well, things are going over like a lead baloon, jade doesnt seem to give two shits that im here anymore, its really great i swear. i clean up the house every day before she gets home from work, dishes, making the bed, sometimes dinner, when she actually tells me what she wants me to make. then she gets home, then just sits down to play WoW, talking to like 5 other people in the same way that she talked to me before we started talking about seeing each other in real life. im trying not to be jealous, after all, she was only talking to them, but then i see some guy saying some lewd things to her ina whisper...that was too much for me... then a couple days later she goes into her own channel w/ that person on vent, understandable, they are questing together and such, no biggie, but then once he has to log she goes AFK and calls him (i assume its him) on the phone. all the while im just sitting here...wondering what the fuck i did so wrong, what made her decide im not worth anything more then a glance and a hello when she gets home. obviously i missed it, and ive been over everything like a million times already now, and i dont see anything. she has a problem w/ my being jealous, and ive told her im working on it, but i dont see her helping me to work on it at all. OH MUTHER FUCKING WELL, FUCK THIS, FUCKING WASTE FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS...well...at least the flight was fun, and i got this awesome keyboard...to make matters worse, another girl told me that she liked me before i left, one who i liked too...but i ended up tottaly blowing her off for this!!! what the fuck is wrong w/ me????

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