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2008 20 November :: 4.15am
I played to much rockband and i now have aqualung by jethro tull stuck in my head.
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2008 18 November :: 2.55pm
I got shackled into helping a neighbor move there desk this last weekend. Ya thanks mother...
She played the guilt trip on me about I should help them because one of them has cancer. Thats worse that me not wanting to help. Dont get me wrong Im not a complete ass, but unfortunatelly I think Im already kind enough elsewhere.
Moving there computer turned into backing up these peoples computer, having emails dictated to me to type out, and unmangling a big desk from the myriad of electronics wrapped into it. Computer, speakers, scanner, printer, fax machine, lamps, power cords, phone wire, network cable, power strips...etc.
It also wasnt a 20min ordeal like both my mother and these people made it out to be. THAT pissed me off most. Its now been 2 days. 3hrs on the sunday and 1hr yesterday. I expect another 1-2hrs setting that bullshit up again when they move it downstairs.
Im afraid of other peoples electronics setup's. I dont want to go near them for fear I burst into flames when I see how bad it is. I dont want to break them. I dont want to fix them. Why? because to each his/her own.
What I see fit to destroy is not what others will.
Playing guilt cards on me isnt a good set. Especially when its from family or work. Both end up needing to be a good nice person outwardly. I dont do that. I do it inwardly. Thus why I sulk outwardly.
Tonight is zombie fun I think. Cant decide if I will purchase Left 4 Dead tonight.
The workout is underway. Its the standard issue plan from the navy. Just something to keep after while going through the winter. Nothing special. Just plenty of running/swimming pushups, sittups, and pullups. For the moment Ive skipped the pullup's and gone with crunches. I dont exactly have a spot to do pullups without hurting something in the house.
I need to buy a new pair of running shoes. Both mine fell apart and I totally forgot about it.
Saturday is poker night. Woot. Hope to steal some money.
A lot of folks would say me doing this is stupid because they dont think Ill actually be going. Well...thanks for adding the grains of salt to reasons why I will go.
Like a true psycho I actually think I need someone yelling at me telling me what to do and when and how. I need the direction.
I lack the discipline.
Im not looking for it to be a damn day at the amusement park. Im looking for being in the damn USMC! I look forward to the 10mile runs with 40lbs or more strapped onto me. I look forward to being woke up at 6am by someone yelling at me. I look forward to being brough to my breaking point and getting past it. I look forward to being a Marine.
Bill time today. Sigh. I hate bills.
I should go socialize a bit more and like...attempt stuff...
More stuff later.
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2008 18 November :: 12.46am
Just when I thought I was in the safe and clear.
Damnit
Will the torment never end?!
Its been like 2months.
FFS
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2008 17 November :: 10.33pm
It's pathetic how I find myself defending why I love my boyfriend after 3 years, to people who know me better than a lot of people.
And they tell me that I'm not happy.
But truth be told, I am the happiest I've ever been.
In high school, I was a train wreck.
I was always depressed, crying over never-meant-to-be relationships, drama ate at me like I was a thanksgiving turkey, and I was stressed out the moment I stepped foot into my house.
I was constantly being told what to do.
And I hated every moment of the life I lived outside of my friends.
I may not hang out with my friends as much as I used too, and those relationships may have grown awkard over the past 3 years.
But I truly am happy.
I finally have someone I love that I can come home to everyday, and wake up to every morning.
It may not be the best of relationships, but I am happy.
After this long, I shouldn't have people who I feel I can trust, telling me that I should have a baby, but not until I get a different boyfriend.
I haven't felt that hurt in awhile.
Many of you feel the same way, but don't judge until you know the whole story.
I shouldn't have to defend my life to others.
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2008 17 November :: 2.44am
I hope they don't kill opie.
He's one of my favorite characters
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2008 17 November :: 2.32am
I don't know what to believe anymore.
Tired from over thinking, numb from over feeling.
When you try to move on and things get thrown back at you.
This whole event seems like mutually assured destruction.
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2008 16 November :: 1.11pm
Mudvayne - Pushing Through This
Salt the wound
Cut through a conscience I've failed to explore
The calm before the storm
Speak your peace and prepare for the fall
Words have been chosen
Tainting the gift
Lying truth's so increditable
So fuck you all
I'm turning my back on this killing so small
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Eye for an eye I'm pushing through this
My law
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Tooth for a tooth I'm pushing through this
Through you
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2008 16 November :: 1.39am
my brother thinks that i'm an alcoholic for taking a minicooler with 3 beers in it, in the bathroom for my bath.
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2008 16 November :: 12.39am
Drastic steps
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2008 15 November :: 1.36pm
why do i do this to myself?
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2008 14 November :: 10.44pm
finally broke down and went to the doctors wednesday.
sinus AND respiratory tract infection.
lucky me.
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2008 14 November :: 2.57am
thursday night, that means its time for bowling scores again
this week, highest game ever of 211, 182, and 134, it was a 529 series.
fuck yeah!
average last week was 151
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2008 13 November :: 2.59am
I figured out the whole issue of "us" tonight.
we're two different people outside of privacy.
It just doesn't work that way.
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2008 13 November :: 1.48pm
So yeah... I've got some time so I guess I'm about ready to update you guys.
Been pretty stressful here, as far as classes go. But I've managed to maintain an A- so I'm alright in that department. Plus I got an 88 on the last test with a class average of 62. My theory is that someone just didn't show up, regardless...
I really need to take some pictures of where I am at. I noticed that all my pictures are of me drinking. Not to say that I'm not drinking a lot, a problem I need to find a solution for desperately, but I'm not JUST drinking. I'm doing a lot of things recently. I guess the problem is that I have a hard time taking pictures of anything interesting because I feel like such a tourist. I will do a lot of things here because I don't really care what the people think of me, and it gets me somewhere usually. For some reason, though, I can't seem to take pictures. Soon enough I will get some real good ones.
Speaking of drinking, this weekend is sure to be packed to the brim of fun. starting tomorrow morning I'm going to some elementary school to play games with kids. It's mandatory, which kind of pisses me off. I've already volunteered to do a few of these kinds of things and I'd rather just sleep in, but you know, I guess I gotta do what I gotta do.
So after waking up at around 8 and getting back at around 12, I have 2 hours or less to just chill out for awhile, before I have to bike to the train station to catch a train to Kyoto. Luckily they are paying for the ticket for me. By them, I mean some Women's College of some sort or another. They are loaded, and have decided to pay for a few of us to take a train and a taxi (keep in mind that a taxi is about 2 dollars per foot, fucking expensive) to the school, and then for the ride back. I'm not actually taking the train back though...
Afterwards, Nate, Nick, and I are going to chill in Kyoto and see what happens for awhile. They claimed that the event won't end until 8, and I'm still not sure exactly what we are doing there. I think we are just trying to help them with their english or something, who knows.
So I imagine we'll eat some food, get some liquor, do some shopping or something, and maybe buy a burger and McDonalds so we can take a nap. Yes you just read that correctly.
Around 10-10:30 we are meeting up with Kelly, Yui, Shige, Adam, Megumi, and maybe one of her friends, at which point we will consume endless amounts of alcohol and then attempt to do some clubbing of some sort. This will last, I'm assuming until about 5 in the morning.
Then, I will be fucked, I'll die on the train home, barely crawl into bed and go into a desperately needed coma until about 2 or 3 that afternoon.
I'll wake up, try to get some homework done, and then head out to the bar to bid my friends farewell as they head off to live in Tokyo.
Sunday, maybe I'll rest, we'll see....
I have a meeting with my teacher now for some conversation time so I will catch you chaps later.
だから、今私は先生と話に行きます。今週の週末にとても急がしくなります根から、らいしゅうぜんぜん話しないと思います。じゃあ、まったね。
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2008 12 November :: 2.51am
I guess this is the time of year for drama.
3 people i know with relationship issues right now.
1 person possibly going to jail.
and a whole slew of other problems.
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