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2025 20 January :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: exhausted
Day 20
The beginning of the ending
I am still waiting for him to decide to run for a third term. And find myself reminiscing about 10 years ago when I thought, "The guy from the apprentice? Surely they won't nominate HIM. 'YOU'RE FIRED'? That will never happen."
Joke of the day:
What do you call a mouse that swears?
- A cursor
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godessalthena
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2025 19 January :: 6.44am
put in an offer on a nice ass house, it was accepted. getting major cold feet.
feeling abandoned by my family.
fucking on my wits end with this child. only because I'm having pms. and that makes me feel so incredibly guilty.
I'm tired. and heartbroken. and frustrated.
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2025 12 January :: 5.09pm
It honestly feels a little surreal how “together” my life is these days considering what an aimless shithead I was for so long.
I’ve got a good union job that will carry me to an early retirement, and I even enjoy it. I’ve got a loving wife, an amazing kid. My only remaining debt is my car payment and $2100 in student loans. I’ll probably be buying a house within three more years.
I feel like I don’t deserve it, but, it still feels amazing.
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2025 1 January :: 7.47pm
:: Music: Shrek
Day 1
Happy 2025!
Most of the time I feel like the future is stupid. Every time I have to download a new “convenient” app full of broken code that barely functions. Every time I have to pump my own gas, then “see cashier for receipt.” Every time I fill a cart with groceries, then empty the cart to scan those groceries, then load them back into the cart, then empty the cart into the van, then load them from the van into the house. I’m sure the store would make us stock the shelves too if they could figure out how to market it as a convenience. Even more disappointing is the number of my peers who don’t seem to realize the dystopian hellscape in which we find ourselves; giving our worst jobs to actual humans and working them into exhaustion, all while investing absurd amounts of profits into training artificial intelligence to make art. Humans and machines are optimized for very different tasks and it seems like somewhere along the way the powers that be got it all mixed up.
Still, I have to have hope that we can do better in the future. Faith that there is a bigger cosmic plan in play. And trust that the majority of people are doing the best they can with what they have; that not everyone is an unconscionable shitbag.
So, as the world feels like it’s going down in a blaze of glory, be sure to love the ones who are close to you, let them love you back, and give everyone a lot of grace - including yourself.
I got a dad joke page-a-day calendar for Christmas. Today’s joke is:
What is corn’s favorite holiday?
- New Ear’s Day!
… Now I’m left to wonder how many of these jokes were written by AI
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godessalthena
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2024 16 December :: 10.29am
that feeling when you find out your best friend has cancer and there's really nothing that can be done.
I'm not ready to say goodbye.
2 Kelsey Grammeri |
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2024 16 November :: 8.13am
I am so thankful and grateful and just beyond in awe of this process.
but man do I feel lonely and isolated.
and the closest therapist in network is two towns away. and there's only 8 for this whole metro area. I haven't reached out yet, idk who to pick.
I've lost 15 lbs in a month and a half. ultimately I'd like to lose a total of 100, but baby steps is where I'm at. I think I'm definitely looking better. soon I'll be able to fit into my pre-baby clothes. my lightest weigh in was 227, I'm at 242 right now. slowly but surely. all this Halloween candy doesn't help... we only had 5 groups of trick or treaters! super lame turn out.
we are sleep training the baby right now. it is exhausting but I think we are making progress. she's so smart and strong, she just amazes me every day. now if only we could get baths to be fun.
1 Kelsey Grammer |
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godessalthena
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2024 4 November :: 8.11am
my life is perfect the literal American dream
to complete it all I need is a prescription of Xanax for this intense morning anxiety I feel for no specific reason. makes me want to jump out of my skin and run away.
my baby loves dancing to old house music. she can't dance on her own but she loves when we make her dance. she's so fun
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godessalthena
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2024 25 September :: 8.00am
I wonder what dolphins think about when they stare at themselves in a mirror
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godessalthena
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2024 1 September :: 1.59pm
I am in such a deep dark hole.
2 Kelsey Grammeri |
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2024 1 August :: 9.49pm
in the third quiet place they blow up the new York bridges... that is where escape from new york starts.
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2024 22 July :: 8.53am
Friday we will be a month old!
yesterday we got her frenulums in her mouth cut. she seems to be doing okay, definitely is eating the bottle better... been too scared to try to breast feed her though, maybe I'll try late today haha
it's been over 100° every day for the past few weeks here. I want to go out and walk but it's just simply too hot for me. I had heat stroke once as a kid and it was fucking awful. I don't remember there being multiple weeks of this weather before... I hope it's not like this forever.
an assassination attempt and a withdrawal due to mental deficiency. what the fuck is going on in America?
1 Kelsey Grammer |
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godessalthena
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2024 7 July :: 1.59pm
thanks for your support friend, it's very a wild ride. we are now a week and two days old and getting into a rhythm. still feeling exhausted and working hard to get my milk to come in..
it's hard not to feel like a failure even though it's common to have a hard time breast feeding. is just the rejection when she refuses me. but that's okay. she's a person and likes what she likes haha
she's really very precious, and not very fussy at all. she hates being cold and hates having a dirty diaper. she's eating really well and has a cute lil belly now.
can't help but wonder who she'll be.
2 Kelsey Grammeri |
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2024 2 July :: 9.20am
motherhood is hard. I swear I cry as much as this baby does.
I totally failed at breastfeeding.
I fail every time to calm her down.
I have never felt like a bigger failure in my entire life.
1 Kelsey Grammer |
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2024 28 June :: 5.14pm
we welcomed our beautiful baby girl to the world today. one day after our wedding anniversary!
the birth didn't go anywhere near as planned...
I had to be induced due to high blood pressure.
after using a Foley balloon, 12 hours of pitocin and breaking my water, I wasn't progressing in my labor.
the epidural took two professionals and 9 stabs to get placed.
then I was immediately taken to the operating room for a cesarian section.
the staff was absolutely wonderful, and I wouldn't change a single thing. our baby is perfect and I am just in awe that I could make something so special.
3 Kelsey Grammeri |
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godessalthena
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2024 11 June :: 3.44pm
so fucking stressed. no relief in sight.
2 Kelsey Grammeri |
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