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2006 29 March :: 10.10am
omg what a humongous b itch. seriously! i hate when you ask someone a question... i didn't aruge or complain or anything. just asking an effing question and she acts like i'm the hugest idiot in the world
I SWEAR TO GOD I F UCKING HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH ... I WOULD SAY WHAT I WANT TO DO TO IT BUT YOU KNOW.. I'D GET IN TOO MUCH TROUBLE. SCHOOL, YOU CAN SHOVE IT..
SEVERAL ANNOUNCEMENTS MY A$$..............
UGAH;;LKFJA;SLDKFJS;LDKJFLKJASLKJSA;LKFJAS;LK I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I'M DOING IT.
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holiday
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2006 29 March :: 8.18am
I took a test in Intro now I'm out sooo early. Class doesn't start for another half hour. Tonight is my "what to expect" class and appointment. hm... I'm getting pretty sick of getting sick every single morning. I haven't actually gotten hours at work in a couple weeks. So now I'm working for my dad starting tomorrow. My mom took me to go look at houses and stuff. The only house that we found that was actually really nice and in a kid-friendly neighborhood was also $1200 a month. :-( Depressing. Well, that's about it I suppose...
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2006 28 March :: 7.35pm
This is the funniest thing that's ever happened to me...
So I get out of my enlgish class today, and usually I head to the library and I just sit on a computer for a couple of hours.
most of you on my MSN list know of the guy who stole my e-mail because he could. well he's been saying some pretty bad things to everyone...
So I pull up to a random computer and login. THe ferris login system is novell but it has no password and programs are saved, but when it goes to screen saver it goes back to the login screen. Well someone had left their MSN logged in... I was just about to go logoff when... oh my god. In the place of the Online list and the Offline list... theres... Tuwang, and not Tuwang. Now I dont' know if you've ever heard the name used before , but I haven't, so I was intrigued, who would use this in such an obscure place... so I check the e-mail : john6751@hotmail.com... nothing rings a bell at first because I'm not in the mindset... but then I look at the name... it's "Hey, I'm dumb and leave my MSN on at the library!!!" I think for a second... thinking little by little... and then I put it together... It's John, the guy who stole my hotmail account. I'm elated. I have ultimate revenge capabilities in my hang. But this is too coincidental... or this guy is just cocky... so what is my first move, I think to myself. Then BAM, a friend of his talks to me and asks me who it is. we talk for alittle bit and eventually he finds out he's not me. I ask him, is there a guy with the e-mail Tuwang128@hotmail.com on your list? And he says, "yep , that's the guy who's e-mail he stole, he went on and on about it for like a week." This guy thinks like me and thinks it would infact be hilarious if I were to show up at his doorstep. He gives me his phone number... and then his address... and then says " Have fun kickin his ass, he'll shit his pants..."
ofcourse This is a brilliant idea. But I have to add fuel to the fire... SO I send an e-mail out to everyone on his list confessing that Jon is gay, and here's how it goes.:
well, I think the time has come...
I've been trying to think of a good time to say this, but I never have been able to find it until now...
I know what ur probably going to think about me after this... but I can't hold it any longer...
I'm gay... and I just want you all to know...
sincerely,
jon
that was sent out immediately. Come tonight I get back on his address just to see if there's any early bird retorts, and low and behold I get hit with..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
you really gay?
and so then the conversation was on...
Smokey McFaggston says:
... you don't hate me now do ya?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
why in the hell would i hate you for being gay?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
isnt that kinda steryotipical, you tihnk id hate you? i aint that k inda person darlin
Smokey says:
well... thanks...
Smokey says:
that makes me feel better
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no problem
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
perhaps u should check ur mail
Smokey says:
oh, thanks
Smokey says:
and it was me
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha aight
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
well good for you man. I knew you were
Smokey says:
hang on...
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
to what
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
jk
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
aight
Smokey says:
man, i don't know what to do now
Smokey says:
big day
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha, so what made you come outta the closet?
Smokey says:
I was just tired of hiding it
Smokey says:
itll kill ya somtimes ya know?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
yeah..good for you... so ya got anyone in mind?
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
so have you fooled around with a man before? tis why you always said you were a virgin casue ya never had sex with a woman? (just curious)
Smokey says:
yeah... haha
Smokey says:
never sex though....
Smokey says:
just like kissin and stuff
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ahh i see, that's cool..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
glad to hear ya family crawled outta your shelll
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
musta takin ALOT of courage
Smokey says:
you have no idea
Smokey says:
2 years since the first time
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ohhh, i have an idea, not in the gay category, but there is shit i have had to admit that took all the courage in the world..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
since what first time?
Smokey says:
haha, ya know
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
yeah
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
well hey i gotta go, gettin ready to make some dinner n shite, i ll proly be on later
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
so ya have a good night, take er easy (not hard)
Smokey says:
haha thanks
Smokey says:
lata
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no problemo
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
ta ta.....
Smokey says:
thanks for talkin to me
Smokey says:
really
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
oh no problem man, any freakin time....but im gettin rid of the net, so youll have to email me, or visa versa, ill be keepin in toucch with everyone..
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
you have a good one jon
Smokey says:
thanks
Smokey says:
just stop by my place anytime if you want
Smokey says:
we can talk some more
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
no prob
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
haha, yeah sure, ill be there in bout 2 months
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change!! says:
peace out
I think I did a damn good job of pretending to be coming out of the closet. SO much , infact, that I considered it... Until I realized how large of a boner shakira gives me... I only like the cafe ole! you know...
so, now I get to organize a party together, of men. We're going up there with bats... gonna give him a little scare... anybody interested?
here's his number...
796-1824
everyone give him a good hassle...
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JediBumblebee
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2006 28 March :: 2.12pm
on a more positive note, 32 days until graduation!
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JediBumblebee
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2006 28 March :: 2.10pm
you have NO IDEA what you are getting yourself into!
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2006 26 March :: 6.17pm
sooooo maybe i'll go back to sleep for the 3rd time today since my life is so effing pathetic.
and boring.
and .
ugh fuck you seriously. fuck you and how much you unappreciate everything you have . you fucking whore.
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2006 26 March :: 6.14pm
The odds are against me... I keep trying to do what I need to do sooo hard but for some reason theres this road block that I can't seem to get around...
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sugarmouse0587
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2006 26 March :: 5.03pm
sprialing into hopelessness. i need a nap. i need a break. i need motivation and a good cry.
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2006 26 March :: 4.39pm
I think it's all finally sinking in. My gosh, weddings are so detailed and hard to plan. I finally sat down and made a list of things I wanted/needed/people. I've been just putting it off because of the stress. It's going to be a really beautiful wedding! I'm excited. Just a lot of things all happening at once. If I can plan a beautiful wedding in just 2 months, I think it's possible for people to plan it in a year. I'm making a cool vase in ice carving tomorrow night :-) I love that class.
We watched Katriana yesterday and that was fun and interesting.
Well that's about it for now.
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2006 26 March :: 12.43pm
I just realized that I said a couple entries ago that I needed a MONTH off for my honeymoon....lol. That would be sweet but not true. Only going for 7 days.
Need to do:
Schedule engagement pictures (c'mon warm weather)
Find florist
Find bartender
Order centerpieces
Decide on tuxes
Set menu with caterer
Order reponse cards
Get dress fitted
Rent dancefloor
Find makeup person?
Buy attendant gifts
Buy wedding rings
Write vows
I'm trying to pretend that that list isn't totally overwhelming me right now. I'm sitting here trying to tie little white bows on bells. ARGH!
I've kissed...Read more..
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2006 25 March :: 6.55pm
the sky is absolutely gorgeous right now.
it starts with a light blue, which is swirled with pink and purple. a rich dark blue is melting into the top.
i want summer now.
i need to waste away days outdoors.
i need to take walks and forget about school for a while.
i need to ride a bike.
i need to figure out what is going on with all of the people i love.
i have lost touch with a lot of things/people i care about.
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2006 25 March :: 12.10am
the more time passes, the more devestated i feel.
i just keep reliving that moment and it's the worst feeling i've ever had.
a child is dead and you keep telling me to get over it. it doesn't matter that i didn't know him for very long. kids take a lot less time to love. i don't know how to get over it. i don't know how to make it stop hurting.
i see his face. i see the car. i see the woman driving without her license. and i see the young mother who doesn't know what to do. and i hate this place. this world.
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2006 24 March :: 12.26pm
i have just spent three hours by myself.
i did some homework.
i didn't speak to anyone.
i feel like a machine right now.
i need some human contact.
i am surrounded by people right now but i feel completely alone.
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2006 23 March :: 10.57pm
:: Mood: splunge.
:: Music: peanuts MIDI
funny video
Read more..
http://videos.streetfire.net/playlistbuilder/buildasx.ashx?fileid=3D2DE2BE-74D5-4885-8C64-15AFFC25839C&t=D596BFBA-20BC-4317-A794-B7186E087AF9
in other news, i really like these talks shannon and i have every so often. it's just so refreshing.
i'm super-tired.
and hungry. mmm. hungry.
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2006 23 March :: 10.19pm
I've been gone for far too long, I want to come home
Well, to put it lightly, I haven't felt this dejected, irascible, neurotic, and disoriented in so long. Honestly.
I have decided I am going to play piano in the talent show. Please don't laugh at me.
I feel like since I hate and have hated high school so much that this will be a good way to end it. It might and hopefully will be a "happy" memory to leave school with. I guess.
And I don't know I just feel like my body is in 12 different places at once. I'm not all here and I can't stop biting my nails which I know is just gross and that is so not like me and when I develop a new bad habit, I know something is really wrong with me.
I feel so full like I need to pour everything out. I thought I did last night with that little breakdown but I guess I just filled right up again. In the worst way.
I guess that's it.
Jess.
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2006 23 March :: 3.53pm
So...
I have an interview at Menard's tomorrow... (like I need another job, or another new one for that matter..)
I don't know what I'm doing in my life...
I'm doing this thing that I don't want to do at all.
Yeah, what's new.
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2006 23 March :: 11.11am
:: Mood: fantastic
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none
I put my muffins in the oven at exactly 11:11 am. i thought that was cool.
and i'm in 308,308th place for the facebook march madness competition. i wonder how many that's out of...
aside from that. shannon's great. but i'm failing college. and the two are only marginally related. very marginal.
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2006 23 March :: 11.06am
all I wanna do is go home, be a loser, and play elder scrolls 4 all day... but I have to sit here at school.
Oh well, I've got ALL weekend I suppose... no work at all until monday.
fuck I need the moneys so i can catch the last train to japan...
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2006 21 March :: 2.53pm
i woke up last night around 4 in the morning, shot up in bed, and said to myself, "how old am i? am i really only 21? 21 is way too young to be getting married! i must be crazy to be doing this! am i totally crazy?"
for some reason that question made a lot of sense, and i calmly said to myself, "yes, yes i am" (crazy, that is).
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2006 21 March :: 2.17pm
Holy crap. I had 4 tables at the Heritage today! It was crazy. I'm lucky to have everyone that helps me out. It gets really hectic.
Charlie and I are looking for houses now. I need to get a credit card soon. I'm angry I won't be able to get an ultrasound until 18 to 20 weeks. What is it with that? They don't do them unless something is wrong, but I'd still like to see. Grrrrrrrrr. I'm just happy nothing is wrong. I haven't even gotten sick. Just tired. Charlie's mom is so nice, she said now, everytime she gets paid, she will buy a pack of diapers. :-) Awesome. Can never have too many of those. haha.
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