The first day of the week was started on a bad note, actually more than one note, a chord of bad notes. it turns out today was an even day instead of regular. so we started drama, i didnt feel well, we auditioned for the variety show today. my audition went well i suppose, not my best. which is odd because i usually am very confident with my performances. but whatever, after drama i find out JT is mad at me for a very small and pety thing. what's new? so gov't. UGH! i had a test today in there, which i BSed. it was boring, it was ridiculous. ok after that musical theatre. i've officially decided that i hate that class. i agree with steph cohen about what she said in her journal. the chemistry of the people just isnt the same as its been for the past 2 years, i dunno, there are people i dont like in there and i dont like mr. parker anymore. he's no good. ugh and we never have a chance in class to work on things that WE want to do. we're either doing You Can't Stop The Beat or I Hope I Get It. both of which i hate! i hate doing dancing, i hate it i hate it i hate it. and i hate doing voice with mr. parker. i want to work on individual and duet things, not all this group crap. we are going to bomb at districts because we arent getting things together. ARGH! i dread going to MT every day. ok well after MT i found out that my english teacher wasnt there today, so i decided to go home instead of going to class. so i went home and watched some tv until i fell asleep for like an hour and then woke up and went to write the show with lance and JT. this is where more problems occured. during the night, jen took every chance available to take a shot at me. anytime she could, she'd make some smart ass remark about either my ego, inteligence, or abilities. i held my tongue all night because we had more important things to do than argue. i like to separate business and personal problems. but it just pissed me off, she told me she wasnt mad at me today and then goes and is a bitch to me all night. i didnt even do anything to her. she gets mad over the smallest thing, if i look at her wrong, she fraeks out. its ridiculous. but we finally finished writing and now i'm home. tomorrow is my all drama day, oh joy. goodnight fuckers

~Shout Outs~

No one worth it

i hope everyone enjoyed the little questionaire that i stole off jeremy's journal. ok well today was a relaxing day. It started when i went to the mall with danielle. we saw dan, calvin, larry, gavin, and amanda bruno there. I bought a new AE shirt, a new necklace, a pac sun hat and some new earrings. i also saw sheba on my way out of the mall, she was in her car. ok well danielle helped me put my new earring in and we found out that my piercing is infected because i neglected to clean my ear for a while. oops. Well after that i came home and sat online for a while. then my mom made me do scholarship shit. ugh, it was the worst experience ever. i was looking at these stupid websites and trying to fill out applications but i didnt know what to write for some of them, i didnt understand the questions and i got frustrated and my mom was trying to help and then my dad came in and i tried asking him questions about the app and he was confused and got aggravated and then i flipped out and threw my hands up and said fuck it. I actually said "F it" So after that we ordered pizza, wings, and those domino dots things for dinner. pretty good. so after that i watched Cath Me If You Can. what a great movie. i was very impressed. my hat goes off to tom hanks, who i thought was brilliant in this role. leo dicaprio was pretty good as well. steven spielberg never ceases to amaze me with his direction. i give the movie four stars out of five. a must see for everyone. well thats the news for today. theres a new hurricane coming, Isabel, its supposed to be coming right for us, but who knows it may turn. well thats all folks.

~Shout Outs~

Danielle, Dan, Calvin, Gavin, Amanda Bruno, Larry, Sheba, The Cast of Catch Me If You Can

well today was a busy day, as are all of my days. it started at 1pm, i got to sleep in. hurray. i went to improv rehearsal at 3pm. ilana didnt come today, corey was late, and gladys was late. but it went well. i am beginning to see everyones strengths and weaknesses so i can tailor the activities to meet their needs. ok so after rehearsal, i did my weekly cleaning lady job and made $65. after that i went to danielle's house and hung out with the usual crowd minus jen and dave and emily. also we had some new people hang out with us tonight that usually dont. it was nice to have new faces in the group. we hung out and i had some heart to heart's with danielle about marc and other things. all the guys there were extremely horny...including me but i didnt let that get the best of me, like some of the others. we had pizza for dinner, talked a lot, watched tv and did other things. it was fun. tomorrow i'm going to the mall with danielle to use my $10 off AE card and to buy a new necklace and hat. so that should be fun. thats about all there is for tonight. sorry for the skimpy update but whatev, i update everyday, who else can say that?

~Shout Outs~

The Improvers, Danielle, Joey, Joe Vitar, Joel, Rachel, Chris Burgos, Ilana, Amanda Nilson

what a day. I taught in drama again today so i was in drama all day. during first hour, julia gordon and kevin murray come bursting in the room, desperately needing me to make them a tape for the pep rally. i did it but told them they had to give me a shout out. well at the pep rally in third hour, i got my shout out, it was cool, although you couldnt really hear kevin very well on the mic. oh well. i hated the pep rally, i've never liked pep rallys to begin with and i was sitting alone at this one cuz i just came from drama 1 so i'm not with any of my friends. so in musical theatre we did I Hope I Get It and minh joined our group. while we were rehearsing, i didnt really want to so i sat down and ran the tape for everyone else and liz kaizer came in and watched so i got to chat with her and eat my sub that joe vitar brought for me for lunch. it was fun. but they finally made me do the dance. ok well after that i went to see the movie Camp with jen, emily, and david. i didnt really like it. it had like 4 really funny things in the movie but the movie itself was ridiculous and stupid. it had such bad acting in it too, ugh. well after that jen and i went present shopping for emily's party and then went and set up at emily's house. well the party was freaking fun. the first like hour or 2 wasn't so great, i didnt feel well at the beginning of the party but then i felt better and then the drama began. danielle was going to break up with marc tonight and he gets to the party like at 9 or something and danielle avoids him for a while and then breaks it off and then she runs off hiding from him and i was staying with her to help her, we hid in the bathroom, ran around the house in the wet grass while it was raining at least 2 times and we hid in joe vitar's car for like 20 mins. finally the drama was over and marc left. well chris burgos came at like 12:15 and we did some harmony for this girl named Ashley who lives across the street from emily but is down from college right now. ok then i came home. i had a change of mind tonight. i've been focusing so hard on not being a slut and being respectable that i forgot my most important rule. make myself happy. so i think i'm going to modify my goal a bit. i'm not gonna hook up with a lot of people but still hook up with some, like i dont really want to hook up with people that i've already hooked up with, i want to try new people and stuff, so i'm not a skank but i'm still having some fun. because i realized how frustrated i am with this whole no hooking up thing, i havent hooked up in over 3 weeks and thats a while for me. so tomorrow night at danielle's i might jump back in. we'll see. ok well thats all for tonight. happy birthday emily and welcome to the journal world danielle.

~Shout Outs~

Kevin Murray, Minh Jatos, Liz Kaizer, Jen, Emily, David, Danielle, Joe Vitar, Joel, Dave, Jackie, Rachel, Ashley, Jeremy, Jesse, Chris Burgos, Amanda, Marc, Alexis

Hasko for a day...
Today Joe Vitar and I were hasko for the day. I taught her classes today which was fun. In drama 3/4 we did british dialect half of class and free time the second half to write monologues for the variety show auditions. then in drama 1, they did book work for like 30 mins and then i taught the class. HARD CORE. i first showed them my mime from last year and then played a bunch of mime games with them and taught them some of the basics of pantomime. it was awesome, i was totally cool. after i was done, charissa was like hey you should be a teacher...i was like ehhh no, but i'm flattered. i rock. so in musical theatre we started choreographing I Hope I Get It. ugggghhhh. i hate dancing so much. at lunch i got to hear the chorus girls quartet. FUCKING BRILLIANT. minh jatos, i'm mad proud, you sing baritone, thats my part and its the hardest! also i was very impressed with liz kaizers voice. she is very diva (and very cute). ok well in english we did a bunch of crap that wasted my time. after school i came home and did about nothing until rehearsal. at musical theatre rehearsal we finished You Can't Stop The Beat. but she kept us for an extra 15 mins, everyone was annoyed but relieved that the dance is taught. its mad long. ok so after rehearsal i drove kayla home and i went inside and hung out with her for like 15 mins. kayla and I havent had a real talk in a long time and we were way over due. shes a great girl. ok after that i came home. tomorrow is another day being hasko, pep rally, seeing the movie Camp, and Emily's birthday!! Today is actually her birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY!! today is also the 50th anniversay of the frozen dinner. the end.

~Shout Outs~

Charissa, Joe Vitar, Chris Burgos, Liz Kaizer, Minh Jatos, Jessica, Grace, Kayla, Emily, all frozen dinners.

drama day today. in drama 2 and drama 1 i did some aid duties and i got interviewed for the morning announcements about the band Metallica. i've never listened to metallica in my whole life but i BSed it like they were my fav band. i rule. ok in musical theatre, mr. parker came and we did vocal junk with you cant stop the beat. boring. a lot of people dont like mr. parker, i just think he is inefficient and too nice. but whatev, its hasko's dollar. hasko left today for the rest of the week, so that means that joe vitar and I are the replacement haskos!! i get to teach all her classes for thursday and friday and joe vitar does all the grunt work. we rock. today i stayed after school to let mr. locker our other voice teacher in for voice lessons. it was fun. i had my voice lesson too, locker is pretty good, i think that he will help me a lot. i also mailed out my money orders for my RAM for my computer. that was the last part that i needed to order, so now i'm waiting for all the parts to come in the mail. i'm expecting 5 packages in the next like week and a half. i cant wait until i can put my computer together, thats going to kick so much butt. ok well for dinner i went over to emily's house where me, jen, dave, emily, rachel, joe vitar, and joel all ate dinner. we had tacos, they were mad good. me and vitar got to have our private convo finally. i love talking to vitar, he's great. we all fucked around for a while and then we went home. thats about all, tomorrow starts my first day as hasko. thats all for tonight.

~Shout Outs~

JT, Joe Vitar, Joel, Dave, Emily, Rachel

Damn you MetroPCS!
Ok today was an even day, the day when i actually have classes. in drama we read through the variety show, people seemed to like it, but a lot of jokes were lost due to the people who were reading interpretted things wrongs. But everyone was really excited about it. So then in gov't we did some work sheets, but instead i start text messaging nicole and holly. after that in musical theatre hasko splits the class into two group numbers, "I Hope I Get It" and "A Beat Behind", I got thrown in "I Hope I Get It". I don't mind doing it but I wish she'd cast the main parts before she starts making us do these groups because if you get some of the acting roles then you cant be in these group numbers, so its a waste of time for some people. during lunch i started choreographing Your A Good Man Charlie Brown. In English today this guidance councelor came in to talk to us about college. she was so annoying. i couldnt pay attention, so instead i was just text messaging holly all class. the lady was talking about bright future's which doesnt concern me since there is no chance of me staying in florida, so i was just like ugh dont waste my time. after school i went and mailed out some items that i sold on ebay and then tried to exchange my phone at metropcs for a new one. here were my options, pay $10 to get another phone that is the same model as mine or pay $83 to get the upgraded phone. i said PASS! what a rip. The upgraded version is cheaper than what i payed for my phone originally. i hate metropcs, they are not good to me. so after that i came home and went on ebay. i bought the last item i need for my computer!! now all my parts are on their way!! so within the next week and a half they should all be arriving and i'll be able to put my computer together!! SUKI SUKI!! ok so then i fell asleep at like 7pm. then my mom wakes me up at like 7:45 to tell me something and when she woke me up i totally didnt know where i was. i wasnt sure if it was day or night or what time it was or anything. i got up babbling about where am i, what time is it. i was so lost. it was scary, so i went back to sleep and then woke up to the E! True Hollywood Story of Jenna Jameson, which i've seen twice already. so i turned it off, ate some ice cream and came on here. i think i'm gonna go to bed early tonight to avoid taking a nap tomorrow so i dont get disorriented again. tomorrow is my easy day anyway. Oh anyone out there thats board during school, feel free to text message me! i dont do anything else in school anyway and i'd love to chat. ahoi!

~Shout Outs~

Holly, JT, eBay, MetroPCS (damn you)

Alright. I was up until 5am last night talking to holly. we caught up and talked about a lot of stuff, most of it i dont care to share with any of you. I would like to comment on what Steph Co said in her comment from last night's journal. It's not that i'm not giving other people a try, because i totally am, i've been open and whatever for the past 2 months just doing my thing. i meet other girls but none of them meet my standards. not many girls can handle me, not to sound conceided or anything but not many can. i'm very critical and nit-picky and it just takes a special girl to break through all that and frankly no one has been able to do it except for holly. i still love holly, yes. Sometimes i wonder if holly and I will end up together in the end. I dont know, i just dont know. All i know is, that i can look at this at a more mature and grown up view point. since the summer began i think i've done the most growing up than i ever have. so i dont want anyone commenting, yelling at me for things i've said about holly because frankly none of you know how i really feel or know what the circumstances are. Now you all might be getting the wrong idea. i'm not chasing after holly like old times. no no, nothing like that. i just am....well nevermind what i'm doing, what are you doing? ok today i went to office depot with joe vitar and joel to try and exchange my cell phone for a new one, they wouldnt let me do it, told me i had to go to MetroPCS and do it. but the Metro stores are all closed for Labor Day. damn labor day. well after that we went to sport authority and then i went home to do my weekly cleaning lady job. made $65. then i watched "Just Married" it was cute. it had some really funny moments and some really cute moments. i give it 2 1/2 stars out of 5. after that i did my gov't article, surprising i know. i hate gov't and i hate articles. well i know its early to be updating but i had nothing else better to do. so now i leave you with a quote. "Pride is the insecure man's crutch."

~Shout Outs~

Joe Vitar, Joel, The Cast of Just Married

Get this...
today was the first rehearsal of my improv troupe, it went very well. we had it at the amphitheatre in south county regional park which is a PERFECT spot for it. larry and gladys couldnt come which stinks but everyone else was there and it went very well. it only lasted for about an hour. after that me and jen hung out at my house and talked about things. oh, so i had a dream last night. i'm gonna be blunt about this, not use code names and beat around the bush. i had a dream about holly last night, i've been having dreams about her lately. i miss her a lot. i forced myself to push her outta my mind for a while and since my conscious mind wasnt thinking about her, my unconscious mind started to and i woke up really sad. so i IMed her today and we talked for a while and then we were text messaging each other back and forth all night. it was really nice. i never really said goodbye to her when she left for college because i knew seeing her would stir up feelings and she was leaving and i kind of resented her for leaving even though it was for the best. i dunno, i'm really just in a weird place right now. argh i'm such a sap. and a fool. i really want a relationship right now, i totally dont want to hook up with anyone. like i said before, i've passed up opportunities to hook up with girls recently because there is no point. but there is no one in school or in palm beach that i want to date. no one meets my standards. i have high standards to begin with and i was spoiled too, i compare everyone to holly and no one can compare so i'm just stuck. blech. GOODNIGHT!

~Shout Outs~

Holly, JT, Jessica, Ilana, Corey, Dave, Joe Vitar, Joel, Emily, Joey

Ok well today was a looong busy stressful day. it started with the picnic this morning which was ok i suppose. i hosted half of it so i had to do a lot of yelling so my voice got really hoarse and i got really dehydrated. i got to meet some people from other schools. i was a little embarassed though because most of my school was sitting in a pavilion by themselves while the other schools were participating. but at the very end i sat with the boca high sponser and their kids and talked with them. it was fun. one girl i was talking to was like ok well i'm gonna see the show and i'll look for you and i'm like yeah look for justin braun and shes like you're justin braun!?? and i'm like yeah you know me? shes like yeah i've heard about you. i was like wow, i'm famous. haha well after the picnic i went home and FINALLY got my text messaging working! you all can now text me and i can text you back. ok then i was going to go see the movie "Camp" with everyone but kevin murray called to go to his friends house while they get ready to record my accompaniment for charlie brown so i went there instead. his friend lives right near the beach. his house is GORGEOUS! and his room is the size of my living room, its about the size of holly's room if any of you have seen hers, plus he has a bathroom connected to his room and then on the other side of the bathroom an extention to his room with recording studio equipment, which is kick ass. it was fun, kevin was learning the piano part for it tonight and he played it really well, it sounded cool, so the accompaniment should rock. ok after that i went to kyle's house where a bunch of people were there. we all hung out, sang harmony, etc., same things we always do. I'm still having inner conflicts. i've now become very sexually charged from not being with a girl for so long, so i want to hook up but at the same time i dont want to hook up with someone unless it means something. and i cant really find anyone that i have real feelings for, i have a few crushes, some which are totally random, unattainable and weird due to my change in my taste in girls. so things in that department are rough. i just dont know what to do. tomorrow is my first rehearsal for my improv troupe, i dont know what i'm gonna do.

~Shout Outs~

Boca High, Spanish River, Olympic Heights, Kevin Murray, JT, Emily, Rachel miller, Rachel Reaboi, Chris Burgos, Joe Vitar, Joel, Danielle, Kyle, joey, dave

The Inner Struggle
today was my drama day. in drama 2 nicole and sharri came and hung out with me while i made copies and did ticket orders. joe vitar was back from his suspension so i didnt have to stay in the office for musical theatre. i talked to brielle today a little. danielle told me that jeremy told her that i like her. not that i care really. i felt like i was in middle school though when she told me. oh well, i did find out that brielle lives next door to danielle which is cool cuz i'm always at danielles so i can stop by and say hi sometime. but everyone thinks i'm like in love with this girl. i dont know her, i just think she's pretty and i would like to get to know her. sheesh. ok well tonight i went to jen's where there was a mass amount of people, we had chinese food, i baked cookies and brownies, and there was some drama, not involving me though. ok well i had an inner struggle tonight. Its a classic jekyll and hyde moment. i'm jekyll right now but hyde keeps wanting to pop out. i had to use every ounce of will power in me to not let hyde take over, but i was successful and my name is still in tact. although i am really getting lonely and now i'm going to start whining about not having a girlfriend. i was very clingy to girls tonight because i miss being able to just hold someone, so i was just like being like that with people just to feel it. its starting to suck. plus i'm getting mad horny which is when hyde tries to jump out. i dont know how much longer i can go on like this. and i realized that i take out all my stress on eden and i'm a total bitch to her. oh well we worked it out and she gave me a massage, relieved some tension. well i was supposed to get text messaging on my phone tonight and the lady said to wait a half an hour and then it'd work, well that was about 7 hours ago and i still don't have working text messaging, its annoying. NOTHING ever works for me. maybe it'll work tomorrow. i must sleep now though, picnic tomorrow. hope it goes well.

~Shout Outs~

JT, dave, joey, joe vitar, emily, david, amanda blum, eden, danielle, mark, rachel, brielle, joel, larry

Heres the deal, no one really cares about my day so i'm going to talk about my pysche. I had a realization tonight. my taste in girls has COMPLETELY shifted. i used to be attracted to the down to earth, girl next door type but now i've given up that type and gone towards the more pop diva beauty. its very odd. not bad, just odd. also tonight i realized that i still have some slut in me. no i didnt hook up with anyone, i just had some thoughts. i dont want to go back to being a whore, i like what i am now, a respectable guy. but i just realized its still in me. oh well, its dorment right now. Nothing big happened during the day today. Musical theatre rehearsal tonight, i was in hasko's office talking about the variety show for half of it. we talked about a lot, all confidential though sorry! i'm watching National Lampoon's Van Wilder. never seen it before. its pretty good, not hilarious but funny. Tara Reid is in it. i love her. its another one of those movies where the guy and the girl wind up together and make a beautiful couple. i want to be a part of a beautiful couple. I'm not though....yet. maybe tomorrow.

~Shout Outs~

Sheba, JT, Chris Burgos, Dan Sands, Todd, Adam, Joel, Joe Vitar, The Cast of Van Wilder

The Single Life
There was a power outage in the middle of the night last night so i woke up a little late, only like 6 mins late but i have everything planned down to the minute that losing 6 mins is devastating. so i wasnt able to make copies of the officer meeting sheets. ok well all day i was doing tickets. today was my all drama day. i'm almost done with all the group tickets. its madness. Cute drama 2 girl. well her name is Brielle, i dont reallly care who knows, i'm releasing her name to the public now. just tired of calling her cute drama 2 girl. whatev. nothings happened with her, shes got a boyfriend and well i have ticket sales. its hard to get a girl right now cuz i dont really have time for one. i'm always busy, i barely even flirt with anyone. hasko told me this morning that i'm not allowed to have any girls this year. it kind of annoyed me. cuz someone told me that their drama little sister has a crush on me and someone else was like oh all the younger drama girls have crushes on you and then hasko was like NO girls this year justin. and i'm like whaaaat? and she says i like you better when you dont have a girl so no girls this year. i was a little offended. but i dont really care what she says, she doesnt run my life. well after school i came home sent out a money order for another computer part. I only have 1 part left! i bought the processor and CD-RW drive today. overall cost me about $200 for those two parts, which is a GREAT deal considering i got a 2.5ghz pentium 4 and a new sony 52x CD burner. ok well i also took a nap as usual. i now take naps when i come home from school. after that i went to JT's and we worked on more of the variety show script. still didnt finish it, we had to rewrite a whole scene which took us a couple hours. but its good now. ok back to what i was talking about before i went off about my day. girls. i'm not the type to whine about not having a girlfriend, i'm not even like depressed that i dont have one. i look at it more like, i will have one soon and i'm looking forward to it so i'm constantly happy but still anxious. so i really need some love in my life but i'm not sad that its not there. i just need some non platonic affection and not a hook up. i'm tired of those surprisingly. whatever we'll see what happens. Oh i want to welcome Recondite Insight back to the journal world, thats Minh's journal. The End

~Shout Outs~

Old people who call for tickets, Brielle, Mr. Parker, Chris Burgos, Adam, JT, Lance