Fool enough to almost be it Cool enough to not quite see it Doomed Pick your pockets full of sorrow And run away with me tomorrow June We'll try and ease the pain But somehow we'll feel the same Well, no one knows Where our secrets go I send a heart to all my dearies When your life is so, so dreary Dream I'm rumored to the straight and narrow While the harlots of my perils Scream And I fail But when I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will Mother weep the years I'm missing All our time can't be given Back Shut my mouth and strike the demons That cursed you and your reasons Out of hand and out of season Out of love and out of feeling So bad When I can, I will Words defy the plans When I can, I will Fool enough to almost be it And cool enough to not quite see it And old enough to always feel this Always old, I'll always feel this No more promise no more sorrow No longer will I follow Can anybody hear me I just want to be me When I can, I will Try to understand That when I can, I will

 

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angel_bob

:: 2006 11 February :: 9.57am

France
On Thursday they will mail out the acceptance letters. Since I live off campus, I will not recieve mine until Friday. However, a list of those who have been accepted will be posted on the door of the International Studies office.

So now I have more waiting.

In my interview, I mentioned the fact that cost was an issue. The head of the International Studies office said there were multiple study abroad scholarships available, including one from an Aquinas graduate who went to France and loved it. She said that the scholarships would be applied to the cost of tuition and if any money was left over, it would then be applied to the program cost.

I'm excited. I cannot wait until Thursday.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 10 February :: 6.27am

I have my interview for France today at 3.

My good friend Emily has hers right before me.

I really do hope we both make it.

I love you all.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 9 February :: 11.11pm

i figured the woohu folks should see this
read definition #3

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angel_bob

:: 2006 8 February :: 9.54pm

Oh and these two stupid kids honked at me when I was turning left onto Plymouth on my way home. Stupid kids, I love you both. Sorry I didn't look happy, I was in mortal pain due to the fact that I can't take my meds until Sunday.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 8 February :: 9.30pm

I told my sister that everytime she mispronounces a French word that my French professor, Michel Pichot, has little heart attacks (since he can't be rolling in his grave).

She says I can't say that anymore. It makes her feel...something. I told her it's called sympathy and her lack of a heart can't handle it.

She just commented on how her hair goes past her boob. She says it never used to.

My sister rocks.

Also, earlier she was talking to one of her friends and I told her to tell them I said hi and that they were cool beans (I had no idea who this person was). Her friend then asked Hannah my age and when Hannah replied with 19, her friend commented that she thought I was 6.

Anyway, my sister's asking me silly French questions (she's reading Les Miserables) because she's awesome.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 7 February :: 5.28pm

I went to the doctor today. I'm going on the Pill to stop my horrible cramps.

I even got away with not having a pelvic exam.

Yay!

I totally forgot to say the very reason I'm updating.

I'm thinking of joining the Peace Corps once I'm done with school.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 3 February :: 8.40am

I have the best boyfriend ever.

Check out what Nick got me:

403 Forbidden!

That's right. I'm a gay robot.

Yeah, he also got me a bunch of cheese.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 2 February :: 9.44pm

It's nice to have the books for my classes.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 31 January :: 10.51pm

What did Rachel get for her birthday? C'mon, you know you want to know.

She not only got a bunch of totally awesome stuff but also a bunch of totally awesome Rene Magritte stuff.

How awesome? So awesome that she's not using a cut tag.


First off, I got this book:








(These are pictures from the publisher's website. It is a terrific book. It sort of explains his life and tells what he said about his works, trying really hard not to put meanings to them.)



Then, I got these totally awesome cards:


If I wasn't so tired and lazy, I'd scan them for you.



Anyway, I'm just Magritte-geeking.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 31 January :: 9.13am

Kelly, remember Julius Sumner Miller? Here's a site with some of his videos from the early 60's.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 30 January :: 10.11pm
:: Music: William Shatner (who told him to make an album?)

I have an interview with Michel Pichot (my advisor and current French prof) and the head of the International Programs Office at 3 on Friday, February 10th.

Wish me luck.

I'll know if I am accepted by mid-February.

I really hope I get in. I just don't know what they judge it on.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 28 January :: 1.38pm

one of the best movie trailers i've seen in a long, long time

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 28 January :: 9.25am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Queen of the Surface Streets by Devotchka (this song makes me sing)

You're like a lovely hallucination. You get me through my current occupation.
I am officially 19 years of age.

I love you all.

P.S. I googled the word "officially" because I'm tired and I wasn't sure I spelled it correctly. The first result: What Tolkien Officially Said About Elf Sex. Just thought that was interesting.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 22 January :: 10.08pm

So, I was going to say that I was home and everything but I don't even know if I told you guys that I was leaving.

Well I left. My cousin (the one who had the baby 2 years ago so she could "trap what's-his-face") had her wedding this weekend. Ugh. It was bad and good. Mostly bad.

I'll tell you more probably never. I used to be so big on this Woohu thing, commenting on everyone's entries, updating every day, having a huge crush on Andy (speaking of which, we need to hang out sometime), but I just don't have time or energy.

I love you all.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 18 January :: 11.31pm

i hate when people highlight in books because most people don't know what's important and what's not and have no discrimination between main points and superfluous details, and so they highlight whole paragraphs at a time, and then sell their books back, so that when i buy their books, i can't concentrate on anything i'm reading except that PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF HIGHLIGHTING.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 17 January :: 10.15pm

Ignore the intro, click the cut tag. An anti-Bush text adventure!
I don't know if any of you have experienced the glory and darn good times that are contained in text adventures but you should try them out.

While you're pondering your further descent into geek-dom, read this totally awesome fake text adventure game that bashes our president! (taken from this blog which actually isn't this political most of the time every once in a while)



Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2006 17 January :: 7.10pm

Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2006 13 January :: 8.51am

Today is going to be a long, long day.

One without lunch.

I'll update about my classes when I'm not tired/have time/think people care.

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angel_bob

:: 2006 12 January :: 1.01pm

Read more..

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angel_bob

:: 2006 12 January :: 8.06am

Girl things
My period came last night. Four days ahead of time.

I have horrible cramps and a class at 9:25 and one at 10:50. Then I have work from 1 to 5.

Oh, and we're all out of pads. And I can't find a tampon (not like I'd use one anyway). The rule states that if you use the last one or few, you're supposed to tell someone, HANNAH!

I think I'm just going to stay home. There's no way I can go anywhere bleeding and cramping. I'll go to work at 1 maybe.

Ug.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 11 January :: 7.22am

I don't know what this semester's going to be like.

I have math homework due tomorrow and no math book.

I have reading to do for my Cultural Anthropology class and my Principles of Business Management class but I don't have the books for those classes either.

I'm trying really hard to get by without buying the books. My family's going through a hard time financially and I don't want to ask them for money.

I'm going to go to the bookstore today and copy my math problems out of the book then see if I can borrow/read (while standing around in her room) my friend's books for anthropology. I guess I'll see if I can borrow the business book from a girl at work.

Or I could try to get by until next week.

I definitely need the math book though.



I'm stressing out.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 9 January :: 7.50pm

it's always funny until it happens to you
i hate helen keller jokes. i don't even know how to express the anger that rages inside me whenever i hear some insensitive, unappreciateive, ignorant dumbfuck say something stupid about her, and then let out belligerent laughter at his/her own self-perceived genius.

do you know anything about anything except what MTV spoon-feeds you from the moment you wake up until the moment you get drunk off your ass, screw a random person, and puke all over a public bathroom?

since you allow everyone else to do all the thinking for you, i think i'll jump at the opportunity to make you look even more like the asshole that you are.

this woman that you like to sneer at, this human being (that's right folks, the same exact thing as you are, imagine that!) that you de-humanize with your degrading insults, has more guts, more brains, and more compassion than your sorry piece-of-shit ass ever will. do you have any concept of what it might be like to be handicapped? could it be possible for you to think for 5 seconds about how difficult, frustrating, and sad it would be to live in this world, in this american society especially, with a handicap? she could not hear or see! do you even understand what that means in terms of existence? can you fathom how amazing it is that she was able to learn things, to communicate, and to become an educated, intelligent person when she couldn't see or hear a language? have you any idea of how important language is for simply THINKING, let alone expressing thoughts and understanding those of others? do you even care that you were so fortunate as to be born with eyes and ears, and not only that, but with ones that function properly? you ungrateful idiots. helen keller is fucking amazing. she is someone you should kneel to and admire! you will never be 1/100,000,000,000 of the person she was.

as both a feminist and socialist (two of the hottest things ever, in my opinion), she wrote to a british suffragist in 1911, saying:

Our democracy is but a name. We vote? What does that mean? It means we choose between two bodies of real, though not avowed, autocrats. We choose between tweedledum and tweedledee...

You ask for votes for women. What good can votes do when ten-elevenths of the land of Great Britain belongs to 200,000 and only one-eleventh to the rest of the 40,000,000? Have your men with their millions of votes freed themselves from this injustice?

once her political position became public, the brooklyn eagle newspaper stated that "her mistakes spring out of the manifest limitations of her development." she responded by writing an editorial in the new york call (because the brooklyn eagle would not publish it in theirs):
Oh, ridiculous Brooklyn Eagle! What an ungallant bird it is! Socially blind and deaf, it defends an intolerable system, a system that is the cause of much of the physical blindness and deafness which we are trying to prevent... The Eagle and I are at war. I hate the system which it represents... When it fights back, let it fight fair... It is not fair fighting or good argument to remind me and others that I cannot see or hear. I can read. I can read all the socialist books I have time for in English, German and French. If the editor of the Brooklyn Eagle should read some of them, he might be a wiser man, and make a better newspaper. If I ever contribute to the Socialist movement the book that I sometimes dream of, I know what I shall name it: Industrial Blindess and Social Deafness.

obviously, keller has much more integrity when responding to idiots than i do, and that is why i have so much respect for her. helen keller gets my vote for miss america.

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cowboy67

:: 2006 5 January :: 3.33am

i'm home!

Image hosted by Photobucket.com

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Angel_Bob

:: 2006 1 January :: 10.20pm

Hey, kids, remember:

IT'S ABOUT THE LOVE, NOT THE LOVIN'!

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cowboy67

:: 2005 24 December :: 3.59pm

click

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cowboy67

:: 2005 23 December :: 2.02pm

this is hilarious and sad at the same time

this is how one is accepted into american culture.

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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 23 December :: 12.14am

Every kid wants an Ann Coulter action figure!

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Angel_Bob

:: 2005 22 December :: 7.20am

An AMAZING Christmas tree story
When Hannah and I were at Schuler a few weeks ago, I bought this AMAZING Christmas tree that I thought looked pretty cool. In twelve hours, with magic water, this stuff happens! You can even grow an Aryan supremacy tree!

It seemed awesome at the time. Five bucks worth of awesome, at that. However, all my hopes were crushed in just a few minutes after my arrival home.

The tree had instructions on the bottom of the package. These instructions specifically stated that the tree would only last 3 to 4 days. Oh, that's okay. I'll just set the whole thing up on Wednesday night and hopefully it would last until Sunday.

So last night I finally got to set up my AMAZING Christmas tree.

Well, it follows that the "magical water" is actually monobasic potassium phosphate. Which I'm fine with, I suppose. I mean, it's not as magical when you give it a name like that but it's cooler. More cool.

Like all -ic-ium-ates, you shouldn't get monobasic potassium phostphate in your eyeballs. It is a buffering agent or a dietary supplement.

I actually didn't care what it was. (Did you see those side effects?) All I cared was that it would make my tree grow.

But it turns out that I should have cared because the monobasic potassium phosphate monobasic SMELLS REALLY BAD.

I have a very stinky Christmas tree (which I would love to show you because it's sweet but all the batteries to all the cameras in this house are dead.) sitting on my kitchen table right now.

9 o'clock marks 12 hours since it has been stewing downstairs. It also marks the point in time when we can put the star on top and sprinkle the glitter on it! Yay!


I love you all.

P.S. You should buy one. They're fun. I don't know if they're five dollars worth of fun but they're fun.

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cowboy67

:: 2005 21 December :: 7.20pm

the invitation
it doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
i want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

it doesn't interest me how old you are.
i want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

it doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
i want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life's betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

i want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

i want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

it doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
i want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
if you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

i want to know if you can see beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
and if you can source your own life
from its presence.

i want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
"yes."

it doesn't interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
i want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

it doesn't interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
i want to know if you will stand
in the center of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

it doesn't interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
i want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

i want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.


written by: oriah mountain dreamer

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cowboy67

:: 2005 20 December :: 3.24pm

i wasn't born to follow.

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