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2018 20 December :: 7.54am
crossposting generates hits, right? gimme dat viral content!
Tried breathing while I was putting on my shoes last night, and now my back is sore #sothisis32 CHEERS!
Maybe it's morbid to talk about, but at one point, my plan was to be dead by 30. I don't know, it was a nice round number that seemed so unimaginably OLD when I picked it. The concept of "live fast; die young" was quite romantic at the time. I am very grateful that the universe has something better in mind for me, and that I'm able to share my bonus time with you fine folks. It's all gravy from here on out! or icing on the cake...
Okay, those two metaphors sound gross when you mix them. But you get what I'm saying ;)
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godessalthena
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2018 16 December :: 2.35am
I know somewhere we can trade all our money for a homesick fade to white
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spud
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2018 14 December :: 12.45am
I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN A LONG TIME.
WE ARE ALL ~very~ SURPRISED.
don't worry, life goes on :)
and honestly, it's not so bad. got some exciting stuff on the horizon. been very busy lately. but some good changes happening.
i realize that is frustratingly vague. even i will read this later and go, "what the fuck was i even talking about? worthless gibberish, all of it."
at least we'll be in that boat together, my friend.
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godessalthena
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2018 10 December :: 8.59pm
I'm thankful to have a family who loves me and friends who are there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or some sense talked into me.
I'm also thankful that while this country is fucked, that I don't live in one that is worse.
things will be okay as long as you keep your head above water, and if you don't, sometimes you come back up.
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godessalthena
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2018 9 December :: 10.59pm
the pebble cannot change the course of a river
all it can do is hope to be picked up and carried for a while
thankful to be part of the journey
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godessalthena
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2018 9 December :: 9.52pm
when every shitty thing you know about yourself is shoved right in your disappointing face and you're forced to smell your own shit sundae
I don't want to wake up.
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godessalthena
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2018 8 December :: 6.59pm
fuck everything
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godessalthena
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2018 8 December :: 9.07am
sickness from hell
first time I've been this sick in a few years
every time I swallow I wake up because it hurts so bad. went to the doctor just to be told there's nothing they can do.
just what I needed, another worthless egocentric doctor who can't help. and an expensive medical bill before x mass. woo.
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godessalthena
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2018 22 November :: 6.39am
stagnation
I'm just waiting for you to let go
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godessalthena
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2018 20 November :: 3.31pm
people talking about quitting facebook like it's a drug
"gonna try to stay off for a week"
"two months without facebook!"
but we are treated weird for breaking up with zuckerberg
fucking junkies fuckin sheep fuckin head in the sand ostriches
THEY ARE USING YOU LIKE THAT SHITTY EX YOU HAD
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godessalthena
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2018 18 November :: 4.36pm
ugh can someone like please tell me why Britney Spears is so wonderful
cuz she's like A #1
kinda like a certain Smitty Jagerwerbenmanjensen. you know what they say about him.
anyway, I just gotta keep dancing til the world ends.
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godessalthena
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2018 9 November :: 6.42am
making people happy cry on their birthdays is one of my all time favorite things in the whole world
I love birthdays. I wish they turned it excellent more often. I wish everyone could have at least one perfect day a year and god damn it should be your anniversary of existing.
this birthday will be good.
happy birthday sweetheart
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godessalthena
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2018 7 November :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Dawn golden
Well, I know I'm hard to take
And my bones are calling out your name
While I beat your cold windows
Break the locks on the gate
While I try to forget
I used to be something great
Because you're all that I, all that I want
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2018 27 October :: 8.42pm
not gonna lie, I do sometimes regret getting this sleeve
but I mean, what's the point of commitment if not for the follow thru?
I just wish it was always cold outside so I could hide it when I don't feel like being seen.
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2018 25 October :: 4.04pm
:: Music: Menzingers
Waiting for your life to start, then you die? Was your heart beating in the first place?
Two years ago today I made a pretty big career change. Not that my old job was much of a career. It was a summer job I took just for the health insurance benefits so I could fix my back, but I ended up staying 12 years. I really enjoy what I'm doing now, despite still feeling a lot of shame for never finishing college. Years ago I was told that I'd never make anything of myself. Now after spending what has literally been half my life trying to prove otherwise, I'm just really aware of my failures. I don't even know what I was hoping to do specifically. I just wanted some sort of achievement upon which I could hang my hat that would make people go, "That Charlie is alright." I went about it all wrong too. I looked over my old posts on here and it was like I was just trying to amplify whatever parts of my personality I thought made me look cool, or witty, or sexy, or intriguing, or smart. I ended up making caricatures of myself. The struggling musician, the passionate lover, the lovable alcoholic, the political radical, the wounded artist. None of it was really me, just the narcissistic ideas of what I thought I should be. At the same time I'd constantly air my dirty laundry and bad mouth nearly every person in my life at one time or another. It was as if destroying them would lift me up and put me closer to being something special. I still don't know if I've amounted to anything, I probably never will, it's not my place to say. But if I truly had to define myself now at 35, I'd be forced to say, "college dropout, twice failed husband, decent electrician, and father." I like the last one. He's just as weird as I was when I was his age, I just hope he doesn't make as big of a mess of things as I have.
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