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2006 28 March :: 3.15pm
I really don't think things with us are going to work out. Maybe they will but right now I'm having doubts about this whole thing. I'm not doing the whole in between thing again. I really am not looking forward to tonight because I know I'm going to be forced to say things that are really hard for me to say. I really don't have any interest in talking to the kid right now. I would ignore him but it's not going to solve anythinig at all and considering I leave tomorrow, we have some problems we need to fix. We'll see what happens I guess.
I'm going to Dani's grandmas mansion today to stay the night. That should be fun.
I need to go pack though..
I should have learned over the years that good things don't last forever.
So apparently I messed up on my T.
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2006 27 March :: 9.28pm
I’ll admit it got to me
Hearing your voice
It took all I had to just let you talk
And not pick up where we left off
Every night since your goodbye
I hit my knees and closed my eyes
And I pray that you’d come back
Too many tears washed out that bridge
You wanna cross, but baby, it’s too late for that
Last night would’ve been a different story
But the morning sun must’ve done something for me
Because I bet I’d gone the other way
If you’d called yesterday
If you’d called yesterday
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2006 26 March :: 11.57pm
Fate fell short this time.
That was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm sorry.
I know things are a mess but everything will be alright. I promise.
This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How could you say you meant anything different to anyone
Standing alone on the street with a cigarette on the first night
we met
Look to the past and remember and smile
And maybe tonight I can breath for a while
I'm not in this scene I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you.
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2006 26 March :: 6.26pm
get off of it bitch.
you need to stop going after what will never be yours.
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2006 26 March :: 6.22pm
i feel like i need to escape, or i need an escape.
whatever.
so much bullshit. of course my happy little world will come crashing down, what more could be expected?
i'm going to prom with josh.
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2006 24 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: calm
Dear Ashley,
I love you. You're perfect just the way you are, don't ever change for anyone. Not that you would anyway, haha ^_^ You're the best, don't ever forget it. So no matter what, (and you know what I mean) chin up, because someday, you're going to be somebody. Those who couldn't make the time for you now (and you know what I mean) will be kicking themselves when they see who you've become.
You're a star, babe. Let it shine.
<3 M
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2006 23 March :: 6.51pm
Saturday is state, i'm pretty nervous. I have my GVSU music auditions next saturday, so I'll get everything out of the way so I can enjoy my spring break. At this point I don't really care how I do at state, just so I can get it over with.
During the meaps today my english class was combined with a modern lit class. There was this kid who was bugging the shit out of me because he was suppose to be writing a paper, but didn't know how to do it. So I turned around (because of course I wasn't going to do any of the work I was suppose to be doing) and I helped him write his paper. The kid was a junior and didn't even know you could incorporate a quotation from a book into your own sentence. So, I helped him write a couple of paragraphs. He just didn't know how to say what he wanted to say. I bet when he gets his paper back it's better than a C he'll be surprised. It made me wonder just how some people can get so far in our education system and fail so badly. I really did like working with him, however, and it kept me busy for an hour.
Syrinx is going good, and I'm excited for the end of my senior year. The future is getting less scary the farther I travel. That's a good thing, a very good thing.
michelle
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2006 23 March :: 5.35pm
Cant you see?
There's a feeling that's come over me.
Close my eyes.
You're the only one who leaves me completely breathless.
No need to wonder why.
Sometimes a gift like this you can't deny.
I wanted to fly so you gave me your wings and time held it's breath so I could see, yeah you set me free.
When I was alone, you came around.
When I was down, you pulled me through.
There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you.
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2006 22 March :: 6.31pm
OK, nice and quick. Im selling all my paintball shit. if your interested, post here, or call me (915-8445). whoever finds a buyer will get 10 percent of what the stuff gets sold for.
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2006 21 March :: 9.54pm
tonight was rough... i feel drained. nothing matters. i eat because it is there... i was not prepared for this... i don't know how to handel it. i have never had to go through this, and now that i'm right in the middle of it my emotions are all over the place.
i'm not myself tonight. i just sit and don't care.... When i was coming home from class tonight from i didn't sing all the way home!! well until i got to rockford and realized i hadn't been singing to the radio... i love singing to the radio when i'm all by myself.. and i didn't and dindn't even realize it until 25 min. later!! i just kept praying... lord take her.. she needs to go. she is prepared to go... this is where she needs to be... i don't cry infront of people... even more infront of people i don't even know! i just break down at the veteren's home. i couldn't catch my breath. it was horrible. i don't cry, and when i do it gets the best of me... it sucks all my energy out. i don't know how to deal with it... i listen to songs that i don't even like so i won't have to think about it. oh lord just take her... she coudldn't even talk... i'm so use to jokes that when she didn't.. i just broke down.
i called my dad and just cried to him for like 10 min. i get home and we just cried together for another 10 min... i have never seen him cry so hard... I can't even imagine what it is like right now at the home. he is probably bawling. Lord just take her.
it is her time.
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2006 19 March :: 10.18pm
Well this weekend was pretty good. Friday I hung out with Aaron. Saturday I went to Olive Garden and then Elyse, Stacy, and Aaron came over and we went to the musical only to see Dani. Then Aaron came over afterwards and today I hung out with Dani and Stacy.
Stacy is at my house right now. She's sleeping in our guest bedroom lol.
Ohh and I can't forget my story. On Saturday I was at the gas station with Elyse and we were meeting my dad there because he had to give me something and anyways I threw my gum wrapper out my car window and a cop pulled up behind me and walked to my window and was like "what did you throw out the window?" and I was like "umm a gum wrapper" and he goes "do you know that's illegal, a $500 fine, and you could go to jail" and I was like "no, I didn't know that" and then he made me get out and pick it up and then my dad pulls up and at this time Elyse is laughing hysterically and so am I. I couldn't help it. I thought it was amusing. So then my dad was like "what's going on?" and I'm like "well I threw a wrapper out the window *sarcastically*" and my dad was like "God dammit Ashley I always fucking tell you not to throw shit out the window!" and I'm like "umm no you don't dad, you never tell me that" and the cop was debating on whether or not to give me a ticket and my dad was like "give her a ticket, actually give her two of them" and I didn't care if I got one or not because I wouldn't end up paying for it anyways and I have no idea how this works but the cop said since I'm a minor my dad would have to pay for it which doesn't even make any sense to me and then the cop was like "do you pay for your car" and i'm like "no" and he goes "how about your insurance?" and I was like "no" and then he said "how about gas?" and I was like "no" and then he goes "Do you pay for anything? and I was like "nope" and then I started laughing and he goes "it's not funny!" and then Elyse was like "don't you have better things to do besides harassing us, like...solving crimes?" and the cop just looked at her. I'm suprised he didn't arrest her for saying that or something but I couldn't help but laugh. The cop said since he let someone else off the hook today he guesses he'll let me off too so I didn't get a ticket luckily..oh and then the cop pulls up to get gas afterwards and my dad walks to his truck and he gets out all of the trash he has and he walks to the trash can right by the cop and throws all his stuff away. I was like what the hell...way to suck up to the cop. I don't know why my dad told the cop that he always tells me not to throw stuff out the window because he never tells me that and I barely ever do that to begin with. It all makes me laugh. We went through all that because I threw a gum wrapper out my window. Good god..
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2006 19 March :: 5.44pm
If I knew that you were leaving, I wouldn't have waited so long. I would have left so long ago and if there really still was something left to say to you, you'd realize just what is true. How i've been blamed for everything you do, cause it can't be all my fault, it still takes two to break apart the truth. I learn, I still learn. Every single day.
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2006 17 March :: 5.00pm
Today is St. Patricks Day. Do I even know what it is? Not really? I feel like a complete moron right now but I'm not Irish so I don't celebrate it and I know some people do even though they aren't Irish but I don't know what the whole meaning behind it is. I didn't even know it was St. Patricks Day today in the first place and when I got to school and seen everyone wearing green, well let's just say it sorta clicked. Everyone kept pinching me and I was just like fuck off.
I had a pretty embarrassing moment today. Elyse and I were in Seminar and we walked out and we went upstairs so I could turn in something to Mrs. Laidlaw for english and I was carrying my folder with the paper on top which I wrote in pencil and obviously my folder was up against my chest sorta since that's just how us girls carry our stuff and anyways I went to hand her my paper and she was like "what does all this say?" and I'm like "what are you talking about?" and she pointed and then I realized that half of the paper was smeared and I look down and like my whole shirt was covered with...well I don't even know what you call it..pencil smearings haha...it was embarrassing but good thing I had another shirt on under it.
Speaking of english...well I really hate that class. We are reading the dumbest book possiable and our class is almost finished and Kelli and I are still on chapter 3. I can't pay attention and I have no idea what is going on and we have this big test on it and we have to write an essay. School seriously sucks. I'm just going to go to sparknotes and read what happens so I somewhat pass the test.
I guess I'll take this just because everyone else has and it will entertain me for about three minutes.
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [X] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [X] who i had just met
25. [X ] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [ ] at a show.
32. [ ] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert.
34. [ ] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [] in the rain. (I want to though..we'd be like Allie and Noah)
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [ ] under water
45. [] while driving
46. [X] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [x] goodbye forever (I didn't really think it was goodbye forever but I obviously it was)
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [] in an elevator
54. [x] an ex
55. [X] last night.
56. [X] Just today.
Well I guess I should go get ready to go to Aarons tonight. Have a good weekend everyone!
<3 Ashley Megan!!
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.
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2006 16 March :: 12.12pm
nevermind... im not going.
you are UNbelievable.
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2006 16 March :: 8.56am
aww.. we went to the circus last night. it was really cool. i havent been to the circus since i was like 7, and every time it comes to town we always miss it. :) smiles..... what a wonderful night.
tonight's a rampage game. to bad im going by myself.... ahh well.
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