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chelthesmell

:: 2008 11 December :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: Fuck it...

I'm done!
I dont see how something can go from being about David and Mindy and turn into me showing my 'true colors' and apparently being the biggest bitch in the world and losing friends. I just have one thing to say to those of you that this concerns...
Fuck you.
If I'm such a bad fucking person for not putting my nose where it doesn't belong then you can go to hell. Dont talk to me anymore and dont act like your some sort of force to be wrecken with or something because you're not.
I dont need this kind of bullshit in my life.
I'm better than this, I'm better than you, and I'm happy with my life and dont need to worry about what other people or saying because in my case, shit isn't true and never will be true.
I'm happy with or without such idiots in my life...

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box

:: 2008 9 December :: 12.21am

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

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rayray

:: 2008 4 December :: 1.39pm

That was the most nerve racking experience of my life..
Took my civil service test..

I am hoping I passed, not just so that I can apply for a corrections job, but so that I dont have to go through that again..

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allyson

:: 2008 3 December :: 10.30pm

where can I find a password.
I can't remember my password to my "fraggle" journal.

HELP!

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rayray

:: 2008 26 November :: 2.11pm

I'd like to believe that we decide when to wash our hands, or reveal the skeletons that we keep baracaded in our closets.
On our own terms, at the right time, and when necessary.
But in reality that doesn't happen.
Sometimes the past comes whirling in and everything else that mattered completely stops.

..While driving around greenville today, I had all these insightful thoughts that I planned to write. But when I got home I got side-tracked and had to do laundry. Now all those thoughts are barely there..

Crap.

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eddy

:: 2008 21 November :: 7.40am


Things are better. Not like they were before, but still even better in some ways.

I hope things continue to improve. =]

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eddy

:: 2008 18 November :: 1.56pm

OMG OMG OMG

So maybe life is looking up.

Aparently Tim Burton is making an 'Alice in Wonderland' movie. Guess who's going to be the Mad Hatter?

Heck yes.

LOVE IT

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rayray

:: 2008 17 November :: 10.33pm

It's pathetic how I find myself defending why I love my boyfriend after 3 years, to people who know me better than a lot of people.
And they tell me that I'm not happy.
But truth be told, I am the happiest I've ever been.
In high school, I was a train wreck.
I was always depressed, crying over never-meant-to-be relationships, drama ate at me like I was a thanksgiving turkey, and I was stressed out the moment I stepped foot into my house.
I was constantly being told what to do.
And I hated every moment of the life I lived outside of my friends.
I may not hang out with my friends as much as I used too, and those relationships may have grown awkard over the past 3 years.
But I truly am happy.
I finally have someone I love that I can come home to everyday, and wake up to every morning.
It may not be the best of relationships, but I am happy.
After this long, I shouldn't have people who I feel I can trust, telling me that I should have a baby, but not until I get a different boyfriend.
I haven't felt that hurt in awhile.
Many of you feel the same way, but don't judge until you know the whole story.
I shouldn't have to defend my life to others.

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eddy

:: 2008 17 November :: 1.04pm



Fuck the world.

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rayray

:: 2008 14 November :: 10.44pm

finally broke down and went to the doctors wednesday.
sinus AND respiratory tract infection.
lucky me.

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eddy

:: 2008 10 November :: 9.39am
:: Music: The Ladie's Man


So much for things looking up for me.....

Because now I'm doing absolutely fantastic. =] This situation is turning out to be so much better than I could have imagined, and it's nothing like I've ever had before. It's all so new to me, and I'm not sure how to react sometimes, but I wouldn't change a thing. =D

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rayray

:: 2008 9 November :: 11.15am

I feel like I have a lot of emotion to pour out.
But I don't know how to put a lot of it into words.
It's been so long since I have vented any of my emotions.
I think that its because Im gradually getting better at telling Mike how I feel instead of bottling it up, and then just lashing out at him the next time he pisses me off.
Its kind of pathetic that after 3 years I still have a hard time telling him how I feel about certain things.
Most the time I am just trying to spare him the hurt, because I am a harsh bitter person.
I used to blame his daughter for every little thing, and I'd hide out in the bedroom when she'd come over.
But I've overcome that, and I think that I am even coming around to the thought of having kids eventually.

I think I'm growing up..

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rayray

:: 2008 4 November :: 9.11am

So I've basically spent the last day and a half in bed..
I made an attempt at work yesterday. I felt perfectly fine, then all of a sudden I'm sweating profusely, feeling like I am going to vomit, and then I passed out.
I've been shakey, cold, then extremely hot.
The littlest movement makes my head throb so bad I start balling.
My head hurts even more when the lights are on.

I feel like ass, and look just as worse.

My sister, Derrick, and Seth are coming up in a couple of weeks.
Im really excited about that because I miss them all..

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eddy

:: 2008 3 November :: 6.36pm
:: Music: Chevelle - Panic Prone


The old problems still stick around.

But I think things are looking up for me.

I'm hopeful, at the very least.

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chelthesmell

:: 2008 31 October :: 1.45pm

Thank goodness for the weekend...!
=)

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rayray

:: 2008 22 October :: 6.16pm

So after a lot of discussing, we have highly considered moving to Wyoming..
The final decision isn't going to be up to me, because I am not the one that has a child.
Also, we are looking at getting an english bulldog puppy.
Im still waiting for my civil service date.
And at this rate, I don't think I am going to get in to take it until december.

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box

:: 2008 12 October :: 2.38am

so i think ive hit rock bottom.. i was just in jail for the same thing ive been doing for along time.. and it seems like everytime i get close to paying off my fines and driving legit.. something happends..

my car is illeagle.. no surprise there
i sleep on a couch
work doesnt give me enough hours..
my life has no direction


and im alone..

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rayray

:: 2008 27 September :: 8.51pm

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rayray

:: 2008 25 September :: 9.13pm

Im headed to Ohio in the morning.
My Grandma is in the hospital..
I hope my cat survives this weekend.
And I am really really excited about meeting my nephew!
There is a picture of a picture of Seth Ryan! He is absolutely perfect, and adorable.

Photobucket

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Upchuck

:: 2008 24 September :: 11.11pm

What is wrong with this picture?

A "compassionate conservative" at the start of his presidency, George Bush is now asking us to socialize the banking sector. I wouldn't be suprised if Canada was planning to invade because of some crazy domino theory that the rest of the free world will slip into a quasi-communist system.

But seriously folks. This is a little prepostrous and hard to swallow. McCain seems to be playing right into it. What if this gets worse? Then are we just going to suspend the election? Is it just me or does this have the potential to unravel the American government, and not jus tthe American economy? I guess it doesn't matter because after the bill pass they will be one and the same I guess.

And by the way, I do not see how this is going to affect me. I guess I can understand how a slow down in financial markets is going to impact investor confidence. I can also see how the reduction in credit is going to force business to not invest in costly new projects with a ton of risk. I can see that this will slow down "progress." But will it really matter? Not to me I don't think. As long as there is a job, then I will be okay. Now if were talking Great Depression proportions, then we might not be okay. But if we let things get that bad, then shame on our government. I know, it sounds kind of ironic. Not wanting the government to do something now, but wanting them to step in if it gets worse. Yes, it makes perfect sense in my little libertarian train of thought. This is why regulation is good. To prevent these kinds of things. We need a 21st Century Teddy Roosevelt. I'm sorry, McCain, you are not it. Maybe Palin, but her business suits scare me and make me think that all she would do for domestic security was wag her finger at a gun toting Iranian cab driver. It would be the worst pr mess since someone landed on an aircraft carrier declaring total victory.

Wall Street has no guilt and no shame. That is why I have no guilt and no shame. These guys should be sent to Wyoming, or Nebraska, or wherever (not Iowa because they get to vote for president there first, we don't want to give them anything ressembling power) to live out their days farming corn and soy beans. Then we should take all their private money and use it to bail out the firms that they've run into the ground. And then give ownership of those firms to the people who's mortgages are owned by those firms so that they are not getting screwed for missing a month's payment.

Then and only then can we turn our heads and watch "It's a Beautiful Life" on TV.

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rayray

:: 2008 21 September :: 10.51am

SETH RYAN DECKER WAS BORN THIS MORNING AT 4:51 AM.

WEIGHED 7LBS 15 OZ
20 INCHES LONG..

WHEN I GET PICTURES I WILL POST THEM AS SOON AS POSSIBLE..

i am finally an aunt! :)

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Upchuck

:: 2008 18 September :: 6.39pm

RSS in Plain English
poop

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rayray

:: 2008 14 September :: 8.36pm

So my nephew has roughly 19 days before he enters this world.
And I am so flippin' excited, I couldn't even begin to explain.
And I have a cat now. And she is so flippin' adorable..
I love her to death.
She cuddles with mike and I when we are sleepin'..

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Upchuck

:: 2008 8 September :: 7.39pm

What gives the Supreme Court to hear cases from the individual states?
Today we take for granted the appeal process in our legal system. Although the Supreme Court hears only 3% of its cases appealed from state courts it is still understood in our legal fabric that the Supreme Court is the highest court in the land. Unlike today, at the founding of our federal system the Supreme Court did not automatically have the authority to hear appeals from state courts.

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rayray

:: 2008 5 September :: 8.09pm

So we are all moved into the house.
I get to get a kitty cat!
But we just have to agree on one before I get one.
I want an orange and white one.

I have alltel internet!
And no cable tv until the 15th..

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