont mind if i dont go back and read all your entries...i wouldnt know whats going on, cept for sandy, cuz i talked to her recently. my dad was sick this morning and it was strange to come down and see him sleeping on the couch with the tv on. i watched barbie of swan lake the other night and it actually wasnt all that bad. it was to the music of tchaikovsky and the little elves, played by the little kelly and the little boy character dolls, had the funniest accents and i liked them. yup. :) okie i think thats all thats remotely interesting

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 1 January :: 12.32pm

This is the true definition of Rockford
I yoinked this off of someone's livejournal. She was having an debate with some netspeaking annoying kid and I found this part particularily interesting.



Idiot: y do u have 2 make fun of how i talk? u dont no me
Idiot: u think ur beter then me cuz u talk all fency
Idiot: ur not beter then me
Idiot: u dont no wut its like 2 grow up in da hood
Me: No, I don't. But I'd be willing to venture that you don't, either.
Idiot: shut yo mouth bitch
Idiot: my parents only got 2 cars
Idiot: were the porest peeps in our street
Me: LMFAO
Me: Ohhh. It's a tragedy. Only two cars? I probably don't want to know, but what kind of cars?
Idiot: 1 is a beetle the other 1 is a bmw
Me: Indeed, you suffer more injustices than I knew existed.



Please tell me these people don't actually exist. Please tell me she's making it all up. Please tell me people aren't that stupid.

[edit 1:07]
Idon't want to start another stupid debate with one of my stupid updates but I thought this was witty. I understand the whole anti-gay marriage view from a religious standpoint but there was this "pro-family" site with a survey on it. The survey was about gay marriages and stuffs like that. Of course, it made me mad. I was obviously not the only one confused by the title. This is taken from comments to the same girl's journal.



SomeguyIdon'tknow1: What does "pro-family" mean anyway?


SomeguyIdon'tknow2: It's a misprint. It's meant to say "Pro-White, Heterosexual Family"


SomeguyIdon'tknow3: Er... pro-family?

Ah.

Because as you well know, there's nothing more anti-family than, like, marriage.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 1 January :: 11.45am

She's not weird.

She's normality-challenged.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2004 1 January :: 12.06am

Well

Happy New Year.

I love this episode of Twilight Zone.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 31 December :: 7.30pm

Random Quotes
I say that democracy can never prove itself beyond cavil, until it founds and luxuriantly grows its own forms of art, poems, schools, theology, displacing all that exists, or that has been produced anywhere in the past, under opposite influences.

I no doubt deserved my enemies, but I don't believe I deserved my friends.

What is that you express in your eyes? It seems to me more than all the words I have read in my life.

Have you heard that it was good to gain the day? I also say it is good to fall, battles are lost in the same spirit in which they are won.

I cannot be awake for nothing looks to me as it did before. Or else I am awake for the first time, and all before has been a mean sleep.

I have learned that to be with those I like is enough.

If you done it, it ain't bragging.

Let that which stood in front go behind, let that which was behind advance to the front, let bigots, fools, unclean persons, offer new propositions, let the old propositions be postponed.

Now I see the secret of making the best person: it is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth.

The dirtiest book of all is the expurgated book.

The genius of the United States is not best or most in its executives or legislatures, nor in its ambassadors or authors or colleges, or churches, or parlors, nor even in its newspapers or inventors, but always most in the common people.

Whatever satisfies the soul is truth.

When I give I give myself.

Wisdom is not finally tested in the schools, Wisdom cannot be pass'd from one having it to another not having it, Wisdom is of the soul, is not susceptible of proof, is its own proof.

In America the young are always ready to give to those who are older than themselves the full benefits of their inexperience.

Stranger, if you passing meet me and desire to speak to me, why should you not speak to me? And why should I not speak to you?

I know a way to end war forever. There has to be one war in which everyone fights.


Can you tell I like Walt Whitman?


Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity.


[edit 9:18] My journal is back to blah. I'll change the colors and stuff maybe later. Greatest journal wouldn't host the pictures I wanted and it got pissy. So it's just boring and black. For now.

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Lavitz1985

:: 2003 31 December :: 7.16pm

**Insert nasty bloodcurtling screams and sound of blood spattering the walls**

There, I feel better.


Angel_Bob

:: 2003 31 December :: 5.45pm

Hannah's going over to her friend's house and my parents are going out with the party friends.

So it's just me and Buddy tonight.

That means I could probably bzoink a few more girls and watch Ghost in the Shell.

Joy.

Hope you all have a fun and happy New Year's Eve.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 31 December :: 2.35pm

Note to self
Since I'm on the laptop, I'll just put this link here to remember it.

Beautiful site, beautiful wallpapers

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 31 December :: 11.51am

I've been waking up at 11 for the past couple of days so I don't get used to sleeping in.

I couldn't fall asleep until 2:30.

I'm watching Columbo. The guy who did it is an ex-Nazi.

I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 31 December :: 12.38am

Randomosity...I'm going to bed
One day
You'll have to let it go
You'll have to let it go
One day
You'll stand up on your own
You'll stand up on your own
Remember losing hope
Remember feeling low
Remember all the feelings and the day they stopped


Hold your head high
Don’t look down
I’m by your side
I won't back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well I’m not made of steel
But your secret’s safe with me

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 30 December :: 10.14pm

Short summary
I went to Ben's today.

We're leaving on Friday, not tomorrow.

Joyous.

I love you all very much.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 30 December :: 12.37pm

Rumor has it we're leaving tomorrow for Ohio. Hannah says my father is contemplating staying down there until Sunday.

So this is it. My last day of freedom in Michigan.

And I can't go anywhere because my mom's car is in the shop.

Bah.

I love you all. I hope you're doing okay and that your life is looking up.



[edit 12:49] But if people want to come over....

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 29 December :: 11.45pm

This reinforces my belief that Christmas really sucks
My uncle David died.

He and his family always go to Florida after Christmas. He's a teacher so he came back early and went to the school. They (I don't know who they are) were in the gym and he just... collapsed.

They took him to the hospital and they couldn't do anything to save him.

No one knows how he died. My uncle Mike called and told my mom. He said that the contact at the school was the superintendent who is my aunt Joan's (his wife) sister's brother-in-law or something. So he's the only one who knows how he died.

He has a wife and two kids. The girl is a little older than I am and the boy just graduated from high school.

I hate this time of year.

We'll probably be going down to Ohio for the funeral. It should be in a few days. I think New Year's Day but we'll see.

Smurfing...

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 29 December :: 12.17pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: I Don't Like Mondays by Tori Amos

And he can see no reason/cuz there are no reasons/what reason do you need to die
Tell me why
I don't like Mondays
Tell me why
I don't like Mondays
I don't like
I don't like
I don't like Mondays
Tell me why
I don't like Mondays
I want to shoot
The whole day down
Shoot it all down

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 29 December :: 12.14am

Mark your calendars, January is approaching
I am sixteen going on seventeen
I know that I'm naive
Fellows I meet may tell me I'm sweet
And willingly I believe
I am sixteen going on seventeen
Innocent as a rose
Bachelor dandies, drinkers of brandies
What do I know of those?




Yes. My birthday is coming up. This is the first warning of three.

My plan this year is to tell everyone that my birthday is coming only thrice. That way, it won't be such a big deal and the only people who will remember will be those that... uh... remember.

It made sense in my head.

So here's the first warning: My birthday is on January 28th. Remember it.

If you don't, I won't care. If you do, I'll care a little more.

The next warning will probably be pretty soon after this. A couple weeks into January at least.

Oh and Katie's birthday is the 22nd.

Only if you mention that my birthday is coming up or ask me about it will I mention it other than the three times I have alotted myself.

Ha. Guess what else is coming up? On the 11th it'll be one year since I joined Woohu. w00tchu!

Now I have to put this in all my other journals. w00t!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 28 December :: 10.39pm

Ben's home.

Yay.

*does the Ben's home but I haven't seen him yet only talked to him on the phone that's why I got offline so quickly dance*

That's a long name for a dance.

w00t.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 28 December :: 7.35pm

Take all you can find in me.



My day sux0r3d with a capital s.

I played DDR. I went online. And I think I ate.

Maybe.

Oh and I woke up early. Early and ready to go for a day full of nothing.

sux0rz

I hope everyone is doing okay. I love you all.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 28 December :: 1.48pm

Everyday is like Sunday
Everyday is silent and grey




Fwah. My arm hurts. Nothing else of import to report.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 27 December :: 6.56pm

I am mad.

Greatestjournal won't lemme upload this one picture of mine. Villagephotos hates me so it only shows up half them time when I put it there so I want to move it to my pictures over on greatestjournal.

But no.

Erg.

On a way more awesome note: I am so cool.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 26 December :: 2.31pm

Today is December 26, the whole reason I hate Christmas.

In 1999, my aunt Patty was diagnoised with breast cancer.

Her son, Tyler, is about six months younger than I am. Patty divorced her husband a long time ago (I don't remember them ever being married) so she raised Tyler on her own.

My mom knew Patty was getting worse so she was going to go see her. Her flight left at five o clock on December 26, 1999.

At a little after 5, my uncle Mike called. He said that Aunt Patty died at five o clock.

She loved Christmas and I think that's the only thing that kept her alive for that long.

Tyler lives with his father in North Carolina now.

That's why I hate Christmas.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 25 December :: 5.04pm

Heh





Believe?

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 25 December :: 7.30am
:: Music: Strong Bad's CD w00t!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

There's snow on the ground! Not a lot but I told you we'd get snow!

I think it'd suck to not have a white Christmas. I'd cry.

Happy Christmas, everybody! I'd like to take this materialistic time to list all of the wonderous crud I gots!


a crappy plasticy costume trenchcoat (it squeaks!) and the sunglasses that came with it (they're kinda cool except I've got glasses so...)

DDR MAX and DDR MAX2 (w00tchu)

FFX-2 (which I think I'll actually play maybe)

Halo (who's gonna be having Halo parties now? we are!)

Strong Bad Sings and other type hits (I love it. Let's get started on doing all those awesome things I suggested ;p)

Socialburn's CD (I love Socialburn!)

Kundun (I love that movie)

Metropolis (YAY! I love that movie too! It's anime and the music is all swing and 50's so it's awesome)

A wood hanging thing with the kanji for kindness (it looks like i for easel and ni for uh two)

Tons of thinkgeek shirts (I mean a lot, seriously)

I'm dancing like a monkey t-shirt with Invader Zim and GIR on it (I love GIR)

Monkey PJs (I got angel pjs from me dad last night. He always gives us pjs)


With all the video games Buddy got I'll have to fight to improve my DDR skillz. With the Nancy Drew game Hannah got, I'll never get on the computer. Yay!

I hope you all have a nice and safe Christmas and rest of the break.


I love you all very much.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 24 December :: 8.41pm

HAPPY CHRISTMAS

I'm bored and I have nothing to do.

I might go eat but first y'all will get BZOINKED!

Read more..

Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you
The one you love, not the person that'll simply have sex with you
Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then beyond
'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's gone

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 24 December :: 1.12pm

Merry Kurisumasu eve!

I hope you're all okay and safe wherever you may be.

I love you all very much.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 23 December :: 3.28pm

Almost done shopping and some complaints
Today I met one of my dad's friends that got fired when Meijer was laying off all those people.

He reminded me of Andy. He knew exactly what he wanted to do and he did it. He had everything planned out and kept saying that by January this would be done and in February he'd do this.

It was awesome. It was like someone had read my mind when I was contemplating The Great Gatsby and the American Dream. That someone decided to shove someone who was Great Gatsby himself right in front of me.

I made a few typos in my earlier entry and I'm sure that I'm making some now so I apologize.

I need a back and neck massage. Ug. I haven't been sleeping comfy lately and it's killing my back and my neck. I just want to lie around and not do a thing.

But I still have to get me mum a present.

I hate Christmas.

And this laptop is pushing on my bladder again. I love the sound the keys make.

These tags on my tank top and my sweater are driving me insane.

"A pop-up book of flowers from grade 4
are driving her insane"

Sorry. I'm still hyper.

(I think that girl on the Hummer commercial is a guy)

Um. I'm gonna eat and relax before finishing up my shopping.

Oh I have a few phrases that sound like funny band names. I can only remember one: The Flaming Booty Moths. I like it. Oh, I found the list of all of them. Some of them are pretty good but I think Flaming Booty Moths is the best. Smurf yeah!

Okay. So I'm gonna go.

See y'all at God Squad.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 23 December :: 11.02am
:: Mood: awake

Take me out...tonight
I'm finishing up my Christmas shopping today.

I just woke up so I'm sort of out of it.

I had some weird dreams but all I can remember is running around like a maniac because I had a fly on me and it was making that annoying fly droning noise. And Katie and I were going to go tubing because it had snowed a lot.

*glances outside* I wish at least that part could've been true.

Oh and my dad had gotten an ugly couch with a foot massage thing at the end that only massage one foot at a time.

And it kept getting interrupted by commercials. My dream, that is.

There was one for a toilet that, after it was used, spun around in circles in this big skating halfpipe getting cleaned. It didn't even look like a toilet.


Then I woke up with this song stuck in my head:

Good times for a change
See the luck I've had
Can make a good man
Turn bad

So please please please
Let me let me let me
Let me get what I want
This time

Haven't had a dream in a long time
See the life I've had
Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life
Let me get what I want
Lord knows, it would be the first time
Lord knows, it would be the first time

Right. I'm going to go eat then get dressed and go so I can finish shopping as quickly as possible.

God Squad tonight. Don't forget your presents.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 22 December :: 11.47pm

I love the French but really now.

There was a better article in the paper today about it and the protests going on.

Some people.

I cussed out some girl earlier and I apologize. It was mean of me.

I also thought mean things about someone. I'm sorry.

I also called this someone a "fucktard" and said I'd like to "kick him in the beanbag"

I apologize.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 22 December :: 6.53pm

Today is the only Monday, December 22, 2003 that will ever exist.

Right there, that was the only time I'd ever type that at that moment.

This is the only time I'll sit here listening to The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot over and over at 6:55 pm on Monday, December 22, 2003.

This is the only time at 6:56 pm on Monday, December 22, 2003 that I'll wonder if I should pass on the cross Nick passed on to me.

Holy smurfing wow.

I need to hug somebody.

Someone get over here before my own mortality catches up to me.

I can't say it enough...

I love you all so much.

At that was the only time I'd be able to type it on the only Monday, December 22, 2003 at 6:58 pm.

My point?

Today is all you have because tomorrow never comes.

Today is the only day you'll be able to say that it's Monday, December 22, 2003 without lying. This moment is the only time you'll be able to say it's 6:59 pm on Monday, December 22, 2003 without lying.

And it's not even 6:59 pm anymore. That was the only 6:59 pm on Monday, December 22, 2003.

Wow.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2003 22 December :: 12.20pm

Dr. Hobo, I love you


He can dance!! WOOO!

I really need a life.

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