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2005 15 January :: 7.10 pm
:: Mood: bored
Everyone should do what they say they are going to do, and then nobody would ever get disappointed. Too bad, it never happens...
so, I'm baby-sitting like usual, but that's ok, because I despretly need the money for Cancun, and for other stuff....but the little girl is in bed already, those crazy parents and their early bedtimes!! But anyway..it's only one kid, her sister is gone, so the money isn't going to be much, but it's better than nothing I guess. Kourtney is baby-sitting next door, we went and saw her earlier. The baby over there, spit up all over my leg though, it was gross but I wiped it off and it's dry now, so I guess I'll live. I was gonna be mad but then she giggled and I would have let her spit up on me again cuz it was the cutest thing ever! (actually, prolly not, heh) I'm watching The Osbournes...weird!! the bleeps are kinda annoying, they should just let em' swear! but any way, I'm here till midnight or later, that's like 5 hours, ugh! what am I going to do, watch tv, and play X Box, cuz that's all their really is to do here. Anyway...I'm going on about nothing now....
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2005 13 January :: 1.31 pm
I hate everything right now....all my Cancun money...gone...because of my stupid mistake....ugh!! why when everything WAS going so good, does everything have to go south in one day? uggh!!!
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2005 13 January :: 12.46 pm
ok, I know I did the right thing, and I feel so much better about that, but I am so sorry and scared, this has never happened to me, and my parents don't know and their going to kill me, but I think I'm handling it very well. Like an adult...go me. heh
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2005 13 January :: 12.39 pm
I need to go to the office...right now...and confess....ok...I'm going...
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2005 10 January :: 1.01 pm
ok, so, life sucks, and I don't want to deal with anything anymore, and now I have to come up with $300 in a week, and asking my parents is the last thing that I wanna do. Even taking out a loan from them is really kinda outta the question, I don't even think that they have that much sitting around to use. I guess I'm screwed.
and my computer at home has a virus that won't let us connect to the internet, well, we can connect, but then we can't go anywhere, because the sites are all magically unavailable! huh....so if anyone knows what we can do to fix this let me know, we've contacted the internet server too, and I really don't think that that's the problem. I know more than the rest of my family about computers and I KNOW that it's not the internet server. It's something on our computer. I don't know how to fix it tho, we've ran anti-virus and it doesn't come up with anything, so I don't know, we've also ran some other disks and have had ramdom people my mom knows look at it, but that doesn't do any good. Somebody help!! I'm so sick of not being able to check my e-mail, and going inot my mom's work for homework stuff isn't fun either, anyone have any suggestions?
oh, and regardless of what I say, I still need to hear it from you.
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2005 9 January :: 1.27 pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
GIRLS!! YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!!
ok, he's just not into me. It's better for me to let go and move on, then keep on clinging to what I hoped to be rather than what really is. I'm only hurting myself hoping. It really was great tho, at least I found out now, rather than later when something might ACTUALLY of happened and I would have felt worse than I do now. It really is sad, but I'm glad I came to this conclusion on my own, rather than having to make him say it. It still hurts, but I think I'll live. Guys are cowards, they would rather say anything else but the truth to not hurt our feelings, or to avoid the questions that might actually make us understand and not be stuck in the murky grey areas. At least now all the signs have pointed me here and I can move on from this. Hopefully....but I prolly should talk to you still....UGH!! NO I can't do that...that's what I'm talking about, girls always try to continue to put up with so much shit because we want to hold on, we think we have something great, but really we just keep holding on and get disappointed one time after the other, and yet we STILL try to hold on to that one glimmer of something, saying, oh, he's just REALLY busy, he WILL call...NO....busy is just another word for NOT INTERESTED! I mean, how many times have you waited by the phone for them to call because he said he would, but then never does....yeah..and then you're really disappointed? Yeah, don't do that, if he isn't calling, he's not thinking about you. I'm so glad I'm finding this out now, so I don't continue to waste my time. Oh, and if he wants to be just friends, you should get the hint and actually think, oh, he doesn't want a relationship, he really wants to be JUST FRIENDS, he's just not that into me!! Gosh, how was I ever so stupid, I knew the signs long ago, it was just that gay part of being a girl that made me want to hold on to something, that little thing we have about wanting to be needed, but when he doesn't call, you have to pursue, and make plans, and he doesn't..it means he IS NOT INTO YOU! I mean, men can run our country, but we try to convince ourselves that they are scared or something when it comes to asking us out!! HELL NO!!! If they REALLY were interested and were into you, they would have no problem pursuing you and calling you, and if they really cared you wouldn't have to call them, you wouldn't have to do the asking, they would WANT to call you, even amidst their REALLY busy lives. Between speed dial and cell phones there is no way they couldn't call. Sometimes you even call people from your pants pocket without even meaning to. If they really wanted to call you or see you, they would. No if's, and's, or but's about it. I'm not on his mind. HE JUST ISN'T INTO ME!! How could I have actually held on so long....GOSH! Guys are dumb, and we have to deal with them EXACTLY as they are and take things they say EXACTLY as they say them, not how we want them to be, because that's how they REALLY mean them, that's why we get ourselves into these messes, we hope and convince ourselves that things are different, but they arn't! If he doesn't call you for days at a time, you ARN'T on his mind, so STOP TORTURING YOURSELF, thinking that things just came up, if he wanted to talk to you, or if he was interested, he would have NO problem FINDING time and picking up the phone and calling. SO GIRLS, STOP wasting the pretty on someone and go out there and find the one that NEEDS you, and does the pursuing himself, don't go for someone that you have to chase, because it's simple really, THEY ARN'T INTERESTED!!
Gosh, good thing I realized this young, it's gonna save me a lot of time in the future.
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2005 7 January :: 10.10 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
ok, kids are in bed, only 10 minutes late this time!
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2005 7 January :: 8.53 pm
:: Mood: energetic
My Baby-sitting Adventure
Ok, so I'm baby-sitting right now and the girl, Jordan, got this PS2 game for Christmas and is like Dance Dance Revolution 2 or something and it's soooOO fun!! You have to stand on this big mat with arrows and then a song plays and arrows flash by on the beat and stuff and you have to jump on the arrrows as they go over top of the other arrows at the top of the screen and it's AWESOME!! It gets really hard and you end up jumping all over the place, off the mat and missing all the arrows and you mostly end up outta breath and full of the giggles, at least that's what was happening to us. Then, they have all of this awesome workout equipment, like a treadmill and a bowflex, and any weights you could ever want to lift, so I felt an urge and I ran a half mile(and considering I haven't ran since freshman year) I was proud of myself!(and you should be too Dani!!!!!!!!!) and then I lifted 10 lb. dumbell's and then I attempted the boflex, but that was really hard, no wonder you get results so quickly on it! You have to kill yourself everytime you do it!!! Hahaha, but anyway..I better get back to baby-sitting. (This is better than the basketball game!)
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2005 7 January :: 5.41 pm
:: Music: Holdin' You~Gretchen Wilson
The five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.
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2005 7 January :: 5.32 pm
Oh why do I have to flippen baby-sit EVERY night, and when i think I'll get ONE night off, I get asked that morning, for guess what! MY FREE NIGHT!! and I know I could say no, but I really need the money for Cancun, so i shouldn't complain because it's going to get me on the best trip ever with my best friend but still...it's starting to make me rethink the whole having kids someday thing. Heh. and I have to miss the basketball game and the dance for this, they better pay me good tonight!!!! That's all.
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2005 5 January :: 12.51 pm
:: Mood: confused
I should not have done that, nope, I'm sure that it will never happen again.
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2005 4 January :: 12.43 pm
If I find out that you did something, it's over, no more second chances, and you know..I will find out..not to worry, neither of you can keep a secret, you drop little hints everywhere, because you secretly want people to know. You know it's dumb. This past year I have done nothing but hate you, then I cared so much for you it hurt me to do what I did, but your better now because of that, and I'm sure you forgave me, but after that last thing...and I got so mad, and you swore it would never happen again, if it did...I'm done.
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2004 26 December :: 8.31 pm
:: Mood: happy
Dan, you really are the only person that I have ever come across that made me think "perfect."
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2004 16 December :: 12.29 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
ok, so I just found out some really bad news, and my level of respect for you dropped to about non-existent. Don't expect much from me until this is fixed.
Ugh! I seriously can't believe you! Where did you come from?
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2004 13 December :: 1.07 pm
I KNEW IT, all along, I knew I would never really be able to do it. I'm not a strong enough person.
Now at least when I get the chance to say what I want to say, I'll be able to do it. It's sad that it took this to make me realize it. I am so pissed, and heartbroken, and sad, and every emotion that I can't even explain, I am that too!!!
So, now I know what this feels like.
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2004 10 December :: 1.07 pm
yes everyone, I am in Current Issues and have free time once again, so live with all of the dumb quizzes I'm taking!
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2004 10 December :: 11.06 am
:: Mood: sleepy
I'm so tired. I was up at 4:30 this morning to go down to WZZM 13 and be on for NHS and toys for tots, it was so much fun, then tonight is that basketball game and then the dance, but before I go to the game I have to go over to my uncles house because my cousin Amanda is going to be calling from Kentucky at her base and saying goodbye to everyone, because she gets shipped out to Iraq tonight. It's going to be horrible. This morning, I don't know if I was just not awake or really emotional, but I was telling Alice about it and just starting crying right there, we were on our way to Grand Rapids.
Last night was horrible too. I was really mad at everyone and I just wanted to be left alone. How come when I tell them to leave me alone, that's when they seem to want to be near me and bother me the most. My sister even called me a bitch and told me to get over myself. That DIDN'T help, trust me! So I go to the basement, which is where I go to be by myself, and Stacey comes down there and sits down by me!!! UGH!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!! So then I come upstairs and sit on the couch and continue watching "One Tree Hill" and my dad starts in trying to figure out what's wrong!!! I think he guessed every possible answer, including Dan, and Jon, and school, and friends and everything, except the correct answer. Then he tells me to stop hanging out with whoever was making me act that way!!! UGHGUGHUG!!! If everyone would have just left me alone last night then I would't have acted anyway!! So I can't seem to stop myself, and tell my dad that they were all making me mad and I was just sick of everyone in my family and if they would all leave me alone like I had been telling them all night to do then we wouldn't have a problem!!! And then he knows me too well and knows that he can get to me by doing this, but he goes off on this huge guilt trip about making my family feel bad because they are the ones that will never leave my side and they are the ones that will always be there for me, and I feel terrible because I know that I have been treating them bad all night and I know that I can count on them for anything. So then he tells me to go to my room if I can't act decent and I just went upstairs and cried. I couldn't help it, as soon as Dad starts lecturing I can't hold em' back. I felt terrible, and then I tried calling Dani, but she wasn't home and I felt all alone, because I was(now they were leaving me alone) and I didn't know what to do. So I read my book(Moby Dick) and went to bed. I think tonight is not gonna be too good either. I hope I get to see everyone and have fun. I don't even think I wanna go to the Dance, yeah, it's Holly Hop, big freakin deal, it's not like their going to play any Christmas songs, and it's not like I'm going to dance with anybody, and I'll prolly just be miserable all night, so I don't know why I was even considering going in the first place. I think I just made a decision for myself. Another Friday night at home.....hmmmm.......
I get really mean and say things I don't mean when I'm tired, becasue I was a lot more civil this morning.
Screw you too, I don't even wanna try. I'm lost.
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