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2005 6 June :: 9.11am
just wanted to annotate the new boy intrest.
of course, like the others, i dont believe its going anywhere.
kristen disagrees.
stunkel decided he's celery, because of peanut butter.
how ridiculous.
some people are furious at stunkel but hes just a kid, i dont know how people dont understand. havent they heard him make up stories? he lives in his world where things are his way, probably so he doesnt have to face the world. we all do it, but different ways. some people focus on the unimportant and whine about it a lot and others just ignore it and some mope about it and still others rub it in peoples faces that thier lives are worse and some just get frustrated after a while and take it out on someone else.
i dont think i could ever be mad at stunkel. the thing i love the most about him that ive never seen anyone do is that he can be so utterly disappointed in himself and depressed, but he will do his best to make everyone around him smile, whether they're already in a good mood or if they're not doing so well.
i'd hate to compare him to a dog, but its really the easiest because cats dont like people. sometimes he barks a little too much and it makes you say "shotzy, be quiet, mummy's doing her tai chi"(see that 70's show), but he plays with you an has endless energy and is a companion and through your blurry vision, you catch a glimpse of his tongue as a warning to close your eyes when you're sad. and he just makes you feel like at least someone cares.
i wish everyone could see that in him. but some people dont see much good in anyone.
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angel_bob
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2005 6 June :: 12.30am
Yeah, so we all smurfing suck.
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Jaganshi
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2005 5 June :: 12.31pm
Sometimes I wish I had something to talk to people about besides RP... but I guess I should be grateful that nothing is going on. What's that old Chinese curse? "May you live in interesting times."
So, while I may be very boring to the rest of you for a while, I'm content with the lack of excitement for the moment. Nothing much will happen up here this summer... nothing good. So, if I ever throw down a really long entry you'll know that something bad has happened and I've decided to be interesting again.
So. Voila. Another post.
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2005 5 June :: 2.30am
Life's pretty good.
Yeah.
Anyone know if Jessa's had her baby and how she's doing? I know the baby was due on the 30th, I'm kind of nervous about calling some chick I don't know to ask if she's doing okay. But maybe tomorrow I will.
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Jaganshi
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2005 3 June :: 4.26pm
The Slippery-Slope of Same-Sex 'Marriage'
And to balance us out...
Logical Fallacy: Slippery Slope
I'm not trying to start a debate here though one would be fun, I'll not deny. I'm simply passing on an interesting connection. I can't believe the article proclaims its own key flaw so proudly, like a neon sign that says, "LOOK! We don't fully understand logical argument!"
At some point when I'm really really bored I'll go through and find as many of the formalized fallacies as I can in this article. Right now I'm just content to read it and laugh. I feel if even one person is offended by this journal post (either by the article posted or my scornful attitude), I've done my good deed for the day.
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Jaganshi
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2005 3 June :: 12.28pm
Cut tag to preserve you from angsty introspection
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The Angel
I dreamt a dream! What can it mean?
And that I was a maiden Queen
Guarded by an Angel mild:
Witless woe was ne'er beguiled!
And I wept both night and day,
And he wiped my tears away;
And I wept both day and night,
And hid from him my heart's delight.
So he took his wings, and fled;
Then the morn blushed rosy red.
I dried my tears, and armed my fears
With ten-thousand shields and spears.
Soon my Angel came again;
I was armed, he came in vain;
For the time of youth was fled,
And grey hairs were on my head. ~William Blake
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2005 3 June :: 10.20am
Blah Senior assembly was today, and BAcklight Banguet was last night. I didnt cry today or last night, its very suprising. I would have cried last night if the end of the year video was better, but it was all actors, acting and such. So that had no affect on me. In the senior video today there were parts where i was dancing in pep band. And there were a lot of times where i was like hey! i was standing right next to that person but i got cut off. And of course there was the part with me and david from turnabout. And now im in the library because i dont know what to do, and i didnt want to do anything i wanted to just sit in the music department but they wouldnt let anyone sign in so im here. But im alone i dont know where patrice went. Which is why i am tlaking to myself in this wornderful journal entry. so today is the last day of school. and the bell just rang and i dont know what that means, no one is moving. I still have to sit here in severe boredom for much longer. poop.
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2005 2 June :: 12.49pm
you are a..MODERN vampire. you are pretty much in
the middle of good and evil. you dont mind
humans, but you like going along with your
insticts as well. you show your opposite sides
at very different times. you can be kind and
merciful, but suddenly harsh and cold. you
sometimes make a game of it. are you kidding?
are you serious? one wrong step and who knows!
you love tranquill water, going with the flow.
you are pretty nutral
what kind of vampire are you?(hellsing pics)
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2005 2 June :: 3.46am
Why does it get to me so badly. I just don't want to give it up like that. Whenever I get smacked down, I get up and run right back for another ass whooping. I mean, it's almost like I desire the punishment. It's like....I know I felt something, so I want to fight for it, but I keep getting pulled around...and somehow...love it, because I feel that I deserve it.
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2005 1 June :: 9.35pm
I'll be back in Plymouth in a little over a week.
I'm wondering who I'll see. If I'll get to introduce Brian to my arch-nemesis who really isn't as much of a threat as a nemesis ought to be. She certainly shouldn't be my nemesis anymore, but hey. Love fades. The hatred you felt for love's crack dealer will never die.
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2005 29 May :: 1.05pm
I break my temporary silence to announce one thing to the world:
It has been one year since I've seen Caleb, or even heard his voice.
First of many, I hope.
Here we go! Go! Hashiri tzuzukeru...
dare ni mo tomerare wa shinai
mirai no jibun e to give a reason for life todoketai...
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2005 28 May :: 10.54pm
Amo et Odio.
"The ability to let that which truly does not matter slide."
Mmmmm....that song. I don't know why it's so appealing...probably because it mixes my favorite kinds of music into one tune.
Love forever love is free
Turn forever you and me
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2005 27 May :: 7.09pm
Enough! The lot of you!
Why must I constantly be expected to divulge personal information on command to make someone else feel better? I will not be made to feel guilty for the way I choose to live. If I lie, it's because I have a damn good reason. I can't trust you people!
To the bloggers: When you read my posts just to give yourself a grain of hope that maybe you're not the most fucked up person alive, I hope I can offer you that. When you read my posts because you're looking for someone to pity, I hope you die. When you read my posts because you want me to read yours, fuck you. Everyone. Everyone who reads and says nothing, everyone who replies to entries that mean something with silly juvenile bullshit. Everyone who thinks that the worst thing that could happen to a person is people might not like you. People might not accept you. People might think you're a whiny little bitch who has nothing to say except mindless appeals for pity.
To the anonymous lurkers: If you have something to say, say it. Don't pussyfoot around because you want me to spend that much more time thinking over just what you have to tell me.
To my friends: There aren't many of you. But you know who you are. You are important. Fuck the people who don't know me and are comfortable with that. You listen to me bitch, and I try to make sure I'm listening when you need the same.
To the people I know over the internet and actually communicate with(namely RPGWWers): Without you I'd probably have no one to talk to. I can talk about politics or the worship of pastagami or my budding interest in video games. Any number of things. You are also important.
I'll be back with the blogging foolishness. When I have something more to say to any of you. It won't be as long as I think it'll be because I'm just pissed right now. I'll get over it.
Meanwhile, I'm going to restrict communication to people who actually talk back.
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2005 27 May :: 9.20am
Last night was the last band concert...but i didnt cry. Im suprised. I really thought i was going to. O well...Assembly today woo! that means 5 minutes less of boring classes! :) that makes me happy weeeeeeee! i did pretty well with my color slides yesterday, thats sweet i can finish today, and then do my final woo hoo! :D!!! Things are goin dude....they're goin
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2005 26 May :: 8.55pm
You may ask me one question. But I always lie.
There's nothing inherently wrong with lying. On the other hand, it could be considered the only real evil in existence.
Chibikeriana and I are having a conversation about sincerity in terms of being accepted at school. Here's my unabridged rant in all its glory:
I never thought of it as fear of negative reprisals, but rather in terms of the potential rewards of manipulation. A little prevarication here, a few windows washed there, and teachers don't question anything else they see. All they want is to believe that kids are okay. If you can help them do that, they'll get you anywhere you want to go.
I figure it's better to live a lie than sit at home for the rest of my life contemplating a sincere suicide because I'm sincerely dissatisfied with the way things have gone for me.
A lie is often better than nothing. As much as I value the truth, in my experience the only ones who know what it is are the ones who are forced to contrast it with something. As much as you can apply the laws of economics to abstract concepts, the more scarce truth is, the more people realize how important it is.
I tell the absolute truth to one person. Everything else is a lie. And I like it that way. The way I live is the way I live. I lie. The sooner people accept that, the sooner we can all live in happy bunny peace and harmony.
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2005 26 May :: 11.19am
| Your Star Wars Pickup Line |
"Hey, Beautiful. What's a nice girl like you doing waiting in line without bathing for 10 days?" |
Star Wars Horoscope for Pisces |
A typical Pisces, you have your head in the clouds.
You're self-sacrificing and a bit too passive to stand up to the dark side.
You become fairly pessimistic when put under pressure.
You are a chameleon - wanting to change your scenery on occassion.
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2005 26 May :: 9.04am
i am very disappointed in myself. I left my slides in my car, so now during study hall i am in the library instead of the photo room where i really should be...im going to fail photo. stupid infared that didnt work...i still have to do my final!!! AHH this is screwing everything up all due to my stupidity.
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2005 26 May :: 7.46am
I GRADUATE FROM HIGH SCHOOL AT 7:30 PM TODAY!!!
THANK GOD!
REALLY!
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2005 25 May :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: frustrated
how do you rid yourself of f r u s t r a t i o n ???
im currently stuck in a state of incessent anger
but dont ask me why because i honestly DON'T KNOW.
there are the little things, but they dont seem to cover the area...
maybe it's my best friend, ¢¾P¢¾ M¢¾S¢¾
i.e. TOM "are you tom?"
g'night my friends.
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2005 25 May :: 7.10pm
*sniff* Psychopathic? Really?
I guess it has been suggested.
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2005 25 May :: 2.09pm
I'd love to blame all this crying on Fred but I think I just realized that my grandfather died.
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2005 25 May :: 11.21am
I had a dream last night that I had two babies.
Actually, they were some other lady's babies but she sort of dumped them in my car and left.
It was awesome. They were cool people.
Except they started walking within five minutes and I knew something was up.
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2005 25 May :: 9.42am
So im back to updating every day now...i was uber busy b4
i deleted all my email today! :) it felt good everything is gone! woo!
I have a presentation in government now, wish me luck, except i dont care anymore so wooo okie bye bye
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2005 24 May :: 11.12pm
why is the chalk box always harder to open than the crayon box?!?!
maybe its because the things that are grittier and not as smooth and easy to use come in harder packages so that you go through effort to get to them. those that shouldnt get there give up fast, deeming the package not worth thier time, although the package is clearly choosing that the person is not worth its opening.
no one wants the crayons because anyone can use them, even the four year old in kindercare.
i prefer chalk.
there's no black or white so you're forced to use colours to illustrate shadows and shines.
take this as you will...its a lot of thoguhts rolled into one metaphor that happens to be spilled out in yellow and green in front of me.
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2005 24 May :: 9.57pm
Is it possible to say that everything is perfect right now? because it is.
Im so happy right now.
Prom was great
I wish ditch day could have been better...but i solved a crazy craving...doughnuts and french fries...hehehe
i just cant say it enough i am so happy right now. The art show was awesome i saw my good ol' friend shosty he was good. ...yaaaa
blah! :)
:D!!!!!!!!!
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2005 24 May :: 3.27pm
:: how jedi are you? ::
Your Lightsaber is Blue
Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.
What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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2005 24 May :: 12.09pm
My dad's father passed away.
I didn't know him that well. None of us did, really.
My dad was kicked out of the house when he was 16. His mom was having another child and couldn't afford to keep my dad fed and stuff too. He's the oldest. His other siblings are all girls.
George DeForrest Greggs, Jr. He has his father's name.
So my dad and his family have never been on good terms. When Dad came back from the army, he went home and the house wasn't there anymore. No one'd told him about it.
I woke up this morning to the phone ringing and my dad running to answer it. He answered all cheerful and happy, talking to his sister. Then he got really quiet and asked how everyone was and how is mom was. My dad isn't a quiet person.
So I don't know what's going on funeral wise. I don't know if we're all going out to Pennsylvania or if just my dad is going. I heard him say something about trying not to make the funeral on Thursday because I'm graduating but really, it'll be okay if my dad has to go and can't be there. I think that stuff is more important than sitting around forever to hear my name be called and watch me walk across some stage.
Anyway. Just thought I'd let everyone know that I might be gone later this week. I didn't know him very well. I don't know anyone on that side of the family well. I don't even know the names of all his sisters.
And that makes me feel horrible.
I love you all.
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2005 24 May :: 1.14am
Because Jackie couldn't use a smurfing cut tag...
I make fun of her survey! YAY! Fun for everyone!
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I love you all.
P.S. I love you, Jackie!
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