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2005 28 September :: 9.40am
i have loads to do...but am posting my idea for my project so that i dont forget and i dont have to pull out a pencil. i dont know how im going to go about it though. i dont know photoshop well enough to pull it off, and i couldnt draw it in one night i dont think.
so we read "The House on Mango Street" and we've been focusing on identity. so my idea is that identity is like your shopping cart and the world is the store. so what i want to do is draw a little girl shopping and along the aisle is a row of buildings that will be mango street, and a side display of hobo...some shoes can be on the shelf and poster of Sally hanging because i love her description. two boys must be shopping in the next aisle because carlos and kiki are in a different, male world. She can have some things in the cart, such as a a bike with two girls playing around it, and meme with his two dogs...nenny should be in the aisle as a source of frustration for esperanza because she has to care for her, and she's immature, so maybe pulling things off the walls happily. That type of behaviour is common for young children, which goes along with how Nenny tries to keep things ordinary, while Experanza tries to change the behaviour, becomes like everyone else pretending there's a chance out of mango street. so that will be the main focus. there will be a looming man that will represent her sexuality. because she sees men as people who take advantage when they can, like with the hobo with the shoes. All the men in the novel have more power than the women, and hold things over them like a treat for a dog. maybe the looming man can be a creepy sales associate rather than a hobo at the end of an aisle.
i dont know...please tell me if you have any suggestions...thanks.
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2005 28 September :: 1.52am
To Nick, in response:
I love you too, babycakes.
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2005 27 October :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: calm
HP Trailer and a Busy Week
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Trailer
am super excited...the trailer makes me go... :O...so great...
and miranda richardson in her perfect role...rita skeeter...yay for her britishness
she always plays that person who you think is on the protaganists side, but then you realise she's not only on the bad guy's side, but usually behind the bad guy's tactics...perfect female manipulation, heheh
i nearly missed school again today...which is bad because i always miss tuesdays and thursdays, which happen to be the same class. i got up twenty minutes late, but of course, after eight o'clock, the trains only come every hour or so...so i had to drive...and then got there a half hour late...but the class is only 80 minutes in the first place...but its cheaper to park there...if i could just get there on time.
we have to do a project on mango street...anything we want based off of any question we pick off the forum...with a two page statement...due thursday...also, i have to read part of a midsummer nights dream...no big deal...plus learn some more japanese oh shit i have to get money for my book!
i have so much to do...likei have to fill out some financial aid form with my dad and help him at the shop tmro...but also babysit at seven...so maybe ill go back to the shop thursday while eveyrone else is at school...
thats sad...that means i cant hang out at all tmro.
that means not getting my brain cleared from this justin thing...although, in a strange way, my head is settled about it...just like...i feel its necessary to persist...i think that ive accepted what fatty told me...but i need to hear it from justin, which i have a feeling is actually going to end up causing more problems.
i havent seen patrice in a while and sandy even longer... it makes me sad...so as soon as i get a free moment, ama call them both.
i figured out that the more stressed i am, the more i wnat to clean...i was mad that i had to go to class today and work and help my dad because i wanted to clean my car and room. that's weird for me.
okie ama go get milk and then go to bed.
g'night
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2005 27 September :: 4.59pm
Chickened out on driving. Will most definitely drive tomorrow though.
Love you all. Thanks for the support.
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2005 26 September :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: stressed
I drive myself to school tomorrow.
I've never driven by myself before.
I'm scared.
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2005 26 September :: 7.13pm
boring survey, only read if your bored
These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would ever think to ask. Answer them, then REPOST the bulletin:
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? : my hair...is it so messy that i am forced to fix it or can i just leave it and get away with it?
2. How much cash do you have on you? : $20
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": Pest
4. Favorite planet?: Pluto
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your MOBILE phone? : Mom
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: Your Body is a wonderland
7. What shirt are you wearing?: Black hooded sweater
8. Do you "label" yourself?: Band Dork, Theatre Freak, Loser...yes
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?: im wearing striped socks. but normally i wear payless shoes i dont know what brand cuz it wore off because there the greatest shoes ever and i wear them almost everyday!
10. Bright or Dark Room? which do i prefer or which do i have? i have purple elephants on my walls covered up by many show posters, props, and picture frames with cool people in them. oh and an awesome cymbal :) so its technicolor...
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?: Keister Rocks!
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: im not totally sure on that one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?: eating truffles
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?: today was a long day
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: no, theyre annoying
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: thats cute
17. Who told you they loved you last: Matt
18. Last furry thing you touched?: K.C.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? just Levoxyl and thats perscription
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? like 4 and i got a digital camera 3 years ago so i dont even know whats on them
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy?: school
23. What is your current desktop picture?: Mexico...blue water blue sky, palm trees and white sand. its pretty, i just changed it today
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?: I got excited when my mom brought me my pills. i think i said yay! thank you! (exciting right?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: million bucks...the things i regret i have learned to put past me and get over...so in okay right now
26. Do you love / like someone?: Yes! :)
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2005 25 September :: 8.06pm
What words get bleeped out on the radio? I'm looking for songs to play tomorrow and I'm wondering if I can play songs with "damn" or "bastard" in them.
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2005 25 October :: 4.33pm
i'm beginning my x-mas list...despite how early it is.
$231 to refill my bank account...woo...
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2005 25 September :: 5.50pm
Uber-Christian people creep me out.
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2005 25 October :: 12.17pm
in seven and nip/tuck, they use bach's air from orchestral suite number 3 for scenes...in seven, when he's in the library, searching about the juwes, which is a code for the the seven deadly sins...its a movie in which people are killed and tortured quite viciously...and in nip/tuck, when they do a face lift on one of the surgeons mother in law.
Bach's tocatta and fugue in D is used in Dark Castle, a 1986-7 mac computer game that involves navigating your way through the mazes of the castle, within which there are bats, rats and soldiers whipping those who have done badly.
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2005 25 October :: 10.57am
:: Mood: confused
what's wrong with me. i should be more feeling than this...are people not sad when things dont go their way? when they cant have waht they want?
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2005 25 October :: 12.20am
:: Mood: morose
The tears I might have shed for your dark fate
Turn cold and turn to tears of hate.
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2005 22 October :: 9.22am
today, i really wanted to go to school. i left the house on time, but worried that i wasnt. i got down the street and realised i had absolutly no money. so i went back and grabbed a bag of quarters with about four dollars in it. i figured that'd be fine and i'd get money from the atm at the station for a ticket home (i only have one ride left on my ticket). But i got there and realised that i had no wallet, and in fact, i still have no idea where it went. i could have driven, but one dollar for a toll and six for parking...six that i didnt have.
so i came home, just like last thursday. but i made hte train on time. it's really frustrating because its mostly an online course, but my dad got mad at me last time something like this happened.
tomorrow i have to get my japanese textbook, because barnes and noble didnt order the right thing. i failed my quiz though, which is really pathetic. i just cannot memorize the symbols in hiragana. Considering im doing so badly at that, im not looking forward to having to learn katakana too. its hard because there is no latin logic behind it, which is why other languages are easier for me.
so thats my day so far and its not even ten o clock yet.
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2005 21 September :: 1.31pm
Nintendo revolution
Don't know if any of you all have seen this (or care) but I think it's totally awesome.
It's shaped like a remote and the analog stick just plugs into it on its own cord extention. It looks very interesting. And, especially, fun to use and play.
I love you all.
P.S. Here is a close-up. Kinda sexy.
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2005 20 September :: 6.02pm
Haircut
I am so bipolar. This morning I hated my haircut but now, I love it.
PIC-A-TOURS!
Read more..
That is my haircut. For now, I like it. It's cute. My janitor friend, Jose, said it made me look older and taller. My French teacher said it was very flattering and everyone else said: "I love your haircut."
But, seriously, who would admit that they hated it? Or that it was ugly?
Anyway.
I love you all.
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2005 20 October :: 12.36am
updated pictures. see previous entry for link.
so i went to arizona and i really wont say much cuz it wasnt that amazing...but twas fun.
went to my first party on friday...but didnt drink, no worries...i havent dropped my morals.
it presented me with an interesting question. why do people do so if they address the choice to not drink with such positiveness?
perhaps they feel it rids them of their stress because thinking further into it made me notice that responsibility and drinking are on opposite sides of a scale. those with loads of responsibility (hmwk, cleanliness, job) tend to feel that its ok with more vigor, versus those like me, who dont hold those things as high, hold that choice above opportunity. tell me if you agree or disagree...am a little theorist lol.
i should go to bed because i have school tmro...but its only 10:45 in AZ and am used to going to bed at 2:30am there.
in other news, jill asked why i hadnt been talking to her and i told her honestly. i dont feel bad because she asked and i feel i handled it maturely (with patrice to back it up), despite some bitchy, cold-heartedness, but i almost think it's expected.
"Unabashed honesty
would be ideal,
but a prophet did once say
that honesty's a lonely word."
~Have You Ever; Incubus
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2005 19 September :: 9.31pm
I got a haircut today.
I don't know if I like it.
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2005 19 September :: 12.47am
I wasn't saying, Kyle, that people who drink are anything less than people. My parents drink and, before they were married, my father drank quite a bit. I'm so sorry that I'm upset that the people I care a ton about are making stupid decisions.
And I'm especially sorry that you think I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm sorry that you think I don't care. I thought that by now, you'd know me better than that. I'm sorry that you weren't there to see me when I found out that Ben spent the weekend at his brother's drinking and getting drunk. I'm sorry that you didn't see how much I worried about him and still do worry about him. I'm sorry you don't see me pray every night that he, Jackie, Kelly and everyone at college or elsewhere will be okay.
Amanda's cousin died of alcohol poisoning.
I'm sorry that you don't see how important this subject is to me.
And I'm sorry that you don't see how important everyone is to me.
I apologize that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to everyone growing up and experiencing adulthood but I am. There's been a lot of stuff lately that has made me have to grow up and it's too bad that you aren't here to see it and that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you.
Yes, people with make dumb decisions. I accept that. I can suck it up.
I can care about them. And I do.
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2005 19 September :: 12.29am
List
Didn't write my paper for I&E. Have to meet with prof tomorrow for 20 mins to talk about said paper and previous paper. Whoops. Might be a short meeting.
Start radio show tomorrow. Nervous as hell.
I love you all.
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2005 17 September :: 2.30pm
So we are getting the car. I just don't know when. I probably won't be able to drive it until I get a job and insurance but still: YAY!
Apparently, a Geo Prizm is just like a Toyota Corolla.
Then I'll get to do all those cool car things that I've been planning on doing (visiting Katie and Kelly, driving to school, visiting the houses I used to live in etc).
I love you all.
P.S. Leo is the cutest dog ever. He tries to usurp McHenry, it's funny.
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2005 16 September :: 11.22pm
I had a job interview yesterday and today my mom said she found me a car.
It's a '90 Geo Prizm (maybe?) and I hope I get to drive it before we actually get it. If we do.
And I hope I get the job because I need it.
I love you all.
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2005 15 September :: 7.19pm
I'm really tired of people getting involved in my life. They need to stop. Now. I didn't ask you to talk about me, I didn't ask you to throw in your two cents. Tank jew, go teh fuk awayuh.
Don't pretend you know me, you don't. My business is not your business, your business is not my business. I do not protrude into your zone of life, you shall not protrude into mine.
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2005 15 September :: 11.27am
Speaker after speaker at the Nuclear Energy Institute's Nuclear Energy Assembly, held on 16-18 May in Washington DC, weighed in with variations on a single theme: over the next 20 to 50 years, nuclear power is one of the few options, if not the only option, capable of providing reliable baseload electricity to meet increasing global demand without exacerbating global warming.
Of course the NUCLEAR ENERGY INSTITUTE is going to say that nuclear energy is the only way to go! It's stupid to say otherwise. It'd be like a vegetarian restaurant offerring meat alternatives or a mosque having Christian services on Sundays.
To Bodman, the way forward was clear: "We need to develop new sources of energy to reduce our dependence on fossil fuels, and help protect the environment." These new energy sources and new technologies include hydrogen fuel cells to power vehicles, more effective ways to produce wind and solar power, techniques for removing pollutants and green-house emissions from coal, and improved fuel efficiency. However, "there is one technology already in place that can reliably generate large amounts of electricity with no dependence on fossil fuels, no pollution, and no greenhouse emissions. That technology is nuclear power."
Yes. Great idea. Until we have a nuclear meltdown and there is no environment to protect. That's not even going into the nuclear waste that's going to be left behind. What ever happened to hydroelectric plants? All nuclear plants do is make water into steam anyway, right? So why not skip the nuclear part?
I'm rambling. This is just to waste time before lunch.
P.S. "Nuclear power should instead be among our foremost options for ensuring that we have safe, secure, affordable, and environmentally responsible supplies of energy."
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2005 15 September :: 12.31am
i have a photo bucket.
the pics from the carnival are on there...they're under attempts...for my lame attempts at photography...look at the one titled Toy Gore...its almost as if they meant for it to read that subliminally...
have fun woo! good day.
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2005 14 September :: 8.37pm
:: Music: Incubus - Drive
Alright, I'll go bench by myself. Hope someone hates themself if I choke to death because I didn't have a spotter. Ass.
Maybe I'll call Ryan.
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2005 14 September :: 9.20am
:: Mood: calm
you know how everything is so stressful and then all of a sudden, everything's alright and calm. thats now starting yesterday. just everything...i think i realised that there is nothing to worry about. am in school, i have a schedule that i know how it works, am hanging out with people, justin issues are not pressing, and i've been doing stuff i want to do like take pictures and look at art. strangely, like always, its the opposite for everyone else. so sorry for anyone who has loads to do. ill read something for you. :)
that's really all. good day.
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2005 13 September :: 7.42pm
We got a puppy today! He's a pomeranian and has three feet and four legs. He is the cutest thing on the face of the earth. He's so small! For now, his name is Leo but that might change.
I'll post pictures later!
In other news, Switchfoot will be touring with Eisley! ZOMG! We have to go. I don't have any money but we have to.
10/27/2005 - Chicago, IL
Vic Theatre
10/28/2005 - Detroit, MI
Majestic Theatre
10/29/2005 - Cleveland, OH
House of Blues
I love you all.
P.S. Leo was on my lap and kept giving me puppy kisses and laying his head on my arm.
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2005 11 September :: 10.16pm
Starting next Tuesday from 10am to noon, I will be a DJ on WAQU (1590 - The Squirrel), Aquinas' radio station.
You can stream it off the interweb (whenever they set it up) here.
I love you all.
P.S. My dad is downstairs watching Wizard of Oz and listening to Dark Side of the Moon.
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