the sun shines but i don't

:: 2005 19 September :: 9.31pm

I got a haircut today.

I don't know if I like it.

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:: 2005 19 September :: 12.47am

I wasn't saying, Kyle, that people who drink are anything less than people. My parents drink and, before they were married, my father drank quite a bit. I'm so sorry that I'm upset that the people I care a ton about are making stupid decisions.

And I'm especially sorry that you think I don't give a flying fuck about them. I'm sorry that you think I don't care. I thought that by now, you'd know me better than that. I'm sorry that you weren't there to see me when I found out that Ben spent the weekend at his brother's drinking and getting drunk. I'm sorry that you didn't see how much I worried about him and still do worry about him. I'm sorry you don't see me pray every night that he, Jackie, Kelly and everyone at college or elsewhere will be okay.

Amanda's cousin died of alcohol poisoning.

I'm sorry that you don't see how important this subject is to me.

And I'm sorry that you don't see how important everyone is to me.

I apologize that I'm having a difficult time adjusting to everyone growing up and experiencing adulthood but I am. There's been a lot of stuff lately that has made me have to grow up and it's too bad that you aren't here to see it and that I'm not comfortable enough to tell you.

Yes, people with make dumb decisions. I accept that. I can suck it up.

I can care about them. And I do.

:: 2005 19 September :: 12.29am

List
Didn't write my paper for I&E. Have to meet with prof tomorrow for 20 mins to talk about said paper and previous paper. Whoops. Might be a short meeting.

Start radio show tomorrow. Nervous as hell.

I love you all.

sherriffsteve

:: 2005 18 September :: 11.36pm

Well, in seven months, on April 29th I will oficially be announced as Mrs. Kuhnle. It was beautiful. It will be beautiful.

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:: 2005 17 September :: 3.39pm

The puppy!

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:: 2005 17 September :: 2.30pm

So we are getting the car. I just don't know when. I probably won't be able to drive it until I get a job and insurance but still: YAY!

Apparently, a Geo Prizm is just like a Toyota Corolla.

Then I'll get to do all those cool car things that I've been planning on doing (visiting Katie and Kelly, driving to school, visiting the houses I used to live in etc).

I love you all.

P.S. Leo is the cutest dog ever. He tries to usurp McHenry, it's funny.

:: 2005 16 September :: 11.22pm

I had a job interview yesterday and today my mom said she found me a car.

It's a '90 Geo Prizm (maybe?) and I hope I get to drive it before we actually get it. If we do.

And I hope I get the job because I need it.

I love you all.

:: 2005 15 September :: 11.27am

Speaker after speaker at the Nuclear Energy Institute's Nuclear Energy Assembly, held on 16-18 May in Washington DC, weighed in with variations on a single theme: over the next 20 to 50 years, nuclear power is one of the few options, if not the only option, capable of providing reliable baseload electricity to meet increasing global demand without exacerbating global warming.

Of course the NUCLEAR ENERGY INSTITUTE is going to say that nuclear energy is the only way to go! It's stupid to say otherwise. It'd be like a vegetarian restaurant offerring meat alternatives or a mosque having Christian services on Sundays.

To Bodman, the way forward was clear: "We need to develop new sources of energy to reduce our dependence on fossil fuels, and help protect the environment." These new energy sources and new technologies include hydrogen fuel cells to power vehicles, more effective ways to produce wind and solar power, techniques for removing pollutants and green-house emissions from coal, and improved fuel efficiency. However, "there is one technology already in place that can reliably generate large amounts of electricity with no dependence on fossil fuels, no pollution, and no greenhouse emissions. That technology is nuclear power."

Yes. Great idea. Until we have a nuclear meltdown and there is no environment to protect. That's not even going into the nuclear waste that's going to be left behind. What ever happened to hydroelectric plants? All nuclear plants do is make water into steam anyway, right? So why not skip the nuclear part?

I'm rambling. This is just to waste time before lunch.

P.S. "Nuclear power should instead be among our foremost options for ensuring that we have safe, secure, affordable, and environmentally responsible supplies of energy."

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:: 2005 14 September :: 12.31am

on the writing slump in our journal community
guajira goddess: but whats worse is, no one is around to comment on them when we write them
guajira goddess: you know what i mean?
guajira goddess: like joe and andy arent here to comment
guajira goddess: fay doesnt write
guajira goddess: nicole is a nut
guajira goddess: hell you dont even comment
guajira goddess: hence, since you only talk to me about my entries and dont comment, you dont spark any other peopple to comment
SPNirvana67: hahaha
SPNirvana67: argh
SPNirvana67: and where is mandi?
guajira goddess: morocco probly
SPNirvana67: she has been absent from the woohu world for like 5 months
guajira goddess: yeah and no more ac either
guajira goddess: even kevin and brandy used to contribute
guajira goddess: amy and steph are non existent
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: why are you laughing?
SPNirvana67: "even kevin and brandy used to contribute"
SPNirvana67: "amy and steph are non existent"
SPNirvana67: i dunno, just made me laugh
SPNirvana67: how we critique the situation
guajira goddess: i wanna write but no one is there
guajira goddess: no one cares lol
SPNirvana67: i do i do!
guajira goddess: i liked writing when i knew everyone would read it and then respond soon
SPNirvana67: i'm used to no one responding to the things i write
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: so how do we solve this woohu problem
guajira goddess: ??????????????????
SPNirvana67: hm
SPNirvana67: offer complimentary chocolates?
guajira goddess: hahahah cute
guajira goddess: make the journals work
SPNirvana67: "work"?
guajira goddess: yeah like the good ole days

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:: 2005 13 September :: 7.42pm

We got a puppy today! He's a pomeranian and has three feet and four legs. He is the cutest thing on the face of the earth. He's so small! For now, his name is Leo but that might change.

I'll post pictures later!

In other news, Switchfoot will be touring with Eisley! ZOMG! We have to go. I don't have any money but we have to.

10/27/2005 - Chicago, IL
Vic Theatre

10/28/2005 - Detroit, MI
Majestic Theatre

10/29/2005 - Cleveland, OH
House of Blues

I love you all.

P.S. Leo was on my lap and kept giving me puppy kisses and laying his head on my arm.

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:: 2005 12 September :: 6.16pm

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
the lack of updates is making me anxious!! (after clicking on my friends list every day and seeing the same exact thing for 2 weeks.)

i suppose i should act on this and do my own update. indeed, i shall try if i finish my homework in time for milk and cookies before bed.

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:: 2005 11 September :: 10.16pm

Starting next Tuesday from 10am to noon, I will be a DJ on WAQU (1590 - The Squirrel), Aquinas' radio station.

You can stream it off the interweb (whenever they set it up) here.

I love you all.

P.S. My dad is downstairs watching Wizard of Oz and listening to Dark Side of the Moon.

:: 2005 11 September :: 3.17pm

My boobs are bigger! Yay!

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:: 2005 10 September :: 11.38pm

layout
changed

:: 2005 9 September :: 11.15pm

it's worth a try

:: 2005 8 September :: 8.35pm

The Nordyke-Greggs Syndrome
This is the paper I wrote for my Inquiry and Expression class. All it had to be was a personal narrative.

I wrote about my father going into the hospital last summer.

I cried while I was writing some of it.

I was kind of mean in my descriptions of some people but I was in a fowl mood. I'm sorry.

It's six pages long so you don't have to actually read it.

Read more..

I love you all.

:: 2005 8 September :: 5.01pm

I really hate when my browser begins to wig out like this.

Mozilla decided to be mean. Anything I typed into the little google add-on or the address bar typed backwards. Since I couldn't really search for the problem that way, I just closed it out, opened it back up, and now my bookmarks are all gone.

And I'm scanning the computer with three different programs because that is never a good sign.

I love you all.

P.S. I promise I'll have a full school update this weekend.

:: 2005 6 September :: 10.58pm

a better, happier you
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:: 2005 6 September :: 8.05pm

Anyone know German, Katie?
His handwriting is awful but this is what I could see:

Ich habe Ihr gehelfen, und Ich liebe die zeit Ich setz und denke uber sie, Ich weiß sie ist zu nett, zu gut, und zu hubsch für mir. Mein lieb bracht sie nicht sie kann lieb aus einen grossen mann haben, Ich bin nur schlect für Ihr.

I put in the accents where they actually worked, everywhere else, I just got a question mark. Like on uber. ü ber ﲾr. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't. Yeah, so if you could, what the heck does that say?

:: 2005 5 September :: 11.35pm

"i think that humanity brings much misery on itself by the false value they put on things."

- benjamin franklin

:: 2005 30 August :: 8.39pm

September is a big band month.

Switchfoot's new CD comes out on the 13th.

Socialburn's new CD comes out on the 27th. (I'm glad they still sound like Socialburn. Even when they got a new record company. I don't think I can take another Eisley transformation.)

Our Lady Peace's CD came out today.

The Arcade Fire is going to be on David Letterman on the 14th.

Deerhoof's new album's coming out on October 11th so maybe it's just a fall thing.

I'm really excited for Socialburn's CD. Actually, I'm really excited for both Socialburn and Switchfoot. And Deerhoof.

The Books changed their site around. I like it.

I love you all.

P.S. Wouldn't it be nice if The Cranberries weren't "taking a break" or The Smiths were still together? Sigh.

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:: 2005 30 August :: 5.04pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Million Things by Cloud Cult

Life is awesome. College is awesome. Here is a song for you lazy folks now that you're back in school.
I love you all. Cloud Cult rocks. They have a sad backstory though.

Read more..

P.S. I know my icon is awful. It's a placeholder until I find something less tacky. Plus it just makes me laugh.

:: 2005 28 August :: 9.40pm
:: Music: Heaven by Lamb

This could be heaven right here on Earth...
I kind of want to see the movie Just Like Heaven for a few reasons.

1. In the theater, the preview had the song Heaven by Lamb in it. And I love Lamb.

2. I'm curious as to how it would end. Like 50 First Dates, there's not really anyway they can end it. She's dead.

3. I'm a sucker for girly movies.

4. Reese Witherspoon is in it.

I love you all.

P.S. I just wrote my first rough draft for my first paper in college!

:: 2005 28 August :: 4.39pm

It's a big joke at Aquinas that the squirrels are evil. It stems from the fact that any squirrel you come upon will not run away, it just stares you down.

Now I didn't believe this because I hadn't seen any squirrels on campus. But on Wednesday, I was walking back through the woods and there was a squirrel by the path just staring at me. He wouldn't move.

So I guess I believe it.

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:: 2005 25 August :: 10.19pm

Ignore that first part. It's boring.
I don't really feel like taking a shower tonight. And you know what? I can do that because I am a college student and that's what we do. So tomorrow, I will sport a jaunty chapeau to cover up my greasy hair.

Things are settling down. I just need a JOB and life will be doubleplusgood. As compared to the plusgood it is now. Hardy har har.

If you feel like it, here are pictures from orientation. I'm not in any of those. Well, I'm in the Q.

Aquinas is so beautiful. You guys should just come with me and we'll walk around.

I love you all.

P.S. Nick = the best. Just in case you didn't know.

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:: 2005 25 August :: 8.11pm
:: Mood: upset

Didn't get the job.

Whatever.

:: 2005 24 August :: 9.18pm

I can never be sick from school EVER AGAIN
My mommy got an old-fashioned lawn mower. You know. The kind you push and the blades rotate and it makes you wonder how it cuts grass.

I don't know why but I've always wanted one. She said it was because the other one is too hard to push and get out. She also said that the riding lawn mower was too much of a hassle and missed too many spots.

She's lucky my dad's the lawn and garden buyer. Or maybe that's why she asks, because she knows she can get it.

Either way, it does cut grass. It cuts grass really well. So well, in fact, that I might volunteer to cut the grass.

However, Mom tested it out on the front yard and it did nothing to improve the looks at all. It's just as ugly, if not more so. We have this fungus in the middle of the yard in the shape of the letter c. Weeds and crabgrass cover every other part of the yard. (Except for where it touches the neighbor's yard and his fertilizer was inadvertently spread upon some of our yard. I wouldn't be surprised if it was on purpose, as some kind of hint. "Look at how beautiful your yard can be!" If it was, sorry, guy, our well is broken and we can't water the yard. Nice suggestion though.)

I read the funniest thing yesterday. I was reading 1984 because I love those kinds of books. Someone was talking and it said they spoke "parenthetically" but the sentence they spoke was in parentheses. Most awesome thing ever. Oh, George Orwell, you slay me!

School's going fine, by the way. I'll speak more on the subject when I have time to sit down and let it all sink in.

For now, I'm off to read my Nancy Drew book. Number 32 and only cost me a dollar. I'm a sucker for Nancy Drew. You can blame my aunt Patty for that.

I love you all.

P.S. George Orwell (or shall I call him Eric Arthur Blair?) was fugly. Seriously. That had better just be a very bad picture of him (is that a mustache? If not, what is it?) because I don't know how I can love that man anymore. I'm kidding. He could be a 1000-pound woman and I'd still love him. (Not that way, Nick.)

:: 2005 21 August :: 9.46pm

Oh and I don't know if I mentioned this or not but I have an interview tomorrow at 9:30 for a job at the Aquinas library.

I'm pretty sure I'll get it. I was the first person to respond.

I love you all.

:: 2005 21 August :: 9.00pm

So I have my first math class on Tuesday. And I can't find my calculator.

I found my black sharpie (I noticed it was missing this morning), my copy of Le Petit Prince (which has been missing since our Mardi Gras project for French class. It was in the box with supplies that I took to school.) and this gold glitter thing that is involved in another story that proves I'm insane.

But no calculator. I figure I've got a while to find it. I only have math on Tuesdays and Fridays and I probably won't need it the first day.

Stressing out about it isn't helping either.

I love you all.

:: 2005 21 August :: 10.35am

I start college tomorrow at eight o'clock.

Wow.